[Xunsi] Light and Darkness and Blood

The boy sitting in the last row of the classroom by the window lowered his head, his half-length bangs just covered half of the boy's face and no emotion could be seen.

The black ear wires went all the way down from the boy's ears and connected directly to the very old tape recorder in the boy's hand.Black, big, and heavy, such an 'antique' is obviously a different name in the eyes of this group of boys and girls who have MP3s, mobile phones, and even carry PSPs to play in school.

Gloomy, not talkative, no mobile phone, using 'old antiques', poor grades, in addition to good looks, his personality can be described as introverted and feminine, the boys in the class can't get used to it, and the girls don't see it the same way I'm not used to it, I always feel that the other party is lifeless all day long, not like a person.

"Ikari Shinji, I leave today's cleaning to you!" A boy in the class yelled.

The boy wearing the earphones was a little drowsy, and the long and gentle music was more like a lullaby so that the boy didn't respond to the voice at the moment.

"Hey! I'm calling you!" The boy who was ignored was obviously very unhappy, and he slapped Shinji's shoulder hard with a slap.

"Who will I show my lifeless face all day long?"

"How dare you ignore my uncle talking to you!"

"What the hell do you think you are?"

"Damn, if you don't keep you, you can still do it for me, who wants to talk to you?"

Shinji suddenly stood up from his seat and his face turned pale.

The chair made a harsh squeaking sound due to Shinji's sudden standing up, but the short sound quickly calmed down, and the whole classroom was suddenly terribly quiet.

"What are you doing!" The boy had obviously come to his senses, and he opened his mouth to curse loudly, "If you don't want to, you don't want to, just touch you! It's not that you want to fuck you, why are you so nervous? Look like a woman!"

"It's scary, it almost scared me just now."

"What are you doing, but it's not a big deal if you touch it, it's so frightening to death with such a big noise."

"This guy seems to be like this since he entered the school. Does he despise our group of dirty people? Tsk tsk, I don't think he's going to be clean!"

"It's really rare to see such a petty boy!"

The classmates who watched the fun kept their mouths shut, and the girls in the small group of besieged city talked and thought at the same time, the emotion in their eyes completely betrayed their expressions of wanting to pretend that nothing had happened.

Shinji turned pale, and pursed his lips, really... an annoying ability.

This is Shinji's secret.

He can hear other people's hearts, and he didn't even know it from the very beginning... He knows what everyone in the class is hiding. , Sometimes it is just because of a well-intentioned rescue but is misunderstood even worse.

People are such strange creatures. When you are wronged, you always want someone to help you. If someone really helps you, you will wonder why so many people refuse to speak for you. What is this person trying to do?

Gradually, Shinji could never control this power. Every day, he lingered in the inner world of various people. While seeing the ugliness of the world, he couldn't help but look for the little bits of hope that might exist.

Even though he has been promoted from elementary school to junior high school, he still can't integrate into the group, and even some elementary school classmates who "know him very well" publicize his various "heroic deeds" in the junior high school that he directly promoted to, so that for Shinji Ikari People... the popularity has reached such a high level that the entire class is prejudiced against him.

The boy pulled the stool again, and after controlling his emotions, the surroundings regained the silence... Every time a person makes physical contact, the other person's thoughts will immediately flow into his mind uncontrollably , no matter how hard the young man tried, he couldn't control it, even though it was much better than being in the messy world before...but, he still hates...he hates to have physical contact with anyone, because once his heart is shaken, Soon you will return to that rich inner world as before... that world always has the darkest side of human beings.

If living in the present is light, then the so-called heart is darkness.

Everyone has...the dark side, the one you don't want people to know the most, the ugliest side that is superimposed and exposed in front of a person, such a side is beyond the reach of any ordinary child.Of course, the so-called Madonnas, who are absolutely inclined to the M type, are so tolerant and outrageously magnanimous, they don't belong to the ordinary category.

"Cut, don't pull it down!" The boy kicked Shinji's desk angrily, and the position of the desk moved a lot due to too much force.

"Dinglingling——" the bell for class rang on time, and the men and women who were watching the excitement all returned to their seats peacefully.

From the dark satchel, he took out the book that was so messed up that it was almost impossible to discern the contents of the textbook, but Shinji opened the dirty textbook and spread it on the table like a normal person, a pencil rolled back and forth on the table, as if He was trying his best to attract the attention of the master, but the boy's eyes never fell on the table.

The chirping of cicadas in summer is much quieter due to the blockage of thick glass, the leaves are rustling due to the hot wind, and the branches and leaves collide with each other, as if noisy children are not afraid of the strong wind outside. sunshine.

Lying on the table, Shinji really wanted to close his eyes... It doesn't matter whether he has such a world or not.

"For me, life and death are equivalent."

Such a sentence suddenly sounded in his mind, a voice he had never heard before, with a feeling of desertedness, but it did not reveal the slightest feeling of sadness from the bottom of his heart. One sentence... Play it over and over again when you are numb.

Resting his head on his arm, Shinji couldn't help but bury his head on the table... But, he was afraid of death.

The manic cursing and heart-piercing pain in the other party's heart when facing death has stimulated the fragile heart of the young man more than once. Every time he witnesses death, it is as if he himself died... Pain - deep into the bone marrow The pain made Shinji feel suffocated... At that time, Shinji was only in elementary school. If it weren't for the 'special' ability that was almost forced to order the child to listen to the voice of the god of death, perhaps the current Shinji would not be able to understand the true meaning of death.

Life is also terrifying, but to him... death is even more terrifying.

live like this...

never mind……

silently……

one person……

But, not reconciled, not reconciled...

But the only unwillingness was eventually replaced by numbness.

and so……

As long as you are quiet, you can live in your own world alone, other people or something...

The most annoying.

Those gray-blue eyes also seemed to be covered with a thick layer of gray mist, making it difficult for people to see clearly.

"Ikari Shinji, read the text below!"

Apparently, he couldn't bear the boy's distraction in such an open and aboveboard manner, the teacher in class finally couldn't bear to roll his name, this is really a strange child.