lover forty

"Uncle, let's break up." In the coffee shop, Shen Lou said to the 40-year-old man in front of him.But the other party looked puzzled, and simply asked, "Why?"

Uncle Chang Cai is 40 years old and Shen Lou is 30 years old.The two are a gay couple who have dated for more than a year.Uncle Chang Cai thought he hadn't done anything to offend the other party.But suddenly one day when he was told to break up, he was puzzled and puzzled.And look at yourself, is not doing well enough.Therefore, he continued to question Shen Lou, who looked constipated: "Why? Am I not doing well enough?"

Shen Lou looked at this middle-aged man, and countless swear words flashed in his heart - of course, these swear words were directed at himself.

Uncle Chang Cai didn't do anything to offend him. On the contrary, he cheated on his lover behind his back and hooked up with other men.He knew he was a scumbag, a rotten person.But it is precisely because of this that he clearly understands what kind of person he is, so he is unwilling to continue this relationship.Every time, when he pushed the uncle down on the bed and saw the innocent and shy blushing of the other party, he didn't dare to take the next step.

He couldn't bear to tarnish this pure white person, nor could he go forward and hurt him.Therefore, before he, a rotten person, makes a big mistake, let's break up and make a clean break.

The other party's questioning seemed to put him on the rack and torture him.He gritted his teeth, showed an evil face, and poked his lover's face and cursed: "Because you are old, stupid, ugly and like to cry secretly, and you have no interest. So, I don't want to waste my good time and years on you on..."

Cursing and cursing, he saw tears welling up in the uncle's dark eyes, he wished he could slap himself.

Look, the uncle obviously did nothing wrong.He stuck a knife in the opponent's body.One day, he will be punished.

"From now on, you will never have any relationship with me. You are not allowed to pester me again!" Shen Lou said angrily.

Uncle Chang Cai nodded, shaking his lips and said, "Okay." Then, he asked, "Then your things..."

"Throw it away! Throw it all away! I don't want to leave my things with you!"

"……it is good."

After scolding, Shen Lou walked out in big strides. On the way, he accidentally tripped over the table leg and fell to the ground.He cursed and walked away.

Uncle Chang Cai looked at the disappearing back of the other party, and understood that this time he really broke up in love.He felt extremely uncomfortable.He liked Shen Lou, but he didn't expect that within a year, he would despise him as an old man, which made him feel like a knife pierced his heart.The reality also hit him hard, making him realize clearly that at an older age, perhaps, he is no longer qualified to have love.

In fact, in the past 40 years, he has only been in love twice.When he was 34 years old, he had a boyfriend in his 20s.But the other party is not gay.This man is an abandoned house, he just wants to find someone to support him.And he, who is pure in feelings, has become the target of the other party.That little boyfriend lived with him and ate him. They had never kissed before, and because he was shy about this aspect, he never took the initiative to mention it.As a matter of course, the little boyfriend became a little emperor who did nothing at home.Until, he saw the other party kissing a girl outside.Only then did I realize that I was deceived by the other party, and then drove the other party out of the house.

The object of the second love is Shen Lou who just broke up.The two are ten years apart, and they met on the subway.Get off work on the same subway and sit in the same position.Over time, we chatted.

It may be the intuition of the same sex, so after being exposed by Shen Lou, he was flustered.But when the other party also confessed that he was gay, he was relieved.

After several appointments, Shen Lou confessed to him.After that, the two lived together.

Shen Lou is an interesting person, and he would still make out with him, but he never made it to the last step.

He thought that he would spend the rest of his life with Shen Lou.Unexpectedly, the life span of this love is so short.In just one year, he was already dead.

He is uncomfortable, in pain.Time is cruel, whether it is a man or a woman.Once they reach the age of 40 and still have no love, perhaps what awaits them is the end of walking alone.

Drink your cold coffee.Uncle Chang Cai walked out of the coffee shop.In the hustle and bustle of the city, the sun is shining brightly outside, and there are people in a hurry on the road.They have different expressions and are running around for their own lives.

On the way home, I went to the supermarket to buy three bottles of beer. As soon as I entered the community, a dog came to beg for food.He said in embarrassment: "There is nothing to eat today."

The dog barked "Wow, woof" and didn't stop until the security guard in the duty room pulled it away.

The house he bought is on the fifth floor, with two bedrooms and one living room, more than 60 square meters. He bought it with a personal loan and still has three years to pay off the loan.When I opened the door, I saw two pairs of men's slippers. Not only that, but in the past year, the daily necessities for one person have become two people's.But now, he no longer needs it.If these things are left behind, it will only make him more sad.Therefore, after putting down the beer, he got a cardboard box and put Shen Lou's slippers, towels, toothbrush, clothes, etc. in it.After packing, send the contents of this box to the trash can downstairs.When I returned home, I lost one of my belongings, and the house was quite empty.In an instant, he returned to the days of living alone.

"Ah, it's still as good as this." Uncle Chang Cai said.But the tingling in my heart can't deceive myself.

He opened a bottle of beer and drank it, and he couldn't help crying.

"Wooooow...I'm just an old man...I'm crying and stupid..."

The suppressed emotion finally broke out.He cried, drank, and scolded himself.He knows that his character is simple and weak, and he wants to change it, but he just can't change it.

"Woooooooooo... bastard Shen Lou, you bastard..."

Shen Lou called him old, ugly and stupid.In fact, he was old and kind of stupid.But he is not ugly.Shen Lou's aesthetics is normal, if he is really ugly, he will not be with a man who is already forty years old.

Uncle Chang Cai was a thin scholar in ancient times.In modern times, he is a thin and gentle uncle.Moreover, he does not look old.If you wear a pair of glasses in school, you are a young and promising professor.

But he is not, he is just an ordinary office worker.I run my business conscientiously every day, and I have to work overtime until night.Because of his old age, he has to work more than twice as much as the young people so that he will not lose his job.Moreover, there are still three years of mortgage waiting for him to repay.Therefore, how dare you lose your job.You must know that employment in this society is cruel to older people.

After drinking three bottles of beer, Uncle Chang Cai fell drunk and fell asleep on the ground.

He thought vaguely that he must get up early to go to work tomorrow.The boss of the company is a harsh person, and he wanted him out a long time ago.

Uncle Chang Cai hasn't had a dream for a long time.Tonight, he had another dream, and it was still a nightmare related to feelings.The dream was a nightmare of his college career.In his fourth year of college, he tremblingly confessed his love to a boy who was close to him. After hearing this, the boy was taken aback for a moment, and then showed a disgusted expression.Immediately scold him disgusting homosexual.

Hearing the other party's humiliation, Uncle Chang Cai seemed to have fallen into a cold hell.They have played together for three years, even if they can't accept him, they can't scold him like that.

And so began the last bad semester of his college career.That person spread the news that he was gay throughout the school, and suddenly he became a celebrity in the school, and everyone shunned him, as if he was avoiding the plague.Even the teacher didn't have a good face towards him.

At that time, he didn't understand what he did wrong.He didn't hurt others, but his sexual orientation was a man.Why did they mock and hurt him so much?

In order to humiliate him, the man also brought other brothers to block his way, beat him up, and wanted to take off his pants to pee on him.If it weren't for a first-year boy sitting on the wall laughing at them, maybe he really got pissed on his face.As a result, the first-year student was pulled down from the wall by those people and beaten.The junior beat those people by himself, but his face was also stained.

Afterwards, he found out that this junior was as famous as he was in school.This so-called "celebrity" does not have a good reputation.The other party's notoriety is that he goes to school with a bunch of adult products every day, doesn't attend class, and tinkers with that pile of shameful things.Therefore, he became a pervert that everyone spread wildly.

That junior is called... what is his name?He didn't remember, he even, couldn't even remember the other person's appearance.

But it was precisely because of the existence of this junior that everyone turned their attention from him to that junior, allowing him to breathe.

At the moment of graduation, he was freed.

Enter social work and become an ordinary office worker.He carefully concealed his sexual orientation, but was tricked and tricked by a kid.And the second relationship ended without a problem.

Floating in the nightmare of the black abyss, Uncle Chang Cai unconsciously shed tears from the corners of his eyes.

Waking up in a daze the next day, he had a splitting headache, and couldn't help but mutter: "Drinking can really relieve your worries." His head hurts so much, can he worry about other things?For him, obviously not.

I went to the kitchen and poured a glass of water to drink, and I was quite awake.Realizing that it’s bright outside—now, what time is it?

Go back to the living room and pick up the phone to have a look.

"Ten o'clock!" he exclaimed in panic.He hurriedly brushed his teeth, washed his face, changed his clothes, picked up his briefcase and rushed out of the house.

Uncle Chang Cai, who has always lived frugally, did not squeeze the subway this time.He took a taxi to the company.When he arrived at the company, he saw the current young boss waiting for him as soon as he entered the door.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Sun, I'm late this morning."

He had been in the company for ten years, and after the former boss retired, his son took over.The slick young boss pointed at him happily and said, "You, you're fired!"

Uncle Chang Cai seemed to be struck by lightning and froze in place.