The actress said she has no object

If the days go on like this, Yun Jinshi still feels quite happy. She even feels that everything she has experienced is like a passing cloud, or even something that happened in her previous life.

That's fine, life is full, happy, with family, friends, job, career, it couldn't be more perfect.

Until this afternoon, Yunjinshi and Tangtang went to the supermarket, bought a lot of things and came back. They will start to choose a new script in two days. This should be regarded as the last carnival of the holiday.

Because they wanted to eat more, they decided to eat hot pot tonight, but what they bought back was not only the ingredients, but also some snacks and the like.

Yun Jinshi has already started to consider buying a car. After all, there are quite a lot of times when you need to go out, especially when you bring so many things home. It is inconvenient to take a bus, and it is not cost-effective to rent a car.

You don’t need to buy a very expensive car. If you buy an ordinary car, it’s easier to commute to and from get off work, especially when you go out to buy something or go somewhere, and you can drive yourself out.

The two went downstairs talking and laughing, Yun Jinshi took most of the things in his hands, Tangtang wanted to help, but Yun Jinshi refused to give, and only distributed some lighter ones to her, making Tangtang hum He lifted it up and walked up.

When they turned around the stairs and were about to reach the door, Yun Jinshi stopped suddenly, for no other reason, there was a person squatting at the door, a middle-aged woman, wearing old clothes, she seemed very pitiful at first glance look.

When she saw Yun Jin, she stood up in surprise, her eyes were even a little moist: "Jin Jin..."

At this moment, Yun Jinshi even doubted that she had never escaped from hell, but soon she calmed down, but looked at the woman with more and more cold eyes: "Why are you here?"

"Jinjin..." The woman flinched and said in a low voice, "I miss you...you never came back to see me, so I could only find out where you live, and then came to see you."

She complained a little, but kept her voice low, and looked up at Yun Jinshi after she said a word. Yun Jinshi had hated her to the core, and she was able to stay rational because Tangtang was next to her: "You better take advantage of me." If you can't move your hands, leave in front of me first, because if you don't leave now, I will be rude to you in the future."

"Jinjin!" The woman's voice raised a little: "How can you treat me like this? I'm your own mother! I just came to see my own daughter. Did I commit any crime?"

"Who gave you face to make you say such words!" Yun Jinshi wished she could pounce on her and tear her face off, she was the only person in the whole world who was not qualified to say such words!

Yun Jinshi tried her best to control herself, at least not to fight in front of Tangtang: "Get lost."

Yun Jinshi pointed to the stairs: "Don't let me see you again!"

"Yun Jinshi! Do you really want to be so unfeeling!" The woman screamed, "What kind of life do I live? I'm so poor that I can't even afford a new dress, and he beats me when he's drunk. You Well, you are my daughter, no matter what, I brought you up single-handedly, you are famous now, you are a star and rich, you would rather raise an outsider than me."

"I'll call the police if you come again." Yun Jinshi took a step back, avoiding the woman, and said, "That's right, you raised me, and after that, I don't owe you anything. When you give up on me for a comfortable life When you beg me not to call the police for your sake, when you close that door, I owe you nothing!"

"I'll say it again for the last time, get out, if you don't get out, I'll really call the police!" Yun Jinshi didn't want to get entangled with her at all, she was disgusted by that muddy family, and didn't want to have any more contact with them.

"Call the police! You call the police!" The woman stepped forward like a shrew: "What if the police come, will they take care of the housework? I'm your mother, and it's not a matter of course for a daughter to raise a mother... Oops !"

Tangtang suddenly bumped into the woman's stomach like an angry calf: "You are not allowed to bully Ah Shi!"

Her eyes were red, and she didn't know where she came from so much strength, but she bumped the woman and sat on the ground. The woman is obviously a shameless character, and after sitting on the ground, she started screaming, obviously wanting to Porcelain.

But she hadn't uttered the words about touching porcelain, when she looked up, Yun Jinshi had already opened the door quickly, took the opportunity to drag Tangtang in, and then closed the door tightly.

No matter how the woman knocked on the door, she pretended not to hear it.

Putting things on the ground casually, Yun Jinshi closed her eyes at the sound of a woman knocking on the door. People have no way to choose their own background. If she could, she would rather have both her parents died since she was a child, and wander outside. It is better to be sent to an orphanage than to be with such a mother.

Yun Jinshi will never forget that she was only thirteen or fourteen years old at that time, her mother remarried, and her stepfather reunited with a newborn son.

The stepfather has a little money, because in the early years he led a group of people to drill oil wells and saved a lot of family property, so their quality of life improved all of a sudden.

But Yun Jinshi didn't like her stepfather very much, that man always looked at her with greasy and obscene eyes, which scared her very much.

Until one summer night, Yun Jinshi got rid of the entanglement of her ruthless stepfather, returned to her room, and then found her stepbrother in her room.

The young man was very strong, and he overwhelmed her when he came up, tore her clothes, and scolded her for seducing his father, a little slut born of a cousin.

Yun Jinshi called for help loudly, and after a while his stepfather also came in. The middle-aged man was as greasy and disgusting as before, and he pretended to persuade him, but actually helped his son restrain Yun Jinshi.

Yun Jinshi was struggling and refused to give in. The one who shattered her last hope was her mother standing at the door. The mother just glanced at the room, and then silently locked the door.

later

Later, when she was struggling, she found the pencil sharpener that fell on the ground, and stabbed it into the stepfather's neck fiercely. When the two of them were in a panic, Yun Jinshi, who had nowhere to escape, jumped out of the window.

Their house is on the fifth floor.

Fortunately, there is a flower bed downstairs, and Yun Jinshi only broke her leg when she jumped down. She dragged her broken leg and knocked on the neighbor's door downstairs, and was sent to the hospital.

The mother came to see her in the hospital for the first time, and the first thing she did was to beg her not to call the police.

Because once she called the police, her comfortable life as a rich wife would be over.

At that moment, Yun Jinshi told herself that she had given birth to her kindness and nourished her kindness, and she would pay it back. Since then, she has never had a mother again.

The stepfather was injured on his neck, but because he didn't hurt the main artery or the bone, so it wasn't a serious problem, and he didn't even mention it because of his guilty conscience.

He even wanted to gag Yun Jinshi with money, making her forget what happened that night, and pretend that nothing happened.

After recovering from her injury, the teenage girl left that 'home'. She refused to spend any more money from them, and she did not want to have any contact with them anymore. She tried her best to survive in this dangerous world. Go on, but that incident still became the deepest shadow in her heart, the scariest memory.

For a long time afterwards, she was having nightmares. After all, Yun Jinshi realized that from then on, she was alone in this world, with no one to rely on, no relatives and no reason.

Yun Jinshi spent a long time getting rid of the shadows, trying to live a better life and make herself better, but now that woman wants to drag her back into the mud.

By what

Why!

The eager knocking on the door and the woman's cursing were intertwined in her mind, and even aroused the deepest hostility in her heart. The pain, anger, despair, and pain that had been accumulated from the summer night more than ten years ago to this day. The re-fermentation made her want to rush into the kitchen, pick up a kitchen knife, and cut open the chest of the woman outside the door to see what color her heart was.

Of course, the father and son can't be let go, she has killed them countless times in the midnight dream, as if this solved the deepest shadow in her heart.

To die together seems to be the best choice in her heart at this moment.

She wanted to kill, but her heart was full of destruction, destroying those beasts, and destroying herself.

No one could pull her legs and pull her back into the swamp. She just wanted to watch those beasts rot in the stinky mud.

Just when Yun Jinshi's eyes were red from pain and despair, Tangtang knelt beside the sofa, quietly took her hand, and then slowly pressed her cheek against Yun Jinshi's palm.

"Ah Shi is sad, Ah Shi is very angry, right?"

"I'm sad too, very, very sad."

"Have I ever talked about why I ran away from home? She hit me, scolded me, bullied me, I can bear it, because she is not my mother, she is just a stranger to me, I can't What is patient is that my father doesn't care about me, he doesn't care about me, and allows me to be bullied."

"That night I secretly packed my luggage, in fact, there were only two glass beads and a packet of biscuits, and then I left home, because I missed my mother, and I usually tell people that when they miss my mother, they will only laugh at me , saying that you can see your mother by jumping off the stairs."

"But even if I'm stupid, I know they lied to me. I can't find my mother, and I have no other place to go. I just want to stay as far away from that home as possible."

"If there is no Ah Shi, maybe I will really go to see my mother, Ah Shi, don't be sad, if you are unhappy, what should I do? I can't do anything, I can only worry and be afraid I'm sad with you." Tangtang's soft cheeks rubbed against her palms: "Are we all unwanted children? But this is also very good, you are my only one, and I am your only one."

Most of the anger and pain in Yun Jinshi's heart suddenly dissipated. After returning to her senses, she calmed down again. It's easy to kill people, but she doesn't have to sacrifice the rest of her life for a few beasts.

If she did, she would be dragged back into the mud.

Yun Jinshi hugged Tangtang tightly, holding the soft little girl in her arms, her courage seemed to be superimposed layer by layer, probably Tangtang made her a protector.

"I am not sad."

Because there is still you.

The author has something to say: I went to the funeral today, and it was raining when I got to the cemetery. I felt a little fever, my forehead was hot, and I still had a headache.

It's not that sad, I'm in my 90s, and I'm at the end of my life.