say love

Ever since Xiao Fang's mother left in the afternoon, Shen Yan was thinking, if he wasn't so useless, if he was healthy and excellent, would Xiao Fang not be in such a difficult situation as he is now?In other words, even if the future is difficult, he can stand side by side with the opponent and overcome these difficulties together, instead of just hiding behind Xiao Fang and letting the opponent resist the wind and rain by himself.

Then what is he and Xiao Fang doing like this?

Maybe in Xiao Fang's eyes, at least for now, they should be regarded as lovers, but Shen Yan can't agree with it anyway.

Xiao Fang and his relationship were not equal from the beginning, Xiao Fang is the master, and he needs to rely on and rely on each other, although he doesn't like this, he doesn't want to be a burden and drag on anyone, especially Xiao Fang, but In the face of this unequal relationship, he is helpless.

For example, Xiao Fang was worried about his health, so he didn't let him go out to work, but if he stayed at home like this all the time, with no source of income and no skills, then one day, Xiao Fang would say "Shen Yan" to him. , you go", Shen Yan didn't know what he should do then?

Taking ten thousand steps back, even if that day will not come, but according to the current momentum, the better Xiao Fang treats him, the more uneasy he will be, and he will always guess how long Xiao Fang will keep being kind to him , a month?a year?Or ten years?What about ten years from now?After all, no one can guarantee what will happen in ten years, right?

Having been with Xiao Fang for so long, Shen Yan naturally knew that the other party was sincerely giving, and he never thought that Xiao Fang was really willing to disclose their relationship with his family. He couldn't say he was not touched by this.

But besides being moved, Shen Yan also knew that he couldn't be so selfish, and tied this person by his side in the name of a couple or love, because Xiao Fang deserved better, and he didn't want the other party to bear the burden of losing his family because of him. risk.

What's more, he is too insecure. The better Xiao Fang treats him, the more he will be afraid of losing. If he can't pass the test in his heart, then he and Xiao Fang have no future. Xiao Fang has paid for him. After so much, if that day really comes, it will be too unfair to Xiao Fang.

So it's time to leave, at least leave before things get unstoppable, as time passes, the relationship will slowly fade, and Xiao Fang will start a new relationship.

After all, in this world, there is no one who can't live without someone, just like when he was able to pick up a knife for Chen Wenchuan and make him relieve a ray of pain that he couldn't erase from the bottom of his heart, but now that he left him, he was still alive.

Shen Yan sighed softly, covered his face with cotton wool, and after a long time, his red eyes came out of it, and then reached out to pick up the mobile phone on the small bedside table.

"Auntie, it's me."

"Xiaoyan, what's the matter, what happened?" Liu Mei's voice was slightly puzzled on the other end of the phone.

"No, it's... Auntie, I've thought about what you said. I'll live with you for a few months, is that okay?" Shen Yan's voice showed a trace of uneasiness.

"It's great that you can figure it out." Sensing the lack of confidence in Shen Yan's tone, Liu Mei said quickly, "Don't worry, Xiaoyan, everything has my aunt. Charlie and I very much welcome you to stay here for a while."

"Okay." Shen Yan's eyes blinked red again.

The next afternoon, Xiao Fang came over to make dinner for Shen Yan again, and brought him good news, "Fang Wei has been promoted to be a father, and I have a godson." After finishing speaking, Xiao Fang said "hehe". I am happy with that silly.

"Have you been to see Sister Xin?" Fang Wei once helped Xiao Fang find him, Shen Yan was also happy when he heard the news.

"Well, I went to the hospital this morning to take a face-to-face with the boss, and I knew that the mother and child were safe, so I gave a red envelope and left." Seeing Shen Yan's puzzled expression, Xiao Fang explained: "Giving a baby is very hard. Rest, it's inconvenient for us a group of elders to be there, we agreed that we'll go drink together after our godson's full moon."

Only then did Shen Yan nod his head in understanding, and belatedly asked: "Us?"

Xiao Fang smiled "haha" and reached out to hug Shen Yan on his lap, "Of course it's us, I'm Fang Xiaodoubao's godfather, and you are the godmother."

"I'm not a woman, so I shouldn't be a godmother." Shen Yan muttered, but in his heart he was thinking about what to give Fang Wei from Full Moon Wine.

Seeming to see what Shen Yan was thinking, Xiao Fang lowered his head and kissed his earlobe, "Don't worry, I've already prepared the gift, as long as you attend with me when the time comes."

Then he said: "The wedding between Chen Er and Xiaoling is the same, you have to be with me, Xiaoyan, I can't give you a marriage certificate like them, but I hope you can be with me at this moment around."

These words made Shen Yan a little guilty, he lowered his head and hid his face in front of Xiao Fang's chest, as if shy, at least Xiao Fang didn't find anything wrong with him at the time.

Because Xiao's mother has never returned to her hometown, and she is very clingy to Xiao Fang, she often follows him to Yelanshan, so Xiao Fang can only focus on her for the time being, and is busy "fighting wits and courage" with her all day long. Although Yan made phone calls every day and chatted on WeChat every day, in order not to want his old mother to harass Shen Yan again, Xiao Fang usually found time to go there once every two or three days.

When he came again, Xiao Fang discussed with Shen Yan again, in this case, it is better to directly explain the relationship between the two to Mother Xiao, but in the end, Shen Yan rejected it.

"What are you afraid of? Do you not believe that I can handle all of this?" Xiao Fang's hand tightly clutched Shen Yan's arm, which hurt a little, Shen Yan pulled it with his hand, but did not push it away.

"Xiao Fang, you hurt me." Shen Yan said a little wronged, his eyes turned red.

It was only then that Xiao Fang realized how much effort he had used, and hurriedly let go of his hand. The place on Shen Yan's arm that had been gripped and turned white quickly turned red.

Xiao Anxin was indeed angry. Although he was not "tall, handsome and rich", it was not difficult to find a boyfriend who was better than Shen Yan.

The two of them have known each other for a year, and he thought that he treated Shen Yan sincerely, but he didn't expect that Shen Yan is still denying the relationship between them. Every time this time comes, he always thinks, Shen Yan Is your heart made of stone, and it won't warm you no matter how you cover it?

"I'm sorry, it's my problem. I'm sorry." Shen Yan lowered his head, but kept saying sorry. Xiao Fang was already very annoyed by Xiao's mother. The low stool next to the sofa was kicked out, and with a loud "bang", the low stool hit the partition, directly hitting a big gap in the partition.

"Shen Yan, do you really understand what the hell is going on? I am sincere to you, why can't you accept me happily, why do you have so many messy thoughts?"

Xiao Fang erupted suddenly, making Shen Yan tremble with fright. It was the first time he lost his temper with him after knowing each other for so long, but Shen Yan couldn't say anything except "I'm sorry". Unable to pass his own test, in the end, he had no choice but to hug Xiao Fang from behind with some trembling, and then groped to untie the other's belt with his hands.

At the end of that day, Xiao Fanghe tormented him to death like crazy, even for a moment, Shen Yan felt that he would never be able to see the sun of tomorrow again, well, he couldn't see it at all, but this feeling was really shocking. people fear.

Shen Yan didn't know when Xiao Fang left, he just fell into a coma until Sister He came to clean up at noon the next day.

Every time Sister He came, Shen Yan would usually sit on the sofa, but when she came in today, she didn't hear anything. She pushed the bedroom door and called "Xiao Shen" softly, but there was no sound, and went Thinking that someone had gone out, he took the spare key and opened the bedroom door, ready to clean it together.

Opening the door, she first saw the T-shirt and shorts that were thrown away on the ground, and then found that Shen Yan was still lying on the bed, she immediately said a little embarrassedly: "Sorry, I thought you weren't home."

After saying this, she didn't hear Shen Yan's answer for a long time. Sister He knew that he was not in good health, so she didn't care to avoid suspicion at this time, so she hurried forward to check, only to find that Shen Yan's face was flushed, as if he had a fever .

"Xiao Shen, Xiao Shen, wake up." She gently pushed Shen Yan, and Shen Yan's bruised shoulders were exposed under the slipped thin quilt, which made her heart tighten.

Shen Yan was woken up by Sister He, and in a daze remembering that he was naked, his face turned even redder. He opened his mouth and said in a hoarse voice after a long time: "Sister He, you go out first."

"Okay, okay, Xiao Shen, you have a fever, get up slowly, why don't you call Mr. Xiao." Sister He said with a frown.

"Okay, you can clean the outside first, I'll call you later." Shen Yan was thankful that he couldn't see, otherwise he really didn't know how to face Sister He.