Xueba loves to answer me and ignores me

I struggled to open my swollen eyes, turned my neck slightly through the gauze wrapped around my head, and found that there was no one in the ward.

With a plaster cast on his leg, he has no feeling for the time being, only his fingers can move slightly.

The calling bell is at my hand.

As soon as he pressed it, someone pushed open the door of the ward.

Not Sugakoshi, not my dad

It was Gu Yanzhi who was supposed to be in the United States.

My lymph nodes were so swollen that it hurt to speak, but I still called him: "Brother."

Gu Yanzhi was ecstatic about my waking up, first he excitedly held my trembling fingers, and then hurriedly called in the doctors and nurses who had been waiting outside for a long time.

Not a familiar Asian face, but a foreign doctor with a high nose bridge and blue eyes.

"elder brother?"

Gu Yanzhi sat beside my boat and held my hand tightly: "I know what you want to ask, don't talk, let the doctor check it out first."

"Are you in America now."

It turned out that I had been sent to the United States when I was in a coma.

My brother was surprised that I didn't struggle to get up and go back home. He slowly relaxed the force on my wrist and found that I really wouldn't resist, so he let go completely and asked the doctor to examine me.

I couldn't help frowning slightly as the cold medical equipment stuck to my skin.

I miss Sugakoshi very much, every cell and every pore is screaming Sugakoshi's name.

But I can't.

I put myself in a never-ending magic circle of constantly blaming myself for what happened that day.

I don't know how long I've been in a coma. I don't dare to think about the pressure and contemptuous gazes that Kan Yue will endure these days, the pain that he didn't have to go through.

If I hadn't passed the exam that day, Yu Hang wouldn't have caught him without the public pestering him to kiss him.

A little earlier, if I didn't know Sugakoshi, would it have the same ending?

I am very happy every day with him, but because of me, I hurt him, and my heart is pierced.

It was me who pulled him out of one abyss, and it was me who pushed him into another abyss.

After the inspection, I asked my brother for a call and called my uncle in China.

"Uncle, please do me a favor."

This should be the last time I ask my uncle who is the principal of No. [-] Middle School for help, because I may never go back.

I asked him to give me a punishment, a punishment of persuasion, who had not completed the withdrawal procedures.

There are no other reasons, cheating, threatening classmates, and affecting the peace of the campus.

If the charges are not confirmed, who will believe my rhetoric?

There are only these little things I can do for Sugakoshi.

In the days that followed, I recuperated in the hospital with peace of mind. My brother would spare an hour or two to accompany me every day, and my dad also made video calls from time to time.

Every time he said he would come to see me in a few days, but he never really came until I was discharged from the hospital.

Everything seems to be back on track.

My brother saw that I had a psychological problem, so he hired a counselor for me to come and chat with me every weekend.

Being idle is also idle, I started to take the IELTS class in the United States to prepare for the school application in a few months.

Without Suga Koshi, I became the previous Gu Xingzhi who didn't care about anything.

Repeating the same thing every day, running around in various tutoring classes, smiling seems to have removed my name from my life.

The fulfilling life made me temporarily forget to think about Sugakoshi. In the middle of the night, the longing seemed to penetrate into the marrow of my bones. The pain made me feel weak all over, and my eyes were dry and weeping.

I blocked all contact information of Sugakoshi.

Just let him forget me, I just miss him secretly.

At first, I couldn't help but secretly ask Yan Jiujiu, how is Suga Yue?

She didn't believe the dismissal punishment issued by the school, and she didn't believe what I said that I had broken up with Kanyue. She insisted on showing me the depressed Kanyue every day.

I don't have one, not one.

I just want to see Kan Yue's smile, and I don't want his brows to be full of sadness.

Gradually, the contact with Yan Jiujiu decreased, and her ignorant complaints to me also turned into Kan Yue's spirit starting to improve.

Suga Koshi finally came out, it only took more than three months, but luckily he didn't delay his college entrance examination.

However, I got deeper and deeper, and the number of appointments with the psychologist increased.

Every time she asked me where my knot was, I would tell her every happy moment of getting along with Kan Yue in the past. I was afraid that I would forget it in the future, and I wanted her to remember it for me.

Every time the treatment came to nothing, my condition became worse and worse, and I even started to hallucinate, imagining everything from scratch.

I didn't take the initiative to approach Sugakoshi, but just sat behind him silently, secretly liking him.

Have a crush on him.

On the day when the domestic college entrance examination was over, I couldn't hold back, so I changed my mobile phone and secretly called Sugakoshi.

As soon as I got through, the moment I heard his voice, I broke down and cried, and hung up the phone immediately.

It turns out that I really can't forget him at all.

When the grades came out, I sent a message to Yan Jiujiu, and wanted to ask Suga Koshi how his grades were.

Yan Jiujiu said that he did well in the exam, as good as before.

The better Kan is, the application for my school has also come down, and I asked myself if I should start living again.

May I?