so you love me

Putting on a mask and hat, he continued all the way to the lobby without a word. Zhang Xu said, "I'll take you back to the company."

Joan smiled and refused: "No, I have someone to pick it up."

Zhang Xu didn't believe it: "Who? Xiaoxi? Doesn't she know how to drive?"

That's right, even the people inside the company don't know Zhang Zexun's true identity, so how could Zhang Xu know.

Just as he was about to explain, the door of the hotel was pushed open forcefully, and the movement was so loud that everyone in the lobby looked over at the same time, including Qiao An and Zhang Xu.

The slender figure was panting, with an anxious expression on his face. His ice blue eyes scanned the lobby. Just as he was about to walk in, he saw Qiao An and Zhang Xu standing in front of the elevator.

He immediately calmed down and stood there without even stepping forward, as if the panicked person just now wasn't him.

Qiao An looked at Gu Yan in surprise, not knowing why he appeared here, but he came at the right time, so Qiao An turned to look at Zhang Xu again, shrugged with an innocent smile, and pointed at Gu Yan to signal to him : "Then... I'll go first. Goodbye Brother Xu."

Zhang Xu smiled and nodded, even though he clearly saw Qiao An's eyes were full of surprise just now.But he knew better that even if he wanted to keep him, it would be meaningless, as his little friend no longer belonged to him.

Watching Qiao An's back walk to Gu Yan's side, and then meeting Gu Yan's eyes, the cold and hostile look in Zhang Xu's heart made Zhang Xu understand: So this guy also likes Qiao An, but the dignified president came to pick up an artist himself. I'm not afraid of being discovered by paparazzi.

Following Gu Yan to the side of his car and sitting in the co-driver, Qiao An's calmness that he had propped up when facing Zhang Xu suddenly dissipated, and turned into guilt and apology.Although he had clearly rejected Gu Yan, he was using him to get rid of Zhang Xu after all, and it was in a way that could easily be misunderstood, which was always not good.

So Qiao An summoned up the courage to apologize: "That... I'm sorry, Mr. Gu, just now I..."

He was interrupted before he finished speaking, and Gu Yan hugged Qiao An so tightly that he could barely breathe, but his guilty conscience and awe of his own president made him dare not struggle hard.

"I thought..." Gu Yan said suddenly, his voice was full of fear, "I thought you would get back together with him..."

God knows how flustered he was when Zhang Zexun told him that Qiao An and Zhang Xu were left alone, especially after seeing the photos on the Internet of Zhang Xu hugging him intimately.Even if he has been rejected, even if he knows that he has no position, he still leaves the work at hand and runs over regardless, not knowing whether he wants to stop or confirm.

Fortunately, fortunately, Qiao An rejected Zhang Xu. Watching Qiao An leave Zhang Xu and slowly walk towards him, he didn't care whether he was being used as a cover at all, but felt that his heart was bubbling.

He gave up the man he liked so much and chose himself, although it was only for this moment, between the two of them.

Qiao An couldn't quite understand why he was so excited, he turned his head awkwardly, twisted and struggled a few times, Gu Yan finally came back to his senses, noticed his discomfort, and suppressed the excitement in his heart. Reluctant, let him go and sit back to the driver's seat.

"Sorry." Gu Yan said.

Joan nodded at him in fear, and said hesitantly, "No, it's okay..."

Gu Yan started the car and said softly, "I'll take you back to the company."

Joan nodded and thanked him again.

Biting her lip and struggling for a long time, Qiao An still felt that she should speak more clearly to Gu Yan, and once again mustered up the courage to break the silence: "Mr. Gu."

Gu Yan looked at the front and responded softly: "Huh?"

For some reason, Joan could hear tender feelings from this sound, and suddenly felt a little hot in his ears, and after a while, he said: "Well... I want to say that although I have no intention of getting back together with him, But... for a short time, you should... and won't consider other people..."

Of course, Gu Yan was also among the other people. Although he didn't name them, Qiao An felt that he had made it clear enough.

However, Gu Yan said: "You don't need to explain to me."

What's the meaning?This person is not going to give up?

Qiao An bit her lip again to make trouble, but Gu Yan continued to say: "Xiao An, I think you may have misunderstood."

Joan turned to look at him suspiciously.

Gu Yan didn't stop the car, maybe he was trying to avoid staring at him, but he still looked a little lonely in front of him: "I don't want you to get back together with Zhang Xu, it's not that you must be with me, it's just because he already Hurt you, I don’t think he can treat you well in the future. I like you, and I hope you can accept me, but I hope you can be happy, as long as you feel happy, even if the person who makes you happy is not me, it doesn’t matter of."

Hearing what he said, Joan was even more surprised and confused.

Although He Xiaoxi had said several times during the drunk incident that Gu Yan had true love for her, Qiao An didn't take it seriously.

Nowadays people like to exaggerate when they talk. Fans all say true love to their idols. There are not many people who climb the wall. Besides, I have no relationship with Gu Yan at all. How could I fall in love out of nowhere? It’s just that Gu Yan is too nice. Especially compared to some people at the moment, it seems that he takes extra care of himself.

But now it seems that Gu Yan really loves him.

"I... I don't quite understand," Joan said, "Mr. Gu, I... thank you for being so... attentive to me, but we don't seem to have known each other for long, nor have we met a few times. Why do you ..."

Gu Yan held the steering wheel and said eloquently: "You don't know me, but I've known you for a long time..."

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Yan.

To his mother, this name meant that he was the continuation of that man's lifeblood, but to him, it seemed to remind him all the time that he was just a derivative born of a reproductive tool.

He couldn't understand his mother's feelings for that man. After all, a man who might not come to see you for a year made it clear that he didn't love you, didn't he?

Gu Yan thought about this question countless times, but he never really asked his mother. He didn't want to hurt this poor woman who was immersed in his selfless dedication. Besides, his mother loved him after all.

Carrying the fruit into the ward, the extremely haggard woman on the bed looked over and smiled gently at him: "Yanyan is here."

Gu Yan also tried his best to raise the corners of his mouth, and responded: "Yes."

Sitting on the chair beside the hospital bed, Gu Yan peeled off the grapefruit, peeled off the crystal clear flesh, piled it up in a small plate and handed it to his mother, who took it and placed it between the two of them, preventing Gu Yan from continuing to peel the grapefruit He said, "You work so hard every day, take a break, and don't just think about taking care of me."

Gu Yan smiled obediently and put down his hands, but suddenly felt that there was nothing to do.

Fortunately, my mother looked at the time and said suddenly: "Yanyan, give me the remote control, it's about to start."

Finding the TV remote control from the drawer of the bedside table, Gu Yan asked casually, "What do you want to watch?"

The mother actually looked very happy and said to him: "I saw a talent show these two days. Those little boys are really energetic, singing and dancing. The oldest one is only one year older than you. There is a little boy who grows up special Good-looking, singing is also very good, only 17 years old."

Gu Yan looked at his mother in high spirits, with a smile on his lips, but felt a little disappointed in his heart.

The father was a stranger in a distant country, he could barely remember the man's face, and left nothing for their mother and child except sufficient living expenses.

That man had contacted him a long time ago, saying that he could give him a branch company in China and let him develop by himself after graduating from university. He didn't agree, even though he knew it would save him many years of hard work, but once Thinking of the man's indifference to himself and his mother all these years, he has no way to accept any gift, or alms, from the other party as if nothing happened.

So he studied hard, wanted to get everything by his own strength, and one day stood up in front of that man and told him: Even without you, I can live as well as my mother.

In the past few years, his mother has been in poor health. He has to take care of his mother and is busy studying. He has chosen a double degree in university and plans to study for an MBA abroad. He really has no time to socialize and play. His classmates and roommates only know him, but I'm not familiar with it, and I don't even know why he can't stop.

Internships, postgraduate entrance examinations, and graduation thesis, all kinds of things piled up in the past six months made him overwhelmed. Last week, his mother suddenly fainted and was hospitalized, so he had to go to the hospital occasionally when he had free time. He often only slept three or four times a day. When he was young, it made him feel exhausted, but in order not to worry his mother, he had to hold on.

However, the doctor told him today that his mother still has two months at most.

This is undoubtedly a bolt from the blue.

If his mother leaves, he will be alone. Even if he can really be stronger than that man, he will not be able to wash away his mother's grievances over the years. None of the 60 billion people in the world are related to him, and there is no one in the world worthy of him. There is nothing worthy of his hard work for the things that stay, if he is alone, it would be nice if he can live?

He suddenly lost the motivation to fight hard, this life is so boring, is it really meaningful for him to grit his teeth now...

"It's him, Yanyan, look, it's this kid." His mother woke him up from his daze, pointed to the TV and let him watch it, and he smiled and watched cooperatively.

The boy on TV is extremely immature, with clean and simple makeup, and even a little nervousness on his beautiful face. He is really likable, and it is easy to arouse the maternal love of middle-aged women, but Gu Yan is thinking about the future. No appreciation.

until he spoke.

"Everything is talent like a close-fitting map

say yes blindly say yes no admit defeat

Bless yourself without blessing

Treat yourself as a gift without a gift

Everything will end like the night road walked

Once made people want to cry and always made people feel helpless

If you still don't know, let yourself think clearly

If you want to cry, let yourself cry loudly

......"

The young man's voice is extremely warm, with a touch of comfort and encouragement. It is obviously a slightly sad song, but the lyrics are conveying people's strength. The clear and ethereal voice has been transmitted to people's hearts. The rest of his face was full of seriousness, as if he was saying these words of comfort to someone very seriously.

"please be happy

you have suffered too much

I can finally be satisfied at this moment

Constant happiness

I have gone around too many detours

It's finally over now

......"

Different from those dancing and singing infectious dance music, the boy just stood there quietly and sang, because of the emotional investment, he only moved a little, which was not so attractive, but occasionally when he cut to the frontal close-up, Gu Yan seemed to be From the boy's eyes, he could see the real distress.

This was the look he couldn't ask for, and even though he knew it was not aimed at him, it still made him unable to hold back his emotions.

"Promise me you will be happy

happy laugh happy cry

Happy to accept all blessings

Happily holding hands and walking the road to the future

......"

Over the years, except for his mother, he hadn't had much to do with anyone, didn't pay attention, didn't get close, and didn't have heart-to-heart relationships.He has always been not good at talking, and he doesn't understand what young people like nowadays. Even if someone tries to make friends with him, they all give up in the end because they have nothing to say.

Therefore, Gu Yan never thought that he would get such a sincere advice from a stranger, telling himself that all sufferings will pass, laugh and cry whenever he wants, and tell himself to be happy.

"please be happy

you have suffered too much

I can finally be satisfied at this moment

Constant happiness

I have gone around too many detours

It's finally over now

......"

After a song was sung, some people in the auditorium burst into tears, and the ward fell into silence.

It wasn't until the boy bowed to step down after accepting the host's interview that his mother said to Gu Yan again: "Isn't it nice?"

Gu Yan had already swallowed the soreness in his throat and adjusted his emotions, turned around and responded with a smile: "Yes."

My mother smiled and said, "He looks good, sings well, and has such a good personality. He must have grown up in a happy family to have this healing power."

Gu Yan replied with a smile: "Yes."

"If it's a girl, I really want to find us Yanyan as a wife." Mother sighed.

Gu Yan still smiled and replied: "Yes."

"You." My mother looked at him helplessly and said, "I don't know what I'm thinking, I didn't even listen to what I said, I just knew 'hmm'."

Gu Yan laughed and did not refute his mother's accusation.

But he thought in his heart: Yes, someone is listening.

The author has something to say: Jane Zhang - "Must Be Happy"

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