Contract · Ten Deadly Sins

At the table of the bar, under the catalysis of alcohol, the truth deep in the heart can always be revealed, even in the present and past lives.

The bar is open all year round, even if today is a reunion holiday.It's just that the bar tonight is more like a sanctuary for orphans. Although everyone who comes here is smiling, when they turn their heads, the loneliness on their faces will spread.

Karu habitually wiped the glass in his hand, but Karu's eyes glanced over. The guests in twos and threes were really far from the time when they were not in the festival.

"What day is it today? Why are there so few people?"

"Today is the night of the reunion between man and moon. People are all in the place where they should be reunited; only orphans like us who have been exiled by the world will appear here, hugging each other to keep warm."

Before Si Han could finish his sentence, a lonely and restrained cry came from the corner. From the sound, he could hear the pain of losing a loved one.

"Is someone... dead in his family?" Karu's expression was suddenly unaccustomed to Mengmeng.

"No, it seems that he hasn't gotten used to being abandoned by the harbor; after all, there is a boundary in this circle, and there is a clear difference between saying that sentence and not saying it; He got used to it so quickly." Si Han didn't have the amorous smile that he usually faces the guests, on the contrary, the earnestness in his voice seemed to be telling a story from a long, long time ago.

When the wine glass in his hand put down the coaster, the foam that finally came to him slowly returned to the place where they had drawn the ground along the wall of the glass.Yes, in the whole world, who is not drawing a prison, locking himself in this dark corner that cannot be exposed to the sun, thinking that it is safe, and hiding in it.

Su Zhengyu, who used to live in one of the big Su families around Liecheng, is one of the very prestigious families. Because of this family status, the structure of Su Zhengyu's house is no different from that of ordinary big families. Uh, what I said Yes, it is no different from those rich families in the ancient deep-walled compound.The family rules of the cost are thick and must be circulated and recited by all members. As the head of the family, the head of the Su family naturally has the authority of one person under ten thousand at home, because there is an ancient patriarch old man above him.

In order to ensure the authoritative image of his family's authentic bloodline, Patriarch Su stipulated in the family rules that the males in the family must keep fit and be independent.Even the behavior is strictly stipulated.Su Zhengyu grew up in such a family, but because of such family rules, the head of the Su family often judged him as unsatisfactory.

He even heard such words in his mouth: "I might as well give birth to a girl and practice martial arts. He won't, and he doesn't like it; he just likes to hide quietly and do needlework, pen and ink, isn't he still A man like this, how can he be expected to marry a wife when he grows up, and continue the incense of our family."

Mother Su followed her husband's temper and said, "Zhengyu, he has such a character, let him be; isn't he very sensible, he is stared at by you, and things like needles and threads don't seem to have been touched. Yes, although not so perfect, but at least sensible."

"In my opinion, the child Lu Feng sent is not bad, stable and dignified. Anyway, we raised him to repay our kindness, and he looks like a good seedling to pass on the throne."

"Don't you value blood relationship very much, why do you think of this?"

"No, what did his father do for us? He saved the lives of our whole family. At that time, you had a difficult delivery, and it was he who saved the lives of both of you, mother and child." Father Su sighed, "If I had known this, it would be better Let him die, as an adult, you won't owe him such a big favor."

At this moment, Su Zhengyu was listening outside the door. Although he still didn't understand what they were saying, emotions and tone of voice are the natural empowerment of human beings, and they are also the most direct connection between the speaker and the audience.Perhaps because of the long-term training of reticence, he has become a professional listener and a sensitive person.

The door of the room was opened, and there was a creaking sound. Su Zhengyu led the brought back child to the Su couple.

Before Su's father could perform in one go, Su Zhengyu said first: "Father, I like this brother very much, can he be my brother, the one with the same surname as me, I know, this request may... "

This time, it was Father Su who interrupted him: "Are you serious?"

"Yes, he seems to like playing with me very much, so let him be my brother." Su Zhengyu couldn't see any expression on his face, as if he had already recited a passage out of the script, although it was natural, but It felt awkward again.

Since one cannot become the perfect image in one's mind, at least one must keep a pass line called "sensible".Even if you don't want to wear a mask to act, you still have to act for him.This is the law of survival in such a compound with deep walls. It is just a child who suffers and sacrifices a childhood to learn a law of survival that originally belonged to adults.

The child who brought him showed a gifted look, as if an abandoned puppy suddenly had an owner.He originally wanted to thank his younger brother, but when he didn't meet his eyes, the figure turned around: "If there is nothing else, I won't bother you, brother, stay here, our family has many rules, It takes time to learn.”

As if completing the task, he left the room without looking back, leaving only those three people behind.The moment the door is closed, it seems to close the relationship between the people outside and the people inside. Is this what a sensible child should do?Don't know, maybe, no one wants to know.

Along the way, he didn't stop at any time. He used the shortest time to pass through this deep courtyard until he closed the door of his own room. It slipped on his immature face.In the throat, the sound of crying was still restrained by rationality, and the suppressed voice cautiously spread in this space that belonged to him.

Step by step, the goal of the bed and quilt became clearer and clearer, and the soft bedding gently carried his broken heart at any time.This is his final clean place, at this time Su Zhengyu can truly take off his hypocritical mask, truly vent, and truly cry.Although, I still have to suppress my crying, but it's not bad to be able to do this.

Because of the conversation that night, the child brought back has a name, surname Su, Zhengyang.

I think he is probably an orphan who thinks he is very happy, because he has no memory of his parents, even if he is said to have jumped out of a rock, he will probably believe it, so that night, suddenly there is a People who can be called Mom and Dad are not a gift to him, so what is it?Of course, all of this is due to the younger brother who took the initiative to make such a request with his biological parents.

However, this family has a very strange rule. In order to avoid the majestic image of being able to inherit the blood of the Su family, he is not allowed to approach his younger brother so as not to be affected.

Perhaps, this kind of gratitude can only be expressed in the opportunity of being alone.But this younger brother, after finishing what he said last night, tacitly alienated him and exiled himself.Completely isolated himself from the entire courtyard with deep walls.

"Why do you want to isolate the whole world?" Carew listened to the story, but he still didn't quite understand the complex emotions of this human being.

"When a person can't even get approval from his family, do you still expect him to get approval from other people? It's like a person who has been sentenced to death, and you still expect a stranger to follow you Say, you are a good person, is this a sentence; even if it is true, would you believe it?" Si Han asked rhetorically.

Su Zhengyu, also adhering to such a thought, started a life of walking to school before dawn, resolutely missing dinner time, and then appearing at the gate of the deep-wall compound.The purpose is not to run into anyone inside again.This kind of life finally made most of the people in this compound with deep walls forget that there is Su Zhengyu.

Except, because of curiosity, Su Zhengyang followed him after school. Because of that stalking, Su Zhengyang found out that he was hiding from the crowd and turned into a complicated and dark alley like a maze.However, the master driver was waiting for him, so he didn't force himself to stay. Following the driver, he left the entrance of the alley.

But because of curiosity this time, it killed other cats.

Originally, I thought that day was still such an ordinary day, no one would wait for him to eat, and no one would know that someone had not eaten, and no one would even care whether this person had eaten or not.Yes, in fact, that day has not changed.The only thing that changed was that when he opened the door of his prison, the father who was about to forget sat in his room.The tensed face and facial features seemed to be brewing with anger, ready to vent out at any time. Based on years of experience, he would probably say that sentence again.

"Why are you so ignorant, what are you doing in that alley, do you want to disappear at any time, and never appear in this house again?"

"I'm sorry." Su Zhengyu replied mechanically.

"Then why do you walk in these dark corners? Don't you know that these places will be in danger at any time? Don't you know that I will be worried? Are you so shameless?"

"Don't you think I can't be seen by others, so if I hide and don't let people see me, then I will become ignorant?" Su Zhengyu's eyes have begun to dim, "I work very hard, I work hard to disappear in front of everyone, I work hard When I disappear, I will not fall behind. Although I disappear, I did not let my grades disappear. What is the purpose of doing all this? A pass line."

"Why, do you want to bargain with me? You obviously made a mistake, but you still want to ask for a reward. Is this how I taught you?" Su's father didn't know which sentence or which word poked him into anger. "Go to the patio and kneel for me until you know where you are wrong." After finishing speaking, she got up, put her hands behind her back, and walked out of the room in a fancy dress.

"That bastard father, don't you know that you are wrong?" Karu has never experienced the oppression of this kind of hierarchy, but isn't the curiosity of listening to the story just to understand the strange rules of this strange world?

"Traditional fathers, in order to ensure their own authority, even if it's wrong, they can be right and confident, wrong, it's a matter of course." Si Han has seen through such a character, "So, to turn against the wind, you must have a There is one thing you must do; and this thing, you have to choose from this person, if he values ​​people." The words spit out from the mouth, and at the same time, the corners of the mouth raised a meaningful angle.

Su Zhengyu knelt in the courtyard as promised, and he was facing the room of the Su family.However, they were not in the room, but were dining in the dining room in the side hall. In order to wait for Su Zhengyu to come home, the whole family did not touch their chopsticks. It seems that they dare not touch the mold.Can only eat quietly.

Although it is quiet, it is not necessarily peaceful.Su Zhengyang hurriedly took a few mouthfuls of rice, and said, "I'm full, and I have a lot of homework today, so let's do my homework first."

Father Su hummed, and didn't raise his eyes to look at it. He just picked up the food and slowly put it into his mouth.Taking advantage of this gap, Su's mother cast a wink at Su Zhengyang, and Su Zhengyang nodded quickly after receiving the message, and responded to the look.

Just as Su Zhengyang went out, there was thunder on the flat ground, and it rained instantly. Was it intentional this day? In less than a minute, the heavy rain soaked the weak and motionless body exposed to the rain.

Amidst the sound of heavy rain, Su's father was still eating so calmly; Su's mother looked at Su's pretendingly calm father, and couldn't bear the child who was still kneeling outside: "I think, he knows he's wrong, he's always like that." Weak, what should I do if I get gonorrhea again?"

"Being sick, it's a lesson for him to eat; didn't you let Zhengyang go out, I don't know what you want to do."

The pain that hit him originally disappeared suddenly, but the dripping water around him was still splashing.And a hand holding the steamed bun stretched out in front of him, and the smell wafted over. It was a smell of meat, this is a meat bun.

Su Zhengyang saw that his younger brother didn't respond, and said quietly: "Eat something, you'll get sick if you kneel like this, and you're still drenched in the rain."

"I'm not hungry, I ate, take it back, stay away and stay with me, you will be ruined by me." The coldness on his body, with a deep inferiority complex, invaded his soul.

"No, I am very grateful to you, thank you for letting me have parents, thank you for letting me into this family, I finally have this opportunity to repay you," I don't know if I really can't get used to the hunger of not eating dinner, Still, the grunt coming from the belly of the big meat bun in front of him exposed the truth. "Eat, don't be stubborn."

Zhengyu, who was exposed, suddenly had a naive idea, stretched his neck, and directly bit it with his mouth, tearing the bun in his hand.

"Here, I still have this." Su Zhengyu took the buns, Su Zhengyang then found two meat buns from his clothes with his free hand, and handed them over, holding the umbrella for him intently, watching him intently Eat meat buns.

"Actually, I hate you." Su Zhengyu said after eating the last bite of bun.

"I know that you will hate me, and I also know that I took away your concern. So, I... I am looking for an opportunity to make up for you. "

"It's not that I hate you, but that I hate you... After taking all of this with confidence, but still being so kind to me, should I hate you, or should I protect you, I don't know, I just avoided you , hiding from this home, from the whole world.”

"I'm an elder brother. It's what I should do to protect you. You hate me, I admit it, but I'm willing to treat you well."

"So, at that time, you fell in love with your brother?" Karu listened, couldn't help it, and interrupted again.

At this moment, two lines of crystals finally appeared on Si Han's face, but he still showed a smile. Although he didn't look at anyone, the affection in his eyes was so precious.

"At that time, I was already in the abyss. Do you know how precious the light that appears in the abyss is? Even if it is a firefly, it is like a sky full of stars in my eyes."

It was because of this meal of meat buns and that sentence of willingness that the relationship between the two brothers became complicated. Due to the family relationship, they still walked far away, but Su Zhengyu's route back home was changed; deliberately, Passing by the side of Su Zhengyang's room, he secretly took a look.

In fact, what Su Zhengyu didn't know was that Su Zhengyang also changed his route home, passed by his school, watched him disappear into that dark alley all the way, and then went straight home.

"You two are very interesting. One is a guardian, the other is in a crush. Because of a tradition, you can't be together. This looks like a sadomasochistic relationship. But there has been a period, and then, how did you turn against each other? "

"If I'm not wrong, that matter must be related to you." Si Han's God's perspective was opened, and his eyes that saw through the lies in the world stared at Kalu's gradually froze smile and a burst of coldness.

It seems that this is another story.

The author has something to say:

This chapter is mainly to sort out the antecedents, which is also the source of grievances, and the integration of all memories. If you don’t know how to connect the fragmentary memories in front of you into a jigsaw puzzle, read here.