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The taxi stopped at the gate of the cemetery. Tao Jia was wearing black which he rarely tried today.Mu Hexiao said that Tao Jia's face always looked too pale against the black.Father Tao was not seen at the gate of the cemetery, and Tao Jia glanced at his watch. He knew that his father would never be late, so he held two bouquets of chrysanthemums bought from a flower shop and walked slowly towards the place where he seldom set foot. place ahead.Not long after, passing through rows of pines and cypresses, I saw a figure standing in front of a stele. Most of the white hair on top of the black hair made the man look old, and his body was slightly bent, but the most conspicuous was his lameness. The right foot that is stretched can only be supported by crutches, and this man is far from the always tall and mighty father in Tao Jia's memory.Tao Jia still clearly remembers that when he was a child, he was almost doted on by his father. Tao Jia was a picky eater, and he liked to eat the meat at the tail of the fish. After the fish was served, he immediately picked out the thorns from the tail of the fish and put them in front of Tao Jia. When Tao Jia was mischievous, his father would always scold him severely, but he was never willing to beat him. When he was happy, his father would Sitting on his shoulders when he was a child, at that time, the scenery he saw was something that he couldn't usually see.Mom always said that other people's fathers and sons are like enemies, you are so good at it.But now, it's really like an enemy.

"You're here!" The man didn't turn around, but seemed to see everything in his eyes. Tao Jia agreed lightly, walked to the man and stopped, and respectfully placed the flowers on the two neighbors in front of him. In front of the tombstone, where the wind passed by, the two hadn't talked for a long time. "Maybe it's old! I always dream about your mother recently. She said she misses you, so let me stop blaming you. So I asked you to come over and see your mother with me." The vicissitudes of life sounded Unlimited emotion, but Tao Jia's nose sore when he heard it. "I'm really busy recently. I'm going to fly to Paris to participate in a very important competition, so I won't be able to come on the day of my mother's death. I was planning to come to worship soon." Tao Jia replied calmly on the surface, but in his heart But it was a huge wave. Tao Jia just felt dazed because he hadn’t spoken at such a quiet distance for so many years. It was impossible to come to the cemetery with his father before, but now, it all happened for real. Isn’t it time? Finally decided to treat himself kindly, and gave himself a chance to start again. For a while, Tao Jia almost wanted to shed tears, thinking that death might be much better for countless times, but at this moment, he didn’t think about it at all, because God finally had mercy on him. Giving makes life a turning point.

"I've thought about it a lot over the years. Since what happened before, it's impossible for a dead person to come back to life. Your mother certainly doesn't want us father and son to keep breaking up, so if it's okay, wait until you finish the competition. Let's find a house, move in together, and start all over again, okay?" Tao Jia was stunned for a while, her eyes widening almost as if she thought she was crazy, that this stubborn father would regress so far , It was unbelievable, the great joy invaded all the nerves of Tao Jia, and he couldn't believe that he would be so lucky, even the voice of his speech could not stop trembling: "Really? Really? Dad , you forgive me!" "Xiaojia, Dad wants a promise from you that what you just said will become true, it just depends on whether you can seize the opportunity." Father Tao turned and looked at his son seriously. "Promise?" Tao Jia was a little dazed. Suddenly, the uneasiness in his heart began to expand, and a possibility pierced his heart like a knife, dripping with blood. "Xiaojia," Father Tao looked at his son. After not seeing him for so many years, his son has grown a lot taller and grown a lot, but he is still too thin.If there is something wrong, isn't it true that I have not been wrong all these years?When my son needed it most, I only remembered to resent him.But why, did he like Mu Hexiao?Why can't the son live happily like other young people?Tao Jia looked at his father in front of him with unprecedented calm eyes, and his heart trembled violently. "For your mother, and Grandpa Mu's kneel down."

The moment his knee touched the ground, Tao Jia shivered violently.As if to verify what Tao Jia was thinking, Father Tao finally revealed the real purpose of the meeting: "Tao Jia, you swear now in front of the two relatives who died because of you that you will love Mu From now on, He Xiao cut off all the thoughts that shouldn't be had, from this moment on, you are just brothers, you have no love for sons and daughters, otherwise you will let me die!" Tao Jia raised his head fiercely, looked at the old man beside him sadly, and the wind raised his head. His white hair seems to be much more than what he saw at first glance. A long time ago, Xiaowen once asked himself, if he and Mu Hexiao were separated from each other one day, how would he feel in his heart at that moment? The answer is probably that life is better than death!Looking at it now, that kind of feeling is not that life is better than death, death is still happy, but life is so painful that it is almost impossible to live, but you still have to desperately linger on. "You asked me to come, and you said that again, but you're just making a deal with me. Why is it necessary?" Tao Jia stood up staggeringly. He obviously hadn't knelt for a long time, but his body seemed to be completely dead. Cold and numb, "If we could turn our backs on everyone and be together, we wouldn't be in such a dilemma today. It's just an oath, so why bother." Tao Jia pulled out a smile, but it was extremely cold: "But , What if I say I don’t agree! What if I say I won’t compromise as long as I live?”

The cane slammed into his arm. It turned out that it was more painful than the feather duster back then. Looking at his father's face distorted by anger, Tao Jia's eyes became wet in an instant. He blinked hard, thinking Dispersed the water vapor, and asked bravely with a hint of bitterness: "I like him, and he likes me too. Is it because we are both men that we should be forced to choose to separate!" His face was cold, as if he was looking at a stranger: "You may not be wrong, but you have no right to choose. Are you letting those who watched you grow up sad and disappointed for your own pleasure? I don't remember me teaching you that way. You don’t want to be my son, or you don’t want to be my son at all!” Tears welled up in Tao Jia’s eyes, and Tao Jia felt that his heart had been cut open, and his painful soul was distorted: “Because I am Tao Jia, I am your child, and I am your child. Be good, be obedient, and obey, so I have to let go, I understand, I really understand! But where am I wrong? Why should I be treated like this? When you asked me if I was your son, did you give Do I choose?" Tao Jia was crying, but she still looked at her father stubbornly: "Forget it... There will be no result, because the wrong person will always be me, but I will give you a vow... from now on From now on, if I, Tao Jia, still have even the slightest affection for Mu Hexiao other than brotherhood, then let me die without a burial place, and my soul will be restless after death, and I will not be reborn." Wiping the tears from my eyes fiercely , no matter how painful it is, it is nothing more than this: "Dad, do you think this vow is okay? If not, I can change another one. If one is not enough, I can say a lot. I will not let anyone get hurt for me again, so I I swear to myself, I will not be afraid of anything from now on! The nails are deeply pinched like the palm of my hand, the blood is slowly dripping on the slate, everything is so pale and brittle.

Ah Xiao, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but I want you to live happily, so don't forgive me as a deserter. At this moment, I'm glad that the person who was persecuted is not you. As long as I find a way to separate from you without harm, You can start a new life, forget your nightmares, and live your life according to your own preferences, without worries and pains.

"I'll call a car for you and wait at the gate of the cemetery. Your legs and feet are inconvenient. Be careful when you go back. I'll go first." Tao Jia tried her best to calm the suffocation in her heart, but her hands could only tremble from her pockets. He took out his sunglasses and put them on, looked up at the sky, and finally left without saying anything.

What he didn't know was that Mu Hexiao and Mu's parents and Mu's mother were standing on the path on the other side of the cemetery, they were completely covered by the shadow of the trees, but at this moment, Mu Hexiao's face was pale Bloody, Mu Ma looked at Mu Hexiao nervously, and pulled him to comfort him, but he swung him away: "You guys are too much, don't tell me what happened today has nothing to do with you, Tao Jia finally made it through Today, are you trying to ruin him? He has always regarded you as the closest person, and this is how you stabbed him in the heart!" "I know why you pulled you when you rushed out just now, Mu Hexiao , when will you admit that you brought all Tao Jia's pain today." Facing his son who was almost out of control, Father Mu folded his arms and said in a low voice: "We all know Tao Jia's personality, the most important thing is to The overall situation is the most important thing, but this matter has been delayed again and again, isn't it because of your indecisiveness, if you let go quickly, he won't have to make such a painful decision today. In the final analysis, it is not us who are the most cruel, but You!" Father Mu looked at his self-reliant son, and knew in his heart that this might be the only chance, and the cancer can only be completely dug out in pain, so even if it hurts, the two must end it. "You always feel that we are wrong, but where are we wrong, did we kill and set fire? Which king's law did we commit? Either because we like each other, or because we want to be together, because we are both men, everything is unforgivable! Damn it! Yes! Everything that happened today made Tao Jia and I may never be together, you succeeded, you finally succeeded, you took advantage of his guilt, took advantage of my unbearable heart, let us from now on Back to the original point. But do you know that after today, I will still pretend that I don’t know anything in front of Tao Jia. I won’t let him suffer a little bit. He is so kind. He must not know how to choose to leave me. Reduce the harm to me, then let me bear everything, and I will relieve him." Completely ignoring the cries of Mu's mother behind him, Mu Hexiao left quickly, almost running out of the cemetery, he will not be there Appeared in front of Tao Jia at this moment, but he wanted to watch his back as he left.But there was no trace of Tao Jia on the road.