Shanyue doesn't know what's on her mind

It rained in the middle of the night, and the road was not easy to walk at dawn.

Before approaching Changle Hall, he heard the sound of crying and howling, which was heartbreaking.Nervous, he quickened his pace and ran, while Ping An kept yelling to slow down.

When I got close to the gate of the palace, there was a crowd of people in the dark, and the people on the outside looked inside. I tiptoed and saw the queen sitting upright in the distance, and a hanging heart fell.

Panting heavily, thankfully it was just a false alarm.

As long as she's okay, I don't worry, just wait quietly.

The first one to come out was Concubine Li Gui, with her long nails brushing away the broken hair behind her ears, when she passed by me, she gave me a faint look without stopping.

A group of concubines followed and waited for the crowd to disperse before I stepped into the Hall of Changle.As soon as I entered, the bloody smell rushed to my face, making me almost vomit again.

The flowers were blooming lazily, and the queen sat on the phoenix chair thoughtfully.

Lying in the courtyard was a palace lady in green, as if she had lost her breath. A huge blood lotus bloomed on the hem of her skirt.

Another lady in pink lay on top crying hoarsely, she was the one who uttered the cry just now, and the cry was heartbreaking.

I walked by her again and again to see her, the beautiful face of the pink-clothed palace lady was covered with sweaty black hair, her mouth was wide open, tears dripped down, and wet the front of her front.

It looked almost hopeless.

I asked the maid, and she replied in a low voice, "Concubine Li Gui captured the two maids who were eating each other and brought them to Changle Palace to ask the queen to punish them severely. The maid in green took all the blame and was executed with a stick."

In an instant, a sense of desolation melted in my heart.

I looked at the pink-clothed palace lady, feeling very uncomfortable in my heart, as if a hand was tightly clutching my heart, and I couldn't breathe.

The queen was dumbfounded, as if lost in thought, and it took a long time to notice that I was standing on one side.

In the past, I liked the tea from Changle Palace the most, the same tea, but today it is extraordinarily bitter.

Mixed with three points of tears, seven points of love.

I asked the queen, is this punishment a bit heavy?

The queen was stunned, then shook her head, and said, "They are in the palace, according to the palace rules, they should be punished severely."

"I know you don't like to see blood, but many concubines are here today. As the head of the Six Palaces, I should set an example."

The Queen's words revealed a bit of helplessness and sadness. I looked at the phoenix clinging to her back, which was so lifelike that it spread its wings but could not fly.

After a while, some court ladies reported back and forth, and the pink-clothed palace maid bumped into a pillar and died.

The autumn wind in the courtyard was bleak, and the tassels of the curtains swayed with the wind, smashing the flowing light all over the place.

The days can't help but pass by in a trance.

This winter came quietly, but it was much more violent than usual.

The daffodils on the windowsill are dead and lifeless.I know they won't sprout again next spring either.

The emperor came late at night, took off his cloak to shake off the cold, and sat in front of the stove with me in his arms.

When he was drowsy from the smoke, his hands felt itchy, and he pulled himself together to look, only to find that there was a jade bracelet wrapped around his wrist.

"I saw this when I visited Weifu. It has a name called 'Qinxin'. I bought it and ordered someone to carve patterns on it."

I played with the jade bracelet curiously, and he leaned into his ear and asked in a low voice, "Do you like it?"

"I like it." I nodded, this bracelet is really pretty, big but light in weight.

The other hand stroked along the jade pattern, and the more you touched it, the more familiar it became.

This pattern inexplicably reminds me of the phoenix clinging to the back of the phoenix chair, with its wings raised high and its head bowed down, it makes me even more frightened.

A question was buried for a long time, and I couldn't help asking, "Why does the emperor love his concubines so much?"

I looked at him, and gradually, his eyes began to darken.

"The first time I saw you, I knew that you didn't like me. It was only later that I found out that you didn't like anything, jewellery, glory and wealth. Later, I became more and more curious, tried little by little, and finally realized that sleepy I live by myself."

"My heart is trapped in you."

I was moved and put my arms around his neck, and acted coquettishly, "Leiqing also wants to be with the emperor forever, to have a son and a half daughter for the emperor, to love each other, and to grow old together. However, people can't be too greedy, and Leiqing is afraid."

"Afraid of what?" He coaxed.

I let go, looked into his eyes seriously, and said word by word, "Leiqing is afraid that one day, he will leave suddenly, and he won't be able to accompany the emperor all the time."

The emperor hugged me tightly, and the child said angrily, "No, I will always keep you safe."

"It's a pity that the world is unpredictable." I sighed and said seriously, "If, I mean if, if something unexpected happens, Lei Qing only hopes that the emperor will punish the murderer severely in the future and return my innocence."

There was a bitterness in my heart, and I thought, this is the last time I use you, all the kindness in this life, I only hope to repay it in the next life.

A heart is only the size of a slap. Some people live in it first, and the next generation can only be kept out of the door.

All my life, I have been trying to chase that dawn.

The snow is falling, the world is covered with silver, and the north wind blows away every inch of warmth.

Someone found the frozen corpse of the second prince in the pool of eternal life.I heard that when Concubine Li Gui heard the news for the first time, she fainted from fright.

The second prince has always been stubborn, everyone just thought he was playful and fell into the lake.

In a world of ice and snow, people will soon sink.

When I went to Changle Palace, I pretended to remind the queen inadvertently, now that Concubine Li Guigui has lost her second prince, she is afraid that she will become insane, so she should pay more attention to the safety of the prince.

On the contrary, the prince has grown a lot, and now he can speak well.Last time he sent me a piece of "Cang Ning Fu", with horizontal strokes and vivid charm.

The court lady who sent the work said flatteringly, "The crown prince hasn't written a poem for the queen yet, but he will send a poem to Concubine Yue first."

In the spring, he should be seven years old.

After all, Liu Qingqing was not able to marry Xu Huishan, and became a concubine before Chunqian, so Xu was able to live happily ever after.

My stomach is slowly showing, so I can only ask the embroidery room to cut some bigger clothes, which can cover it day by day.

Outside the curtain is covered with snow, even if the green trees, black tiles, and vermilion walls are all covered, the world is only white.

On the high platform, the copper bells at the corners of the eaves are a bit worn out, but they can still ring.

Ding Ding told me that this winter is really long.

At night, a charcoal fire was lit in the hall, and I was embroidering the skirts for the queen. Ping An came in a little angrily, "My servant heard rumors in the palace that someone saw you, my empress, on the day the second prince fell into the water."

I smiled lightly, "Since it's a rumor, why bother with it."

"Having said that, I'm afraid that someone with a heart will use it to make a fuss and end up hurting the empress."

She meant something, and I also understood how terrible it can be when a person is cornered.

When I was young, I watched operas, and the actors on the stage appeared on stage, singing all the joys and sorrows, and the curtain would always end.

I seldom pick up a pen, and the handwriting is a little rusty, and the writing is not very elegant.In the past, I was often laughed at by the emperor. He held my hand, stroked, swiped and took.

Many picturesque scenes flashed one after another, including the emperor, the prince, and the queen.

I like her smile, like a spring breeze, and I also like to see her angry, with her willow eyebrows furrowed. I like to see her carefree and comfortable when she is in her prime.

That day I sent Ping An Xi Le, and the person who came to deliver the miscarriage medicine was a maid with a face. I vaguely remembered that she was a palace maid from the Changle Palace.

She watched me finish drinking, walked out with the bowl, and closed the door behind her.

The wind was kept out of the door.

I slowly dried the corners of my mouth, put on my favorite Narcissus palace robe, and looked after it repeatedly in front of the bronze mirror.

The bright eyes are good at gazing, as bright as the autumn moon.

It turns out that the person in the mirror is also very beautiful.

He took out a long-preserved embroidered handkerchief from under the pillow, with a small Phalaenopsis embroidered on it, and it felt like a burst of fragrance when he held it in his hand.

The journey from Changqiu Hall to Changle Hall is not long, and the snow is deep, so I walked a little slower than usual.

When I arrived at Changle Hall, Mammy greeted me with a smile.The queen was resting on the soft couch, and I wanted to take my foot back, but thinking of returning the property to its original owner, I still mustered up the courage to go in.

If you don't go this time, you won't have a chance.

The queen woke up, her eyes were stained with surprise, and she said angrily, "It's snowing so much, why are you here? Why are you wearing so little, Hanyu, go get a robe quickly."

The cold palms were wrapped by her warm crisp hands, and I suddenly became greedy for this world.

He retracted his hand, took out the handkerchief and handed it over.

The queen was taken aback for a moment, then took it, "This is?"

She thought it was a newly embroidered handkerchief I embroidered for her, and looked at it over and over for a long time before realizing that it was her own embroidered handkerchief when she was a girl.

"In the 23rd year of Jianyuan, at Mrs. Zhao's Baihua Banquet, a little girl was bullied by many noble girls behind the rockery. Do you still remember?"

The queen was stunned, thought for a while, and suddenly realized, "Could it be that you are..."

I smiled and nodded. At the Hundred Flowers Banquet, my sister was in the limelight, and the princes and grandchildren all fell in love with her. She was immersed in the joy of embracing her, and completely forgot about her own sister.

At the age of six, I was surrounded by many equally young noble girls behind the rockery, choking, scolding and kicking me, silently bearing this anger.Anyway, I said it, and no one would care.

At that time, a young girl in red came stepping on the clouds, shouted loudly, and scared many noble girls away.

She supported me who was squatting on the ground, and through the tears in my eyes, I vaguely saw a beautiful and handsome face, as beautiful as a goddess.

She gently wiped my tears with a handkerchief, and comforted me softly, "Don't be afraid, next time you are bullied, just beat back, if you can't beat me, come to me."

"I am Xu Huiyue, the eldest lady of the Prime Minister's Mansion."

She waited with me, told me many interesting things, and tried her best to make me happy.

Shanyue doesn't know what's on her mind.

I put her in my heart.

Originally, I didn't like to attend banquets, but since then I went to various gatherings just to sit in a corner and watch her from a distance.

I like to see her bold smile, ancient heart, love and hate.

She was born extremely beautiful. In my heart, she is a goddess who steps on the moon, and the moonlight is her tenderness.

Later, she became a queen. At the spring banquet, I saw her from a distance, with a phoenix robe and jewels, but she was not happy.

Concubine Li Gui, on the other hand, was even more flamboyant than her.

The queen is no longer the free and easy Xu Huiyue, she exudes a touch of sadness and loneliness.

The eldest sister is unwilling to enter the palace and is angry with her father.My grandfather's family has no girls of the right age, so the Liu family must send one to the palace.

I was afraid that the entry of the eldest sister, who is so beautiful and beautiful, would cause troubles for the queen, and because of the extravagant hope in my heart, I invited myself to enter the palace in that April when the flowers were in full bloom.

Sun Cairen’s gift was designed by me, Concubine Rong was sent to Huang Quan by myself, and the second prince was pushed down by me to the pool of eternal life.

Even the grounding of Concubine Li Gui is partly due to me.

I knew a long time ago that there is no forgiveness for sins, as long as I can help her erase a trace of trouble, then erase a trace.

Slowly cramping in the abdomen, there are still many words left unsaid.

I opened my mouth, and blood overflowed from my mouth, gurgling outward.

"..."

I still can't say the phrase I like you.

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postscript:

In the winter of the 11th year of Mingfeng, Concubine Yue passed away.

When he died, he was wearing his favorite daffodil dress, and there was a four-month-old fetus in his belly.

The emperor was very sad, and stayed in the Changqiu Palace for three days, and ordered a thorough investigation of the matter.

In the end, it was found that a maid from the Changle Palace had poisoned the queen, and the queen was temporarily grounded.

Later, Pingan handed over a letter to the emperor with tears in his eyes. The undignified handwriting was written stroke by stroke by Concubine Yue herself.

Things turned around again, and the real murderer pointed directly at Concubine Li Gui.

The empress was lifted from the foot restraint, and the chess pieces buried by Concubine Li Gui in the Changle Palace were pulled out one by one.

Concubine Li Gui murdered the prince, murdered the favorite concubine, and intended to blame the empress. Her heart was so deplorable that she was given a three-foot white silk before the beginning of spring.

I heard that Concubine Li Gui became crazy and ran to join the pool of death.

Rebirth pool, how can there be rebirth.