so many crushes

Rooftop is a good place, you can choose to commit suicide by going on a date.

The sun is bright but not dazzling, casting circles of halos, the sky is impoverished, and a few white gauze-like clouds are carried away by the wind, elegant and fairy-like, standing here seems to be able to touch the azure blue.The panoramic view of the school is panoramic, giving people a sense of conquest that will be overwhelming.

He Qiduo propped his hands on the railing, narrowed his eyes slightly, feeling the comfort of the breeze blowing on his face.

As soon as Shu Mufeng came up, he saw such a picture. The young man leaning on the railing was wearing a simple white shirt, enjoying the comfortable time with his eyes closed, his sharp-edged side face, if it is harsh, it will be resolute, and if it is soft, it will be soft Then sissy.

The slightly raised corners of his mouth indicated that he was very relaxed at the moment, and the restless wind lifted the corners of his clothes, but he didn't care at all.Because he comes and goes freely like the wind, unrestrained and unrestrained.

He Qiduo noticed that there was someone behind him, and when he turned his head to find that it was Shu Mufeng, the smile on his face became alienated and formulaic, "You are here."

Shu Mufeng doesn't like He Qiduo's smile very much, just like the fake smile before, but he seems to have forgotten that it was he who tore apart He Qiduo's sincere smile with his own hands.

"So much, let's stay the same as before." Shu Mufeng made a lot of determination to say this sentence, as proud as him, never bowed his head to anyone, but touched the bottom line again and again because of so much.He was a little scared, but he couldn't help thinking about it, so that the two became what they are now.

He Qiduo's eyes were bent into crescents, and his tone was indeed sarcastic, "Shu Mufeng, does it hurt to slap your face?"

Shu Mufeng was stunned, He Qiduo had never spoken to him in this tone before, and both of them fell into silence for a moment.

"Did you forget what you said to me before? Then let me remind you." After He Qiduo laughed, his eyes were cold, and he repeated Shu Mufeng's words verbatim, "I want to try to be with you Homosexuality is normal, but I find that everything I see when I come here is so disgusting. Don't come near me anymore, I can't accept a friend who likes men."

"No!" Shu Mufeng hurriedly defended, his face gradually pale.

"Do you think I won't be in pain?" He Qiduo said very softly, the words gradually dissipated in the wind.

"I..." Those words he said were not intended, but the damage to He Qiduo was indelible. He stared at He Qiduo with a serious expression, "I have my concerns."

"Yeah, your identity makes you have to look forward and backward. Pressure from your family, public opinion from society, and curses from homophobic people. These are nothing. I can face it with you, or even replace you. Bear all the invective and curse."

He Qiduo saw other feelings in Shu Mufeng's flat eyes all year round, and he smiled wryly and raised his forehead, "But you don't even dare to try."

"How much..." Shu Mufeng wanted to pull He Qiduo's hand, but he avoided it.

"You see, I have said so much, but there is no 'sorry'. Because you think that you are not wrong. If I stand in your point of view, the choice is probably the same as yours, but I will not be so radical, let alone lose Make a decision after careful consideration. So I'm glad we're not together."

Shu Mufeng was speechless.

When He Qiduo walked to the stairs, he said: "I will cosplay "Flowers Without Words". After the release, we will be strangers."

If there are so many questions, does he hate Shu Mufeng?He definitely answered hate, no one would repay a grievance with virtue like that, but this hatred was not unforgettable. As he said, he would also consider the issue from Shu Mufeng's perspective, so he quickly came to the conclusion that they were not suitable.

Thinking about it from another angle, maybe the reason I don’t hate so much is because I don’t love so much.There are so many noncommittals, he never lets himself suffer, especially in terms of relationships, anyway, he is not in a hurry to fall in love, and DIYs when he needs it. □□ Well said, do it yourself.

If you don't do it deliberately in college, you don't have so many chance encounters. Most people only make friends with roommates or clubs, and there are countless classmates who can't name each other.

He Qiduo had no intention of getting close to Shu Mufeng, and because he lived off-campus, he and Shu Mufeng hadn't seen each other for three whole years.

Many things can be changed in three years, or they can remain unchanged. This is true for Shu Mufeng, and it is also true for so many things.

But what is certain is that getting along day and night will enhance the relationship. Compared with He Qiduo and Qiao Shangsi, they are now as close as brothers.

He Qiduo saw Shu Mufeng when he was called to take graduation photos, and felt that he was more indifferent than before, as if he had his own enchantment to isolate everyone.

Shu Mufeng also saw him, seemed hesitant to speak, looked at each other for a few seconds, then He Qiduo sighed, and stood at the designated position.

Unlike Shu Mufeng, He Qiduo is very popular in the class, even for those who cannot be named, he can talk and laugh happily, and then slowly come up with names.

At the end, He Qiduo didn't talk to Shu Mufeng, and the two passed each other in a tacit understanding.

There is also a graduation party in the evening, and socialites like He Qiduo will definitely attend.

At the dinner table, the classmates who hadn't said anything before became warm almost overnight.That's right, after all, people's hearts are not rocks, and they've been in the same group for four years. The sad word of graduation will more or less affect the emotions of everyone present, because it's very likely that they will never see each other again.

"He Qiduo, I offer you a toast!" The squad leader put his arms around He Qiduo's shoulders in a particularly heroic manner, and enthusiastically handed a glass of white wine to him.

There was so much to shirk, so I had no choice but to take it and drank it all. There was a burning feeling in my throat after the wine passed.

"You are a big celebrity in our class. The teachers all say that you will be promising in the future. Don't forget the friendship of your classmates!"

"Definitely!" He Qiduo showed his signature smile.

Shu Mufeng must not be absent from the graduation party. At this time, he was sitting at the other end of the dinner table, eating quietly, which was in stark contrast to the excitement around him.

"By the way, what's going on with you and Shu Mufeng?" The squad leader suddenly lowered his voice and asked.

He Qiduo couldn't respond to this sudden question, "Huh?"

"Aren't you guys Tie Brothers before? You were still in the same dormitory, you played with him in class, why didn't you play with him later?"

He Qiduo took a bite of the food indifferently, "Let's quarrel."

The monitor touched his head and smiled, "Let me tell you, there were several girls in our class who were always excitedly discussing your things, and then I also felt that you..."

"Then what?" He Qiduo asked knowingly.

"That's what... homosexuality!"

"What about now?" He Qiduo raised his eyebrows noncommittally.

The squad leader thought about it for a moment, and then said solemnly: "Probably not."

He Qiduo smiled and patted the monitor on the shoulder, "Don't waste time on me alone, there are so many classmates."

The squad leader nodded, and began to bond with the next one, He Qiduo finally freed up to observe Shu Mufeng.

Not quite.

Although Shu Mufeng usually said that he was indifferent, he would not be hostile to anyone, but the way he looked at the monitor just now showed strong disgust.

jealous?He Qiduo felt that the idea that popped up in his mind was a bit funny, it had been so many years.