【Zhenyao】I really want to tell you

"So, that's why you asked me to come?" Haruka threw a sharp glance at Lian, and Lian's eyes dodged very much.

There is an inner room in the club activity room, Haruka seldom goes there, but he knows that Jiang and Zhu will be here sometimes.Some manuscript papers were piled scattered on the table, filled with densely packed words.The computer is on and the document is being edited.There are some sketches on the table on the other side, and the people on them look familiar...

"Senior Yao and Mr. Lian!" Jiang shut the computer with a snap, and frantically cleared the table. "Zhu-kun! Get up! Senior Haruka is here!"

Nagisa, who was dangling, rubbed his eyes with his messy hair like a chicken coop, "I just fell asleep for less than 5 minutes. Xiao Jiang is really violent, be careful that no boy likes you."

"This painting is a real piano?" Yao squeezed the drawing harder, and his hands trembled unconsciously.

"That's right, it's Xiaozhen and Xiaoyao's sweet love story~ Take a look, Xiaoyao, I'm sure you'll be satisfied! I was so sweet when I drew it! Take a look, too, Xiaolian." Zhu picked up a stack The drawing was stuffed into Lian's arms, Lian took a step back and dropped it on the floor. "Xiao Lian can't hold things like Xiaoyao! Last time Xiao Lian said it was Parkinson's." Lian hurriedly squatted down to pick up the drawing, "Is Xiaoyao's hand also because of Parkinson's?"

For a while no one spoke.

"Senior Yao, don't be angry, he's talking nonsense." Jiang was the first to react, hurriedly explained and tried to snatch the drawing, but failed due to height issues.

This is probably Makoto and... herself?

To Makoto... Confession?

Fuck the sheets right after confessing?

After a disagreement, they quarreled and went to bed again?

"You don't learn well at a young age." Yao handed the drawing to Lian, "Don't worry, he is not dating Jiang." Lian's face turned green and red.

In the morning, Yao met a preoccupied Lian. "Zhu-kun and Jiang Sang have been getting very close recently. They go to school together every day, and whisper after class. They often sneak around in the activity room at night. Senior Yao, do you think they will be dating? This will affect their studies. I said I would be responsible for Mr. Zhu's grades, I am very troubled by his behavior..." Lian started the mother's broken thoughts mode.Haruka thought this was indeed a problem, so she made an appointment with Rei to go to the activity room for a surprise inspection after school.Yao had heard that Zhu's painting style was unique and terrifying, but he didn't expect that when he became serious, his paintings turned out to be very good.Nagisa is indeed the kind of child who is very talented and can do anything well when he is serious.

"Jiang, what's with you?" Yao snatched a stack of paper from Jiang's hand, looked at the label on it, "Zhenyao Qingshui... Zhenyao r18... Zhenyao ABO... Pity, is this ABO blood type?"

Nagisa finally understood that the big thing was not good, and shut up obediently.Everyone bowed their heads and waited for the remote attack.

Ten seconds later.

"Zhu, you made Makoto ugly. You should draw it like this." The gentle tone surprised everyone.

Haruka picked up a pencil to scribble, and Makoto's profile appeared vividly on the paper.The tips of her hair fluttered in the wind, and her eyes were determined to look ahead.Compared with Zhu's paintings, they are more vigorous and heroic.

This is Makoto in Haruka's heart.Although not particularly masculine, it is by no means weak.Even if he is timid, even if he is weak and sick in his childhood, he has always been a powerful existence that makes Haruka feel at ease.

Makoto has always been a person who is calm and able to handle things with ease.Behind Makoto's smile, Haruka sometimes doesn't know what is hidden and what is on his back.I always feel that I am a person who will not easily indulge in the love of children, and has always had an attitude of not rejecting those who come and not chasing those around me, which is really similar to myself.Such a person would be crazy to really like someone, right?Whoever can be liked by Makoto must be the happiest person in the world.

For myself, I dare not expect extravagantly.

"Wow! It's really Xiaoyao! You made Xiaozhen so handsome!" Zhu squeezed out his starry eyes.

"Well, it really is Senior Yao, who knows Senior Makoto best, and draws the most vividly." Everyone breathed a sigh of relief.

"Where did Nagis know this?" Haruka looked at the overwhelming onomatopoeia, "I feel... I have gained a lot of knowledge. But why am I always at the bottom?"

"I'm also...very curious." Lian pushed down his glasses.

"Well, I've been watching these since I was a child, after all my sisters are watching."

Lian's glasses fell to the ground with a snap.

"Does Xiaoyao like being on it? I thought Xiaoyao was not very active. Since Xiaoyao is willing, next time I will draw... ride..." Zhu was gagged by Jiang and pushed to the corner.

"Do...you all think I'm the one below?"

Everyone looked up to the sky.

"Hey!"

"That's... because Senior Haruka is beautiful, so..."

"Jiang, don't just use this word for nothing, even pity." Haruka sighed, "Zhu, don't draw the onomatopoeic words so big, don't block Makoto's face."

"I still think it's very rude to Haruka-senpai and Makoto-senpai." Lian said with a serious face.

"Mr. Lian, the new minister, has the nerve to say that. Senior Yao and the others were still there before, and we could all work part-time together. Now that we are short of two labor forces, everyone is unwilling to work part-time. What is the daily maintenance fee for our swimming department in autumn and winter? Come, but you didn't pay a penny."

"So you just use the private affairs of Makoto-senpai and Haruka-senpai to make money?"

This is not a private matter, it is clearly something out of nothing, okay, at least at this stage.Before Yao could say anything, Lian and Jiang started arguing.

"If Xiaoyao agrees, Xiaozhen will agree. Not only sell it to the school, but also sell it to the outside world. Xiaojiang's novels will also be printed as physical books. By the way, we can earn a lot of pocket money." Zhu became a peacemaker .

"Zhu-kun, are you sure it's by the way?"

"Don't let Makoto know. The consequences are terrible." Haruka's majesty was still there, and everyone stopped talking.Although I haven't seen it with my own eyes, everyone can imagine Makoto's angry look: there are knives in her eyes, and she might throw her fist at the next second.

In the book and the novel, Makoto has feelings of love for herself, and she responds to Makoto's feelings very frankly.Saying things you dare not say and doing things you dare not do, the setting of this parallel world...is pretty amazing.

"Makoto doesn't have this kind of affection for me, and she will be angry if she is given such a strange delusion."

Makoto... Do you feel in love with yourself?

It's ridiculous to have such feelings for same-sex children.

Just like myself.

I don't know when his eyes began to follow Makoto closely.When one night five years ago, she dreamed of becoming a cat, nestled in Makoto's arms and refused to come out, perhaps she was hopeless.

How nice to be a cat.

Everyone was silent, guessing the meaning of that sentence.If they really conveyed their feelings to Makoto... Makoto would not take it seriously.

The library was closed, and Haruka and Makoto made an appointment to go for a walk by the beach.Arrived at the beach at seven o'clock, sent a text message to Makoto, and fed "makosabaiwtb" again.Not long after putting down the phone, Makoto came running out of breath, leaning over to catch her breath.

"It's not in a hurry." Yao was still immersed in what happened just now.

"If it was Jianharu, I would definitely run." Makoto raised her head.

The moonlight poured on Zhenqin's face, and Zhenqin smiled.

"Let's go away."

"Ah."

You are as gentle as the moonlight.

Haruka stayed at Makoto's house.

"Go to sleep when Yao is sleepy, the quilt has been laid."

"not sleepy."

When Makoto asked for the third time, Haruka was lying on the table half asleep and half awake.

"remote?"

Woke up, but didn't want to answer.really sleepy.

"Sleeping like this is not good for your health." Makoto leaned against Yao's ear, "Go to bed."

Itchy ears.Haruka didn't make a sound, and heard Makoto sigh.

Then he was hugged.

Waking up suddenly from a half-sleeping state, her body was also far away from the ground, and she was still in Makoto's arms.

"Put me down!" I yelled instinctively.Being hugged by Princess Makoto...it's terrible.

"Keep down, go to bed." Makoto's obviously unhappy voice was quite intimidating.Yao remembered that this was Makoto's family, shut up obediently, and was shoved into bed by Makoto in shock.

Since middle school, the two have grown in stature by leaps and bounds. Sleeping in the same bed would always get in the way, so they thoughtfully slept in separate beds.She sleeps on the Zhenqin bed by herself, so where does Zhenqin... sleep?

"I sleep on the floor." Haruka looked at her futon on the tatami.

"Sleep on the bed far away, be obedient." The tone could not be refuted.Haruka curled up in Makoto's blanket and stopped talking.

Nice mint aroma, mixed with the smell of freshly sunned sunshine.

I don't know how long I haven't been in Makoto's bed.

I have been stuck in my childhood, is it okay not to grow up?

Fear of the passage of time, fear of the change of everything.Mackerel will get old if it is cooked for a long time. If it stays in a tender and juicy state forever, how beautiful the world will be and how happy everything will be.

"It's impossible, Xiaoyao." Grandma picked out the spines from the mackerel and said to Haruka who was drooling and staring at the plate, "The warm mackerel will cool down sometimes. No matter how delicious it is There will be a day when the mackerel will be eaten up. The tide of the sea ebbs and flows, and nothing can stand against time."

"One day Xiaoyao will learn how to pick fish bones, and one day he will grow up and stop wetting the bed. Grandma can't accompany Xiaoyao for the rest of his life."

"No, it's so troublesome." Yao lowered his head, not wanting to look at the plate of mackerel at all.

"There is no feast that never ends." Grandma tied Yao a small hand-sewn bib with a mackerel pattern, "However, if Xiao Yao can live happily through both happy and sad things, You will always be happy."

Haruka waved a small spoon and ate bit by bit.No matter what, every day I can play with the chubby little Zhenqin from the neighbor’s house, eat delicious mackerel, and listen to grandma telling stories, so I am very happy and happy.

Grandma is long gone.Makoto has already reached the age where she can't just get under the covers and hold hands.Haruka also learned how to pick fish bones, cook mackerel, and even live alone.But, very happy.

No matter what Makoto thinks about herself, no matter what the future holds, he is still by my side now, not more than two meters away.

Cherish the pleasant mint aroma and the warmth given by Makoto.Cherish it all.

Yao couldn't fall asleep at all, and simply watched Zhenqin study under the covers.Wearing glasses, the expressionless Makoto fights desperately on the battlefield like holding a knife and gun made of pens.Makoto, who is different from usual, is also very interesting.

This silly little brother next door is getting more and more handsome.

Haruka has always regarded himself as Makoto's older brother and is proud of it.Haruka was indeed on the side of the protector when he was a child, but when he grew up, Makoto was much taller and heavier than him, so he had to do the opposite.For example, the princess hug just now.

Makoto... a whole body of stupid strength.

That muscular body was developed by himself in middle school.Because, "Yao is getting more and more beautiful, I have to work hard to match up with Yao."

Is it really not good to change the word, at least say something handsome...

Haruka knows that his ability to attract girls is no worse than Makoto's, but he absolutely ignores each love letter and confession again and again.

"That girl is so cute! So many boys have girlfriends, why don't Xiaoyao try to date her?" Nagisa, who witnessed everything, always bluffed. "I'm not interested, it doesn't matter, if you like it, go after it."

Why would you date someone you don't like.There are many ways to increase your life experience.

Besides, Makoto would not be happy.I don't want to do things that make Makoto unhappy.

There was a rustling sound as the nib rubbed against the paper, and Haruka's eyelids moved up and down rhythmically.After all, I can't bear the powerful biological clock, but I don't want to just fall asleep.

"Want to watch you."

Realizing that he had spoken, Haruka was about to rush down and run around.Helplessly, the bed was too warm, and the mint smell was too fragrant, so I failed to get up.

Makoto turned around and pulled the chair closer. "Haruka still awake?"

"How long is Makoto?"

"It's coming soon."

"Going to bed late is bad for your health."

"Got it, Haruka."

When Yao wanted to say something more, Makoto pulled up one hand and interlocked his fingers.

Can't tell the difference between dream and reality.

As a child, holding hands was commonplace.Makoto doesn't want to go to kindergarten, she will stop crying only if she is held by Haruka.The two children walked hand in hand on the beach path, in the rapeseed field, in the rain and in the wind.As he walked, he changed into a uniform with a stand-up collar and turned into a boy, shyly letting go.They will still find ways to pull it occasionally, this is only their tacit understanding.

It was like being on a train in winter, when Haruka took a glove, the other hand was pulled into Makoto's pocket, and the fingers were interlocked.Ignoring other people's eyes, just keeping warm, Haruka always cheers herself up like this.Holding hands, I feel that Makoto's energy is continuously pouring into the body. This is also Makoto's unique way of comforting and encouraging Haruka.

Why do you like soaking in the bathtub?

Because she has to wait for Makoto to pull herself out.

Why wait?

Because this is one of the few opportunities to play hands with Zhenqin.

Every time I swim, I secretly look forward to it.In the final stage, the sprint speeds up, and the excitement and excitement in my heart will overflow.When they reach the finish line, they can be pulled ashore by him and hold hands.

One of the few gray memories in Haruka's life is Makoto's self-denial and self-doubt during the junior high school.After finally getting to the shore and waiting to be pulled up, Makoto said a few polite words and left.After standing in the water like a fool for a long time, I also began to deny myself.

Isn't Makoto the best at reading minds?

Then don't let go.

"Go to sleep quickly."

"You go to bed too."

"I will always hold Haruka's hand." With firm eyes.As expected of Makoto, she is still the best at reading minds.

"Then how do you study?"

"Look, I can also recite books this way." Makoto took a book and put it on her lap.

"It's very troublesome." Yao wanted to shake off, but was pulled even tighter by Zhenqin.

"Yao, be obedient and go to sleep. Do you want me to sing a lullaby to Yao?" This is how grandma used to lull herself to sleep when she was a child.

"They are all asleep, stop singing."

If you sing it, you may...can't help but cry.

I don't want to cry in front of Makoto just yet.It will delay Zhenqin's time, and it will also make Zhenqin blame herself.

Talking softly, interlocking fingers with Makoto.Looking at his smile, bathed in his water-like warmth.

Makoto's smile became more and more blurred.

I really want...to be happy like this forever.Makoto, what do you think?

Let's continue meeting in dreams, Makoto.

In the dream, don't let go.

TBC