so you love me

"Damn Zhang Zexun, he clearly said Mr. Gu wouldn't do anything to you!" He Xiaoxi knelt on the ground and scratched her hair angrily, Qiao An could only look at her apologetically and said, "I'm sorry Miss Xiaoxi, I shouldn't go to the bar drinking."

He Xiaoxi put down his hand dejectedly: "Forget it, I can't blame you. Did Mr. Gu say anything?"

Joan pursed her lips in embarrassment and said, "Well...he said that he really likes me and asked me to consider being with him."

He Xiaoxi asked: "Then you agreed?"

Joan shook his head: "I refused."

"Wow, you are really amazing, even your own big boss dares to refuse, aren't you afraid that he will hide you?" He Xiaoxi asked.

Qiao An said: "Mr. Gu said, I can refuse, but he won't do anything. If he really hides me because of this, it means he is not a good person, and I can't promise him even more."

He Xiaoxi nodded: "That's right, but judging from what Mr. Gu has done so far, I think he really likes you, at least better than Zhang..."

She stopped in the middle of speaking, Joan knew what the name she swallowed, smiled comfortingly, and said: "I should also thank Mr. Gu, thanks to this, I don't have the energy to be sad anymore .”

He Xiaoxi sighed again, and said: "Go to sleep first, you must have not had a good rest yesterday, and if you feel uncomfortable or have a fever, please tell me, I will buy medicine for you, hey, I heard that the first It’s easy to get injured and inflamed at one time.”

Qiao An blushed again, and whispered, "Sister Xiaoxi, where did you hear about these things..."

He Xiaoxi flicked his brains: "You don't have to worry about it! Charge your phone first, and then take a rest."

Joan scratched his neck and responded, "Yes."

After plugging in the charging cable for the mobile phone, Qiao An unexpectedly found that the power was still 30.00%. When he was wondering, the turned on mobile phone had started to work, a series of prompts sounded, more than 30 missed calls, and more than a dozen text messages.

Qiao An checked them one by one, and besides He Xiaoxi's calls during the day, Zhang Xu also made four calls last night, and only one text message.

"Xiao An, I know you are very angry now, but things are really not what you think. Let me explain to you clearly? Call me back."

Joan stared blankly at the text message, feeling very complicated.

He has liked Zhang Xu for nine years. Although he doesn't know when it turned into liking in another sense, the relationship of these nine years is not something that can be discarded just by giving up.

Since Brother Xu wants to explain to himself, it means that he still has feelings for him, and he still cares about himself...

He Xiaoxi snatched his mobile phone, looked at the content of the text message, then looked at the text message and call records, and said with a sneer: "Oh, this scumbag just made four phone calls and sent one text message. You explained and asked you to call him! Why did you go last night! Look, look at the time! It’s almost twelve o’clock! The party is over! He just remembered to call you. He knew it You will be sad and sad that he didn’t chase him out immediately and went to the party, if Mr. Gu and Zhang Zexun didn’t show up yesterday, you don’t know what would have happened! Enough is enough!”

He Xiaoxi's scolding shattered the last hope in Qiao An's heart.

Yes, if you really cared about yourself, why didn't you explain it right away, and even had dinner with the person you misunderstood, and even so, you didn't make a few more phone calls or send a few messages...

He Xiaoxi looked at Qiao An's disappointed look, frowned and asked him: "Xiao An, you really don't have hope in him, do you?"

Joan smiled bitterly, shook his head and said, "No more."

"That's about the same." He Xiaoxi said unhappily.

Qiao An lowered her head and said, "Even if it's really a misunderstanding, I've already told Mr. Gu...it's too late..."

He Xiaoxi looked at him disapprovingly, and said, "Although I don't want you to listen to Zhang Xu's nonsense, but what age is this, and it's normal for you to have sexual experience as an adult, so don't take it to heart."

Joan scratched the inner thigh and nodded with a smile: "Yeah."

He Xiaoxi asked strangely: "What are you doing? Grabbing around."

Joan scratched his chest again and said, "It's a little itchy."

"You..." He Xiaoxi said hesitantly, "You can't be PTSD, can you?"

Joan expressed doubts: "What is that?"

"Post-traumatic stress reactions, for example, feeling that I have been dirty, so my whole body is itchy." He Xiaoxi said.

Joan thought about it in silence, and said shamefully: "No...Maybe it's because I don't remember anything, and I always think that Gu is always a good person, so although I don't plan to be with him, I don't... ...disgusted or something."

"Hey." He Xiaoxi sighed, "Although it seems that Mr. Gu really likes you so far, it's hard to say that he would do this to you while you were drunk."

"Yes." Joan smiled and agreed with her point of view.

"No matter what, if you are really uncomfortable, we still have to go to the hospital. Exposure is exposure. The body is the most important thing."

"okay, I get it."

Sending He Xiaoxi away, Qiao An changed the clothes he wore back from Gu Yan's house. He didn't know if it was the material of the clothes. He always felt a little itchy on his body. When he looked down, his chest and thighs were all red, and even the hickey marks were not so obvious. up.

Getting into the bed, Qiao An shrank himself inside, the quilt was dark and silent, as if isolated from the world, at this moment he seemed to react suddenly, and tears flowed like a floodgate.

Sure enough, it will hurt.

Joan didn't know when he fell asleep, but he woke up in severe discomfort, his head was dizzy, his whole body was itchy and hot, his throat was sore, and he couldn't breathe.He originally thought that it was caused by the lack of oxygen that he had been stuffy in the quilt for a long time, but after lifting the quilt, he didn't get much better.

He got up from the bed and wanted to wash his face, but his legs were so weak that he almost fell to the ground, and he felt dizzy and helpless. He took a deep breath to relieve the symptoms, and at the same time he called He Xiaoxi.

"Hey...Miss Xiaoxi...haha..."

Hearing Qiao An's painful panting on the phone, He Xiaoxi immediately set off from home without saying a word, and asked while putting on his shoes, "Xiao An, are you still in the dormitory? I'll be right over. How are you doing now?"

Joan scratched randomly on his body, and said uncomfortably: "I...itchy...I seem to...need to go to the hospital...um——"

He groaned in pain, dropped the phone, and rubbed his hands vigorously on his body.He didn't dare to scratch again, he already felt pain just now, probably scratched his skin, he could only use rubbing to relieve the itching that was driving him crazy.

I thought it would take at least an hour for Xiaoxi to arrive, or that the ambulance she called could arrive within half an hour. Unexpectedly, the door was pushed open in less than 5 minutes. He yelled: "See for yourself if this can be delayed!"

The pajamas Joan was wearing were messed up by his constant rolling and scratching, revealing his red skin lined with scratches. His face was flushed with pain, and the tears in his eyes were constantly falling. He couldn't even control himself The body can only shrink on the bed and breathe desperately.

Seeing the situation, the dormitory manager didn't dare to stop him, so he helped Zhang Zexun put a coat on him, carried him into the car and rushed him to the hospital.

"Allergy?" He Xiaoxi repeated the doctor's words in surprise.

The doctor looked at the examination report and said: "Skin rash, itching, sore throat, and difficulty breathing are all caused by allergies. Of course, part of it is because of his mental stress, which aggravated the symptoms. It will be fine after hanging the water. Apply some anti-inflammatory medicine to the broken place, it’s fine.”

He Xiaoxi frowned in confusion, and asked, "May I know what the allergy is?"

The doctor said: "Then you have to ask him what he touched from yesterday to this morning. With the current medical level, even if you do an allergy test, you may not be able to accurately detect it."

So He Xiaoxi went back to the ward to ask Qiao An.

When she first arrived, Joan's condition looked terrible, her whole body was terribly red, her eyes were so swollen that she could only half-open it, as if she might suffocate at any time.

But now after taking two bottles of medicine, those symptoms have basically subsided, but there is still some slight itching on the body, and the rash on the neck also has a light color.

She sat by the bed and asked Joan reproachfully, "What's the matter with your child, you don't even know if you're allergic?"

Qiao An accepted her anger with a guilty conscience, but still explained: "I really don't know, I haven't had any allergies since I was a child, and...after I wake up, I eat and use very common things , It’s just a little itchy body, I didn’t expect it to be so serious.”

Zhang Zexun helped Qiao An with the conversation: "Alcohol can destroy the body's immunity. He doesn't usually drink alcohol. He was so drunk yesterday. It's normal for things that are not allergic to suddenly cause allergies."

"You talk less and talk more! It's all your fault!" He Xiaoxi yelled at him angrily.

Zhang Zexun was accused for no reason, and he retorted helplessly: "What does it matter to me? I didn't make him allergic. You girl really knows how to cross rivers and tear down bridges. Who was crying and begging me for help when you called me before?"

He Xiaoxi opened his mouth and was about to push back, but suddenly stopped and took a look at Qiao An, and then said: "Who is crying! This is your job! I just informed you! Get out and go back to your mobile base go."

He Xiaoxi pushed him away, Zhang Zexun pretended to be in a stalemate with her for a while, and then went out. He had already seen that He Xiaoxi had something to say to Qiao An, and this silly girl thought she was covering it up very well.

Chasing Zhang Zexun away, He Xiaoxi sat back on the bed and asked Qiao An: "But I just looked at it, and you don't have hickey marks on your body. What you thought were hickey marks before should be rashes caused by allergies, so you and Did Mr. Gu have any relationship?"

Joan didn't expect her to talk about such a hot topic, she scratched her neck in embarrassment, and said without confidence: "I really don't know... I don't remember..."

He Xiaoxi thought for a while and asked, "Did you feel uncomfortable when you woke up? Like back pain, leg pain, butt pain and so on."

Joan shook his head.

"That's why Mr. Gu didn't touch you!" He Xiaoxi said in shock, "Damn it, the person I like is so drunk that he loses consciousness and lays down in front of me but doesn't make a move. This... this is true love..."

"Then why do you think you two are having a relationship?" He Xiaoxi asked again.

Although Qiao An was shy, he could only rely on He Xiaoxi to help him guess the truth at the moment, so he whispered: "Because Mr. Gu said that if I want, he can take responsibility, so I just think..."

He Xiaoxi frowned thoughtfully, and carefully confirmed: "What did Gu always say? 'If you want'? Not 'if you want' or 'need'?"

Joan asked suspiciously, "Is there any difference?"

"Of course there is a difference!" He Xiaoxi said excitedly, "'If you want' he is responsible, but if you don't want him, he doesn't plan to be responsible, and even reminds you that he has no feelings for you. And if it is "You are willing" means that he is eager to be responsible to you, even if he has not done anything, he is just afraid that you will not be willing, so this... Mr. Gu really loves you!"

This was already the second time in a short conversation that He Xiaoxi believed that Gu Yan had true love for her, and Qiao An was somewhat confused.

Mr. Gu...does he have such true love for himself...but they didn't even say a few words...

He Xiaoxi continued to say to himself: "If he doesn't touch you, he must think that he can't take advantage of others. Otherwise, when you wake up, you will hate him and hate him, and then he will have no chance to pursue you!"

These words are like a key, opening the box in Joan's mind: "I remembered..."

"What?" He Xiaoxi asked.

"I remember..." Joan muttered to himself, and the picture of last night appeared in his mind.

He was pressed on the bed by Gu Yan, closed his eyes and waited for this person, whom he didn't know at the time, to do whatever he wanted to him, but Gu Yan just touched his lips lightly for a while, and then backed away.

He opened his eyes and looked at Gu Yan suspiciously, not understanding how this person could be so gentle.

And Gu Yan looked at him, and said softly: "Of course I like you and want you, but I don't want you to hate me when you wake up, so I'm sorry, this time, I have to reject you."

At that moment, he thought of Zhang Xu, and the time when he was almost raped.Even strangers are so gentle, rejecting Huanai when he actively invited him, and even saying sorry to himself, the sadness in his heart could not be restrained and turned into tears.

Gu Yan gently wiped away his tears, and said to him: "Go to sleep."