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Du Zichen understood in his heart, but Xiao Fang didn't stop, "When I first met Shen Yan last autumn, he estimated that he still had a hundred catties. It's only been a few months, and he's only 90 catties left. Everything you said before, he should be getting better and better, but now it's clearly not the case."

"You are right about one thing. Shen Yan is a kind child. It is precisely because he is kind that he is afraid that others will worry about him, so he hides all his worries in his heart and lives by himself. But, do you think he is still How long can it survive, can it survive the next five years?"

Listening to what Xiao Fang said, Du Zichen's eyes slowly turned red. Although he has a good heart, it's not that he really didn't know what he was thinking. He knew what Xiao Fang said was right, and he also saw with his own eyes how Shen Yan became With today's state, he is getting more and more haggard day by day, if this continues, Shen Yan really won't be able to last long.

Since the person in front of him is still willing to help him, why not do it first, the matter of feelings ultimately depends on Shen Yan's own wishes, so in the end, Du Zichen just nodded lightly, expressing his agreement with Xiao Fang's words.

"There is no fixed pattern for how people get along with each other, so I can't guarantee what the future will hold. But since we have reached a consensus right now, why don't we work together to find a way to relieve Shen Yan so that he can get better day by day."

"To be honest, I can't think of any way." Hearing this, Du Zichen felt a little frustrated, and Xiao Fang was also a little helpless.

Shen Yan looks quite strong on the outside, but in fact he is very soft on the inside. He closes himself because he has been hurt so much by others, but even so, he is still foolishly willing to give all he has to repay others for their love. His is a little bit better.

For Shen Yan right now, his body is his life and his last bargaining chip. Xiao Fang has no doubts at all. If he lets Shen Yan die at this time, Shen Yan will do it without hesitation. Now Shen Yan Just like a person who pays his debts with his life, his life is here, anyone who wants to use it can take it, and when he dies, it will be regarded as no more debts.

Thinking about it this way, Shen Yan probably won't commit suicide, but he doesn't have the will to survive, how to arouse his survival consciousness may be the most troublesome problem they have encountered right now.

"Fortunately, Shen Yan's physical condition has stabilized now, and his emotional problems are not a matter of a day or two. When he wakes up in a while, you should go and chat with him again." After finishing speaking, Xiao Fang sighed deeply. Taking a breath, he got up and prepared to leave.

"how about you?"

"There is some misunderstanding between us. Now he is avoiding me more. It is better not to let him know that I am here."

Du Zichen nodded, hesitated for a moment, and opened his mouth again: "No matter what, thank you so much this time."

Xiao Fang waved his hand, turned around and left, leaving Du Zichen alone, went back and sat by Shen Yan's hospital bed until he woke up.

"Zichen, why haven't you left yet?" Shen Yan was quite happy to hear Du Zichen's voice after waking up.

"Why, you think I'm troublesome and want to kick me out."

"No, no, I'm actually very happy that you can accompany me. I didn't expect that."

Du Zichen heard that there was some surprise in Shen Yan's tone, and his heart ached slightly, "Your situation is so serious, why did you hide it from me?"

After hearing this, Shen Yan couldn't help lowering his eyes, and put away the smile on his face, "You know everything?"

"Well, I went to check with the doctor just now, and they all told me that you were poisoned by...that kind of drug and you hurt yourself. What's going on?" Although Du Zichen already knew what happened, Du Zichen still pretended Acting in disbelief.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't hide it from you, but I really can't open my mouth. Could it be that I said that my dad was fed to me for money, and sent me to someone else's bed, can change the current outcome? Is it? Since you can't, why don't we save some face for each other. "

"You save face for him, did he ever worry about you?" Du Zichen gritted his teeth angrily.

"I made Chen Wenchuan ashamed at the beginning, so now he has nothing to worry about me. We are even in this matter." Shen Yan grinned, showing a smile uglier than crying, and then It was a long silence, as if he wanted to use silence to suppress certain emotions in his body.

Du Zichen gently shook Shen Yan's hand, "Ah Yan, do you really not understand what your parents are doing?"

"It's not that I don't understand, but it's okay to understand. The grace of birth is there, and I can't figure it out. I once thought that no matter what they do to me or ask me to do, I will accept it. But this time when the matter came to an end, I found that I couldn't do it." Looking up to the ceiling, Shen Yan's voice was full of exhaustion, "But even so, Zichen, I feel that I can't hold on any longer."

Du Zichen couldn't bear Shen Yan's self-pity, "Ayan, all the pain on your body now is caused by them. You don't owe them anything. When I beg you, can you be more selfish and think more about it?" yourself, okay?"

After finishing speaking, he took Shen Yan's hand and put it on his own heart, "Ayan, you should ask yourself, ask yourself here, if you hold back all these years and take your own life to pay off the debt, does it hurt? , does it hurt?"

Shen Yan covered his heart with his hand, tears suddenly fell down like a torrential rain, "Zichen, it hurts, it really hurts."

Ever since he was young, Shen Yan has been used to hiding everything in his heart. The world can only see that he is very good and strong, and he wants others to see this, but those heart-wrenching crying in the middle of the night cannot be deceived in the end. Own.

Shen Yan's tears came quickly and urgently. This was the first time in several years that he cried in front of people. All emotions seemed to burst out at this moment, grievance, anger, sadness, loneliness... all kinds of emotions were intertwined in the Together, let the tears flow uncontrollably.

Du Zichen has been silently by his side, handing him tissues, and weeping with him, until Shen Yan finally lost his strength from crying and fell asleep, then stood up and walked out. As soon as he got out of the ward, he looked up and found Xiao Fang stood at the door again.

Du Zichen looked back at the sleeping Shen Yan, shook his hands at Xiao Fang, and made a sleeping posture, Xiao Fang nodded, and the two of them walked towards the corner of the stairs tacitly.

"When did you come back?" Du Zichen asked, his eyes were also a little red, so he smiled embarrassedly.

"I'll be there when he wakes up." Xiao Fang didn't have any special expression on his face, after all he was several years older than the two of them, and seeing Shen Yan crying, he himself felt a little sad when he heard it outside.

"Why didn't you go in?"

"You guys had a good chat, but I will disturb you if I go in. Seeing him cry, I feel more relieved." Xiao Fang continued, "After such a big thing happened, he neither cried nor cried when he woke up. I didn't show the anger I should have, instead, I was able to smile and say 'thank you' to the doctors, nurses and nurses every day, as before, I always felt that it was not normal."

"He never likes to cry. After the car accident, he knew he was blind and woke up by suicide... I've known him for so many years, and it's the first time I've seen him cry so...so 'presumptuous'." Du Zichen thought for a while before using presumptuous This word, "I just hope that he will cry bitterly and vent once, so that he will not be so depressed in his heart."

"Sure enough, you still have a way. It's better to cry out than to hold back your heart." Xiao Fang patted Du Zichen's shoulder, "Right now, it's like we burned a small hole in his hard shell, take it slowly, and we will always Let him break out of his shell."

Du Zichen: ...What kind of a bad metaphor is this.

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