my love letter is always guilty

In the evening, after class, go home.

Confused night, not too cold, foggy.

The car drove slowly, pulling through the loose and powerless street scene, and the place next to Tian Dong was empty, as if lonely in the crowded.

The tune coming out of the earphones is a bit sad, just as sad as the real world shaking outside the car window.

When we arrived at the station, the fog hadn't cleared, and there was a wet feeling in the air, like tears that hadn't shed from our eyes.

Why would you want to cry?

lovelorn...

It's a pity that I haven't figured out the reason why I was dumped!

It's just... Tian Dong thinks he has no reason to cry, because Gu Qin loves to cry more than him, and cries harder.

That petite girl with a round face was standing at the door again, her face was full of pear blossoms and rain, she was dressed very thinly, and she turned herself into the heroine of Qiong Yao...

"Ah Dong, Dong Hai said that I can only be her friend..."

Dong Hai...

Tian Dong thought about it for a while, oh, the tall boy of the school basketball team, known as the man of the school, Gu Qin pursued him for a year, wrote love letters, gave scarves, and shouted the loudest in the cheerleading team. .

"Are you still chasing him?!" Tian Dong was a little surprised. After all, there are very few boys who are as persistent as Gu Qin. Of course, he is still a little confused about who this girl likes.

Opening the door, she fell like a ball of mud on the entrance floor, which is the concrete floor, but she didn't care: "I really like him, I love him, I seem to be dying..."

This is the small board room that Tian Dong rented near the school. It costs 300 in January. It is very simple. There is a bed when you enter the house, and there is a private bathroom. But he doesn’t have bath towels or big towels, so he looks for them in the plastic closet by the window. Give Gu Qin an old dress.

"Hot water, you boil it yourself."

"Adong..."

Tian Dong didn't like this nickname. After a long time, it became a synonym for disgust.

"Isn't there another boy named Duan Feiyu? You really have nothing to do with each other?" Tian Dong reminded her that it was another boy that Gu Qin had pursued hard half a year ago, and he was also very handsome.

Gu Qin is a typical appearance association, every boy she likes has outstanding looks, which is why she is so stubborn about Dong Hai.

She hid her tears: "That's different, we've broken up."

broke up?What a surprise...

Tian Dong still has some memories of that love story. It was raining that day, and Gu Qin cried like this. She deliberately drenched in the rain for two hours, saying that it would relieve the pain, and then passed out on the ground with a high fever.

Tian Dong sent her to the hospital, where she was hospitalized for three days. The doctor said that her sclerotin was seriously inflamed and would affect her throat.

Gu Qin studied bel canto, so a broken voice is undoubtedly bad news.

She begged Tian Dong to keep it secret, and if her family knew about it, she would definitely be transferred to another school. She said that she could give up everything, but she could not be separated from that boy. At that time, this crying girl was extremely stubborn, like a handful of quicksand willing to be swallowed, making people helpless.

During the three days in the hospital, Tian Dong was absent from class, and he took care of all his necessities, food, housing, and transportation. Medical expenses were also a problem. He reduced his own food expenses and ate bags of instant noodles for a whole month.

Not long after I thought about it, that story was over, and another Dong Hai appeared.

Gu Qin: "I also know that I'm cheap, but I can't control myself. You don't understand how I feel every time I expect him to reply to me. I can't bear to read all the words he wrote...It's hard to describe my love for you. His obsession..."

Looking at the tears on Gu Qin's face, Tian Dong was a little confused, only to realize that this girl who was like a best friend rarely came to him except for broken love.

Tian Dong didn't know whether she came to talk to him, or just needed a companion. Unknowingly, their friendship was put on hold in her love.

Listening to Gu Qin's feelings, every pain she put aside, Tian Dong would also be sentimental at the beginning, but now, he couldn't describe what kind of mood it was.

Tian Dong likes boys, Gu Qin knew it very early on, and never discriminates against them. This is the embodiment of her belief that love is above everything else.

Gu Qin thought that Tian Dong understood boys better, so she always asked him about the emotional psychology of different boys, and Tian Dong always replied: "If I understand everything, I won't be broken in love."

Tian Dong felt that he could only do what he could to treat this 'girlfriend'... Gu Qin didn't exist in the script, and Gu Qin didn't appear in his script, probably because he was a boy, The depression of a lovelorn is rarely resolved with tears.So there is some difference between him and Gu Qin on this point.

In Gu Qin's body, Tian Dong saw the short-lived love, the flowers bloom and fall at a certain point in time, and all that remains are tears. , you will feel that her feelings come and go quickly, and you don't even know how her last relationship was downplayed...

"Tian Dong, you said he didn't like me, why did he write to me?"

Tian Dong sighed: "Who knows, isn't it you who took the initiative? Maybe...he is just politely reciprocating with you, boys will never refuse girls too directly..."

"Then what do you boys do to boys?" When she asked, Gu Qin realized that she had asked a sensitive question, and apologized again with tears in her eyes: "I'm sorry, if you still care about that matter, just pretend I didn't ask."

Tian Dong didn't answer, nor showed any expression, like a burnt oil lamp, haggard and silent.

Gu Qin didn't ask anymore, thinking about what happened to Tian Dong, what happened to her seemed so insignificant, anger and sadness suddenly surged together, she threw herself on the bed and cried loudly: "Like Fang Ze The bastard deserves to go to hell, Zhou Sisi deserves to be hacked into pieces, this pair of bastards deserves to die..."

Hearing her crying and cursing, Tian Dong looked back at the calendar beside the bed. The time was April 2009, 4, and there were two months left for the college entrance examination.

This night, Gu Qin slept with him. They were of the opposite sex, and they often slept in the same bed, but they were calmer than anything else...

For Gu Qin, Tian Dong has something that female friends don't have. She can get into his arms safely and get the comfort of the opposite sex from him as a boy, which is also called an absolute sense of security without desire. …

And Tian Dong is also used to holding her soft hair, hoping to refine his emotions.