Blade and Swift

The scorching sun was steaming the room, nine-year-old Fang Shuo was lying naked on his back on the narrow single bed, covered in sweat, staring at the ceiling drowsily, feeling like he was about to melt in the scorching sun.It would be nice to have an air conditioner at home—he thought so.Walking out of the bedroom to the refrigerator, he opened the door of the freezer and felt the cold air rushing out. He sandwiched his thin body between the refrigerator door and the refrigerator, greedily absorbing the cold air, and taking the cold, as if there was a cold air hidden in the refrigerator. Looking at the sweet spring in the scorching heat.

Suddenly whistles sounded outside the window, two short and one long, like a signal.

Fang Shuo was barefoot and shirtless, opened the glass window, and leaned out his entire upper body.

Yan Xichen was riding a bicycle, his short sleeves were soaked, strands of hair stuck to his forehead, and his face turned red from blowing the whistle hard on his chest.

Suddenly, he saw Fang Shuo protruding from upstairs, he waved his hands vigorously happily, and put both hands to his mouth: "Come?"

The scorching heat just now seemed not so unbearable anymore, Fang Shuo replied loudly: "Come on!"

He didn't close the window, quickly put on a vest, kicked off his shoes, took the key and rushed downstairs.Yan Xichen put the things in the back seat into the basket in front of the bicycle, and began to ride forward slowly. Fang Shuo jumped on it, and the two of them laughed.

"Where are you going!" Fang Shuo shouted in the wind.

"Secret base!" Yan Xichen replied.

Their secret base is near a small hillside behind the community, where there is a concrete platform that isolates the lush vegetation. At first glance, it cannot be found from the outside. Only after getting into the bed of the plant, will they find this small area. Hidden world.After Yan Xichen discovered it by chance, he took it as his secret base.

In the children's world, there is always a place that adults can't find, hiding the secrets only children have, and they are usually only willing to share with the most trusted people.

The small cement table is well arranged, a wooden bench, a dilapidated table, a few comic books that Yan Xichen likes to read hidden in the drawer, there are strangely shaped candles in the corner, a model of a small car, and the color is beautiful Cigarette case, marbles, cards... This secret base, Fang Shuo, has only been here twice before Yan Xichen shared this place with him.Every time Fang Shuo came, his eyes lit up.Yan Xichen was once very proud, thinking that the place he chose was a good place.What he didn't know was that Fang Shuo was actually happy because he was willing to bring him here, not because of anything else.

"You said, will our secret base always exist?"

"Yes!" Fang Shuo nodded.

Yan Xichen didn't look very happy: "I heard from my mother that this small hillside will be dug up in the future, and the whole area will be demolished, and a building will be built!"

Fang Shuo let out an "ah" and hooked Yan Xichen's shoulder comfortingly: "That's okay, we'll find another one. Only the two of us know about our own secret base!"

Looking at Fang Shuo's uplifted face, Yan Xichen became happy again: "Yeah!"

He looked at Fang Shuo and felt something was wrong, Fang Shuo's nose with small freckles was covered with beads of sweat.He reached out and said, "Why are you sweating so much today?"

"It's hot."

Yan Xichen touched his hand but was startled: "It's so hot! You seem to have a fever! Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Fang Shuo thought about it, he was really groggy all day today.But he didn't want to act too weak: "It's okay, it's probably just hot!"

"That won't work. Is auntie at home on such a hot day?"

"she went out……"

Yan Xichen stared blankly at Fang Shuo for a while, said "wait", then ran out and rode his bicycle away.Fang Shuo called him several times behind his back, but couldn't stop him, so he curled his lips to give up.

Consciousness became dizzy again, so uncomfortable, so disgusting...

He heard the sound of bicycle tracks, then the bicycle was thrown aside, and then there was a rustle, and someone stepped on the lawn.Fang Shuo opened his eyes, and a worried, sweaty face appeared in his sight.

Yan Xichen helped Fang Shuo up, handed him the mineral water and antipyretics in his hand, and took out a pack of wet wipes from behind, shaking them in front of Fang Shuo.

Fang Shuo took the medicine and drank water, and his heart felt warm, because there was someone who cared about him so much.Unexpectedly, Yan Xichen had a second hand, so he took out a wet tissue, sat cross-legged next to Fang Shuo, wiped his forehead and neck, and wiped off all the sweat.

"My mother was like this when I was sick. But she used a towel." Yan Xichen didn't understand, so he just followed suit.When one wipe dried, he pulled out a new one.

The snow-white wipes dangled in front of Fang Shuo, wet and cool, with a little fragrance, so comfortable... Before he knew it, he just fell asleep like this.

When he woke up, he was resting on Yan Xichen's leg as a pillow. Yan Xichen was lying on the wooden bench, sleeping more solidly than him, and was bitten by a mosquito on his face.

That uncomfortable feeling is gone.Fang Shuo knew that he had been cured.

When people are sick, their hearts are fragile, and it is easiest to open up to others.However, Fang Shuo felt that at the moment of his recovery, he completely opened his defenses against Yan Xichen.

He looked at Yan Xichen's sleeping face, and secretly swore in his heart like a man - if one day Yan Xichen fell ill, then he would definitely heal him, no matter the cost.

Later, Fang Shuo became a mercenary.

Yan Xichen is not sick, but his mother and sister are sick.On the snowy day when Fang Shuo met Yan Xichen at the station, he looked at Yan Xi's glowing red nose, and memories flew like heavy snow.

Fang Shuo remembered the promise he made in his heart many years ago.

No one loves him, no one loves him, and he has a withdrawn personality, yet he has received such good love.Now Yan Xichen's family members are sick...he began to take tasks frequently, and then secretly gave money to Yan Xichen's mother.Fang Shuo didn't tell Yan Xichen, sometimes he came and went, put an envelope under the pillow in the women's ward, and sometimes he paid the medical bills directly.

That day, he heard Yan Xichen say that his mother was doing well, and Fang Shuo felt better.His efforts were not in vain. Soon, rumors spread outside Hawkeye that Cain was Hawkeye's sharpest knife.

After performing a mission, the employer seems to be very satisfied with him and hopes to have another chance to cooperate.The location of the mission was in Kiev, and the reward was generous, so Fang Shuo agreed at that time.

But after returning to the Hawkeye base, Curry told him that if he reached an agreement with his employer in private, he would be unhappy if the upper management found out.Immediately, it was suggested that Swift should take over the task first, and then he and Swift would jointly execute it.Fang Shuo thought for a while, anyway, the reward was to treat Yan Xichen's mother in the end, so that's fine.

He happily agreed with Curry's words, and on that sunny afternoon, he couldn't wait to walk out of the base to meet Yan Xichen who had just returned.

Fang Shuo didn't know at the time that this might be the last time they met.

The sunshine spreads across the room, which is not at all like the cold winter in Yan Xichen's memory.Clouds come and go in the sky, so the washing light flickers on and off in the room.

Fang Shuo was lying on the bed, he was standing beside the bed, and the two of them held hands together.There is no lingering meaning, like the pure friendship when two young boys held hands when they were back in childhood.It was the beginning of his bond with Fang Shuo.

"You hid me here for so long, gradually you can't really find me." Fang Shuo lifted the quilt and sat up propped up.

"I'm here now." Yan Xichen lowered his head and put his forehead against his hand.

"Yeah, you're still here. So it's about time you forgive yourself, right?"

Yan Xichen opened his eyes wide and looked at Fang Shuo in puzzlement.When I saw it, I didn't even blink my eyes, afraid of missing it if I didn't pay attention.Fang Shuo looked at him, but smiled slowly: "I knew it, you've even fooled yourself."

"The me in the other world, Cain. Have you fooled everyone, even yourself?"

Yan Xichen's palms began to sweat: "You in the other world..."

"You feel it too, right?" Fang Shuo looked at him helplessly, "You are the will-maker of space, and this world centers on you. Your guilt, remorse, and fear can crush all other wills. I die Real consciousness, locked in this room forever by you. You are afraid, you escape, you don’t want to face it, and after so many years, you dare not knock on this door.”

"Is it because I can't forgive myself?" Yan Xichen asked softly, as if he just knew, "...the Cain of the world there?"

Fang Shuo held the thumb of his hand and rubbed it on the back of his hand, as if comforting and understanding.He knew, he knew all of Yan Xichen's feelings.

"That's another me."

Yan Xichen felt a strong emotion rushing through his body, and he was close to some kind of truth: "The other...you?"

"Fang Shuo in the other world is my evil thought before I die." Fang Shuo seemed a little ashamed, and lowered his head, "Little Yanzi, I am also a human being, and there was indeed a moment before I died. You abandoned me, I suffered and I died alone."

"I'm sorry..." Yan Xichen closed his mouth.He said so much sorry that those three words sounded so weak.But he couldn't say anything other than sorry.

"As I said, it was just my fleeting evil thoughts, but they were caught by you and existed in your will space. You nourished my evil thoughts with your own guilt and guilt towards me. Gradually, You believe it yourself, and the other me you created from this fantasy is the evil me. He has all my evil virtues, hatred, greed, and selfishness."

Fang Shuo took Yan Xichen's hand and asked him to sit on the edge of the bed, sitting shoulder to shoulder with himself: "You create another me to punish yourself, judge yourself, and hate yourself. Because only in this way can the day and night torment be destroyed. In a sense, that is indeed another me. But one thing, Yanzi, I will never hurt you, and I will not punish you with any resentment towards you. "

At this moment, the whole world is shaking.Yan Xichen felt the collapse in his heart, just like this withered city.

He remembered that in a certain corner of his heart, there was a city that would never come closer, and there was a door hidden there that he never had the courage to push open again.He was afraid that what was hidden behind the door were Fang Shuo's resentful eyes and the bloody body in the nightmare.

His heart was tormented day and night, so another world was born in the original space, where there was no pain and no misfortune, which was later called "the world of appearance".

Seeing his expression, Fang Shuo understood everything.He put his arms around Yan Xichen's shoulders, like any other intimate gesture before.

"I've always been here waiting for you, little swallow. At first, it was indeed to make up for my lack of heart, but now, I want to tell you—"

Yan Xichen was still in the shock of not getting used to it. Hearing his words, he seemed to have a premonition of what Fang Shuo was going to say.

He was stiff and staring straight ahead.Something burns behind the eyes, ready to burst at any moment.

"——At the moment I died, I never blamed you. You are my friend, brother, relative, and you are a light in my life. Without you, I am still in the darkness where the light cannot shine In the room of the house, the dog is living a life in the mud. You gave me love, trust, encouragement and courage, and made me dare to step out of the mud and face a crueler but wider world. You look at me, look at me... ..."

Yan Xichen lowered his eyes in fear, but Fang Shuo held his shoulders, lowered his head, and looked at him forcefully.The determination, trust, and desire to protect in that gaze are exactly the same as before and have never changed.His body trembled uncontrollably.Fang Shuo said that he is a light in his life, but what can he do?In the last period of Fang Shuo's life, he was not able to accompany him...

Fang Shuo looked into his eyes and said almost wordlessly: "I never blamed you, I love you - as your friend, your brother, your relative. I am very grateful that I can meet you in this life You. I have been able to walk out of this room frankly and with a clear conscience. Now is the time for me to leave, and I have not regretted it."

Yan Xichen nodded desperately, clutching his cuffs with both hands, reluctance and sadness.

Fang Shuo turned sideways, gave him a hug, and said softly, "Congratulations, and thank you for finally opening this door, you are free."

"You can kill that fake me. This world will disappear, right?" Fang Shuo turned his head when he reached the door.

"As you said, we are all free. Everyone should be free." Yan Xichen was silent and nodded seriously.

He asked again: "Are you going to disappear?"

"Of course." Standing at the door, Fang Shuo stroked the freckles on his nose and smiled shyly, "Because I will stay in this world forever, stay in this dream you once built for me, and disappear with it .This time, goodbye for real, Swallow.”