Men are very tired

During the months of getting along, Winston never talked about his past, nor did he mention the reason why he hid in a corner and cried when they first met.

He didn't say anything, and Ye Yifan didn't ask either.

Winston must have had a bad childhood, and he didn't want to force the child to remember, let alone hurt him.

And Winston took the initiative to mention it to comfort him...

Did the child see his own pent-up grief, and thus do this to comfort himself?

Ye Yifan's heart is very complicated.

He was actually comforted by a child.And in order to divert his attention, this child did not hesitate to tear off the scar that he had covered for many years, presenting the bloody past to him, exposing all the pain and fragility to him.

Really...you can't treat him like a child...

Ye Yifan sighed softly, and said slowly: "Then, do you hate them?"

"Of course." Winston replied without hesitation, "However, if I had never been born, I would not have met you."

Winston spoke flatly, as if his parents had nothing to do with him.But the more insipid he was, the more distressed Ye Yifan was.

How many times of expectation and disappointment do you have to say before you can calmly treat them as strangers?

Ye Yifan suddenly hated himself for not having a physical body. If he had, even if he couldn't do anything, he could still give Winston a warm and dependable embrace...

He had more questions for Winston, about his expressionless face and the family.But he could sense that Winston didn't want to mention his father and his family, and Ye Yifan couldn't bear to ask any more, he didn't want the child to recall the painful things.

When Winston felt like talking, he would say it.

Ye Yifan put his hand on Winston's flawless face, and got a response from the child as if he had really touched his cheek.

Winston held his fingers in his hands, and rubbed lightly on the untouchable palm as if there was substance.

Ye Yifan only felt that his heart had turned into a hot spring, which was emitting a slight heat at this moment.

Winston, he thought, must have wanted to know about him.So he coughed lightly, and tentatively said, "I'll also tell you about my childhood, okay?"

Winston's eyes lit up instantly, and he nodded quickly, as if he was afraid that he would regret it if he was too slow.

The heat in Ye Yifan's heart spread even further, he motioned for Winston to sit down, and he told the children about his childhood in the breeze and rising sun and the green waves.

In fact, it is nothing more than a carefree and happy childhood that everyone will have.Because of the loss of their father in the early years, the Ye Yifan brothers and sisters also suffered a lot when they were young, but Ye Yifan tried his best to pick some interesting stories, and did not mention the difficult days at all.

He would say that he had a very mischievous younger sister. When they were young, the two would always make troubles with the villagers, climbing trees, fishing for crabs, playing hide-and-seek and destroying other people’s crops. , Also named them "Yunyun" - because the leaves of this grass look like five clouds.He and his sister had been ravaged a lot because of their mischief, but when they returned home, their hands were itchy from the grass juice, and they were taught a gentle lesson by their mother; he also said that he played with a group of children when he was young, because he didn't know what The reason is to hang around a small ditch. In order to show his status, he jumped into this seemingly small and shallow ditch without saying a word. As a result, the water was submerged in an instant, and all the younger brothers were frightened. he pulls up...

Winston listened carefully, and gradually there was a smile in his eyes, as well as imperceptible yearning.

If only... I grew up with him too.

Thinking of his having a younger sister, Winston's eyes gradually dimmed again.

"What's wrong?" Ye Yifan was quite happy when he saw the child, why did he suddenly become depressed?

He was at a loss.

"Ye..." Winston's usually clear, juvenile voice was slightly hoarse at this moment, "Why are you here? Will you...will you leave?"

Ye Yifan was silent for a long time, he thought that Winston didn't even know that they were not in the same dimension, and he couldn't tell him.

He organized his words and replied: "I was accidentally struck by lightning, and I was already here when I woke up... As for leaving..."

Winston immediately held his breath.

Ye Yifan felt as if his throat was blocked, after a long while, he still managed to utter those few words: "I don't know either."

Seeing Winston's head gradually lowered, Ye Yifan quickly added another sentence: "But I promise, as long as I am here, I will not leave you half a step." Can't leave him half a step.I had no choice but to slap myself a few times in my heart, and shut up.

Winston himself understood, he thought: it is a great fortune to meet this person, how dare you ask for anything else?

After a long time, the child's voice became even hoarse. He raised his head and looked at Ye Yifan, his eyes were like the sea under the starry sky, and he could hardly hear him, "Ye...I miss you so much, I really want to hug you..." But he also knew , this can only be thought, between them, will never be able to touch each other.

Ye Yifan felt sore, throbbing like being whipped, thinking about Winston's life experience and his fragile heart only revealed to himself, but he couldn't help him at all.Thinking about it, I suddenly felt resentful——

What kind of bullshit is a low-level space, he doesn't have any sense of superiority as a high-level space person.Such a child has a worse background than the hero of the novel.He wanted to know what was going on, but the broken institution was hung up somewhere, and there was no response at all.At this moment, he only felt a deep sense of powerlessness.

Winston's fragility was only fleeting. He quickly packed up all his emotions, looked at the dark sky calmly, and said, "It's getting dark soon, let's go back. I'll accompany you later."

Ye Yifan pulled away from the complicated emotions, looked at Winston's handsome and childish but expressionless face, and nodded slightly: "Okay."

Winston ate very little that evening.Ye Yifan didn't force him to eat more, and he didn't say any big reason, just looked at the child silently, without saying a word.

That night.

Ye Yifan lay on the bed and stared at the darkness, acting like a normal ghost for the first time, without any sleepiness at all.

Winston was beside him, breathing heavily, as if he had fallen asleep.

Even though Ye Yifan couldn't make a sound, he still didn't dare to turn over, always feeling that he would disturb the child.

Thinking about the day's affairs, he sighed silently in his heart.

In fact, maybe he can not go back.Being here with this child all the time seems...not bad.

Ye Yifan couldn't let go of both sides, and his heart became more and more melancholy.

But... Anyway, this garbage system has not made a sound until now, and it's talking about decades, maybe he really has to stay here for decades...

"Ye, don't... leave me... okay?" Winston suddenly uttered a sleepy voice, which was very small, but Ye Yifan could hear it very clearly.

Winston spoke Chinese, and his pronunciation was a bit green and weird, but he clearly expressed his feelings.

Ye Yifan didn't know if he was asleep, and didn't respond to him.He never promises easily what he is not sure of.

The young man held his breath and waited for a long time, but he didn't hear another word from the side.He blinked, and finally fell back to the human state, and fell asleep within a few seconds

Winston next to him had his eyes closed, his eyelashes trembling slightly, and he didn't even have the slightest expression when he was sleeping. On his delicate and serious face, a tear slipped quietly from the corner of his eye, and disappeared silently.

But Winston had a sweet dream.He dreamed that he was holding a gentle and courteous hand, which steadily exuded a reassuring temperature, which made him unconsciously want to stay in such a dream forever.That hand stroked his head lovingly, and Winston looked up, and the young man's gentle smile instantly caught his eyes, and ripples began to appear in his peaceful heart, and he could no longer be quiet.

After that day, the two returned to a peaceful life, and tacitly never mentioned this matter again.Winston also hid that dream like his most precious thing, and was nostalgic for that strange and strange feeling.He didn't tell Ye, like a child would have his own secret.Occasionally take it out to recall, the flowers in his heart will always burst into full bloom, like wine buried in the ground, the fragrance will last for a long time, making him intoxicated.

It took a long time, until Winston was no longer obsessed with Ye Yifan's leaving or not;They read books, teach each other languages, take walks every day... they didn't feel tired at all.

Ye Yifan sometimes feels quite surprised when he thinks that he used to stay with his roommate for a few more days and find him annoying.

His greatest joy every day is when teaching Chinese, let Winston follow him with a lot of fancy words of praise without changing his face, and then let the child find the meaning and slowly understand it.And his mother tongue culture is extremely profound, from modern Chinese to ancient Chinese, he can find sentences every day to boast that he does not speak, and the tricks are not heavy.

Winston was helpless, but he would still do it.Because it was very interesting, seeing the young man's eyes narrowed with a smile, he felt very satisfied.

Maybe... I was really stunned.

The second piece of fun was to tease Winston. Ye Yifan tried his best to use all the jokes and routines in his world, reaped a lot of results, and successfully watched Winston's various emotions.

Although Winston had no expression, Ye Yifan found that as long as he learned how to look into his eyes, he would feel all the emotions of the child, which was really interesting.A child...Although he is a mature child, he will not hide his feelings in front of familiar people. His eyes are as blue as the sea under a clear sky, clear and clean.

Ye Yifan was secretly happy for a long time that he could read Winston's emotions.

But regarding Winston's paralyzed face, the two confronted each other for a long time.The young man wanted to lift the corner of Winston's mouth to see how he smiled, but he couldn't.Relying on Winston's eloquence, he justly asked him to rub his face more every day to soothe his nerves.Of course Winston refused, he wouldn't do such a stupid act.But every time, after Ye Yifan tried his best to coerce and lure, Winston would still compromise, and then rubbed him a few times symbolically, refusing to do anything else.

Time passed very flatly and silently, and I couldn't feel its flow at all.

If Winston hadn't changed too much.

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