say love

When Xiao Fang returned to the home where he and Shen Yan lived together for less than three months, he suddenly felt sad.

When Shen Yan left, he only took away a few changes of clothes and a few books that he had originally, and the things he bought for him before, except for the mobile phone, Shen Yan kept almost all of them.

At that time, Xiao Fang didn't pay much attention to it, and didn't carefully distinguish what Shen Yan took away, but he just thought that the other party would come back soon anyway, and it didn't matter if he didn't take it.

Xiao Fang recalled the fierce tearing between them the night before Shen Yan left, his own indifference and stubbornness, and Shen Yan's weeping face. Only then did he finally realize that Shen Yan at that time was She had the intention of breaking up with him.

"Why? Why?" Xiao Fang kept asking himself this question in his heart.

Du Zichen was so angry that he was so angry that he came to the door every three days to block him, asking about Shen Yan's whereabouts, "I know, but I won't tell you what kind of bad luck happened to Shen Yan. Everyone bullied him like this."

"Tell me, I am sincere to him, I just want to be with him." Xiao Fang also went all out, anyway, he was not thin-skinned.

"Go, go, go, if you don't go, I'll call the police." Seeing Xiao Fang's faceless face, Du Zichen was extremely depressed, "Xiao Fang, Shen Yan is a living person, not your property, he has his own plans, I won't tell you without his consent."

"You are so relieved that he is outside alone, how will he deal with the unfamiliar environment, and what will he do if he is sick?" Xiao Fang refused to let go.

"He has someone to take care of himself, and it's no worse than yours. Just let him relax, okay, I beg you brother, you will affect my life very much." Du Zichen was very upset, although he knew Shen After Yan left, he would inevitably be harassed, but he really didn't expect Xiao Fang to be so persistent.

"You must be in contact with him, please give me his contact information." Xiao let out a sigh of relief, "He won't reply to WeChat, and he can't get through the phone, I just want to know where he is, at least I can rest assured. "

Du Zichen shook his head, "I'm sorry, I only occasionally contact him on WeChat, and there's nothing I can do if he doesn't reply to you."

"Then when you log on to WeChat, can you also send me up?" Du Zichen felt that if Xiao Fang was given a tail, he would be able to stand up and shake it immediately.

"No." Du Zichen stopped talking and closed the door decisively, keeping people out.

There was no other way, so Xiao Fang had no choice but to calm down and evacuate temporarily, thinking about blocking people again someday.

After tossing and turning for nearly two months, it was almost the end of the year, and Du Zichen didn't say anything, which made Xiao Fang feel depressed. Fang Wei and the others were very worried about him, but they didn't know how to persuade him, after all, the two of them looked a little different There is no room for redemption.

Behind his back, Chen Hao raised his thumb and said, "I've convinced this kid, Shen Yan, to leave as soon as he says it. It's really heartless."

Fang Wei disagreed with him, "I don't think Shen Yan is that kind of person. If he was really ruthless, he would not leave the third child. I was afraid that he didn't want to drag him down, so he made this choice."

Ji Xiaoxiao also agreed with him, "And I don't think Shen Yan is happy, at least the few times I saw him, he was always preoccupied."

"But the third brother really has nothing to say to him." Lu Ling felt very sorry for Xiao Fang, "It's always too much to just leave without saying goodbye."

Just as Ji Xiaoxiao was about to refute him, she stopped after thinking about it. It's useless to talk more about emotional matters.

However, she would always think of the quietness and calmness of that boy sitting under the ginkgo tree when she first met Shen Yan last year, and then think of his bewilderment and helplessness when they met later, she couldn't help but sigh in her heart that the road of love between these two people was bumpy. One went far away without knowing where he was going, and the other was in a daze and melancholy every day.

But Xiao Fang didn't give up just now, he would still block Du Zichen whenever he had a chance, and try to get a little bit of Shen Yan's recent situation out of his mouth. Although Du Zichen was very annoyed at first, his attitude gradually softened, just because he agreed. Shen Yan would not reveal his situation, so Du Zichen could only say "sorry" to Xiao Fang.

But Xiao Fang was not discouraged. He would send a lot of WeChat messages to Shen Yan every day. Apart from the routine greetings, he seemed to be chatting more often, saying what he did today, what problems he encountered or what he saw again. Which interesting person waits, he will also tell Shen Yan that he misses him very much, and also wants to know if Shen Yan is doing well, does his stomach still hurt?

"Xiaoyan, I want to say sorry to you. It was because I forcibly suspended your work that I didn't consider your feelings."

"Xiaoyan, I never feel that you are a drag. Every time I encounter troubles outside, when I go back to see you, my mood becomes very calm. I like being with you."

"Xiaoyan, you are not an insignificant person to me. Because of you, I feel at home again."

"Xiaoyan, believe me, I don't want to restrain and restrict you, but I'm with you."

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Shen Yan listened to every one of Xiao Fang's messages, and even later, listening to Xiao Fang's voice messages every night became Shen Yan's must-have homework before going to bed.

In fact, after Shen Yan arrived in England, he really avoided the relationship with Xiao Fang at first, he always subconsciously reminded himself not to think about this person.

Fortunately, the first days were very fulfilling. My aunt's family treated him very well. A few days after I went there, I held a small family party to let him get acquainted with the environment and the friends around me. Then my aunt was responsible for taking him around to play.

Also in the process of playing, he found that in the UK, public facilities for the disabled are very well-established, such as traffic lights, there are reminders for the blind, and there are Braille on the medicine boxes, and unlike in China, the disabled in the UK are very Common, but these people did not seem to have his usual embarrassment or uneasiness.

"Xiaoyan, disabled people are no different from ordinary people. Disability is neither a crime nor a fault, so you really don't need to belittle yourself." Uncle Charlie said to him. Uncle Charlie has stayed in China for nearly ten years and speaks Chinese very well. .

Little Charlie also took Shen Yan to the London University of the Arts, where he was studying, to experience the atmosphere of a world-renowned university, introduced friends to him, and invited him to a concert...

All these experiences brought different experiences to Shen Yan, and made him discover for the first time that blind people can live wonderfully like normal people.

He began to constantly reflect on himself, whether he was too self-pitying in the past, because of those bad experiences, he was full of pessimistic emotions towards life, and then let these emotions affect his current life, and also affect his feelings for Xiao Fang.

Only then did he go back and think carefully about all the things that happened after the two met, and finally had to admit that Xiao Fang is different from himself, he is almost a dual existence of a lover and a family member, no matter what kind of situation he is in. Under the circumstances, the first thing I think of is this person. The helping hand he extended in times of crisis, and the careful care in daily relationships have been deeply imprinted in my heart.

Every night, when he was reading Xiao Fang's messages, he would also think about it. After all, Xiao Fang is braver in expressing his emotions, and he can speak out what is in his heart without fear. What about himself?Do I have to be so dazed and at a loss to escape when I face love?

Shen Yan's entanglement didn't last long. When New Year's Day approached, he finally mustered up all his courage and sent Xiao Fang a voice message on WeChat: "Brother, Happy New Year."

But he didn't know that this five-character message made Xiao Fang feel like fireworks were going off for a moment: he sent a message, he contacted me, and he finally stopped running away...

The author has something to say: the past few months have not only been Xiao Fang's search for Shen Yan, but also a period of time for the two of them to find their inner true selves...