Alley

-2020-

Xiang Yu stayed by Shu Yi's side shamelessly for a whole week.In the morning, I brought Shu Yi breakfast; at noon, I pestered Shu Yi to take him to eat on the pretext of not having a canteen meal card; in the afternoon, I always found some food and secretly put it on Shu Yi's table...

Shu Yi was cold to Xiang Yu, and didn't react too much. The snacks Xiang Yu gave were always thrown back to the desk by Shu Yi without moving, or distributed to other colleagues in the laboratory.

Because of Shen Chen's big mouth, the colleagues in the laboratory basically knew the relationship between the two of them.Walking on the road, Xiang Yu can often feel the pointing and probing eyes of passers-by.

It was another late night, when Shu Yi was dazed from the huge amount of experimental data alone, he found that it was past eleven o'clock, he took off his glasses, and rubbed his sore eyes.

"Are you hungry, Yiyi?"

Shu Yi was taken aback, only to find that Xiang Yu hadn't left.

Today seems to be the last day of Xiang Yu's research here. Although there is still a chance to meet him later, he won't have the chance to sit beside him like this.

Shu Yi got up, turned off the computer, took off his white coat, picked up the camel windbreaker, turned his head and asked blankly, if he wanted to buy some supper.

Xiang Yu smiled dotingly at him.Shu Yi was a little dazed, but he didn't notice it before, because Xiang Yu was always gentle and considerate in front of him; it was only after two days at work that he found out that Xiang Yu was usually unsmiling, and could answer in one sentence without saying a single word. Like a precise and delicate machine, there is no error and no human touch.

Only in front of Shu Yi, Xiang Yu can smile like a spring breeze, and leave all his tenderness to him.

The night in early autumn was a bit cool, Shu Yi buttoned up the windbreaker and tied his belt, Xiang Yu looked from behind, the camel long windbreaker perfectly outlined Shu Yi's slender waist and narrow shoulders.

Walking out of the research institute, there were basically no pedestrians on the street, and only a few cars drove by occasionally.Xiang Yu pulled Shu Yi to his right so that he could walk on the side close to the road.

The dim light casts vague shadows on the ground through the rustling sycamore branches and leaves blown by the wind.Some golden-yellow dead leaves fell to the ground, and they would make a clicking sound when stepped on.

The two walked silently like this, and there was silence everywhere, only the sound of cars whizzing by in the distance and the sound of falling leaves on the ground.

Coming out of the convenience store, Xiang Yu carried a plastic bag, which contained some biscuits and health medicines that he bought regardless of Shu Yi’s opinion. He took out a warm bun and stuffed it into Shu Yi’s hand, telling him to eat it while it’s hot. .

Shu Yi didn't refuse. He had very simple food and clothing. After leaving the ivory tower of the school, he came to the research institute with a relatively simple environment. He didn't care much about other people's eyes without disturbing others.He ate the steamed stuffed bun in the cold wind, and Xiang Yu walked beside him and watched him quietly.

The look in his eyes was full of fire, as if he wanted to envelop Shu Yi and devour him.

"Just send it here, it's getting late, you go back."

In front is the doorman of the dormitory area, Shu Yi stopped and said.

"I'll take you downstairs."

Xiang Yu's eyes were too heavy, Shu Yi didn't dare to look up.

"No, go back."

Shu Yi's head was lightly rubbed, and Xiang Yu said in a soft tone, "Yi Yi, good boy, stay with you for a while."

The unhappiness accumulated in his chest for a week suddenly surged up, Shu Yi suddenly raised his head, and looked directly at Xiang Yu with cold eyes.

"I said, no need. Also, don't treat me like a child anymore."

Xiang Yu stared at Shu Yi without answering.After a while, Shu Yi continued.

"After all, I'm ten years older than you now." Shu Yi pulled the corners of his mouth mockingly, "To be honest, you're just a child. Why do you naively think that I will accept your pursuit after we break up? You Think I'm still the kid you used to be able to fool with a piece of candy?"

"Easy..."

Xiang Yu opened his mouth, but didn't know how to answer.

"I can not live without you."

Suppressing the soreness in his heart, Xiang Yu said in a low voice.

Any explanation is pale, and Xiang Yu's pretentious self-confidence in front of Duan Yiping collapsed at this moment.

In fact, he was uneasy and terrified. He had lived because of Shu Yi, and then lost his love, and he realized that living can also be like dying; the second time Shu Yi appeared in front of Xiang Yu, he understood the meaning of this life because he met him. .

But he lost Shu Yi again.

Caught off guard, Shu Yi broke up.He tried his best to hide the thorns of paranoia and possession, and put on the best smile he could do; every movement was afraid of touching Shu Yi, his love was as low as the dust, but he still couldn't stop Shu Yi from leaving.

20 years is too long.

He grew up to the point where he felt that the person in front of him was a stranger.

It was still the same good-looking person, with the same pretty face and nice voice, but the expression on his face was so unfamiliar, and the words he uttered were so cruel.

"You can't live without me? I can. I can live without you."

"Without you, I've passed 20 years. I've still come here." The more Shu Yi said, the more excited he became, and gradually he couldn't control himself. Those emotions that he thought he would be relieved a long time ago, now all came to his heart.

He pointed to the door plate of the research institute on the other side, and said word by word, "I walked here without you; I walked out of that alley without you; any difficulties I encountered in these years were all without you."

"Yi Yi, I was wrong."

Xiang Yu's heart seemed to be tightly grasped. Hearing Shu Yi say these words, his heart felt like a sharp knife pierced his heart. He didn't want to recall how Shu Yi came to this step from the alley alone. Every step I take, every hardship I suffer, I don't have myself by my side.Xiang Yu stretched out his arms and pulled Shu Yiqun into his arms, he couldn't bear it anymore.

He couldn't bear Shu Yi being in front of him but unable to touch her.

The boy who was once held in his arms and couldn't move, tried his best to break free from his embrace.

Shu Yi's eyes were red, and he tried not to lose his composure by crying.

Let it all end here, he thought maliciously.

That illusory false love that should have ended many years ago.

"We broke up just because I didn't love you. After I was with you, I realized that what I had been waiting for and loving was just the person who saved me from the fire and water when I was young."

"If it wasn't you, if it was anyone else, maybe I would fall in love."

"So you are not special at all, Xiang Yu."

"I've grown up, I don't need anyone to give me candy, and I don't need anyone to take me out of that alley. I've come here alone, Xiang Yu, don't you understand? I don't need you anymore."

Shu Yi closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, there was a dead silence in his eyes.

"I do not love you anymore."