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"Guess who Xia Fengyi is looking for?" Cui Shican suddenly asked him while holding a peanut.

Wen Yu was putting two glasses together to compare their heights boredly, when he heard this, he raised his head with a blank expression: "Didn't you tell me? To be reasonable, I actually don't... care so much."

They sat side by side at the bar of a Japanese grocery store. The store was small and the other seats had already been reserved. Wen Yu brought Shican here for dinner on a whim. It was lucky that there were two bar seats left.The place is recommended by him from the local official account, the owner is Japanese, the taste is authentic, and it is very cheap.

After the physical therapy, it happened to be time for Shi Can to leave work. Although he had made an appointment before, he was still nervous.The first two times when Wen Yu saw that Shi Can didn't intend to leave in a hurry, he casually asked if he wanted to have dinner together - he said it naturally and casually, but his heart kept beating.

Until Cui Shican nodded slightly.

Later, they may often eat together, which has become a kind of tacit practice, and this time the invitation is relaxed.Wen Yu directly grabbed him and showed him the restaurant he had found, and he almost said "come with me".

At this moment, he was telling the truth about what he asked in the clinic, but Wen Yu didn't care anymore. Shi Can was not sure whether this person was just curious or he had something to say, so he handed over the peeled peanuts. Give him one: "Huh?"

"Oh, thank you." Wen Yu took it and ate it.

Shi Can started peeling peanuts again, and the wasabi octopus they wanted was in front of him, and Wen Yu picked up his chopsticks.

The spicy mustard taste dilutes the fishy smell of the raw octopus. He sniffed his nose, feeling a little teary from the heat. Just as he raised his hand to wipe it, Cui Shican suddenly said without a trace: "He came to find the merchant. Autumn."

Wen Yu's field of vision is full of fog: "What are you looking for with Shang Qiu?"

Cui Shican said meaningfully: "Who knows."

Wen Yu was confused by his attitude, so he didn't intend to get to the bottom of it - after all.He picked up an octopus with chopsticks and asked Shi Can, "Don't you like eating raw?"

"Shang Qiu is the same, you can see it." Cui Shican said mischievously, "Xia Fengyi seems to be chasing him. He brought us candy before, and he sent it to everyone, saying he was treating Shang Qiu."

Wen Yu was caught off guard, choked the mustard in his throat, and coughed to death.

Stuffing a cup of barley tea in his hand, Shi Can followed his back and apologized without sincerity: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't see you eating when I said this..."

"You did it on purpose!" With tears in his eyes, he poured down a big mouthful of tea and said angrily, "It depends on my embarrassment!"

Shi Can rested her chin with one hand without denying it, and smiled with eight neat teeth, while still sticking her other hand to his back.Summer clothes are thin, and the temperature of his palm is transmitted through a T-shirt, through the skin, through the spine, causing Wen Yu's heart to suddenly warm up, and then he can lose all speech ability.

Wen Yu finally regained his composure, after realizing the gossip just now, he almost coughed again: "What did you say?"

Shi Can has no awareness of spreading rumors: "I guess."

"It's not that, you said just now that he's 'too'." Wen Yu turned his head, looked at Cui Shican in disbelief, and said with difficulty, "What does this mean? Who else?"

He quickly understood what Cui Shican was referring to, and his heart hung high.

Gay, these three words were bolded and almost knocked him dizzy.

Even though Wen Yu didn't care about his own orientation, years of studying abroad made him used to revealing in front of others, which is commonly known as "coming out", so he and Han Mo tacitly agreed that it was normal for them.

But Wen Yu also understood the domestic situation, not everyone was like what he had met before.In the eyes of more people, people like them will only be roughly classified into the "abnormal" category, like dividing up an interpersonal circle, and they hug each other alone to keep warm.

What some people call "support" is actually not uncommon for Wen Yu.He feels that he is just an ordinary person, and insisting on being treated as a different kind to express his position and label him is not a kind of discrimination?

Did Shi Can see it?I deliberately said this to test, what do you want to say?

Don't come near me anymore, or, actually, I don't care?

"I am," he said.

Wen Yu was stunned.

There is a small fresh Japanese song that was popular a few years ago in the store. The female voice is gentle, accompanied by guitar and wind chimes, singing about the blooming cherry blossoms in spring. The tram drives through the fields, and the petals float into the car window, interpreting a moment of dreamy withering.

He stared firmly at the young man beside him, and asked repeatedly: "...Who are you talking about?"

"I am." Cui Shican said softly.

Wen Yu instantly lost all his prepared lines.

He poked the bottom of the bowl with his chopsticks, and he tried not to look so surprised.But the actual impact was still beyond imagination, Wen Yu's breathing speeded up significantly, and he couldn't recover for a long time.

But Shi Can was not in a hurry, he took a sip of tea leisurely, without speaking.

The curtain behind the bar was half opened, and the Japanese boss brought out the ramen and fried dumplings they ordered with a standard smile.

"Thank you." Wen Yu said, and Shi Can beside him also nodded.

He had something to do, and the heat of the ramen rushed to his face, and he finally recovered from the surprise and anxiety.Wen Yu picked up the noodles with chopsticks, not daring to look at Shi Can's expression: "...I didn't expect that."

Shi Can seemed to smile, and said mockingly, "Well, I didn't think of that either."

"Before I..." Wen Yu seemed to have thought of something funny, and his tone could not be restrained, "Actually, I wanted to ask you before, if you have a girlfriend, but now I might have to change the phrase—"

"No." Shi Can interrupted him, "I did when I was in college, but because of this, we broke up."

Wen Yu nodded: "I thought you were in love with Maizi at that time."

When he suddenly mentioned that name, Shi Can blinked his eyelashes, then lowered them, as if he was concentrating on looking at the food in the bowl.There are several lamps hanging overhead, and the light is haunting, and his lower eyelids are covered with a shadow like a crow's feather, like a carefully crafted Rembrandt shadow.

"...No." Shi Can said, a little hoarse, and then coughed twice.

"I heard her voice on that phone call." Wen Yu deliberately mentioned this matter.

Cui Shican stopped holding the chopsticks for a moment.

He once thought that he might never have the chance to mention this phone call again in his life. It was as special as it was ordinary. It was just a simple summer evening.Several years had passed, and that girl at that time might not have any interaction with Wen Yu in his whole life, and he himself felt that there was no need to hold on to her.

But in the final analysis, he and Cui Shican fell apart and misunderstood each other. Many factors overlapped complicatedly, and the detonation line was pinched on that sentence.Wen Yu still remembers the feeling of cold hands and feet outside the gymnasium that day.

That's why I'm brooding.

Given the opportunity, Wen Yusi thought about it, but still wanted to know the cause and effect.

Cui Shican may have the same thoughts as him, picked up the pair of chopsticks, but did not move: "I was going to find you that day, but my mother asked me to buy some condiments for the family, anyway, the supermarket is not far away , it was still early. I didn't expect to meet her near there, surrounded by a group of punks, so I passed by."

Wen Yu took it for granted, "Well, did you go to the hero to save the beauty?"

"I didn't." Shi Can said in a low voice, "I just...she called my name, and I wanted to take a look and leave if I had nothing to do. One of the people in the group was her ex-boyfriend, and they kept pestering each other. Shoving...Maizi pushed him, the man stepped on the ground, hit his head on a brick, and bled."

Wen Yu opened his mouth, his eyes full of surprise, he didn't expect this level to exist.

"Bleeding. At that time, many people were watching. Maizi suddenly started crying, saying that he fought back because the man touched her. A few gangsters surrounded her, so I blocked it." He took a deep breath when he said this. , his eyes flickered as if recalling that time, "Then someone called 120 and sent him to the hospital with Maizi, and I was also taken there."

"That's why you were a genius that day..." Wen Yu couldn't continue.

"When you called, the police asked someone to ask about the situation. I didn't tell them the truth." Shi Can said, his head almost lowered to his chest, "Maizi said that I pushed, but the police didn't pursue it."

Wen Yu said angrily, "How could she—"

Shi Can waved his hand: "Anyway, no one was killed, and if something goes wrong, I won't take responsibility."

Wen Yu opened his mouth, and said for a while, "...you are stupid."

Shi Can smiled inexplicably, and his side face was submerged in half of the light and shadow: "At that time... this matter was pressed in my heart, and no one could say it. Now that it's over, no one cares about it, so let's just leave it at that. "

"... Then you were at that time," Wen Yu felt his throat hurt, "why didn't you tell me the truth? I called you, but you kept saying nothing. Would I look angry because of this?"

Cui Shican was silent for a long time, and stretched out his hand to test the temperature of the bowl in front of him: "Eat first."

Wen Yu ignored him this time, and asked relentlessly, "Why didn't you tell me? For such a big matter, I thought you were losing your temper, or you forgot the concert when you fell in love, or..."

"I told you, can you not leave?!" Shi Can suddenly slapped his chopsticks heavily on the bowl.

In addition, people from the other tables who were eating all looked over, and even the boss who was cooking in the room lifted the curtain and peeked out, asking what was wrong in unproficient Chinese, Wen Yu smiled and apologized, and at least persuaded everyone to go back.

After saying "I'm sorry", the smell of gunpowder in the air obviously disappeared a lot.Wen Yu turned his head, but didn't dare to look into Shi Can's eyes again.

He didn't understand why Shi Can suddenly erupted, like a small volcano erupting.But he could vaguely understand the reason. Every sentence he said at that time was a decision that could not be changed everywhere. Even if Shi Can really told him the truth, how would he choose?

Shi Can knew it, and Wen Yu knew it too, nothing could be changed.

"...I won't, but it's better than not mentioning it." Wen Yu added stubbornly. He picked up the chopsticks thrown by Shi Can from the ground and put them aside, "It's better than I misunderstood you for so long."

Cui Shican said bluntly, "Then you know it's not like that now."

Wen Yu turned his head and stared at him steadfastly: "I think it can be redeemed to some extent... I didn't mean to remind you of that incident today. If you are unhappy, I apologize to you."

"No need to do this." Shi Can's mood relaxed a little, and the tense profile of his face softened, "There is no need to apologize between us."

"Still friends?" Wen Yu said.

Cui Shican looked at him strangely, and smiled weakly: "Unless you don't want to."

Wen Yu said resolutely: "Unless you are angry, ignore me, like that time, you don't say anything I say."

"Then do you want to shake it now?" Cui Shican stretched out his hand towards him, as if the negotiation was over, "It proves that I was really angry at that time, and now I'm fine again."

Wen Yu held his hand with a smile, pressed it against his palm, and shook it up and down childishly, which was a clumsy "shake hands and make peace".He felt that the thin calluses on the roots of Shi Can's fingers and the slightly rough fingertips were traces of life.

"So you were really angry and ignored me at that time?" He pushed forward and leaned over to ask, wanting to look into Shi Can's eyes.

The other party avoided it unnaturally, and said dully: "That's right."

Wen Yu sneered: "Stingy."

Shi Can lowered her head, thinking of something, her voice became softer: "That's right."

The small episode prolongs the dinner for no reason, and when we walk out of the restaurant, there are already signs of nightfall in the sky.The sun was out that day, and the asphalt road was still warm, and it was still a bit scorching hot.

"Today's dumpling is really good. I want to come again next time." Wen Yu said, took out the car key from his bag, and the two went to the parking space side by side. He pressed it and asked, "Shall I see you?"

"No, I still have work to do tonight." Shi Can refused.

Wen Yu was puzzled: "What kind of work do you have to go to work at night?"

Cui Shican turned his head to avoid his gaze: "It's just a little handyman. During the day, the clinic can't leave to do part-time jobs."

Wen Yu signaled that he understood, but then accidentally interrupted Liu and asked, "Are you short of money now?"

Shi Can didn't answer, and put the hand hanging by his side into his trouser pocket, as if clenched tightly.

But Wen Yu didn't know anything about this little trick, and continued on his own: "Oh yes, are you going to treat uncle? I remember you said before that the medicine is quite expensive. But it's okay, yes Difficulties can find me..."

"No need." Shi Can said, "My dad has been gone for several years."

Wen Yu stopped abruptly.

The evening wind still brought the heat of the day to the sky, and the lights of thousands of houses were lit up one after another, and there was a lot of traffic, and a family of three walked hand in hand. This was also an ordinary July evening.

Seeing him standing there in a daze, the unbelievable gaze made his heart ache slightly.Shi Can hesitated to speak, wanted to pull his wrist, but finally gave up, he bumped Wen Yu with his shoulder: "What's wrong?"

"I don't know..." Wen Yu was at a loss, "I'm sorry... I don't know."

"It's okay." Shi Can thought for a while, then stretched out his hand, wrapped Wen Yu's shoulder, and pulled him two steps forward.

He was absent-minded and his mind was a mess.The intimate position of being half-embraced would have made Wen Yu think a lot, but now he has no time to think about it, only full of guilt, slapping him like sea water.

Missed it and left, so it was too late for him to comfort him.

Wen Yu shouted blankly: "Shi Can."

That hand tightened for a while, and Cui Shican still said softly in his ear: "It's okay, it's not your fault."

The author says:

Daily begging for red hearts and dried fish woo woo qwq! (I'm like a self-proclaimed salesman