[Xunsi] Light and Darkness and Blood

Lying on his side on the bed, Shinji couldn't help hugging the pillow and rubbing against it.If it wasn't for the wound on his leg, Shinji would probably roll on the bed.

He bent the joint of his left leg to prevent the wound from being pressed, and the boy hugging the pillow stared at the ceiling in a daze for a moment before his expression fell again... It was despicable and strange for me to have such thoughts, but I couldn't help but want to continue.

Contradictory, yet surprisingly unified.

Spread your five fingers to block the light hitting your face... As long as this continues, with your own secret... Thinking about Shinji, he couldn't help but chuckle.Ah... I was talking about my birthday just now...

"Come out and play, birthday."

"You can do whatever you want on your birthday, Shinji can ask me anything."

"After all, it only happens once a year, doesn't it?"

I have never looked forward to my birthday, I spend it alone every year, and it is almost becoming an ordinary day that cannot be found in the corners and alleys of daily life... But this year I have special expectations... I just look forward to it , this year's birthday.

"You can ask me anything you want."

The charming voice echoed in my ears very gently, even the breath of the other party seemed to be right in front of my eyes... Shinji grabbed the pillow and turned sideways, any request?Then... can he ask for the luxury of being liked by Kaoru?Scratching his head and messing with his hair, he got up irritably and turned off the light in the room with an awkward way of walking. Then Shinji threw himself back on the bed, pulled up the thin quilt and buried his face in the pillow...will be regarded as Pervert it.

"Don't you hate this kind of thing that can contact each other anytime and anywhere?"

"This kind of thing is very annoying." There was a strong smile in the cold voice of Qingquan, and the tenderness in the voice could not be suppressed, and it was fully reflected, "But sometimes it is very good."

"Oops--"

Because of too much daydream and anticipation about his birthday, Shinji unfortunately overslept.

Anxious to wash up, get up and put on a new school uniform, and worry about the wound on his leg, Shinji, who was about to run and desperately fight for it, finally gave in.Anyway... I'm going to be late; but, even if I'm late... no one cares...

Looking at the empty refrigerator, Shinji sighed... let's go buy ingredients, at least... fill the refrigerator.

He was educated deeply for half an hour by the doorman as if he finally caught a child who was late, and then Mei Xingyu called him to the office to educate him alone for a whole lunch break.Shinji supported his head with his hands to support his body, which could only put a third of its weight on the chair, stared out the window in a daze...

There are three days left before my birthday, which just so happens...it's Friday, a half-day class.

There is still half a day of class...

For the first time, Shinji felt that going to class was a very troublesome thing.

Ahh... cake.

On the way home, Shinji finally stopped in front of a bakery that he had never stopped before.

The blue-pink shop is clean and tidy, which has won the favor of the girls and attracted the attention of many boys, but Shinji saw the cake he just tasted yesterday at a glance. Fang Fangzheng is selling simple and beautiful cakes The most popular and most popular recommendation of our store is placed in the window, and the name of this dessert is written under the small cake: look forward to.

Expectation... Shinji's eyes widened, and he couldn't help but lift his fingertips up as if he wanted to touch it, but was blocked by a layer of transparent but obstructive and strong cold glass.At that moment, it was as if his expectation was also hindered by something, and his gray-blue eyes instantly dimmed... Sure enough, there was still a distance.

"This is the shop's signboard. It's a must if you want to please your girlfriend~" The girl who came out of the shop was wearing a pink and white maid skirt and jumped to Shinji's side lively, "'Looking forward' This cake has the highest sales volume among all tiramisu products, do you know the meaning of tiramisu?"

"Meaning?" Shinji, who backed away unconsciously and tried to escape, stopped and blinked his eyes, "Does the cake... also have a meaning?"

"Of course not all cakes are available, but tiramisu is special~" She raised her index finger to her lips mysteriously, the girl obviously noticed that Shinji didn't like others getting too close to him, so she didn't come forward , obviously this time is the busiest time, but when she saw the lonely expression of this person in front of the window, she couldn't help but walked out. In her opinion, every child who passed by her cake shop had Should be happy.Moreover, such an expression does not suit the other party at all.

"Tiramisu?" Isn't it called anticipation?Shinji looked at the cake, but the doubt in his eyes was clearly conveyed to the other party.

"'Expectation' is just the name given to it by the pastry chef. At first, it was just chocolate tiramisu." The girl smiled mysteriously. What does it mean?"

The meaning of ... tiramisu.

The long eyelashes fluttered slightly, and Shinji nestled on the sofa looking at the exquisite cake packed in the same box, his cheeks were slightly warm.

"...So, if a boy gives it to a girl, it means to take him away...and if a girl gives it to a boy, it means...take me away."

"If you want a secret confession, there is nothing better than writing a confession letter tiramisu."

"Your expression is very delicate. It looks happy and sad at the same time. Has anyone sent you off?"

Tiramisu... gently poked a small corner of the cake with her fingertips, knowing that Kaoru may not know the story of tiramisu and the meaning of tiramisu...but, knowing that it is impossible, Shinji's heart was still beating very powerfully and quickly, as if it was about to pop out of his chest... happy, happy... something to look forward to.

It's really... disgusting, I should think so, Shinji stuffed the cake with his hand into his mouth... It's the same store and the same packaging, but it's so bitter... Salty, moist lips But reminded Shinji that this is not the original taste of the cake...but it is really astringent, sweet and astringent.

Just like the budding emotion that seems to be walking on a steel rope, it is clearly in the germination period and should be full of vigor and vitality, but at this moment, the emotion belonging to Shinji is like a flower swaying in the wind, and if you don’t pay attention, it will Falling from a dangerous steel rope...shatters your bones.

If I had known... I wouldn't have stopped.

not curious...

There would be no expectations.

don't expect...

It would not be like this:

bitter;

sweet;

It was clearly painful, and she clearly wanted to escape, but she was greedy for the other party's tenderness, longing for the other party's comfort...

Shameful but secretly happy.

Already... can't escape.

I buried my head deep in my knees, I really missed... I wanted to see Kaoru, but I just met yesterday.

The place in the heart is hot and intense, and the emotions gather there, like a fire that can't dissipate, burning Shinji's reason, and he has already fallen into it and cannot save himself, but he is still doing needless struggle... Contradictory, pitiful and pathetic self .In the end, the feelings are not my own...I miss him so much that I am going crazy, and I am about to become not my own.