love of life

Lin Zexi slowly opened his eyes, the sky outside the window was overcast, and it was hard to tell whether it was dusk or dawn.He habitually reached out and groped by the pillow for a long time, but he didn't find the phone.He propped himself up on his elbows and wanted to sit up, but he only exerted a little force, but his whole body seemed to be falling apart, and he couldn't exert any strength at all.He lay flat on the bed, recalling little by little what happened last night.He covered his face with his hands and rubbed it back and forth, but the memory became clearer.

The door was pushed open, and the bright light from the living room shone in. Gu Ming's tall figure stood against the light, and the shadow dragged to the window. "Are you awake? I'll bring you food."

He couldn't see Gu Ming's expression, only heard his low and soft voice, which seemed a little cautious.

Lin Zexi asked, "What time is it now?"

"07:30 p.m., it's getting dark soon."

He tilted his head and thought for a while and said, "I slept all day?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't expect this to happen." Gu Ming said softly with his head lowered.

With the light coming in from the living room, he only now noticed that the sheets and quilts had all been changed, and he also changed into the pajamas that were pressed at the bottom of the closet.The strange yet familiar pain behind him made him understand why he apologized.He only vaguely remembered what happened at the beginning, although he was forced, his body didn't hate him.But Gu Ming was young and inexperienced after all, and later the situation gradually got out of control, and he gradually lost consciousness halfway through.

He didn't speak, and didn't know what to say.He didn't blame him, in fact, he didn't care much about this kind of thing long ago, it's just that he was inconvenient with a wound on his body.

He sighed softly and said, "help me go to the bathroom."

"Okay." After speaking, Gu Ming walked to the bed in two steps, and he stretched out his hand to ask Gu Ming to help him.Unexpectedly, Gu Ming directly lifted the quilt and hugged him horizontally.When he got up and pulled the wound behind him, he let out a muffled grunt, trying hard to restrain his expression of pain.Gu Ming felt it, and his steps became lighter.Lin Zexi supported the washbasin and stood still, "It's ok, I'll do the rest myself." After speaking, he reached for the faucet of the bathtub.

"Do you want to turn on the water to take a bath? Let me help you." Gu Ming turned on the faucet before him, picked up the towel next to him to clean the bathtub.

"No, I can do it myself, you go out." He leaned against the wall and said.

"Let me do it, it's not convenient for you to move now..." Gu Ming hurriedly said.

"Can you go out, please?" He said coldly, with a stiff tone.Only then did Gu Ming realize that the atmosphere was not right, and when he turned his head to look, his face was gloomy and displeased.

"Well, be careful when you're alone in there, don't overfill the bath water. And..." He took out an ointment from his pocket and said, "I've applied this to you before. Twice, remember to use it after you wash it, if it’s inconvenient for you, just call me..."

Lin Zexi's expression didn't change, but Gu Ming lowered his head halfway through his speech, and his voice became softer.Seeing that the other party didn't respond, Gu Ming put the ointment on the side of the washbasin, "I'll go out first if you don't need my help. Don't lock the door. If you call me for something, I'll come right over. Then I'll go and prepare something for you first." .”

"Porridge, vegetables and fruits are fine, nothing else is needed." Lin Zexi said succinctly.

"How can I do that? You were hospitalized with anemia just now. You need to supplement your nutrition. I cooked pork ribs for you, and..." Gu Ming said to himself, but was abruptly interrupted by Lin Zexi.

"How do I eat like this now?"

Gu Ming was stunned for a moment, then realized immediately, and asked timidly: "Then don't eat meat, can you just drink soup?"

Lin Zexi turned his back and slowly walked over to test the temperature of the bath water, and didn't intend to talk to him.Gu Ming left the bathroom with a look of annoyance, worrying about the dinner.

Resisting the severe pain behind him, Lin Zexi lay down in the bathtub, as if burying himself in the warm clouds, his body and mind were completely relaxed, and the pain was relieved to some extent.At this time, the desire in his body began to wake up again. The body that hadn't throbbed in the past two or three years became sensitive and thirsty again because of yesterday's accident.He stretched out his hands and rubbed his temples, he was at a loss for this familiar yet unfamiliar desire, he couldn't help but cursed in his heart: Everyone's scars are healed and they forget the pain, this injury hasn't healed yet, why forget the pain? wrote.It's really useless.

The hot air filled the bathroom, and the hot and humid air soon made him feel dizzy.Just when he was feeling drowsy, there was Gu Ming's knock on the door. "Hey, are you okay? If you don't make a sound, I'll push the door open and go in."

He cheered up and replied: "It's okay, I'll be fine soon." After finishing speaking, he emptied the water in the bathtub, and then stood up cautiously holding the faucet.Just when he was about to step out of the bathtub, the soles of his feet slipped, and he fell backwards, his shoulders hitting the edge of the bathtub heavily.

Gu Ming stood outside the door and waited quietly, only to hear a bang, he opened the door and walked straight in.I saw him crouching in the bathtub, his lips tightly shut, his brows and eyes all wrinkled, and his right hand covering his left arm.

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" Gu Ming walked over and squatted beside the bathtub, not daring to reach out to touch him easily.

He closed his lips tightly, wanting to wait for the pain to subside for a while before answering.Seeing that the other party remained silent, Gu Ming became anxious, "Did you fall? I'll call an ambulance."

"Don't." He finally endured the pain and popped out the word, took a deep breath and said, "It's okay, there should be no bone injuries, so you don't need to go to the hospital."

"You're in such pain, how do you know you didn't hurt your bones? You have to go to the hospital." Gu Ming stretched out his hand to support his uninjured right arm, but realized that the other side was not fully clothed. mid-air.

"I just know. Stop messing around and help me back to my room."

Gu Ming opened the cabinet in the bathroom and found a bath towel inside, put it on him without saying a word, and carried him back to the room.He gently put him on the bed, covered him with the towel, and took a look at the wound on his left arm. It was as big as a small bowl, with a purple-red color in the middle, and a blue color gradually spread around it.He held his left arm with his left hand, tried to bend the elbow with his right hand, and then pressed the upper arm bone lightly. "Does it hurt? It looks fine. There should be no bone damage. But it's better to take a picture."

"No, I know." Lin Zexi said.

"Don't be brave, okay?" Gu Ming was very upset that he didn't care about his body so much.

"No, I really know." After he finished speaking, he looked up at Gu Ming, seeing that the other party still looked suspicious, and then said, "Did you see those old injuries on my body? I have been injured so many times. , I have become a half-doctor too. It’s all right, the bruises will disappear, and the pain will disappear in about a week, and it will disappear completely in a month. Go to the TV cabinet in the living room and get Yunnan Baiyao Spray Let's deal with it briefly first." He spoke rationally and objectively, very convincingly, making it irrefutable.Thinking about it carefully, I feel sad.For him, the words "become a doctor after a long illness" have become a doctor after a long time of injury.

Gu Ming took the spray, and under his guidance, he used his little experience in dealing with trauma in the basketball team to simply treat the bruises, "How is it? Is there any discomfort? Did you hit your head?"

He shook his head and said, "No, I deliberately protected my head when I fell, only this injury on my arm. Help me take the clothes from the bathroom."

Now the two finally realize that he is naked at the same time, he is still generous, but Gu Ming is not so natural.When Gu Ming went to the bathroom to get his clothes, he saw that the ointment he had given was still lying beside the sink, so he picked it up.When handing the clothes to him, he said: "There is still this ointment, you still remember to apply it, if it is inconvenient...you can call me...to help you." The simple sentence was stunned. Let Gu Ming break it into three halves, and finally finished speaking, put the pajamas and ointment on the bed, and looked down at the floor sideways.After waiting for a few seconds, seeing that he didn't reply, he turned around and left the room as if fleeing.

Zexi looked at the back of running away a little bit dumbfounded. Is this the same person as the one last night?Yesterday he looked like a big wild wolf, why did he suddenly become a little white rabbit today?He smiled and skillfully treated the wound and put on his clothes.

Ten minutes later, Gu Ming came in with dinner, a bowl of chicken soup rice, a plate of cold cucumber, only soy sauce, vinegar and sesame oil.

"Let's make do with it tonight, tell me what you want to eat tomorrow." Gu Ming handed him the bowl and chopsticks and said.

"Just light, you can eat anything." Actually, he didn't have any appetite at all, but he managed to pull himself together and ate half a bowl of rice.

"Are you sleepy now? I slept all day today, so it might be difficult to fall asleep at night. What do you want to do? I'll accompany you." Gu Ming asked.

"There's nothing to do, just lie down and rest for a while." He leaned against the head of the bed and said.

"Then let me chat with you for a while. What do you want to talk about?"

Lin Zexi was silent for a while, and said without warning: "Your curiosity about men was satisfied last night. I still want to advise you, if you still have a choice, find a woman and live a good life. The road of homosexuality is too Don't make a decision lightly."

Gu Ming's expression suddenly became extremely serious, "I'm not curious, and I have no choice. If I hadn't lost my temper and lost control last night, I wouldn't have caused you to become like this. You don't have to accept me, but please don't doubt my feelings."

Lin Zexi looked at his childish face, and the firmness on it made him mature a lot.He sighed softly and said, "You know my past. I was in a deep relationship, I was in prison. To tell you the truth, in prison..." He paused, took a deep breath He went on to say: "I have been raped and raped, and every scar on my body has a past that I can't bear to look back on. Even if you really like men, you deserve better. You are young and handsome, and you have a bright future. There's no need to waste your youth on me." He said calmly, lowering his head slightly, not wanting Gu Ming to see his flushed eyes.

Gu Ming's voice was deep and firm, suppressing the intense emotional shock in his chest, and said word by word: "I said before, I don't like women, I don't like men, I just like you. What I like is you now , I even like the marks left on you by the pain before I knew you. I don't mind even the entanglement between you and Jiang Yu, because I didn't recognize my own thoughts at that time, and I didn't know how to cherish you. But from now on, I will not let you suffer any more, because you are mine."