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"why?"

The system asked her a question.

Sheng Yan exhaled deeply, and said to it: "At that time, I also wanted to know why."

It was a very ordinary day.

Sheng Yan called her again on a weekend and asked her to go out to play - the mobile phone she used was the second-hand mobile phone that her grandparents gave her at the roadside stalls with money.

Because the old people will take such a small box when they see the current students by chance. Although they don't have the money to buy it for their granddaughter in a big and bright store, it is still possible to buy a slightly older second-hand one.

Sheng Yan cherished that broken phone very much, and there was only one number of Han Yuming stored in it.

It was another weekend, and she still insisted on asking Han Yuming out, even if she was the only one talking one-sidedly, but she was very happy to see Han Yuming.

But what she never expected was...

Han Yuming not only rejected her, but also said such a sentence to her without warning.

Sheng Yan could hardly hold the phone, feeling a sense of panic that she was about to lose something, and asked with some trepidation: "Why?"

"There is no reason, or you can understand that you should not contact me for a short time. I am not in a good state recently, you know."

After finishing speaking, Han Yuming hung up the phone.

Sheng Yan was left holding the phone in a daze, thinking for a long time, and suddenly ran outside like crazy.

She waited downstairs at Han Yuming's house for a long time, and kept sending text messages and calling him, but she was still not connected.

When making a phone call, when people listen to the beep sound, they will always unconsciously have a kind of expectation, as if the person on the other side will pick it up in the next second.

But after playing more than ten times in a row, such expectations will slowly settle into a kind of powerless despair.

There is anger, anxiety... and even a hint of hope that refuses to give up.

Sheng Yan waited for a long, long time, but Han Yuming didn't answer her call.

She thought, well, maybe Han Yuming's condition is really bad, and she will come to her tomorrow, or go to her school again, and if she has any questions, she must ask them face to face.

Sheng Yan returned home in such a daze.

The next day I got up and went to the boxing gym as usual, thinking that I could wait until Han Yuming——

However, she waited for another call.

"Hello, are you Sheng Tianling's daughter?" A business-like voice came from the other side.

Sheng Yan was a little silly, her first reaction was that she had answered some scam call, but she still responded habitually: "Yes, yes, what's wrong..."

More than ten seconds later, her mobile phone fell to the ground with a bang.

Immediately afterwards, Sheng Yan ran home from the boxing gym at the fastest speed in her life, which was the longest distance she had ever run in her life.

Sweat dripped on the dirt road and made a sizzling sound after evaporating, but she could no longer hear it, and only the sound of blood rushing was left in her mind.

But she wasn't fast enough.

When she rushed home, there was only blood on the ground waiting for her.

The voices of the surrounding neighbors buzzing in her ears:

"Sin, even stabbed my own parents, this kind of animal is really inhuman..."

"Yes, there is a daughter who is studying at home. Alcohol is really harmful!"

"I know this kid. He is still in a key high school. He usually spends time with his grandparents. What will he do in the future?"

"Oh, who knows... She is also unlucky to have such parents..."

Sheng Yan was taken away by the police, she listened dumbly to a gentle sister enlightening herself, and said to herself:

"Don't listen to those people's nonsense. Your father is under control now, and the old man is out of danger. He just needs no one to take care of him temporarily."

"We have also learned about your situation. I have some suggestions here. You can apply for student loans, or launch social assistance..."

Sheng Yan sat there fixedly, not knowing what she was thinking.

After a long time, until the glass of water in her hand was stuffed so cold, she asked:

"Several Years Sentence"

"What are you talking about your father? At present, the evidence is still being collected. He deliberately hurt people. Don't worry, he should——" the policewoman comforted her with a gentle voice.

"He was an attempted murder." Sheng Yan looked up at her.

The policewoman froze for a moment.

Intentional homicide, compared with intentional injury, the penalty starts differently.

She never expected that the little girl in front of her would have this first reaction after hearing about it.

"This...it depends on the final evidence, but he has had a bad influence on his parents' actions. I believe the court will give a fair judgment." The policewoman comforted her.

Sheng Yan just looked down at her phone.

After thinking about it, she pressed the dial button.

"Are you calling... your mother?" the policewoman asked her tentatively.

Sheng Yan replied without raising her head, "I don't have a mother."

There was a sudden silence in the room.

After the eleven beeps, Sheng Yan lowered her eyes, looked at her phone, and sat there for a full 5 minutes.

During this time she was motionless, as quiet as a statue.

Until 5 minutes later——

She looked at the phone expressionlessly, blocked the only phone number, got up and bowed politely to the policewoman, and asked her about where her grandparents were hospitalized.

"XX Hospital, by the way, you can consider the student loans and social assistance I just mentioned."

"Thank you." Sheng Yan nodded to her.

Thanks, but she doesn't need it anymore.

She walked out of the place where justice, justice and light were written, and since then she has extinguished all expectations for the world.

……

But her misfortune doesn't seem to be over yet.

After returning to school on Monday, she heard about Han Yuming's suspension of school.

After all, she never waited for the other party's contact.

Sheng Yan also dropped out of school and worked many jobs alone to take care of her grandparents, and then...

A month has passed.

Sheng Yan saw a few hooligans commenting on the girls passing by on the side of the road, and went up impulsively and injured them all, and was even approached by the child's parents.

Her master heard about this, and went from the boxing gym to the police station to explain the situation to the police comrades, and even spent money to bail her out.

Sheng Yan bowed slightly to her master:

"I have caused you trouble, Master, I will make up for you later."

Her master had a little white frost on his temples, looked at her with his hands behind his back, and asked her, "What did I teach you when you entered the door?"

"You are not allowed to give up halfway, you are not allowed to attack ordinary people, especially you are not allowed to strike first with malicious intentions." Sheng Yan said the rules.

Her master looked at her deeply, and said after a while, "Do you still remember?"

"Then why are you doing this?"

Sheng Yan didn't speak.

She didn't know what to say, when she heard a few gangsters say that one of the girls was "so ugly, my God, if I have a sister like this in the future, I might suggest that my mother strangle her to death hahahaha", she felt a An unspeakable malice.

But, after all, she was the one who made the first move, and it was indeed too heavy.

She lowered her eyes and said, "I'm sorry, Master, I was impulsive."

The leaves were rustling by the wind, and she heard her master say:

"When Yuming sent you here and begged me to teach you, I knew you were a paranoid person. I thought I could teach you well and make your mind brighter, but you disappointed me very much. "

Sheng Yan took a deep breath, and continued to apologize sincerely:

"I'm sorry, Master, I will—"

"You don't come here anymore." She heard her master say this.

Then, she watched the hale and hearty figure step by step out of her sight like a tall and straight pine, until it was submerged in the thick darkness of night.

Sheng Yan's lips moved, and after a long time, she slowly knelt down on the spot, kowtowed a few times towards the direction Master was walking.

She is very grateful to her master, who has given her the power to protect herself no matter how she walks in the world.

but she……

She didn't want to live up to this friendship.

She even thought that when she started to make money in the future, she could respect Master as her father, but...but now she doesn't have this opportunity.

"I want to get better too, Master, but it's really hard."

Sheng Yan stood there and muttered.

It was really too difficult, she felt that life and fate never seemed to favor her.

Otherwise, why let her lose her mother at birth, grow up under the shadow of violence, and then lose her friends and master...

She seemed to be born to betray her relatives.

Sheng Yan wanted to know, what original sin did she bring to bear these burdens from birth?

……

"Later, I went to wait for him at the gate of Master's boxing gym every day, and wanted to apologize to him, but he never saw me."

"When I made my first pot of gold, I wanted to pay my tuition fees, but I managed to get the master's account number. After a few days, I found out that my money was refunded by him."

"He knew that I was malicious, so he was disappointed in me, and I knew it."

Sheng Yan smiled, made a concluding statement calmly, got up and threw the breakfast trash into the trash can, went to pour herself a glass of warm water, and drank it with her head raised.

She didn't talk about her difficulties after dropping out of school, she didn't talk about the hard work of taking care of her grandparents alone, and she didn't talk about her own pain. She just focused on the past as a narrative.

But the system felt a little uncomfortable.

It said: "You are not, you are very kind."

If she wasn't kind, she wouldn't treat herself like a self-abuse after making a small mistake. She should have lived a chic life, and she could have chosen to beat up all the scumbags.

However, Sheng Yan...

If it wasn't necessary, if the other party didn't hit her first, she would be almost like an ordinary person, and she might even stumble because she was walking without looking at the road.

Sheng Yan shouldn't be like this.

What kind of mental journey did she go through to suppress the body's instinctive reaction to be able to play out in such an extreme environment?

The system can't think of it.

it just feels like...

This person is trying very hard to live the life that other people want.

Han Yuming once said that she was very beautiful, so she was really proud of her appearance from then on. Once her master told her not to attack ordinary people, so she made herself like ordinary people, even at the Put yourself in the position of the victim before you strike...

But those people still easily turned around and left her, leaving her alone, struggling to grow a pair of armor to block the wounds all over her body, and then powerfully resist all the malice in this world.

The system solemnly said:

"You are very good, you are the best and most beautiful host I have ever brought."

Sheng Yan smiled, snapped her fingers, and boasted: "I like to hear that."

……

"You have nothing to explain to her"

At the same time, under another roof in the same city.

Someone reached out to take a small cup of Tieguanyin on the table. His slender, jade-white fingers lightly touched the rim of the cup, lifted it up and took a sip, then looked at the person on the opposite side of the table.

"Explain why I told her that I took the initiative to stay away from her because I didn't want her to be targeted by the Lord God."

"But the fact is, not only did I hurt her unreasonably, I didn't let her escape the disaster that followed, and I even left her when she needed me the most. No matter how she treats me, I deserve it." of."

Han Yuming lowered her eyes, and the mist from the tea in front of her eyes blew onto her face.

After hearing her words, another person suddenly appeared behind her, propping the back of her chair with one elbow, and said with a smile:

"But you are also excusable."

"That old Wang-Ba deliberately brainwashed you, making you die tragically every time you take on a mission, and has not erased your memory of death. Car accidents, delays, fires, floods...any normal person has experienced dozens of After this kind of death, I open my eyes and find that when I live in this world again, I will become numb, indifferent to the real world, and even unable to distinguish between illusion and reality.”

"He just wants to control you and make you completely lose your human emotions, so that you can only be used by him from now on."

"Until... that old Wang-Ba found out the difference between you and Sheng Yan. You were worried that she would encounter the same thing as Ying Fan, so you tried your best to downplay her presence in your life."

"First you quietly found a new friend, trying to create the illusion that you have a lot of friends, and then you found that Sheng Yan was still not far away from you. It happened to be the time when Ying Fan and I frequently made troubles for him, Lao Wang- Eight to warn you—"

"He killed another lover from the original world who transformed the system. You were afraid, so you used this method."

"Who knows that after you finished the phone call with her, because the struggle between Ying Fan and me and the old Wang-Ba reached a critical moment, we took over, and the regulatory agency intervened. You were left in the mission world and could not return, and you were fully delayed in the real world. After half a year, you came back only to find that earth-shaking changes have taken place in her place."

The visitor talked eloquently, carefully stated the timeline, and propped his head with one hand and commented slowly:

"Thinking about it this way, Ying Fan and I really should try our best to match you up."

The woman sitting opposite Han Yuming patiently watched her stand behind Han Yuming for a long time before asking her without changing her expression:

"Aren't your legs sore after standing for a long time? Come and sit down."

Hua Baihe walked over in three steps and two steps, and sat directly on Ying Fan's lap.

Han Yuming, who is still single and may not be able to catch up with her in this life: "..."

She silently turned her gaze away.

"It's my own problem. I don't have enough strength to fight against him, and I can't protect the people I care about. I even used such a stupid method at that time."

"If I had been by her side all the time in high school, no matter how threatened the former master god was, I would not be moved, and I believed in her feelings for me, then she...she wouldn't have to be so strong."

Han Yuming will stay by Sheng Yan's side, accompany her to watch her alcoholic father go in, and accompany her to take care of her grandparents. Even if the master is angry with Sheng Yan, Han Yuming should stand up immediately, said to her:

"It's okay, I'm here."

but……

she is not here.

She was not by Sheng Yan's side when Sheng Yan needed her the most.

When Sheng Yan failed to get through to her last call, when Sheng Yan was unaccompanied, she lost the qualification to have this friendship again.

"It's not easy to break that old Wang-ba. Human beings and gods confront each other, after all, there is a price to pay. That old Wang-ba was so crazy later, who knows who will become the next one between you and her?" What about you?" Hua Baihe shook her head and tried to persuade her.

"Besides, you also resisted. When you were in junior high school—the high school entrance examination, maybe that mission was the first time you tried to terminate the contract with Lao Wang-ba. In the end, he punished you and made you the most important If you fail the life test, he is warning you."

"Later, it stimulated you with countless deaths. At that time, it was already difficult for you to distinguish other worlds from your own world..."

Han Yuming raised her hand to pick up the cold tea in front of her, drank it down in one gulp, and said, "It's okay."

She emphasized again: "It's okay, no matter what, I'm used to it, just stay by her side, accompany her, protect her, and don't expect a response—I'm used to this feeling."

Han Yuming didn't know whether to comfort herself or to say so to herself.

Hearing her words, Ying Fan remained silent.

Only Hua Baihe sighed: "Sixteen worlds..."

"It has been guarded for more than 800 years. For you, it is more than 800 years. How many human beings, including cultivators, can live for 800 years..."

Han Yuming pinched the rim of the empty teacup, and slowly tightened her fingers.

She also knew what Hua Baihe said.

She is also upset.

Especially once some emotions are regained, she doesn't know how to return them to their original positions.

But she has to be flat, no matter how difficult it is, she has to be flat.

This is what she owes Sheng Yan.

The author has something to say: Ying Fan and Hua Baihe are only a couple, after all, there are few fairy loves in the world, and the emotions that have been honed are the majority...

Sheng Yan and Han Yuming have their own paths to go.

They have been involved since the day they met. They are each other's salvation, each other's achievement, and they are both people who affect each other's life. No one in this world cares about each other more than them, and no one understands each other better than them. other side.