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Wen Yu went downstairs to smoke a cigarette, and when he returned to the consultation room, a absentee had returned to his post, doing massage for an old man with no expression on his face, and endured the old man's nagging.

When he passed by, Can greeted him, and the other party barely raised his eyelids, and the corners of his mouth curled down.

There were indeed many people on this day, and the supply of massage therapists was in short supply. Shang Qiu forgot about him, and Wen Yu was not annoyed.He had already skipped work and left, instead of going back and continuing to do those trivial things, it would be better to stay in the clinic waiting for time.

The nurses basically knew that they were classmates, and occasionally joked that Xiao Cui, your classmate, was so kind to you.Wen Yu readily accepted these comments, but Cui Shican couldn't see any emotion. When he lowered his head, he showed the back of his neck and was sweating.

Wen Yu sat on the stool next to him, and talked to Shi Can who was working hard: "I went to Yancheng last weekend, and I met Yi Jingxing, and we had dinner together."

"Huh?" Shi Can didn't move, and expressed his doubts.

Wen Yu: "Have you ever heard of his girlfriend? I just found out that he really has one, and he hides it very well. No one has ever mentioned it. Don't even Chen Qian be kept in the dark, right?"

"I don't know." Shi Can laughed, noncommittal, "I have no contact with him."

"You two had a good relationship before, and you thought it was good now." Wen Yu said, "But he also said that you ignored them after you went to college... May I ask why?"

His tone was softened, but his attitude was quite tough.But Cui Shican ignored him, only took a breath, took a small bottle of water on the cabinet and drank it, and his protruding Adam's apple moved slightly when he raised his neck.

"I don't want to say, I'm going to guess again." Wen Yu smiled leisurely.

"They're in Yancheng, a famous university, and they can't make up time when they come back from winter and summer vacations." Cui Shican put the water back and continued to massage the old man's back.

Wen Yu cleared his throat, and covered the smile on his lips: "Others don't think so."

Cui Shican snorted coldly: "So what? I'm going to continue like before?"

"You're just..." Wen Yu wanted to say that you were too stubborn, but felt that Cui Shican must be unhappy when he said this, so he swallowed it back alive, and changed another word, "You just think too much."

Shi Can said stubbornly, "You don't understand."

Seeing that he refused, Wen Yu could only fall silent, her eyes following Shi Can's hand movements.When he was doing massage, he showed his forearm, his muscles were tense, his outline was strong and his lines were obvious, and he was powerful and beautiful, which fascinated him.

"If you..." Shi Can said, a little weak because of his tiredness, "There is water over there."

Wen Yu quickly said, "I'm not thirsty."

Shi Can: "Then you have nothing to do when you stay here, don't you go to work?"

"It's a holiday." Wen Yu said, receiving his obviously disbelieving eyes, and added, "I'm giving myself a holiday. I have no other place to go. I'll wait here for you to get off work."

Cui Shican paused for a moment, then he laughed, but he didn't seem to be happy: "Mr. Wen, you are really free."

With a sarcastic tone, everyone else was busy with their own affairs, and the uncle who was being massaged didn't seem to be interested, but even so, knowing that no one cared about this sentence, Wen Yu felt uncomfortable for no reason.With ten fingers intertwined, Wen Yu bowed his head and remained silent. He has had the habit of playing with his fingers when he was at a loss.

Shi Can doesn't often talk to him in this tone, and it embarrasses him every time.

He tried his best to ignore the gap between himself and Shi Can, but it always widened inadvertently.Maybe I said the wrong thing, or I said a lot to make people think too much.

This look is too cramped, Cui Shican caught a glimpse from the corner of his eye, and said, "If you are busy, don't wait for me."

"...I want to chat with you. I'm so busy and go to the consulting room every week. This is where I can see you." Wen Yu said, shrugging his shoulders in despair, "Is this all right?"

It was almost a pleading tone, when had he been so wronged?

Shi Can glanced at Wen Yu pointedly. He looked like a student in an ordinary T-shirt and cropped trousers. He couldn't help but think of his thin body wrapped in school uniform in the past.

At that time, Wen Yu was thin and small, and could easily move Shi Can's face.Memories have been polished by time, and have already produced a different kind of colorfulness. Whether it is good or bad, there is a unique light, shining on the long beach like a river of time. Unlimited nostalgia.

He only felt his heart beating hard, and heard himself say: "Okay."

Immediately smiled at the convenience, and happily went to pick up a glass of water.Cui Shican's eyes lingered on him, and the exposed ankle was like the collar at the back of his neck that was suddenly torn off that day, which made people's mouth dry at the end of summer.

Cui Shican withdrew his eyes and concentrated on doing things, but the question he asked became: "Do you also wear this in the company?"

"Ah?" Wen Yu bit the rim of the paper cup, "Surely not, how can it scare others, I am already small, and they will not accept me even if I wear it like this - put a change of clothes in the lounge."

After the old man's massage was finished, Cui Shican stood beside him and relaxed his arms to rest: "Then what do you usually wear?"

Wen Yu was taken aback: "A suit, what else can I wear?"

Just about to ask if this has anything to do with you, Wen Yu turned his head, and Cui Shican was staring at him, with a flash of light in his dark eyes: "Then try wearing it next time, I want to see it."

He couldn't say the words of refusal, his cheeks were hot, he covered his head and turned away, and didn't respond for a while.Shi Can went around and sat on the side of the treatment bed, facing him. He was tall and had long legs. When his knees touched the outside of Wen Yu's thighs, he was in an intimate posture. good?"

"...What's so interesting." Wen Yu said, if he didn't look at him, his heart would be on fire.

"Nice," he said.

The cool air from the air conditioner blew over the slender fingertips. Wen Yu hadn't recovered when his ears were suddenly touched by warm fingers.He turned his head and met Shang Shican's eyes that looked like a bottomless pool.

Against the direction of the light, Cui Shican pinched his earlobe: "Why are you shy, do you like me?"

Wen Yu frowned in surprise and shrank back, avoiding this overly ambiguous action.He stood up suddenly, his heart was beating wildly, the soles of his feet were weak, his throat tightened for a while, his breath was choked, and his hands and feet couldn't be placed properly.

The white teeth bit the inside of his lower lip, and the foreign body sensation brought him back a little bit of sanity, but he really couldn't say anything.

He didn't dare to look at Cui Shican anymore, he felt ashamed to be seen through, but he really wanted to know if Shican's expression was teasing or serious, or just a casual joke like before?

It's like that kiss on a rainy day in April, in exchange for only a harmless sentence——

"It's nothing."

Wen Yu turned around and left the consultation room. He went downstairs, pretended to be calm and walked quickly to the door, almost bumping into someone, and sat in his car all the way to ease his emotions in the smell of peace of mind, but his heart still throbbed a little .

The phone was vibrating nearby, Wen Yu picked it up to look at it, his hands and feet felt cold all of a sudden.

Cui Shican sent him a message: "I'm just joking."

He actually felt fortunate that "it was a joke". The reason is that he can only tell himself if he likes someone, and there is no difference between being seen through by others and taking off his clothes in public.Although the protective shell was transparent, it was not useless. Wen Yu let out a breath and grabbed the phone tightly.

Panic, fear, shyness... like the ebb and flow of the tide fade away layer by layer.

All that was left was the anger of being offended.

Wen Yu couldn't understand what Cui Shican was doing.

Jumping out of the eccentricity of "this person is Shi Can", he was sure that the other party must have secret pleasure in bullying and teasing him, and then secretly mocked him.But he didn't want to be the protagonist of such a joke, he hoped that Shi Can would be happy from the bottom of his heart, and not just a whim like this.

Perhaps at this moment, he finally got rid of the childish petty fights to express his "care" cryptically.If Cui Shican must test each other, Wen Yu doesn't want to play games with him.

What he wants is an affirmative sentence, the next time he asks "do you like me" the expression will be joyful and jumping for joy-the eyes are bright, and he is really happy because he is liked.

After the anger also receded, Wen Yu typed a few words, after much deliberation, it was still the same as before: "It's nothing."

He visited Ji Yue on Friday.

After graduating from university, Xu Qingjia continued to study in Yancheng, while Ji Yue chose to return to this city to work.She studied hotel management as an undergraduate, and after a series of selections, she entered the administrative office of a five-star hotel. The salary was just that, but the advantage was that she could control her time freely and change shifts easily.

The house was bought by Xu Qingjia's family. It is an apartment in a high-end community, with three bedrooms and one living room. It is warmly and lovelyly furnished.Hearing that Wen Yu was coming, Ji Yue specially changed flowers, and he could smell the excessive fragrance as soon as he entered the door.

"Sister Yue, you think highly of me too!" Wen Yu said, and handed over the fruit and another box, "Here, mangoes, cherries, and pineapples are all your favorites."

Ji Yue saw the contents of the box clearly, and said pleasantly, "You know I like to eat this?"

Wen Yu pinched her nose: "Well, I asked my assistant to buy it. The most popular durian cake in the city, she waited in line for three hours - take it away quickly, I can't smell it."

"Hypocritical!" Ji Yue sneered, holding the cake and putting it in the refrigerator, she couldn't help but say when she was walking back, "Is your assistant a secretary? Do these jobs every day, and give them some extra salary."

Wen Yu still hasn't let go: "I'll think about it."

Ji Yue returned to the living room with two cups of tea and asked Wen Yu to sit down. The two chatted for a while, she hugged a pillow, and sank into the sofa: "If you have nothing to do, go to the Three Treasures Palace. Tell me, what are you doing here today?" Purpose?"

"Sister Yue, I..." The name stuck in her throat, Wen Yu cleared her throat before saying, "I want to ask about Shi Can."

Ji Yue frowned delicately: "Cancan? Don't you communicate often now?"

Wen Yu nodded: "But I think...he has become very strange. He was not like this when he was studying. Some time ago, he seemed to have some prejudice against me-don't laugh, really, I missed too much, why? He didn't say anything to test him, he could only ask you, Jing Xing said that you knew him best when you were in college."

"Yi Jingxing's broken mouth!" Ji Yue cursed in a low voice.

Wen Yu didn't speak, but held the cup and looked at Ji Yue persistently, with pitiful eyes.

She couldn't stand boys acting like a baby, especially if she still had shadows from before. After being stared at for a long time, Ji Yue threw the pillow away, muttered "I'm convinced you", and began to talk about the university.

The third year of high school was like marching and fighting, the soldiers were chaotic, and no one was in the mood to care about others.Ji Yue was under too much pressure at that time, and had a breakup with Xu Qingjia, and other things had nothing to do with her.When she regained her senses, the college entrance examination was imminent, and she realized that there seemed to be something wrong with Shi Can, who had been cheerful and lively since junior high school.

This hesitation continued until the next grades and application of volunteers. Ji Yue went to Yancheng with Xu Qingjia as she wished. When asked Cui Shican, the other party mentioned a local medical school. The reason was to take care of her seriously ill father. The school is also close to home.Even though that school was not much better than the health school, and the grades were wasted a lot, Ji Yue had no position to ask too many questions and could only respect his decision.

Separated in September, and then contacted again, it was a hundred and eight thousand miles away.

"He dropped out of college before he finished his studies. I just went home and ran to find him, only to find that he had moved." Ji Yue fingered the tassels on the edge of the cushion, as if recalling seriously, "Later …I contacted him again through WeChat, and he said that he moved because he wanted to change his environment. At that time, my uncle had just passed away, so I didn’t think much about it, thinking that he might be too sad.”

Wen Yu's eyelids twitched, and he felt that although Shi Can had a good relationship with his father, it must not be because of this.

Ji Yue continued: "Anyway, since then, Cancan has become weird. She doesn't like to talk, and doesn't like to go out to play. She is bored at home all day, or wanders around by herself outside. Chen Qian and I both I was quite concerned about why he dropped out of school and whether he was punished. When I thought about how he had become like that, what punishment could he have? During that holiday, Aqian asked him why, and he almost got into a fight with Aqian...the two broke up gone."

Wen Yu was surprised: "Hey? On the day you got married, didn't they still..."

"Ah Qian, why don't you argue with him? After all, now that I've figured it out, I'm still worried. For the sake of Shi Can, he might just express it inappropriately." Ji Yue said.

My father passed away, and I didn't finish college, and I became more and more silent, and I didn't have much energy for life.

It seems to be a complete story line, but Wen Yu still feels that something is wrong, and a certain link is missing: "Did he mention to you what is more difficult? For example... money or something like that?"

"How is that possible." Ji Yue smiled wryly, "He used to look heartless, he can hide things better than anyone else."

"That's true." Wen Yu hesitated to speak.

Ji Yue turned her head, glanced at the sunset that leaked in from the balcony, and said suddenly for a long time, "But when it comes to money, I do remember one thing, which has something to do with Shi Can."

Wen Yu: "Huh?"

"When my uncle passed away... Didn't my mother know Shi Can's mother well, so she went to offer her condolences." Ji Yue picked up a cigarette case on the coffee table, lit a cigarette, and the light pink lipstick marks were left on the cigarette butt, "then She once inadvertently mentioned that Shi Can's family may have owed a lot of debts, and there were people making trouble at the funeral—like something."

Her heart tightened all of a sudden, Wen Yu pursed her lips, her eyes became hot for no reason.At that time, Shi Can was only in his early twenties at most, and losing a loved one was already very painful, and to encounter such an accident again...

Wen Yu closed his eyes.

"That day I asked him if he was short of money, and if so, I could help him..."

Ji Yue blew out a small smoke ring: "So he will definitely be angry. Cancan has a strong self-esteem, what is the difference between you saying this and stabbing him with a knife?"

She didn't need to say much, Wen Yu already knew she was slipping that day.After sitting there for a while, he asked Ji Yue for a cigarette, and the two of them smoked silently together, neither of them spoke again.

Self-esteem is such a poor shell, fragile and fragile, it will hurt if you touch it.

In the clouds, he maintains a ridiculous innocence, does not understand the suffering and helplessness of another world, like the emperor in "Why not eat minced meat", it sounds absurd, but he doesn't feel it at all.

He thought, why didn't Shi Can come out?

But it wasn't until a long time later that Wen Yu realized that the reason why the quagmire was a quagmire was that it was frightening to struggle in vain.

The author says:

Thank you for your attention in the past week~ By the way, I saw someone mentioning it in the comments, this topic is a bit strange, because it is a kind of smoke (but smoking is harmful to health, don’t try it just because you think it’s cool (serious