my love letter is always guilty

There are very few street lights in the dormitory area, Tian Dong wants to stand in a bright place so that he can be easily spotted, but the place with lights is too far away, and they can only stand in the darkness at a close distance.

Looking up at the countless balconies, boys' clothes are occasionally hung on them, but because of the cold, no one is moving on them.

The night is quiet, looking forward, eagerly, time is passing on the apex of my heart.

Finally, Tian Dong couldn't bear it anymore, and all the emotions burst out in his throat, and he yelled towards the balcony: "Dong Hai, Dong Hai, Dong Hai from Class 2 of Law!...Dong Hai!"

"Yo, someone wants to have a fight?!"

"Blind, there is a beautiful woman downstairs courting her, and that is Sun Fang, the school belle."

"Which buddy is so beautiful..."

"Idiot, you can't even see a love triangle? The screaming buddy downstairs is definitely going to have a Roman duel!"

"Here comes a Shangfang sword, how can a duel be done without a weapon?"

"Shang Nima is tall, and Western swords are used in Roman duels!"

In an instant, the balcony was full of people, and most of the boys were booing, using Sun Fang as the topic.

Standing downstairs in the dormitory and yelling someone's name is not difficult to see in schools, but most of them are boys standing downstairs of girls.

"Dong Hai..."

Tian Dong kept yelling, and people kept coming out to watch the fun, more and more people, like rushing to a temple fair.

At this moment, Tian Dong is like a catastrophe. Whoever messes with him will be in such a messy situation.

This is his stubbornness. If you want to suffer, you must suffer thoroughly, and if you want to die, you must die with understanding.

Even if the future is doomed, he let go of his rein and let his voice gradually become hoarse...

He knows it works!

On the balcony on the fifth floor, Dong Hai showed half of his face in surprise.

When he came down, he knew Tian Dong well, and he knew from those letters that Tian Dong was like a pure and rigid stone, no matter how cruel the reality was, he knew it well from those letters. Paranoia made Dong Hai heartbroken.

Seeing Dong Hai coming, Sun Fang walked away and waited at a relative distance.

"Hit!..."

"Do you want to take a gamble? The short one wins or the tall one wins?"

"Shit, in the eyes of girls, it's about looking good, whoever is handsome wins!"

"So, the shorter one seems to be more handsome."

"Hey, that's a student from another school."

There are more and more people watching the excitement, booing one after another.

Dong Hai took Tian Dong to a place far away from the dormitory, by the green lake of the school.

"Forget it, Tian Dong!" Dong Hai said the same words during the day, he pulled his eyebrows, took off his coat and put it on Tian Dong.

"Why didn't you take it out earlier?" Tian Dong pushed away his clothes and asked him about the letter: "If you took it out earlier, would I have experienced that? Why didn't you say it when you wrote the letter!?"

Dong Hai's brows tightened more and more, wrinkled into a painful shape, and stared at him in disappointment: "It's him you like, not me, I'm talking to you like a shadow, and then I found that I have some inexplicable feelings for you. Feelings... I have my hesitation, I'm not sure if I can really accept it, before I met you, I was still living among a group of women."

shadow……

Tian Dong thought of that painting, and blamed himself for painting that blurry mass for no reason...

There was a shabby feeling in the stomach, and it was uncomfortable like frost piercing the bone.

"Dong Hai, how could you torture me like this, why didn't you tell me when you wrote the letter, I was caught in that disordered farce, you knew it and didn't tell me...you didn't tell me until the last letter was written... ..." He couldn't suppress the choking and resentment in his throat.

Dong Hai clenched his fists tightly, his handsome face wrinkled into a ball: "The first time, after writing that letter, I went to find you, that time you left with Fang Ze, and I saw you enter a hotel... "He was also choking.

After all, their fate has a cruel beginning and ending...

They escaped into the absolute prison called fate...

"The second time, I took those 14 letters. On New Year's Eve this year, I saw you and Fang Ze hugging each other. You would rather choose to get back together with him than accept me again. I'm not a saint. I can't stand it." ..."

Tian Dong took a step back in shock: "Why do we have to wait until New Year's Eve?..."

Even if he took it out one day earlier, it wouldn't be the end now. Tian Dong couldn't accept that it was all his fault. He didn't come one day earlier, and he didn't come one day later. It happened to be on New Year's Eve, and Fang Ze also appeared on that day. Everything in this world happens to him, and this movie-like coincidence is vividly interpreted...

"Precious things sare very few, the best, is Walking on Christmas Eve."

Dong Hai read out what Tian Dong had written in the letter. His pronunciation was pure British intonation, and he could hear it by heart, like a sentence engraved on his heart, and he could blurt it out at any time.

It was his own cruelty that hit Tian Dong back, and he had nothing to say.

But he couldn't let go, not even a glimmer of hope.Tian Dong suddenly realized that he and Gu Qin were the same people in essence, the same people who were ridiculously entangled in their feelings regardless of black and white.

"Did you really despair of me? Don't be so arbitrary, can I use the years to come to make up for it?" Tian Dong appealed.

"You're not wrong!" Dong Hai looked at him with deep eyes: "It's my fault, I'm not worthy of you... I deliberately didn't say anything, I hope you find my kind of joy, I am confident that I don't have those words Foreshadowing, you can also recognize me, you will fall in love with me again... I was wrong, I pushed myself to the edge of the cliff, finally, I went the wrong way!"

"You can turn back..." Tian Dong said, letting his tears wet his clothes...he was selfish and coy.

Dong Hai's eyes were red, he forced himself to laugh, and then shook his head at him: "Tian Dong, I'm not Fang Ze..."

The bitter cold was in the air, and Tian Dong could hardly feel any temperature, and he couldn't use his strength in his hands. Watching Dong Hai leave in front of him, his legs froze in place.

The bushes in front of me are covered with damp and cold dead leaves. They are dead fallen leaves, crawling on the muddy ground, waiting to rot, never returning to the branches, never seeing the original spring blossoms and autumn fruits, and the once green color no longer exists .

He has become a dead leaf. In the tragic winter, that tree will never return...

Tian Dong once again became a down-and-out warrior who returned home after a disastrous defeat.

Back in the dormitory, she seemed to have lost the ability to speak and refused to communicate with her. Sun Fang never answered her phone until the battery was exhausted and the phone shut down automatically.

Near midnight, Tian Dong suddenly cried out while hugging the quilt.

The people in the first dormitory who were awakened by the fright looked at him seriously, some scolded him impatiently for being too disturbing, and some shook their heads dully.

Tian Dong knew that he couldn't control the crying now, this was the only time he cried aloud, no matter what, even if he was sunk into the deep sea, he would still cry bitterly in the sea.

While crying, I got out of bed, fled to the corridor outside, wrapped the quilt and covered my face inside, let the decibels decrease in the empty corridor, and let the cold air freeze and shatter it.

Finally, the sound prevented the sensor lights in the corridor from being startled, and he trembled while holding the cup.

Chen Ming came over with a candle, a small white candle, and lit it in front of Tian Dong.

"Meiling said that candlelight can drive away the haze of people's hearts. It is a real source of fire. The flame is like a human heart. When it is lit, it will come alive. Whether it is nonsense or not, I believe her words."

Meiling was Chen Ming's girlfriend. Before Chen Ming returned to the dormitory, his chilblain hands supported Tian Dong's back, as if to put the heat of the candle into his heart.

In the empty aisle, Tian Dong is hugging the quilt, with a pale face, and a cluster of tiny candles.

If people's hearts can really be lit up like this, then there should be no sadness.

Aware of the uselessness, Tian Dong is still unwilling to extinguish the candle, it is the only thing that can guard him in this lonely night.

Looking at the warm yellow candlelight, his wounds seemed to be vented until it burned to the end, and the tears also stopped, it was like listening to Tian Dong's full of sadness with all his life, no matter wrong or right, it all Accept it and take it to heaven.

Humble love is like this, never to pass.

After dawn, Tian Dong still didn't feel sleepy, so he thanked Chen Ming.

After freshening up, I changed into thick clothes. It was too cold in the winter morning.

He went to find Huang Lihua.

In a men's clothing store, I saw that gentle girl before the door, talking to a middle-aged man. The man looked ordinary, except for his sinister, snake-like eyes.

Tian Dong met that man. He was Huang Lihua's adoptive father at the student-parent meeting.

Huang Lihua's background was poor, and her fate was not smooth. Her adoptive father did not treat her as well as her biological father.

Therefore, her character always appears humble, obeying others' orders, and being humble in every way.

Tian Dong felt a little uneasy, such a girl, the only love she got, should I take it away?

But who is not selfish... Selfishness is the essence in the blood.

With selfish thoughts in mind, when Tian Dong passed by, Huang Lihua's adoptive father was leaving. When she rubbed shoulders with Tian Dong, she turned her head and smiled, an indescribable smile, proud?This strange sense made Tian Dong feel uncomfortable for a while...

"Tian Dong, why are you here?" Huang Lihua looked at him in surprise and lowered her head in embarrassment.

"Huang Lihua..." Tian Dong returned to God and said, "Can I chat with you for a while?"

"Oh...okay." She replied, then turned around and asked the store manager for leave.

They didn't go far, and they were at the milk tea shop next door.

Huang Lihua ordered milk tea for Tian Dong, and carefully asked him what flavor to drink. She was so gentle that people felt pitiful, and Tian Dong couldn't find any shortcomings in such a girl.

But Tian Dong still opened his mouth: "Huang Lihua... why are you and Dong Hai suddenly together?"

Huang Lihua blushed, with an infatuated expression: "After New Year's Eve, he drank every day. I was afraid that something would happen to him, so I followed him quietly."

What does Dong Hai look like when drunk, is it painful, has he cried, has he resented... the person who accompanied him was not himself, Tian Dong felt a pain in his heart, squeezed the milk tea cup, and continued to listen.

"On Thursday, he drank too much until early in the morning. He said he didn't want to go back to the dormitory, so I sent him to a hotel near the school. That night..." Huang Lihua drank some water in embarrassment.

Tian Dong had already guessed the content behind, so he nodded, indicating that he understood.I also remember that Huang Lihua once said firmly in front of him that she would rather be slept by Dong Hai, and she would also be willing to be dumped by him. With the courage to see death as home alone, Tian Dong must admit that he cannot do it.

Huang Lihua hurriedly explained to Tian Dong, with half a sense of shame: "I am willing, and I am prepared. If you can take good care of him, I will leave. The world is so big, and I can go to the farthest place from Wubei City."

This made him say "good", Tian Dong's hand almost crushed the paper cup of milk tea, he vaguely understood why Dong Hai said he was not Fang Ze.

He is indeed not Fang Ze.

Facing such a girl, he couldn't do the same thing that Fang Ze did. Although this is not an interpretation taken out of context, this matter will be a knot in his and Dong Hai's hearts.

And Dong Hai is a straight man after all.

Tian Dong suddenly understood why Fang Ze didn't want to be 0, because people like them always have nostalgia for women, or... under the pressure of reality, they need women to cover up something.

Dong Hai's resoluteness last night was to blame. Without knowing it, he got along with him for a period of time, combining Dong Hai with his previous love letters. Tian Dong couldn't do such a keen observation.

Life is easily ruined by embarrassing fate, and all misses are self-righteous feelings.

As for Huang Lihua's love, she paid pure sincerity, and even knelt down to Sun Fang for Dong Hai.

This feeling, Huang Lihua gave too heavy shackles...

Let Dong Hai abandon Huang Lihua like this, Tian Dong will feel uneasy.

Even if we stick together with Dong Hai stubbornly, what will happen in the future...

Boys and girls are too different. Boys don't have absolute purity and restraint. If there is no restraint, they shouldn't have too much stubbornness.

Suddenly, Tian Dong gave up the original selfishness in his blood, the fact rather than the emotion, what did he force to do, isn't it enough to experience Fang Ze.

"Do you think I like him? Never, he's not gay, otherwise, I wouldn't have rejected him so many times." Tian Dong finished the cup of milk tea with a smile.

Before leaving, he gave Huang Lihua a hug.

From then on, the real wandering life began...