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When he said this, the expression on Shen Yan's face was crazy, which made Shen Congshan a little scared, and he said with a bit of sternness:

"Sure, Shen Yan, you've grown up, and you know how to threaten me, what do I want your life for, no matter what, I'm also your father."

"Hehe," Shen Yan laughed, but his expression was indifferent and distant, "Now you remember that you are my father again, but why didn't you think about it when you sent me to someone else's bed?"

Hearing this, Shen Congshan was a little bit unreasonable, and felt that there was a breath stuck in his throat, and he couldn't get up or down.

Shen Yan couldn't see his expression, anyway, Shen Congshan didn't make a sound, so he could continue to say to himself: "It's also a son, think about how you treated Shen Han and me."

"I knew since I was a child that you didn't like Liu Ru, and you didn't even like me, so I studied hard and practiced the piano. I thought that if I was good, you would pay more attention to me and be nice to me, but now In the end, I became a victim of your marriage."

"I'm blind, my health is gone, and my studies are gone. It can be said that my life has been ruined because of you, but none of you are willing to stop to look at me and give me even a little warmth. "

"At least compared to your mother, I have done my best to you." Shen Congshan retorted.

"Yes, this is correct, but since it is the best of benevolence, let's go here. From now on, I don't care whether I live or die, and I won't use any more money from you. You can also let that Zhang Don't worry, I, Shen Yan, have never thought about it, and I will never try to snatch her son."

"What are you talking about? Aunt Zhang is not that kind of person. It was my idea to let you move out of Linyuanju this time. Besides, the old house has your name on it. How about it."

"Old house, when is it convenient for you, I can go to transfer the ownership, I said, from now on, I will not ask you for a penny. If I can support myself for one day, I will live for one day. If I can't support myself, I will die without regret .Besides, I don't think you want to have a gay son like me, so why should we hate each other?"

These words have actually been held back in Shen Yan's heart for a long time. He came here today to give each other another chance at the end. He wanted to see how Shen Congshan would choose when faced with one person under investigation and his own son as the other.

Sure enough, Shen Congshan was not disappointed at all.

"I've finished speaking. If you have anything to say, you can scold me or beat me up."

But Shen Yan waited for a long time, and Shen Congshan didn't say a word on the other side.

"Oh, by the way, if you want to pay back the money, please tell me the card number and the amount of money you need to pay back. I can pay it back every month. I don't think it's too late. I really don't make much money now."

"Shen Yan, what do you mean, why do you insist on breaking up with me every time, what good does it do you?" The more Shen Congshan looked at it, the more he felt that Shen Yan's character was the same as Liu Ru's, unreasonable.

"I'm not making trouble, I'm just stating the facts. You can't enjoy family happiness from me, and I can't get a trace of fatherly love from you. In this case, we might as well return from bridge to bridge, and from road to road."

Shen Yan's expression was calm and his tone was calm, but on the contrary, Shen Congshan was so angry that he stood up abruptly and pressed his hands tightly to the edge of the table, "If this is the case, get out, from now on, I won't have you This son, the money I spent before was just fed to the dogs."

"Feed the dog." Shen Yan chewed these words in his mouth, feeling relieved, "Okay, since that's the case, then I'm leaving, and we probably won't meet again in the future."

Shen Yan stood up and paused, and bowed deeply to Shen Congshan, "Goodbye, Dad."

When Shen Yan walked out of the coffee shop, the calm and calm expression on his face was long gone, his heart ached, his eyes were sore, his hand holding the blind stick was trembling, and his steps were a little staggering.

It's finally come to this day.

In the past, Shen Yan felt that if he walked forward slowly like this, he could always wait for his family to accept him again, and the future would definitely get better and better, but now, this hope was completely ended by him.

But he doesn't regret it, because he is the only one who guards the illusory dream of family love, but the other party has already trampled this family love under his feet, crushing it to pieces. Looking back now, Shen Yan even feels that his so-called persistence in the past few years , as if it were a joke.

Instead of looking forward to a family relationship that will never be responded to, it is better to abandon it all, so that no matter what the other party does in the future, he will not be disappointed again. This is actually a kind of progress, isn't it?

What Shen Yan didn't know was that when he walked out, Shen Congshan, who was slumped on his seat, also shed tears. Although there were only a few drops, he did cry. He remembered when Shen Yan was just born and when he was called daddy for the first time. , his heart jumped with joy.

But since when has this son been a stranger?

Shen Congshan thought about it for a long time but he didn't remember it, but it seemed that he hadn't paid much attention to this son since a long time ago. He had never attended Shen Yan's parent meeting, nor heard Shen Yan play the piano, and he didn't even remember much. , When there was a car accident, why were all three members of the family in the car.

But now, it’s meaningless to think about these things. Shen Congshan is a little sad, a little sighed, and seems a little regretful, but it seems that he has nothing to give up. At least he still has a son. Thinking of this, Shen Congshan drank the coffee in his cup, got up and went home up.

When Xiao Fang came home in the middle of the night, Shen Yan was not asleep yet, he was covered with a blanket and sat on the rocking chair on the balcony on the second floor, not knowing what he was thinking.

"Why are you still sitting outside and not sleeping?" Xiao Fang frowned and asked with some dissatisfaction.

"When I woke up, I felt a little bored, so I came out to sit for a while." Shen Yan lied, but he actually didn't sleep.

When he came back from seeing Shen Congshan in the afternoon, his heart was in a mess. He thought of his mother Liu Ru, and also thought of many things from the past, and he sat down to the present without knowing it.

Xiao Fang walked over and touched his face and hands. It was cold, and he became a little anxious, "Shen Yan, don't you listen to what I say, and when your body is just a little better, you will start acting like a demon again."

"I'm sorry," Shen Yan stood up and lowered his head, his apology was sincere, he was sick, and Xiao Fang was the one who suffered.

Xiao Fang stared at Shen Yan's bare nape, the dim light in the room and the faint light of the last quarter moon blended together, covering the skin with a layer of cold bluish white.

"Shen Yan, you know I don't want to hear this anymore."

"I...I went to see Shen Congshan in the afternoon." Shen Shan didn't give a corresponding answer, but talked about the afternoon.

"Why did he see you?" Xiao Fang frowned, stretched out his arms around Shen Yan, hugged him and sat on the recliner.

The reclining chair was not big, and the two of them were a bit crowded, but Shen Yan felt very at ease, he leaned his head lightly on Xiao Fang's chest, "It's nothing, just to settle some old things, but I still feel a little sad."

"Since you've said it's over, why are you still sad?" Xiao Fang didn't ask much, but just expressed his doubts.

"Hehe." Shen Yan raised his head, and gently rubbed the top of his head against Xiao Fang's chin, "You're right, I'm really stupid."

"You are not stupid, you are too persistent."

"Basically, I'm too entangled. I'm always afraid and worried. I want to grab everything. Maybe I don't have anything in the end." Shen Yan murmured, gradually feeling sleepy.

"Before the end, you don't know what will be left, just walk and see."

Xiao Fang patted Shen Yan, but Shen Yan didn't speak anymore, when Xiao Fang looked down, Shen Yan had already fallen asleep in his arms.

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