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There was a "buzz" in my head, and I was even a little dizzy for a moment.

"What did you say?" I asked.

"I thought you would retreat in the face of difficulties, and ten years is enough to make you look down on it." Poker-Face said very calmly, this is the first time I heard him talk about his own thoughts.

"What do you mean ten years is enough to make me look down?" I was a little puzzled, "Didn't you plan to let me come to you?"

"A lot of people are interested in me, but they will give up gradually." Poker bottle didn't answer me directly.

I understand the meaning of Poker Ping, time always kills everything.

The ten-year contract, he may not be lying to me, but he never thought that I would really come.

Maybe in the eyes of Poker Bottle, I was just a naive child at that time. I participated in what he experienced and showed extraordinary concern for him. He began to regard me as a friend, and even became "the only one with the world Contact", so before leaving, he will say goodbye to me.

But he never thought of dragging me into the water.

Poker bottle is a person with much more experience than me. He just doesn't talk about it, but it's not that he doesn't understand.A man with good skills, good looks, and a weak personality will definitely attract the attention of many people no matter where he is. Even if he doesn't want to, he must have experienced a lot and even see through it.

He presumably decided that if he left, plus all the things that had happened before, after he said the "ten-year contract" and even told me that I would replace him if I went to him, I would avoid the whole thing. Even though I was curious about this matter at first, if I tried to investigate further, when the first clue pointed to the Wanli Snow Mountain, I would give up knowingly.

But he didn't expect that I would walk this road for ten years.

Even myself, looking back, is often a little surprised.

For a promise that can be regarded as obsession, I have come all the way to the present, from an ignorant boy in his 20s to the current situation, I can play with myself back then with a little finger die.

I was attacked in the snow mountain, and I was rescued by Xiaohua's people. That was the closest I was to death. In the freezing no-man's land, it was a miracle that I was carried to the hospital alive. I still remember being in a coma for a week. When I opened my eyes, Xiao Hua stood in front of my bed.

"Give up." He said to me, "After all this time, you should understand that his affairs are beyond your comprehension."

I shook my head: "I'm very close."

"No matter how close you are, you will never get the answer." Xiaohua looked at me with a bit of pity, "After all these years, I think the most important thing you should understand is that some things are destined to be beyond your power. The person we were looking for fell into this 'powerless' category."

"A few years ago, would you have thought that I would be able to get to this point?" I waved my hand at him, the bottle was still hanging in my hand, and the sleeve of the hospital gown slipped off my arm, revealing the scars on my arm. "But I'm still going."

"I have never stopped you, but you have to see clearly now, if you go on, you may die, and what you pursue is still in vain." Xiaohua didn't even look at my arm, but stared at my eyes, I It is rare to see him with such a serious expression, "Zhang Qiling, ten years, this is a too vague agreement, if you are Xie's family, I will tie you back and lock you in a secret room now, what you are after, It's unrealistic in our view."

"Ten years ago, I made up my mind," I replied.

Xiaohua looked at me, shook her head, and sighed: "You are crazy."

"I've already gone crazy." I smiled lightly.

This kind of scene has been staged more than once. In ten years, many things are enough to reincarnate, and I often come to the verge of nervous breakdown, because I have asked myself more than once, whether I am worth it or not.

The most serious one was probably last year, when I took a few guys into Tibet, and happened to encounter a snowstorm, all the guys died there.Originally, I didn't feel much about life and death, but that time we didn't even start any action, it was just a blizzard, and we had to return home.

After I went back, I had another scar on my arm.Once one of my people has an accident, I will leave such a knife on my arm, which is a kind of memory for them.

There is a string in the human brain, if it is too tight, it will break. It broke once ten years ago, and that time, I clearly felt that it was about to break again, so I left Changsha decisively and moved to Beijing , I stayed in the express hotel for several months, until I was asked out by Xiaohua a few days ago, I realized that the time passed so fast, and the rest of the things were all in progress.

But no matter what, in the past ten years, I have been excited and excited, lost and desperate, and my original intention has never changed.

Even when I was lying in the hotel playing games day and night, I always remembered that when I got through this period, I would go to find my little brother.

I didn't feel it when I walked this section of the road, but when I looked back suddenly, I was amazed at my determination.

Seeing that I didn't speak for a long time, Poker bottle said: "You are remembering."

I nodded, not surprised he thought of me, he must have had a similar experience to mine.

"You shouldn't have to go through these things." Poker bottle said, "But now you are no longer the original person, and it is impossible to forget these things."

I suddenly wanted to laugh, it's always a strange feeling to be uttered in such an objective tone by Poker.

"Isn't this part of your plan?" I said, "Do you really think you can trade my life for ten years of my innocence?"

Poker bottle is noncommittal, seeing him like this makes me want to laugh even more.

Ten years, full of dark memories, so many that I have ignored them, but when I heard what Pokerfing said, I couldn't help but think of those things.

In the past ten years, I have experienced so much pain and suffered so much grievance, all because of this person in front of me, and his original intention for doing all this is to hope that I can remain innocent forever.

What a beautiful and painful misunderstanding.

"You don't have to be sorry, I don't blame you." As I said, I waved my hand symbolically, "I didn't even think that I would be like this in this matter. I don't know if I hit the south wall hundreds of times. I still don’t know how to look back, it’s not a bad thing for me, after all, I’m going to enter the industry sooner or later, at least for now, anyone who wants to touch me has to weigh it carefully.”

Poker bottle suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed my arm. I was stunned for a moment and then realized that I wanted to withdraw my hand, but of course it was impossible.

He rolled up my sleeves, and the seventeen scars on my arms were nakedly presented in front of him.