Blade and Swift

Yan Xichen ran in the night, light and shadow flowed on both sides of him.

Every street lamp was his spotlight, and he went from brisk walk to brisk walk and finally to a trot.

He went to the bar where the two met for the first time, to the library, to the coffee shop that Du Yachen usually liked, and finally drove to the apartment in District E, the loneliest area.

He eventually pushed out of the top-floor apartment in Block E.

Du Yachen was sitting on the blanket in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows with a book spread out on his lap. He raised his head when he heard the sound of the door.

Yan Xichen met Du Yachen's gaze unexpectedly.Most of the time when he was with Du Yachen, Du Yachen was always ruthless and careless, even if he put on a combat uniform and carried a gun on his back, no one could take away his calmness from him.There is infinite power in his body, but he has not shown his limit to anyone.

Now, Du Yachen was sitting in front of the glass window, wearing a cotton singlet and trousers, with his hair loose and loose.He withdrew all his sharp edges and looked like any ordinary man.

A man who Yan Xichen felt might be able to reach out with his hand.

Seeing Yan Xichen opened the door and didn't come in, just stood there and stared at him, Du Yachen closed the book in his hand, got up and came to his side: "You are so impatient, it looks like you are here to say goodbye?"

"I have something to ask you." Yan Xichen lowered his head and said softly.

He felt a little remorseful.The reason why he took the initiative to invite Ying to go to the chaotic area was a little selfish, and he hoped to leave Du Yachen to sort out his mood.But when he was gone, he still came running impulsively.

"Du Yachen, do you just want to help me survive in the other world after taking care of me for so long?"

He pushed Du Yachen to the floor-to-ceiling glass step by step, and looked at him without evasion.Behind Du Yachen is the overlooking view of District E. Although the floor is not high, it can still have a panoramic view of the abandoned world.

Du Yachen didn't panic, and let himself be scanned by Yan Xichen's gaze as if he wanted to know him.He stretched out his arm and put it on Yan Xichen's shoulder: "Tell me first, why are you asking this all of a sudden?"

Because he desperately wants to know his position with him, because of his greed?

Du Yachen raised his hand to hook Yan Xichen's neck, exerting a little force on his hand.Yan Xichen straightened his body and confronted Du Yachen silently.

Du Yachen laughed angrily at his invulnerability, and simply stretched out his legs to sweep him down, and suppressed Yan Xichen from above.His breath came from above, completely drowning Yan Xichen.

"Is it wrong with me again, huh?" Du Yachen let the people below beat and kick him, but he remained motionless.

Yan Xichen was so angry that he left a deep and red tooth mark on his arm that was against him.He was so anxious that his eye sockets were a little red, this move surprised Du Yachen, and he took off his strength slightly.

"What are you in a daze about?" Du Yachen moved closer again.

Yan Xichen simply turned his face away, as if he was at the mercy of others.

"Just treat me as if I'm in a daze. Anyway, you're right. I'm going to the chaotic zone soon. The skills you taught me will really come in handy this time. Don't worry. I'm really I’m here to say goodbye to you, nothing else. I’ve been under a lot of pressure recently, and when I’m stressed, my mind becomes muddled. Don’t worry about what I just asked, let me go. I guess you won’t stay in Area C in the future , It's funny to think about it now, I was with you every day some time ago, but I don't know anything about what you are doing every day, and I won't know in the future. Maybe if there is fate, we can see you in the chaotic zone." After coming to the other world, Yan Xichen had never said such a heartfelt long speech to anyone, but he felt that he didn't speak well, it sounded like a farewell word.He knew that he actually didn't want to do this, and he didn't move others by talking too much, but made himself feel a little sad.

"Look at me." Du Yachen squeezed the person's face, and forcibly met Shangyan Xichen's eyes, "You want to go to S District, right?"

Yan Xichen opened his eyes wide, and there was an unbelievable disbelief in his eyes.

"Because there are the bones of Cain in the S area. With your character, you have already suspected that you have a relationship with Cain, so you will definitely investigate the matter about Cain. This is also one of the reasons why you want to go to the chaotic area? That day Before you brought up the topic of going to the chaotic zone, you were talking about Cain." Du Yachen's eyes overflowed with a smile, he let go of Yan Xichen, took his hand and pulled him up from the ground, "I said I will take care of you , of course not superficial, I'm not that insincere. Your anxieties, your fears, all your appeals, I know. Remember the day you pushed open the door of the bar and told me that you lost everything that day ? I'm telling you now that you don't, you have to believe me."

Du Yachen just suppressed him condescendingly, not allowing Yan Xichen to escape in the slightest.

He said, you have to trust me.

Yan Xichen silently gave up struggling, he stretched out his hand to hook Du Yachen's neck, and buried his face in his neck, with silent emotions flowing slowly in his heart.

He thought, Du Yachen knew his anxiety, his fear, his appeal, but did he really know his feelings?

Yan Xichen never took the initiative to show closeness to Du Yachen, even though Du Yachen could occasionally see the flickering emotions in Yan Xichen's eyes.

Du Yachen looked sideways at Yan Xichen, his face was buried, only his satin-like black hair was exposed.

He turned into a gentle deer, showing|showing furry antlers, but not for attacking, letting someone close and trusting caress him.

Du Yachen stretched out his hand, and lightly touched the small piece of satin-like hair, feeling that Yan Xichen hugged him even tighter.

He couldn't hold back, and gently and secretly touched the top of his hair with his lips, so as not to let him notice: "Don't worry in the chaotic area, I will take care of you, no matter where you are."

That night, Yan Xichen huddled under the quilt for two hours without falling asleep, his mind uncontrollably recalling everything that happened in Area E today.Yan Xichen probably knew why he suddenly had such a feeling of worrying about gains and losses, but he didn't want to think about it.

When I thought of Du Yachen, the cold mist in my heart dissipated, and it was no longer like walking on a swamp, and every step was difficult.The swamp seemed suddenly to be a lake, bubbling upwards.

He pulled the quilt up to his eyes and wrapped himself up, feeling full of security.

Gradually his breathing became longer and his consciousness became looser, floating in the darkness.First there was a very narrow ray of light, then the slit of that ray of light grew wider and wider, and a shadow emerged from the light and entered the room.

Fang Shuo stood at the door of the bedroom, quietly looking at the person on the bed. After a while, he came to the bedside and squatted down, brushing back the hair on Yan Xichen's forehead.If Yan Xichen opened his eyes at this time, he would see Fang Shuo's usually beautiful and well-behaved face, which was almost ruthlessly cold against the darkness, just like what he saw by accident that day.

But Yan Xichen failed to open his eyes, he fell asleep with a calm and peaceful mind.

Fang Shuo just looked at him blankly for a moment, then put his hand on his forehead.

"Let's go tomorrow." The voice was hoarse and dry, not the clear and clear voice of a teenager at all, he smiled, "Then good night, I wish you a sweet dream."

Yan Xichen had a dream.

It is winter in the picture, the snowflakes smash to the ground wantonly and fall into the soft and clean plain.In the distance, there is a vast expanse of darkness, with occasional black silhouettes of flying birds passing by, making the world even more lonely.

He saw a black house in the snow-white field of vision. Through the dense fog, two teenagers gathered together in front of a cauldron to warm their hands.The old posters and calendars on the wall were in Russian, the room was dry and cold, the cabinets were full of whiskey and vodka, and a bottle of ice wine was placed under their feet.

Cake Boy and Freckle Boy both grew up a bit.Their faces are still unclear, Yan Xichen has no entity in the dream, but he can clearly distinguish the two teenagers.The freckled boy lost his childishness, and his skin turned darker, while the cake boy was still fair, his hands were red from the cold, and he was baking in front of the oven.

Their relationship seemed to be as good as it had been when they were children, and the two talked incessantly, but then somehow they quarreled.

The freckled boy picked up the gun at the door, put on his coat, turned around and threw himself into the heavy snow.Behind him, the cake boy rushed out and shouted something to him, but the freckle boy didn't look back, and resolutely walked into the white snowstorm, and gradually disappeared.

The screen flickers, the sun is tilted, the time is mottled, and it is suddenly summer.

The cake boy was lying in front of the glass, looking at the newly born baby girl in the nursery. She was wrinkled like a skinned monkey.He took out a crumpled photo from his pocket, which was from the year he was born, and he turned to the man behind him and said, look, is she exactly the same as when I was a child?

Hearing his words, the man beside him put his hand on his shoulder in a funny way.He bent down and looked at the baby girl inside with the cake boy. Yan Xichen heard the man ask the boy if he was happy and had a younger sister.

The cake boy silently read the word "sister" and stared blankly at the small and fragile "red-skinned monkey" in the glass.

The cake boy opened his eyes wide, and the baby girl on the bed suddenly turned into a ray of light, illuminating him who was lying in front of the window.

Later, the light became brighter and more dazzling...

Yan Xichen frowned and opened his eyes, only to find that the curtains in the room had been completely pulled back.

His room was facing the sun, and the blinding sunlight covered his whole body after the curtains were completely drawn.

Closing his eyes, a large orange light spot covered his vision, making him unable to open his eyes.

"You can stay in bed too much." The black figure moved to block the spot of light.

"Block the light, thank you." Yan Xichen put his arms over his eyes and lay down again.

"Get up!" The man lifted the quilt and forcibly pulled him onto the bed.

Yan Xichen got out of bed in a daze: "Ming Yi, we are going to the chaotic zone and not traveling, why are you so excited? I dreamed of the watch world in the early morning, and thought I was dragged to the team building..."

"I think you are crazy." Duan Mingyi dragged Yan Xichen to the bathroom with difficulty, and finally closed the bathroom door with one foot to finish, raised his hand and frowned at his watch, "Look at the ancestor, it's 12:30! I came to see you at 10:30, but no one answered the door, I went to have breakfast and came back and you were still sleeping!"

"I had a dream just now..." Yan Xichen's sleepy voice came from the bathroom.

"I think you're dreaming right now! If you're later, we won't be able to make it to S District for dinner!"

Yan Xichen held the bird's nest head and opened the door slightly: "Hey, Ming Yi..."

"What for?" Duan Mingyi folded his arms and looked at him indifferently.

"I found out that the closer you are with someone, the worse your temper will be." Yan Xichen closed the door heartbroken.

He knew that Duan Mingyi was going to fight back, and sure enough, Duan Mingyi, who heard this sentence outside the door, stared at the tight bathroom door, as if he wanted to kick that door open again.

Under Duan Mingyi's urging, Yan Xichen Er packed up and set off within 10 minutes. Actually, he didn't have anything to prepare, as this was not his home.

On the way he opened the windows, and the midday wind blew in with a little warmth from the sun.Others are already energetic, but their minds are still immersed in a dream and have not woken up.

The cake boy in the dream stared blankly at his sister at the other end of the glass window, just like how Yan Xichen had looked at Yan Jing countless times.Sister, that's Yan Jing, Yan Xichen knows that the one at the other end of the glass window is Yan Jing.

Yan Xichen was not surprised, now he can fully confirm that these intermittent flooding into his mind are not dreams, but his real past.Forcibly pulling himself away from the memory, his eyes wandered to the window, and the cool wind blew his forehead hair.

"Speaking of which, I didn't have time to tell Fang Shuo just now." Duan Mingyi turned to Yan Xichen while driving, "Where did he go? It seems he wasn't at home this morning."

"Maybe go to the bakery." Yan Xichen answered absently, took out the bean paste stuffed bread that he had prepared yesterday, gave one to Duan Mingyi, and opened the other to eat by himself.

"It shouldn't be, doesn't he know that we are leaving today?" Duan Mingyi threw the bread back to Yan Xichen in disgust, "Thank you, I ate it when I was waiting for you in the morning."

"Then I'll eat it all, thank you." Yan Xichen tore open the package and ate slowly.The taste of bean paste melts in the mouth, sweet.

"It's fine that I have a normal relationship with him, but he won't come to see you off because of your cohabitation relationship?" Duan Mingyi was still thinking about Fang Shuo's matter.

"It's a co-tenant relationship, not cohabitation. Be careful with your words." Yan Xichen took a big bite of bread expressionlessly.

Although he was joking with Duan Mingyi, Yan Xichen was thinking about last night's dream in his heart.No, maybe it can no longer be called a dream.He knew that those memories belonged to him, but the details in the memories seemed to have been polished away by time, and the shape and color could no longer be seen clearly.

But he prefers to believe that it is only a matter of time before the things he remembers will come back one day.

If the freckled boy in the dream is really Fang Shuo...

The transparent plastic bag in his hand rattled as he pinched it.

Yan Xichen patted Duan Mingyi on the shoulder: "I have to confess something to you."

"You killed someone?"

"No." Yan Xichen thought for a while, trying to talk about this matter in a relaxed and casual tone.He knew Duan Mingyi, and recently he paid more and more attention to the strange things that happened to him: "Fang Shuo and Du Yachen are probably people I know in the real world."

Duan Mingyi was taken aback when he heard this, and turned down the music in the car: "What do you mean?"

After the music in the car died down, the atmosphere immediately became a little quieter. Yan Xichen squeezed the plastic bag in his hand a little anxiously: "I have a feeling of familiarity with them, and I don't know how to explain it. I don't know Du Yachen. Sure, because I just have an unreasonable affection and trust in him..."

"Are you a love brain offender?" Duan Mingyi joked with him.

Yan Xichen laughed too, looking down at the crumpled plastic bag in his hand.

It was a transparent object, but he kneaded it into a lump and put it in the palm of his hand. It was cloudy and no longer transparent: "But Fang Shuo has a feeling that we may really know each other. It's not in the external world, nor in the inner world, but It was in the real world that I really knew him."

And most likely an extremely close brother or friend.Of course, Yan Xichen didn't say the second half of the sentence to Duan Mingyi.

Duan Mingyi looked at him with complicated and strange eyes, and gradually accelerated the speed of the car: "If this is the case, then you are also destined. Yes, maybe you said that you gradually recalled the past because you lived with him. If you If you really met in the real world.”

He thought calmly, no, Ming Yi, of course I didn't mean to talk about fate.

Yan Xichen didn't answer any more, he looked at the familiar street that was fading away in the side rear mirror: "I have a hunch that I will think of more things, after I go to the chaotic zone—"

Fighting is his normal state. In the past two months, Yan Xichen has successfully accepted this fact.

He accepts that he may have been doing some kind of blood-licking job in the past, not just a happy and comfortable milk tea restaurant owner.

The car sped across the clear road, and the lid of the trash can at the corner was wide open.Yan Xichen threw the crumpled plastic bag in his hand and hit it at high speed.

The car gradually approached the boundary of Area C, the familiar scenery flowed backwards, and new things and buildings began to appear in his sight, signaling his short farewell to Area C.

The author says:

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