most beautiful

After sending the two away, Lu Ming stood quietly at the door for a while.

Then he turned his head and said to He Pingan: "You didn't drink less today, so stay here tonight."

He Pingan was still in a daze, he asked Lu Ming: "They, did they come to see you specially?"

Lu Ming answered him while cleaning up the wine bottles and trash on the table: "Yeah."

He Pingan: "Then, why didn't Zhou Ziyue come?"

After a long time, Lu Ming answered him: "Zhou Ziyue passed away."

. . . . . .

He Pingan felt that the amount of information today was too much, and his brain was really going to shut down.

Lu Ming patted him on the shoulder: "Go back to the bedroom and sleep, and I'll tell you the rest tomorrow, okay?"

He Pingan returned to the bedroom obediently, and really fell asleep.

Early the next morning, He Pingan, who was still asleep, was awakened by Luming.

Lu Ming: "Wake up, He Pingan."

He Pingan rubbed his eyes and sat up, seeing Lu Ming refreshed: "Why are you so energetic today?"

Lu Ming: "It's because you drank too much yesterday, and you didn't have it today. Yes, spirit, spirit."

Lu Ming: "Hurry up and have breakfast, let's go hiking today."

He Pingan was getting dressed, and asked him in surprise, "Mountain climbing? Where are you going to climb the mountain?"

Lu Ming: "It's about a 2-hour drive from City A."

He Ping'an knew it was a famous scenic spot.

He frowned at Lu Ming: "Can you climb mountains?"

Lu Ming smiled: "Let's go, isn't there still you."

He Pingan curled his lips: "Just go." I always feel that Lu Ming is very different today.

Two hours later, the two stood at the foot of the mountain.

Breathing the fresh air in the mountains, looking up at the faintly visible peaks in the bushes, He Pingan only felt refreshed.

Lu Ming bought a bamboo stick and held it in his hand, calling him: "Let's go."

The two chatted while climbing the mountain, and the speed was not very fast.

Lu Ming: "The last time I came here to climb the mountain was ten years ago, time flies so fast."

He Pingan calculated that he was eight years old ten years ago and only entered the first grade of elementary school.

He didn't answer, but asked Lu Ming: "Tell me about your past, why are your legs disabled?"

Lu Ming: "Actually, it's nothing. It's just a story about a relationship. Are you sure you want to hear it?"

He Pingan nodded desperately: "Well, listen."

Lu Ming: "Then climb the mountain seriously. There is a temple on the top of the mountain. I will tell you about it when we get there."

He silently told himself that he must go there.

He Pingan was excited after hearing this for a while: "Okay!"

Finally, I can know Lu Ming's past and understand his relationship with Zhou Ziyue.

This is really the number one priority for your own happiness in life right now.

As more and more steps were walked and steeper, Lu Ming's speed gradually slowed down.

He leaned on a bamboo stick in one hand and panted with the other on his leg, lamenting that he had really lacked exercise in the past few years.

He Pingan was waiting for him at a higher resting place with their belongings on his back, frowning, worry written all over his face.

Lu Ming gritted his teeth, ignored the pain in his leg, and continued walking up.

In the afternoon, the two finally climbed to the top of the mountain.

There is a big Buddha in the temple, and there is an endless stream of people offering incense and wishing.

The Buddha listened solemnly and compassionately to the sorrows and joys of the world in the smog.

Lu Ming opened his mouth to tell He Pingan the story of him and Zhou Ziyue.

After finishing the story, Lu Ming found that the story was not long.

Good or bad memories, and the unforgettable and unforgettable feelings that have occupied his heart for many years, he can finally speak out.

"So, was it your 30th birthday yesterday?" He Pingan asked Lu Ming after a long silence after listening.

Lu Ming nodded: "Yes."

"I didn't even prepare a present."

He Pingan thought for a while, took something off his neck, and handed it to Lu Ming.

Lu Ming looked over, the red rope was wearing a green bean jade pendant.

He Ping'an: "This is not worth much money. My grandma begged for it when I was a child, to keep me safe and healthy. I think it's quite spiritual, so I want to give it to you."

Let it keep you safe and healthy.

Lu Ming didn't answer: "This is something that you have kept close to you since you were a child, I can't have it."

He Pingan put it on his neck, turned around and left: "Don't just dislike me."

Lu Ming had no choice but to stuff the jade pendant into his clothes - because it was just taken off, and it still had He Ping'an's body temperature on it.

He Ping'an paid homage to the Buddha statue in the temple, and the two walked down the mountain without talking much.

When we arrived at a place at the foot of the mountain, the road was wide and there were not many tourists, so He Pingan stopped Luming.

Lu Ming could guess what He Pingan was going to say, this time he had to let him speak and give him a clear answer.

He Ping'an was so nervous that his palms were sweating. He knew that this was the last time. If he couldn't say those words again, he would have no chance.

Lu Ming has been waiting for him to speak.

He Ping'an's heart broke, and he said out loud: "Lu Ming, I like you."

"Luming, I like you."

Lu Ming didn't respond, but He Pingan said it again, but his voice gradually became smaller.

When he saw Lu Ming looking at him, he had a bad instinct.

Even though Lu Ming was already prepared, he still felt pain when he heard He Ping'an's clean and pure confession.

He wondered if he was old and lost the courage and enthusiasm of young people, leaving only the secular rules and rules that he had to abide by.

It was obviously the same sentence, last time, he could say it directly, but this time, he didn't dare to accept it.

Lu Ming: "He Ping'an, I always thought that you should go to the outside world to see."

He Pingan knew that he was out of action, so he tried his best to maintain his calm and not embarrass himself too much.

He asked Lu Ming: "Why, Zhou Ziyue has been away for so long, you can start the next relationship."

Lu Ming shook his head: "It's not because of him."

Lu Ming: "You are still too young, you have never met anyone else, and you think I am the right one. But, when you have seen more scenery and experienced more, you will no longer be so attached to your initial relationship. .”

He Pingan was not convinced, and asked him instead: "You are not me, how do you know that I will not persevere?"

Lu Ming was helpless: "I'm not that good, a cripple, maybe one day I won't be able to hear, so what will happen to you then?"

He Pingan was angry and distressed: "Lu Ming, you can't say that about yourself."

Lu Ming: "What I said is the truth."

He Ping'an's anger gradually rose. He looked at Lu Ming who was stubborn and rejected him, and suddenly broke out: "Have said so much, you are a coward, you dare not agree, dare not be with me!" Together. What are you afraid of? Are age, gender, and other people's eyes so scary?"

He Ping'an looked at Lu Ming with red eyes, and Lu Ming's face was calm: "He Ping'an, I am doing it for your own good."

"I'll wipe it, fuck it for my own good." He Pingan swears.

He scratched his hair, took a deep breath, and tried to calm down; "Lu Ming, I'm going back first, and I don't know what to say if I continue. You go back alone and be careful, and tell me when you get home."

After speaking, He Pingan turned and ran away.

He stretched out his hand to wipe his eyes, the first time he confessed his love and was rejected for the first time, He Pingan thought, Lu Ming, you are not me, how do you know how much I like you?

I thought about spending my whole life with you.

I know that there are many people of all kinds in this world, but I just want to guard you, what does other people have to do with me.

☆, not the ending of the ending

Lu Ming watched He Ping'an leave.

He walked slowly towards the station, feeling pain in the left side of his chest.

On the way home, Lu Ming was thinking and struggling.

He asked himself, is what He Ping'an said wrong? He was indeed too timid to admit it, but how much enthusiasm do people still have when they live to be 30 years old, and how about a vigorous love affair?

But although I dare not admit it, deep down in my heart, I also like He Ping'an.

I have already lost Zhou Ziyue, and if I miss He Pingan again, where will I find such a person for the rest of my life?

At seven o'clock in the evening, He Pingan, who had completely calmed down, received a WeChat message from Lu Ming.

Luming: I have arrived home safely.

He Pingan: OK.I talk too much during the day, sorry.

Luming: It's okay.

He Ping'an's fingers stayed on the phone's 26-grid keyboard for a long time, and finally typed out a line of words.

He Pingan: Lu Ming, I like you.

He Pingan: I will do what you say, and I will try my best to prove myself to you.

He Pingan held the phone and waited for Luming to reply.

Half an hour later, the WeChat notification sounded.

Lu Ming: Give me some time.

He Pingan smiled and sang happily in the room.

He Pingan: Good~

Half a month later, the results of the college entrance examination were announced, and the volunteers began to fill out.

He Pingan hesitated between the University of Science and Technology in City A and the JC College in City B, holding on to his grades.

These two schools are the suggestions given to him by the head teacher.

He Pingan really wanted to stay with Lu Ming, but the University of Science and Technology in City A did not have a major he liked.

He wants to be a JC, righteous, passionate and handsome.

But it takes several hours to take the high-speed train to City B, which is too far away from Luming and grandma and grandpa.

He Pingan remembered the ideals and life goals mentioned by Lu Ming, and finally filled in the JC College of B City in the first column of volunteers.

At that moment, he understood Lu Ming's expectations for him.

He will also prove to Lu Ming that the prosperity and temptations of this vast world will never let him be shaken by He Pingan.

During the busy days of part-time work, He Pingan received the admission notice for the investigation major of JC College in B City.

He took a photo and sent it to Lu Ming, and after a while he received a reply from Lu Ming: Congratulations, you have grown up.

On the day He Ping'an went to school, his grandparents and Lu Ming went to the station to see him off.

He was carrying a big schoolbag and luggage, and was still playing tricks—trying to make the tearful grandma laugh.

When the car pulled into the station, He Pingan and the two old men exhorted each other again.

Then he looked at Lu Ming and said, "Remember what I said. Also, take care of yourself."

Lu Ming nodded: "Okay."

He Pingan waved his hand, and embarked on a journey to City B alone.

Half of my heart is longing for the future, and half is nostalgia for City A.

☆, Fanwai 1 HAPPYENDING that exists in the future

In June 2022, He Pingan graduated from JC College in B City.

On the morning of July 7st, He Pingan happily went to the police station to report and became a policeman with honor.

He Pingan looked at himself in the mirror in uniform, and it seemed like yesterday that he left City A to go to university.

In a blink of an eye, four years have passed.

In four years, a lot can happen.First, He Ping'an's grandmother and grandfather passed away one after another, and then one day, Lu Ming's ears suddenly became completely deaf.

In the end, the two people who had been in contact with each other finally came together, and it has been half a year since now.

After get off work in the evening, when He Ping'an returned home, Lu Ming was already busy in the kitchen - the two of them lived together now.

He Pingan walked over and hugged Lu Ming from behind, and it was only when Lu Ming noticed him.

[Back] Lu Ming freed up his cooking hand, turned around and signed with He Pingan.

[Hmm] He Pingan nodded.

Ever since he knew about Lu Ming's hearing loss, he has been learning sign language with Lu Tan.

Lu Ming: [Go to change clothes, it's time to eat]

He Pingan asked him to turn around and look at himself: [Am I handsome in uniform? 】

Lu Ming raised his eyebrows and smiled: 【Very handsome. 】

He Ping'an was satisfied and went to change into home clothes, while Lu Ming brought the prepared meals to the table.

He Pingan came out of the bedroom and found a table of dishes.

He Ping'an: [Candlelight dinner? 】

Lu Ming nodded: [To celebrate your first day at work, I prepared a gift for you. 】

He Ping'an moved quickly: [What gift? 】

Lu Ming took out a small box and handed it to him.

He Pingan opened the box, and inside was a ZIPPO lighter.

He wanted to try to see if it worked well, but with a snap, the flame lit up, reflecting the eyes of the two people standing by the table.

"I love you." Lu Ming looked at He Pingan, who was playing with a lighter with his head down, and suddenly said softly.

The lighter in He Ping'an's hand fell onto the chair, and he raised his head to look at Lu Ming with disbelief; "What did you say?"

He was so excited that he forgot to sign and asked directly.

Lu Ming understood his lips, summoned up his courage, and said it again and again: "He Ping'an, I love you."

After completely losing his hearing, although Lu Ming has been practicing, his speech is still greatly affected.

Because he couldn't hear, he didn't know whether his pronunciation and intonation were correct. Gradually, he seldom spoke, but switched to sign language and typing.

In order to say these words today, he secretly practiced behind He Pingan's back for a long time, and repeatedly corrected his pronunciation with special software.

Now, without the software, he doesn't know whether his words are accurate, so he is a little nervous.

He Pingan saw Lu Ming's nervousness, his eyes were red, he hugged Lu Ming and kissed him.

I like you, I love you - He Pingan has said such things to Lu Ming in recent years, but he has never received the same response.

Today is the first time.

He Pingan thought, this is the best gift he has received in his life, and he will never forget it.

——I love you are the most beautiful love words in the world.

☆、Fanwai 2 I hope people don't change, and I hope that the stars will last forever

Six months after He Ping'an's grandmother passed away, his grandfather also passed away due to a heart attack.

Lu Ming helped He Pingan finish the funeral and sent him back to school.

On the way home, Lu Ming made a decision.

He took a taxi to his parents' house. Lu Haitao and Xie Chen had just had dinner and were watching the news broadcast.

Seeing him come back suddenly, both of them were surprised.

Xie Chen let him into the room: "Son, have you eaten tonight?"

Lu Ming nodded: "Eat, send He Pingan to the station, and eat together."

Xie Chen and his wife also went to the funeral and knew about He Ping'an.

Xie Chen sighed: "Oh~ He Ping'an is not easy, he is left alone now, I don't know how to live."

Lu Ming sat on the sofa, the more he heard his mother mention He Pingan, the more he couldn't help but want to say something.

"Mom," Xie Chen was still chatting with Lu Hai about how eccentric He Geng was, when he was interrupted by Lu Ming.

The two looked at Lu Ming, wondering what happened to him tonight.

Lu Ming became ruthless, and finally said a word: "Dad, Mom, I actually like men."

This sentence has been pressed in his heart for so many years, and after he finished speaking, he felt a lot more relaxed.

Lu Haitao and Xie Chen were stunned, and Xie Chen asked him incredulously, "Son, what did you say?"

Lu Ming repeated again: "I am gay."

Both of them understood, and Lu Haitao immediately shouted: "Nonsense!"

Xie Chen felt that the word homosexuality was hard to say, and she couldn't say it: "So, you haven't been in a relationship or married for so many years?"

Lu Ming: "Yes."

"You..." Xie Chen didn't know what to say, but she could still think, she wanted to ask things clearly.

Xie Chen: "Then why are you telling us this now? Who are you doing it for?" She questioned Lu Ming while trying to remember.

Suddenly, she thought of a possibility.

Xie Chen: "It's He Ping'an, right? I didn't believe Xie Xi when he said that he didn't learn well. Did he seduce you into crooked ways? You used to be together all day long, and he..."

Lu Ming couldn't listen anymore, "Mom, I've been gay since childhood, and I've talked to others before him."

"What?" Xie Chen really didn't know what to do now, she sat on the sofa blankly, tears streaming down her face.

At this moment, Lu Haitao remembered something.

He frowned and asked Lu Ming: "So, you and Zhou Ziyue were...a couple?"

Luming nodded.

Lu Haitao was filled with emotion for a moment: "You have lied to us for so many years..."

Lu Ming stood up from the sofa, walked to the coffee table, squatted down, and slammed to the ground.

Because his legs are prosthetics, he can barely maintain his balance on the ground with his prosthetic feet in casual shoes.

Lu Ming: "Dad, Mom, I'm sorry, I'm ashamed of your kindness in nurturing me. I know that you have been hoping for so many years that I can find a girl to marry and have children..."

"But I can't do this. I hope that today you can forgive me, forgive my unfilial piety, and accept my future lover..."

He fell to the side, and hurriedly reached out to hold the coffee table.

Lu Haitao and Xie Chen came to their senses and hurriedly got up to help him.

"Son, stand up quickly, stand up first and then talk, ah." Xie Chen cried and begged from the side.

Lu Ming tried, but couldn't stand up no matter what, he could only smile apologetically to his parents: "I can't stand up anymore."

In the end, Lu Haitao and Xie Chen lifted Lu Ming up from the ground.

Sitting on the sofa, Xie Chen hugged Luming and cried loudly: "Son, mom forgives you, really, you are gay and like men, mom can accept these, you are not allowed to scare mom with your health like this in the future. "

Lu Ming patted Xie Chen on the back to comfort her: "Mom, I'm sorry." He looked up at his father.

Lu Haitao also nodded: "Son, your own happiness is more important to me and your mother than anything else. It's just that you are in your 30s, just remember not to go out and mess around."

"I see."

. . . . . .

That night, Lu Ming couldn't sleep, and sat by the window looking at the twinkling stars above his head in a trance.

Although his parents agree with his sexual orientation today, it will take some time to fully understand and accept him.

The phone vibrated, and He Ping'an sent a WeChat message: I arrived at school safely, go to bed early, good night, sweet dreams.

Lu Ming replied: Good night.

The corner of his mouth raised a gentle arc, Luming pulled up the curtains, turned the wheelchair back to the bedroom to sleep.

I hope that people have not changed, and may the stars last forever.

☆、Fanwai 3 I see a deer when I am deep in the forest, I see you when I wake up from a dream

The first time between two people happened half a month after confirming their relationship.

At that time, He Ping'an was on winter vacation, because his grandparents were gone, so he simply moved to Luming's house.

In the evening, both of them took a shower, Lu Ming turned off the TV, but He Pingan lingered and refused to go back to his bedroom.

Lu Ming watched him sign language: [Go back to the house and sleep. 】

He Pingan nodded: [Yes]

Lu Ming turned the wheelchair back to the master bedroom.

As soon as he lay down on the bed, the bedroom door was pushed open.

He Pingan ran to the other side of the bed, lifted the quilt, and lay down in it.

Lu Ming saw He Ping'an's plan and deliberately pretended not to understand, teasing He Pingan.

Lu Ming: 【Why, afraid to sleep alone at night? 】

He Pingan looked at him bitterly, how could he not dare to sleep alone as a big man?

Lu Ming raised the corners of his mouth and smiled softly, his eyes were like crescent moons hanging in the night sky.

This smile had a huge magic power in He Ping'an's eyes. He couldn't help it, and slowly leaned over to stick Lu Ming's lips.

Lu Ming hugged him and took the initiative to deepen the kiss.

After a kiss, the two looked at each other panting.

He Ping'an blushed and gestured with his hands: [Lu Ming, let's do it. 】

Lu Ming: [OK. ] He reached out to the bedside table and took out the prepared TT and lubricant.

He Ping'an's face flushed even redder. Originally, he had searched for strategies on the Internet for a long time, bought everything and hid it in his house.

As a result, I was too nervous just now and forgot to bring it.

Lu Ming looked at him and almost laughed out loud.

He Pingan was in a hurry, so he pressed onto Lu Ming and kissed him.

It wasn't until Lu Ming noticed that his lower body was pressing against his legs that he felt something bad.

Sure enough, although it was the first time for He Pingan, it was still an attack.

The two fought back and forth on the bed, but in the end Lu Ming lost to He Pingan.

He is physically disabled and inconvenient, how can he beat someone who trains physically at school all day.

Lu Ming never imagined that he was the one who deserved his fate.

Although it was the first time for He Pingan and he was in a hurry, he followed what he said on the Internet and did enough foreplay expansion, and he was also very gentle, because he didn't want Lu Ming to feel a little pain.

After a few rounds, the two hugged each other and fell asleep.

The next day, Lu Ming opened his eyes and found that He Pingan was staring at him with his head on his arms.

Under the quilt, his healthy and slender thighs overlapped with his mutilated legs.

Lu Ming wiped the corner of his mouth with his hand, and signed in sign language: 【What are you looking at? 】

He Pingan smiled, revealing a mouthful of neat white teeth: [Look at your good looks. 】

Lu Ming remembered what happened last night again, and blushed.

He Pingan leaned over and kissed Lu Ming's face, then rolled over and got out of bed: [I'm going to cook porridge for you. 】

Seeing He Pingan's unconcealed happiness, Lu Ming also smiled.

He remembered things from long ago.

It turns out that parting is for a better meeting.