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Xiao Fang and the others ate and drank well at the party, but Shen Yan didn't have such a good taste alone.

After seeing off Xiao Fang, Shen Yan first picked up the unpacked blind stick on the coffee table and tried it on his hands. It felt very good and light. It was better than the 15.9 free shipping that Du Zichen bought for him. how many times.

Money is really a good thing, you get what you pay for, and you have made money.

Putting down his blind stick, he touched the fruits Xiao Fang brought again. There was a melon he didn't know what it was, two big bunches of grapes, and a few apples, all of which he liked to eat. Seeing these, Shen Yan said I feel that my mood seems to be better.

After putting all the fruits in the refrigerator, the clock had passed 05:30, and Shen Yan began to prepare his own dinner.

In fact, it is said that he can take care of himself, but after all, Shen Yan is different from ordinary people. What he can cook by himself is just some simple meals. Fortunately, most of them use electricity now, so they won't burn their hands directly.

Heat the water in the pot by measuring with your hands. After listening to the water boiling, put a handful of vermicelli and cook for a few minutes, beat an egg and add some salt, and then throw in a few washed vegetable leaves, a simple dinner It's out of the pot.

Even though he was still suffering from a cold and his appetite was not very good, Shen Yan still tried his best to eat a large bowl of soup and water. At the end of the meal, the tip of his nose was slightly sweating, and his usually pale face was also full of redness. A little rosy, and the whole person looks fresh.

With enough food and water, Shen Yan didn't tidy up in time as usual, but directly slumped on the sofa. In fact, he has been in a low mood for the past few days, not only because of the cold, but more because of his confidence in his future. Without any confidence, no matter how much he thought and calculated, his heart was always full of fear.

When the accident happened, he had only been in high school for one year, and for the next two years, he spent almost all of it in the hospital. After he was discharged from the hospital, he moved to his current residence, and slowly got along with his former classmates and friends. He had lost contact, so apart from Du Zichen, he really didn't have any close friends.

Just like right now, he really wanted to make a call and chat with someone for a while, but he hesitated for a long time with his hand on the phone, but he didn't know who to call it to. Zichen had already helped him too much, and Shen Yan didn't want to let himself Even if his negative emotions affect him, Du Zichen is not having a good time after all.

In the end, Shen Yan still didn't dial the phone, he threw the phone aside, hugged the pillow, curled himself into a ball, and suddenly started crying in a low voice.

In fact, Shen Yan is not a particularly fragile person on weekdays, except for that one time, he was a little hysterical and crazy, which almost cost his life. Most of the time, he is very restrained, calm, and doesn't cry too much.

I don’t know if it’s because of the smell of noodles this evening that reminded him of his former home, or because the phone call that he couldn’t make made him realize that he was extremely lonely. In short, the more he thought about it, the more sad he felt. .

Slowly, he sat up straight and "stared" at the position of the fruit knife on the coffee table. The knife seemed to have some magical power, calling him.

"Pick it up, pick it up, no relatives, no friends, no job, no future, no one cares about you, what's the point of living?"

"No, I still have friends, and I can also find a job."

"Du Zichen? He has a family that loves him, he has better friends, he will marry a wife and have children, and you will only be his burden."

"I'm not, I'm not someone else's burden, I can do it myself."

"You can't, you have to admit that you are useless now."

Shen Yan hugged his head, gritted his teeth, and screamed in a low voice: "I'm not a waste, I'm not a waste." He resisted the desire and urge to pick up the knife by force, because he knew, This time, if the knife falls again, no one will be able to save him.

He can't die, he is not reconciled, yes, he is not reconciled, he is not yet 20 years old, there are still many possibilities in the future, even if he really has to be blind for a lifetime, he should not give up now.

Slowly, this kind of unwillingness finally freed Shen Yan from that hopelessness. He stood up staggeringly, went to the bathroom to wash his face, felt his head cleared up, and then cleaned up the dishes and the kitchen Okay, when everything is in order, "clang, clang, clang", the bell rang at 9 o'clock in the evening.

At the same time, his cell phone rang.

"Xiaoyan, I'm Auntie." Auntie's gentle voice came through the phone. Among all Shen Yan's relatives, Auntie was the only one who could think about him now and take the initiative to call to ask him.

"Auntie, hello."

"How are you doing recently? How is your body? How's your eyes? Why is your voice a little strange? Are you crying?" My aunt sensitively heard the abnormality of his voice, and a series of questions quickly hit him.

"I didn't cry. I caught a cold a few days ago, and I'm getting better now, so the voice is like this. I'm fine, and my eyes are still the same."

"The weather is cold, you are weak, you need to wear more. I bought you some clothes online, and some food. It should arrive in a few days. Remember to check."

"Auntie... I have them all. Don't bother me so much next time. You are not in China."

"What's the trouble? Anyway, I bought it online. It's not convenient for you to shop around. I don't think anyone will buy it for you. I haven't seen you for a long time. I don't know if it's suitable." The auntie sighed again suddenly. , and asked with some hesitation: "Xiaoyan, has your mother contacted you recently?"

"No." Shen Yan replied simply and clearly, without any emotion in his voice.

"Oh, don't blame your mother. She is just a fool. I called her a while ago and persuaded her. I don't know when she will understand."

"I'm fine, I'm used to it." Shen Yan said indifferently, the aunt was right, his mother is just a fool.

"Xiaoyan," my aunt suddenly hesitated again, "Is it true that your eyes have not improved at all? Are you still taking the medicine?"

"I..." Shen Yan couldn't speak, the medicine had been stopped for a long time.

"You haven't taken your medicine, right? Don't you have no money? Your parents won't give it to you, so I'll give it to you."

"No, auntie, I have money, and I didn't spend the money you gave me. The blood clot has actually disappeared by half, but the doctor said that it's almost impossible after such a long delay."

"It hardly means that there is no, you can't just give up like this."

"Auntie, I'm fine now, I can do housework, I can't starve myself." Shen Yan could hear the deep worry in his aunt's voice, so he comforted her.

"What do you mean you can't starve yourself, Xiaoyan, where's your housekeeping aunt?" No, Shen Yan suddenly realized that he had slipped his tongue. When my aunt went abroad, Aunt Chen just came to Shen's house to take care of him, and she still took care of him all day long. She didn't know what happened afterwards.

"Well, Auntie Housekeeping has been changing for a long time now." Shen Yan pondered to say half of it first, and pay more attention later, anyway, Auntie won't be back for a while.

"How could Shen Congshan treat you like this?" Even after speaking halfway, the aunt on the phone suddenly became angry. Rest assured you are alone."

"Auntie, I really don't need it. I think it's good now. Aunt Chen always finds it inconvenient to live here. Besides, she can't take care of me for the rest of my life. If she quits and can't find a suitable one for a while, I will This is completely fine." It is still necessary to get a "vaccination" in advance, Shen Yan knows that his aunt really cares about him.

"Oh, I'm too far away. I actually want to bring you to my side." Shen Yan's aunt really had this idea, and she had already started consulting relevant people, but Shen Yan's situation was special, and she They were not Shen Yan's immediate family members.

"No, I'm really fine. I can take care of myself. How are you doing?"

"I'm fine. Charlie and his son are good to me. I'm also rich. I think you should take the medicine first. What if you need to recover? By the way, I'll give you another one in a while." Transfer some money."

"Okay, I will continue to take the medicine, but the money..."

Before Shen Yan could finish speaking, my aunt interrupted him, "Hang up, hang up, international calls are too expensive, as long as you are free, let's talk about it next time." Then the phone hung up.

Shen Yan knows that it's because my aunt thinks international long distances are expensive, but because she doesn't want to hear him say that she doesn't want money.

After hanging up the phone for less than a minute, Shen Yan's mobile phone received a message notification, which he guessed should be a reminder to enter the account.

"I'm going to check at the bank tomorrow." Shen Yan thought to himself.