so you love me

Joan's face appeared on the big screen. He was obviously relieved, but he was not overly surprised. After all, with the gap he got in the online voting, even if he only accounted for half of the score, unless someone can vote higher than him in the judges' vote 30.00%, otherwise the award must be his.

He smiled and stood up, Du Junjie had rushed to hug him, he also turned around and hugged Du Junjie, then hugged Li Yi, thanked the people around him for their blessings, left his seat and walked to the stage.

When passing by Xu Yi, Gao Xun, and Han Yaxin, the three of them hugged him respectively. Gao Haozheng and Chen Zi were too far away to care about it. When he stood on the podium and looked at the dense crowd of heads below, he couldn't even breathe. is trembling.

Not counting a single award, this is the third time he stands on this podium.

The first time was when he first debuted and won the most popular group award. When five people came to the stage to accept the award, he was squeezed to the side. He didn’t touch the trophy at all, and even the acceptance speech was because of those teammates. They are crazy about stealing the spotlight without him, only in the group photo, there is a little sense of presence.

The second time was in the following year, and the same award was fought to the death with the combination of the second draft. The most popular award was only counted as online voting. Similarly, he was marginalized again.

From now on, all awards have nothing to do with them.

Six years later, he once again stood on the podium. This time he stood alone behind the podium, receiving all the attention and blessings from everyone. The trophy was in his hand, and the microphone was on his lips.

He took a deep breath to calm down, and began to give his acceptance speech: "Thank you for everyone's support and love, and thank you for all the fans who worked hard to vote for me. Without you, I might have left this place a long time ago, and I wouldn't stick to it today. It is even more impossible to get this award.

"To be honest, although I was mentally prepared to win this award...don't say I'm thick-skinned (audience laughs) hahaha...but really, I didn't get down to it until now. I don't know what happened , Maybe I was really scared in the past few years, I always feel that things that seem to be close at hand may slip away in the next second.

"It wasn't until I received this trophy that I felt it. Why? Because this trophy is very heavy (laughs from the audience), really heavy, not only in my hands, but also in my heart.

"I'm pretending to be rebellious and deep. Have you ever thought about why it's called a trophy? It's obviously not a cup? Why is it called a trophy? Why can't it be something else? Why can't it be a prize microphone, a prize record, or something else? Where are the award winners from the actors?"

Many people have never thought about the question he mentioned. After all, it has been called this way for many years. As for why it is called so, is it important?not.

Joan said: "I didn't think about it until I got this heavy trophy today, is it because there is something in this trophy?

"Is it glory? Is it full of glory? You get glory when you get the trophy? I don't think so.

"It's anticipation.

"It's all the fans, all the friends, all the people who support you, the expectation for you to get this trophy, so this trophy is very heavy, because everyone's expectations are packed in it.

"I can't say until the moment I pick up this trophy that I lived up to your expectations.

"Thank you for waiting for me."

Joan bowed deeply holding the trophy, and there was thunderous applause from the audience, but the chicken soup-like content was said very sincerely by the young man, so it didn't look greasy at all.

After straightening up, Joan smiled mischievously, shook the trophy in his hand and said, "The one who looks forward to the most, quite handsome little brother, go back and put it in the treasure room for you."

The audience laughed again, and the host also smiled and went on stage to conduct an interview: "How does life feel after marriage?"

Joan replied calmly: "It's pretty good."

"Are you happy?"

"Of course I'm happy."

"Oh~~That's right, after all Mr. Gu has such a good figure, he must have good physical fitness~~"

Joan was taken aback for a moment, and then realized that the host was driving a baby carriage, sighed fiercely, bit her lower lip, and looked away pretending to be unhappy, until the laughter in the audience subsided a little before saying in embarrassment: " You are very gossip!"

"Hahahahaha!" The host laughed, "It will be your performance later, have you prepared any songs?"

Joan nodded and replied, "Yes."

"Is it a new song?"

"Correct."

"Oh—it's very exciting! Is it for Mr. Gu?"

Joan bit her lower lip again, her eyes drifted to the sky, and she smiled shyly.

The host immediately understood: "Oh~~~I understand. Okay, let's let Qiao An go down and prepare, and look forward to his new song."

Qiao An nodded, turned around and was about to step off the stage, when she suddenly turned to the microphone: "I almost forgot."

"What?" the host asked hurriedly.

Joan looked for a seat, smiled meaningfully at the machine that was playing, and said, "Next time, wear that suit."

Then the thief smiled and quickly slipped away.

The host chased him and asked, "What do you mean?" But Qiao An ignored him, and the host asked the audience with a puzzled face, "Does any of you know?"

All said no.

Several of Joan's friends were questioned by people nearby. Everyone at the scene, including those watching the live broadcast in front of the screen, were extremely curious. The bullet screen frantically called Joan's fans to come out and answer, but no one knew what this sentence was mean.

The only person who knew was already ecstatic and about to faint in front of the computer.

After handing over the compiled accompaniment to the backstage, Joan took the microphone to the stage again, waved to the audience and said, "Hi, it's me again."

The people in the audience laughed face-to-face, and Qiao An said with a smile: "Actually, the recording of this song has not yet been completed. It is really a very new song. Now it is just an accompaniment, so when I sing it later, if you are here All the senior teachers heard that something is not right, I hope you don't know."

The senior teachers were almost laughed to death by Qiao An. I really didn't expect that cowardly boy who was obsequious could talk and joke on such an important occasion.

"Maybe I've been afraid to have answers

Maybe love is quietly spinning in the wind

leave relieved

very briefly and again

sometimes ask yourself

......"

He once asked himself in fear, is it really necessary to persevere?Does anyone really like him?Really... is there still a chance?

The anxiety in his heart has always tormented him, making him fail to find those who have always loved him and waited for him, but now he knows that not only there are people who like him, but there are many.

"I don't want trouble to drive us apart

I blame myself for not being brave

Sorry did not arrive

Hug or still afraid

Push you away, I still stay

......"

When he first met Gu Yan, he even thought that Gu Yan was one of those people who like to support starlets to show off their wealth and status. He didn't dare to accept any kindness from the other party, and he couldn't believe that someone would love without asking for anything in return. look at yourself.

However, the facts have proved everything. Gu Yan loves him like that without asking for anything in return, as well as the parents he misunderstood, and the fans he thought had given up on him.

"The moment there was a ray of light

what hurts

Your sight is understanding

Why don't you let it go out?

I am against the light

but see

That's tears, that power

I don't want to resist anymore

Facing hope against the light

where love exists

always there

beside me

......"

But even if he was misunderstood, whether it was Gu Yan or his parents, they all understood his guard and alienation, always thought of him, and paid for him in places he didn't know.

Even if he failed in anything and fell into self-pity and despair, they always believed in him, supported him, and watched him from afar. When he finally raised his head, they realized that he had been surrounded by love all along.

"I thought I could step back

repeatedly proved

how wrong this love is

so dark with your back

hold back exhaustion

open your eyes open the window

I just realized that you are the light

......"

This song is sung to Gu Yan, but not only to Gu Yan, but also to his parents, his friends, and his fans, thanking them for their company all the time; Love, and people who are too pessimistic to think they can't get love.

When you feel that there is darkness in front of you and there is no hope, please look back, maybe you are just heading in the wrong direction and ignore the light behind you.

"The moment there was a ray of light

what hurts

Your sight is understanding

Why don't you let it go out?

I am against the light

but see

That's tears, that power

I don't want to resist anymore

Facing hope against the light

where love exists

always there

beside me

Ray

you are the light"

Although it has not been recorded yet, Qiao An personally participated in the arrangement and wrote the lyrics. With his singing skills, it is very difficult to make mistakes, and the singing was successfully completed without any accidents.

Those who watched the live broadcast felt more or less lucky that this was the first time this song was sung, and more importantly, they also confirmed the special meaning of this song with their own eyes and ears.

Now no one will question whether Qiao An and Gu Yan are true love. The only thing worth arguing is whether Gu Yan has paid too much for Qiao An. His fans will inevitably be a little dissatisfied, thinking that Qiao An has no dedication to Gu Yan , completely accepting Gu Yan's favor for granted.

Of course, Gu Yan is willing and they have nothing to do. After all, Gu Yan is not an idol star, and they can completely ignore their opinions. However, Qiao An publicly showed his love to Gu Yan on such an important occasion, and they have some psychological comfort. At least if Qiao An When you want to do something to be sorry for Gu Yan, you have to carefully weigh the faces you show.

It never occurred to them that Gu Yan could control such a large company, how could he give everything to one person casually, and how could he be easily manipulated by others.

After the awards ceremony, the new song was recorded and launched immediately, and it quickly occupied the major charts without any publicity, especially when many people found out that Qiao An wrote the lyrics and arranged the music. Thinking about Qiao An saying that this song was sung for Gu Yan, So while listening to and guessing the story between them, I can feel Gu Yan's love for Qiao An even more.

He Xiaoxi, Han Yaxin, Anna, Xu Zishan, and even Ms. Pandora, these women communicated with each other if they had something to do, and they all joined forces to make side-effects on Qiao An, trying to find out what else Gu Yan had done for Qiao An besides what was on the surface. How did Qiao An go from resisting to showing love to him openly, and by the way, he also wondered whether his married life was really "happy".

Joan is very tired every day.

The author has something to say: Stefanie Sun - "Backlight"

This song is also very good.

It’s the first time to update for two consecutive days, but unfortunately no one can feel this kind of surprise [picking nose]