pure white secret

My name is Takahashi Takahiro, I am 17 years old, a high school student.Cheerful and optimistic, a little nervous, but with excellent grades, he has always dreamed of becoming a lawyer like his father.I have been working hard for this, and my life so far has been full of warmth and hope.However, in this year, many unexpected things happened, which made me understand: in life, there are gains and losses, and at the same time, there are losses and gains.

"Hey, isn't this Master Akihiko from Usami's family?"

Qiu Yan: "What are you doing?"

"Get in touch with me."

Akihiko: "No."

"Why? I really like you, and besides, you don't have any lovers, do you?"

Qiu Yan: "Please get out of the way."

"If you don't tell me the reason, I won't let you go today."

......

This kind of confession scene keeps happening on campus every day, and I have long been used to it.It's just things and people that have nothing to do with you, so there's no need to care about them.

However, when I heard the name 'Usami Akihiko', I couldn't help but stop.

A 17-year-old gifted high school student who entered this high school with full marks just like me, but has occupied No.1 in the score list with full marks for three consecutive years, always one place ahead of me, and is also the youngest Naoki Prize winner in history Is that 'Usami Akihiko' of the reporter?

Could this bestselling author whose name sounds a lot like Rabbit be just as popular in real life?

With such doubts and curiosity, I forgot where I got the courage to rush to push away the senior who was blocking Qiuyan, and dragged Qiuyan away from the back door of the school.

Me: "That senior didn't come after him, did he?"

Qiu Yan: "Who are you? Why did you do this?"

I let go of Qiu Yan's hand and smiled embarrassedly, "I saw that you seemed to be in trouble just now, so I made my own decisions. I'm really sorry."

Qiu Yan didn't return a polite smile like I thought, but instead said with a cold face, "It's okay."

Me: "But that person just now is Mr. Watanabe who has graduated, right? I heard that he has always hated homosexuality. Why did he ask you to date him? It's really strange."

Qiu Yan said indifferently: "Who knows."

I thought to myself: What a cold and unpleasant type.

I put away my smile, stretched out my hand, and said seriously: "Hi, I'm Takahashi Takahiro, please give me your advice."

Akihiko lightly shook the hand he held, "Usa see Akihiko."

Qiu Yan's hand was white and slender, powerful but somewhat cold, and he retracted it after a brief touch.He doesn't seem to like human contact very much.

After that time, we unexpectedly became friends.Life is really full of surprises.

After I got to know each other, I realized that Qiu Yan was the same as me, with excellent grades but no friends.And since that summer, we have become each other's most important friends.

Qiu Yan: "Xiaohao, let's go home together."

Me: "Little Rabbit, what a coincidence. Didn't the family send someone to pick you up today?"

Qiu Yan: "I told the housekeeper to go to my classmate's house after school today, so you don't have to pick me up."

Me: "Eh? Classmate's house? Is it my house?"

Akihiko: "Yes."

I:"......"

"Little rabbit, you really like to make your own decisions."

The corners of the mouth were slightly curved into a slight arc, which was Qiu Yan's smile.No matter how brightly I smile at him, his smile is always so faint, which is hard to detect.

I pushed open the door, "Come in, little rabbit."

Qiu Yan: "Xiaohao's home is small, but very warm, I like it."

I smiled, "Don't Xiaotu like living in the villa at home? Such a luxurious residence is something that many people would not envy."

Xiaotu took off his coat and sat on the sofa, feeling completely at ease, as if he had returned to his own home, "If Xiaohao likes it, let's live in a big house together in the future."

"Eh? What?"

Qiu Yan said: "With Xiaohao's grades, he will definitely go to university, right? Where does Xiaohao miss the university?"

I don't know why he asked this suddenly, "For me, I want to enter the law school of T University. After graduation, I want to be a lawyer like my father. Thinking about it makes me feel very happy. Where is Xiaotu?"

Qiu Yan said: "I don't care, but I should go to the liberal arts college."

Me: "Literature? That's right, reading literature with Xiaotu's talent is just right. Speaking of which, I don't have the writing skills of Xiaotu, let alone write articles like Xiaotu. I envy you very much."

Qiu Yan said: "In this case, we should live together even more. Because in my opinion, Xiaohao is an almighty superman."

Why do I?"

Qiu Yan said: "The grades are always so good, the relationship with classmates and teachers is also very good, and the relationship with family members is also very good. Moreover, he can do housework and take care of others, and his personality is gentle and considerate. I often think that I can live with Xiaohao People who are together must be the happiest people in the world."

I knew that Qiu Yan was complimenting me on purpose, and I just took it as a joking compliment among friends.It took a long time before I realized the sincerity and meaning of Akihiko's words.It was only then that I realized it was too late.

Me: "Xiaotu said before that she didn't want to become a professional writer. I thought Xiaotu would study economics and then take over the family business."

Qiu Yan said: "I don't want to have any connection with that family. I can live on with my own ability. And I will definitely live better."

The relationship between Qiu Yan and his family is not very good. Whenever he mentions his family members, Qiu Yan always has an unhappy expression on his face.Realizing that I had stepped on a minefield, I turned around and said: "If it is a liberal arts college, Mitsuhashi University is the first choice. I heard that Mihashi University's liberal arts college has the highest score among all universities, and it is super difficult. But The achievement is also the highest."

Qiu Yan gave a soft 'hmm'.

Me: "But if it's a little rabbit, there must be no problem. By the way, can I make pork soup tonight?"

Qiu Yan said: "Okay."

I was cooking in the kitchen alone, and I didn't notice the little rabbit coming over, let alone expect the little rabbit to hug me suddenly.

"Do you need help?"

I smirked to hide my nervousness and embarrassment at this time, "It's okay, I'll be fine by myself, Xiaotu wait a moment."

Qiu Yan said: "Xiaohao can cook, very good."

Hey, this doesn't sound like a compliment, only young masters like you can't cook, hehe...

"Let go of me first, little rabbit, I can't move when you're like this."

Qiu Yan: "I brought you a gift."

"Why did you suddenly give me a gift?"

Qiu Yan said: "It's my new book. Didn't you say you wanted to be the first reader of my new book? I even signed it. I haven't signed it for anyone else."

—what does he mean by that?Is it just for me to sign?No, it's normal for good friends to give gifts, and it's too common for a writer to sign a new book.

I tried my best to deny the random thoughts that flashed through my mind.

I smiled, "But with Xiaotu's talent, he will definitely be a very good writer in the future and will win more awards. By that time, there will be too many autograph sessions and so on."

I dragged him to sit on the sofa, but when I finished my work in the kitchen and asked him to eat, he fell asleep on the sofa.

I didn't wake him up, picked up his signed new book, and sat aside to read.

Also as a high school student, at the same age of 17, but I have to admire Akihiko's talent.

A noble background, a wealthy family, an outstanding appearance, a smart mind... any of these things will make a person stand out in the crowd, and there is no doubt that Akihiko has all the auras.

But in my opinion, what really makes Akihiko shine is not those flashy things.

A noble birth does not necessarily lead to a noble personality, a rich family does not necessarily mean a full-fledged humanity, and an outstanding appearance is even more ephemeral, because no one can live forever at the peak of appearance, and a smart mind can also be filled with stupid thoughts and logic.

And Qiuyan, under the seemingly indifferent appearance, is actually a pure childlike heart, behind the seemingly arrogant hides infinite loneliness, seems to have everything but never gets ordinary warmth.Everyone longs for everything Qiuyan has, so what about Qiuyan, what do you want...

I want to know more about his world, I want to know more about him.I don't know when it started, this kind of thought took root in my heart, and it grew secretly and uncontrollably.

Qiu Yan likes to hug me very much. To be precise, he is used to holding something when he is thinking or sleeping.I understand his behavior as - fear of being alone and insecure.

I was reading Akihiko's book, and when I was sitting on the sofa, I was hugged by the sleepy Akihiko for the second time.

"Little rabbit, let go. It's more comfortable to lie down and sleep."

At this time, Qiu Yan was leaning against me like a child with his favorite toy in his arms. His bony cheeks pressed against my shoulders, causing me a little pain.

"I forgot Mr. Suzuki at home, so I had to ask Xiaohao to replace it. If I don't hug Mr. Suzuki, I can't sleep. Even if I fall asleep, I will have nightmares."

I couldn't help laughing at him in my heart, he is really a person who can't lie.Just now a person collapsed on the sofa, obviously slept very well.

I leaned on the sofa, because my arms were also hugged, and I lifted the book in my hand for the convenience of reading, "Only this time, tomorrow I will buy a Mr. Suzuki A spare at home."

But Qiu Yan suddenly asked: "What Xiaohao means is that I can come over anytime in the future?"

"..."

"Of course. We're friends, aren't we?"

Qiu Yan smiled slightly, and said 'hmm'.

I tried my best to put on a smirking face, so as to maintain the boundary that was entwined on the edge of ambiguity and was about to fall.Because I know that if you want to cross an unknown, you have to bear the risk of losing, but you may not get more.