so you love me

He spoke easily, but the two people who heard it were shocked. He Xiaoxi opened his mouth slightly, watching Qiao An speechless, and didn't know why he suddenly said this.

Joan said with a smile: "At the beginning, my parents opposed me entering the entertainment industry. They thought the entertainment industry was too complicated. I must not be able to do it well. It was just a waste of time. I was always hesitant, wondering whether I should take this step. One step. Until I saw the movie played by Brother Xu, which is the one where the boxer perseveres and finally wins the championship.

"At that time, I saw light in Brother Xu's eyes, which was the persistence and pursuit of dreams.

"Since then, I have been a fan of Brother Xu, and I have been practicing quietly by myself, and finally I mustered up the courage to participate in the draft competition.

"Although I had conflicts with my parents because of this, they still haven't recognized me until now...But I really don't have anything worthy of their recognition...I debuted as an idol for seven years and didn't have much popularity. Basically, I have been sentenced to death... "

He still kept smiling, but his voice was choked with sobs, and his eyes became moist again.

"Actually, I was ready to give up." Joan said.

"However, Mr. Gu suddenly bought our company, and hired Supervisor Xia to be the supervisor, to formulate a more suitable development route and plan for us, allowing me to go solo and transform into singing, which I am good at, without having to worry about dancing. , I really think this is a huge opportunity and I don't want to let them down.

"Furthermore, brother Xu recommended me to the crew for the theme song this time, and all my performances represent his vision.

"I can't embarrass him..."

Qiao An's voice was trembling and fluttering, and it was a little vague in Zhang Xu's ears, but he could still feel Qiao An's urgent determination.

The mood suddenly became very complicated.

The movie Joan mentioned was the first movie he starred in. At that time, he was only 22 years old and had just graduated from college. He had no qualifications other than a dozen or so roles, let alone fame. It was because of the favor of the teacher and the crew. It was only because of the financial problem that he was able to play the leading actor.

His acting skills are remarkable, and the script doesn't have too many flaws, but after all, it's a low-budget film co-produced by an unknown newcomer director and unknown newcomer actors. , but the box office was very mediocre, only attracted a few dozen poor fans to him, and did not cause any storms.

And this kid who was regarded as the object of his calculations has always liked him since then, and even fell out with his parents and entered the entertainment industry because of this; he was scolded for this theme song, humiliated, and tried his best to find the feeling of depression. The reason is that I don't want to embarrass myself.

How...how could there be such a stupid person...

Zhang Xu let out a long breath, and went downstairs lightly.

In the evening, Joan, whose voice was hoarse due to excessive use of her voice, went back to the dormitory early, sat on the bed after cleaning and continued to search for those real tragic stories, but in fact, most people are not as contagious as professional writers The writing style and the stories written are not as sad as they have experienced, and Joan needs to make up for it by himself.

Suddenly received a message on WeChat, Qiao An thought it was Gong Lizhou who came to inform him that he would take Xu Ming or the original team members to run the announcement tomorrow, and asked him to arrange refueling exercises by himself, or He Xiaoxi told him not to practice any more and to rest early, but Never expected that it was Zhang Xu who sent the message.

Brother Xu: kid

Brother Xu: Have you found the feeling?

Qiao An sat up from the state of half leaning against the head of the bed, moving her fingers around on the keyboard, but didn't know where to start, and finally sent a sentence: It's almost there, thank you Brother Xu.

But Zhang Xu replied: Don't lie to me, kid

There is also a picture behind it, which is an emoji package made by fans using his photo. In the photo, he is slightly frowning and serious, staring in a certain direction. It's not simple."

Joan laughed outright.

He also has this emoji, and there are different versions, all of which are picked up from the fan base. Usually, when he uses it himself, he doesn’t think it’s a big deal, but when he sees Zhang Xu using it himself, he finds it very funny, and he also thinks it’s the same as the emoji. The relationship between the other party suddenly became closer.

Joan returned with a smile: I'm sorry, I still don't feel anything...but how did Brother Xu know?

Brother Xu: I am very concerned about you. I can tell what state you are in at a glance.

Qiao An was taken aback for a moment, and suddenly felt blushing and heart beating, and even looked around the room guiltily, as if Zhang Xu was really standing by and staring at him.

It was probably because he hadn't responded to the message for a long time, so Zhang Xu sent another message: Well, it's actually because your teacher Xu scolded me, and I blamed me for finding a problem for you and leaving it alone.

Seeing this sentence, Qiao An smiled happily. Xu Yi was really good to him. He not only paid attention to him in class, but also chatted with him about some life matters during breaks. Knowing that he couldn't feel it, he ran to question Zhang Xu. Exactly like what a teacher would do.

So I went back to: Thank you, teacher, for your concern, for causing trouble to Brother Xu again

Zhang Xu asked: Tell me first how you feel about that song

Qiao An: The song is very nice, the music is soothing and slightly sad, and the lyrics are spoken to a lover who has moved on. The main emotion should be sadness, the loss after being abandoned, right?

Brother Xu: You have analyzed it so clearly, why can’t you find the feeling?

Joan: Maybe it's because I haven't experienced it, so I can't express it...

Brother Xu: Have you never been in love?

Joan: No...

Zhang Xu looked at this conversation and thought for a while, and asked: When we first met, you sang the song "Lonely and lonely", how did you get it?

Qiao An was silent for a long time, and replied: Brother Xu, I don't want to go into too much detail, I feel very hypocritical, it's not the feeling of being in love anyway.

Zhang Xu said: I don’t want to ask in detail, but I just want to say that in fact, many songs have many emotions, and different people will have different tastes when they sing. I believe you understand this better than me. It's a song about love, but you can sing a feeling that isn't love.

Qiao An realized something after reading this passage. Indeed, he seemed to be too limited to the surface of the lyrics, blindly pursuing love that he was not good at.

Zhang Xu continued: In fact, the best is the same. On the surface, it is about love, but the core of the real summary is, "No matter how I do the best, you can't see it. For you, I have done a lot." It doesn't matter if it's good or not." If you look at it this way, it doesn't necessarily have to be love.

Brother Xu: In fact, this movie was not originally a romance movie, so you don’t have to pursue the feeling of love. Director Su is very willful. If you can sing other flavors to make him listen, according to your song It is not impossible to change the script.

Joan seemed to have caught some feelings.

His loneliness comes from what he has experienced in these years. He has no popularity and no works. He will not be recognized when he walks on the road. It was the same, and he didn't have anyone to tell his heartache, no one cared whether he was sad, so he could only hide in the dark and try to repair the wound in his heart.

If you change the best, don't understand it from the perspective of love...

Zhang Xu on the opposite side did not send any more messages, leaving room for Qiao An to think for himself. After a long time, he finally received a reply: I see, thank you brother Xu, I will find out how I feel.

So he replied with a smile: Come on, I am looking forward to it.

Qiao An lay sideways on the bed and looked at the mobile phone, watching Zhang Xu send him a long three-paragraph analysis, considerately did not follow up, and finally cheered, half-closed his eyes and seemed to cry and laugh.

Sure enough, brother Xu is a very good person.

Several days later, Zhang Xu was called by Su Zhihe to go to the recording studio together.

"What's the situation?" Zhang Xu asked, "The kid took the initiative to ask for the exam?"

Su Zhihe gave him a sideways look: "What? Are you afraid that he won't be qualified?"

Zhang Xu smiled and said, "I have nothing to be afraid of. Whether he is qualified or not doesn't affect me. I'm just curious."

Only then did the producer say: "That kid didn't ask for it. Old Deng asked Director Su to come and listen. He doesn't know how to make a conclusion."

"Teacher Deng is so hesitant?" Zhang Xu said in surprise.

Sound director and soundtrack composer Deng Wanru is Su Zhihe's partner for many years, probably because of the influence of Director Su, Deng Wanru has become more and more decisive and more... fierce, although the right to make the final decision is still in the Su Zhihe, but basically Deng Wanru's decision was consistent with Su Zhihe's.

This time, he couldn't make up his mind whether he could give it to Qiao An, and he didn't know what amazing move the kid made.

When the three of them walked into the recording studio, Joan was already standing inside. He saw them entering the door wearing earphones and bending over to say hello. After they sat down on the sofa, they gestured to the sound engineer. Then he opened his mouth and sang softly.

"The best has already been given to you

best friend says i'm bored

that's the best way

Anyway, it's fine if you don't want it

......"

Zhang Xu looked at Qiao An in surprise.

It was completely different from the grief and pain of being powerless for the first time. He chose a rather relaxed, even lazy state to sing. Even his always clear voice seemed a little sticky, lingering around his ears and refusing to let it go. Go, and at the same time he seems to have given up on the subject of sadness, and has become calm and indifferent, as if he is indifferent to everything.

"I can't tell if he is more suitable than me.

suitable for this moment

Or he knows better than me to make you happy

maybe not eligible

I can only forget

I know

no surprises

perhaps……"

It wasn't until the treble part of the chorus that there was a slight struggle. I wanted to redeem it but felt that I didn't have the bargaining chip to impress the other party, so I could only think to myself: Maybe he is really more suitable than me.

"most

don't remember

the best

don't remember

the best

don't remember

I……"

Don’t remember repeating it three times, each time is softer than the first time, I don’t know if it is telling the other party or persuading myself, the last word I is so light that it is almost inaudible, like a sigh, and also like the last obsession that finally dissipated.

Joan sang the whole song very softly. It is not so much sadness as self-pity. It is persuasion and hypnosis to himself when he has given up and cannot give up. And stop, people can't help giving birth to a feeling of unfinished business.

Zhang Xu looked deeply at Qiao An, who had some wet eyes, and suddenly wanted to find out what made him so lonely and helpless. At the same time, he also felt that he might have misunderstood him. Maybe Qiao An was really gentle and soft. almost to an inferiority complex.

"The singer's actor hasn't been decided yet?" Su Zhihe said suddenly, and turned to talk to the producer, "Ask him to see if he is interested in playing that role."