【Zhenyao】I really want to tell you

The moon is very round.

"This time, we really have to leave." Makoto sat at the gate of the courtyard, stroking the little white cat, not knowing if she was talking to the cat or to Yao.

"It's okay, it's with Makoto." Haruka packed up the clothes she usually wears.There are still two weeks before leaving for Tokyo, and the two have already started packing their luggage.

How many cans of mackerel do you bring?ten.

"Haruka don't bring so many cans of mackerel! Aren't you afraid of expiry date?"

Not afraid, because it is possible to eat them all in the last few days.For things like canned mackerel, it is better to buy and eat immediately.

"That Yao still put it in..."

"Stay well with your cat and don't meddle in your own business."

"Oh..." Makoto really turned around and took the dog's tail grass to concentrate on accompanying the cat. The little white cat ignored the dog's tail grass, but rubbed against Makoto's finger with a meow.

The kitten already has feelings for Zhenqin, so he comes to play with Zhenqin when he has nothing to do.Since Zhenqin was admitted to Qingying, both herself and Zhenqin were relieved.It turned out that Makoto would spend 70.00% of her time in her own home, in front of her, with the cat.

Really concentrate on accompanying the cat and ignore myself.Then why come to your own house?

This guy Makoto is really attractive.It doesn't matter if they kill men, women and children, but even animals are not spared.However, an excellent person like Makoto should be attractive.

I felt proud for a while, but also felt uncomfortable.

"It was packed according to your request. Apart from the canned mackerel, there are many other useful things." Haruka glanced at Makoto sideways, looking for something to say.

Makoto turned around. "So you mean... Xiaoyanyuan's inflatable pillow?" Haruka was trying her best to stuff the huge Xiaoyanyuan's pillow into the suitcase, and Makoto laughed out loud. "Haruka is very childlike, so cute."

"Didn't Makoto bring a dolphin pillow, and a bunch of game CDs, packed into three big boxes."

"It's not just the game discs, I bring everything I need to use, and Haruka may need to use it." The cat seems to feel that Makoto's attention is no longer on her, and the cat whines dissatisfiedly after leaving the cat for a second whine.

"You pack the cat and take it away."

"Grandma Tamura has agreed to adopt it."

"Oh, this cat is too dependent on you."

Makoto didn't speak.Staring at his back.

I understand.Rather than saying that Makoto is reluctant to part with that cat, it is better to say that both herself and Makoto are reluctant to leave Yanyuan.I haven't seen enough plants and trees in my hometown, and I haven't left for 18 years. Now I suddenly have to go to a big city to live in an unfamiliar environment for a long time.The friends around me are no longer there except myself, and it would be uncomfortable for anyone else.Even Makoto.

Especially Makoto, who is leaving her family.

"After going to Tokyo, there won't be such a beautiful moon." Makoto looked up at the night sky.

"Real piano."

"Ok?"

"I'm here. So..."

Don't be afraid.

"I will accompany you."

It doesn't matter if you can't adapt to the environment.

"I don't feel comfortable thinking about staying in a strange environment for a long time. But with Makoto around, it's not a strange environment." Yao thought for a while and organized his words.

Makoto looked up at the moon, "It's true. When I was a child, Haruka said that she would always be by my side."

"Ah."

The atmosphere was a little awkward.

Haruka continued to try to stuff Xiaoyanyuan's pillow into the suitcase, and Makoto continued to tease the cat.The cat was very dissatisfied with Makoto's absent-mindedness, and it meowed and meowed like an oath of sovereignty, making Haruka extremely irritable.

"Haruka, you can try to pump up your breath, and you can pump up again when you arrive in Tokyo."

He took out the air pump and stuck a needle on Xiao Yanyuan's pillow.It gradually shrunk and turned into a piece of skin.

I have to say that the rock kite pillow turned into leather is really ugly and has no aura.Although no one except himself thinks that Yanyuan has aura.

"Oh..." I couldn't help but sighed,

"Haruka is so cute."

"Don't call me cute."

"Got it." Makoto lowered her head, and went back to the place where she was sitting just now, where the two of them used to sit together to set off fireworks.

Find a handmade photo album from the cabinet, the cover is a small blue fish drawn by myself.In good condition, although the paper is slightly yellowed, it is very flat.

Walk to Makoto and sit down.

"I brought mine with me. The cover was also drawn by Yao, and the picture was a little dolphin." Makoto took the album, "Haru always knew that I like dolphins very much."

I heard Nagisa and the others say that they look like dolphins.It was of course very happy to hear Makoto say that.

"The content of the two books should be different." I haven't read Makoto's book, or I have read it but can't remember it. "After going to Tokyo, let's read it someday."

"Okay. Now let's read this book together?"

"Ah."

"Haruha has always been so white, no matter how tanned she is, I'm really envious." It was still the photo of the newborn, what made Haruka unable to figure out was that Makoto didn't seem to be affected by the eye knife.

It turns out that the knife in his eyes can only deter himself.

"Look for yourself, I've hacked a lot." Yao stretched out his arm for comparison.It was dark outside, so we had to rely on the lights inside the house.But it is true that the baby is much whiter than other babies at birth, and it is not so wrinkled.

"As expected, Haruka has been a beauty since she was a child." Hearing Makoto's sigh, "Haruka, she is also a beauty now."

I don't care about looks, but if Makoto likes it, it would be great.

Yao opened her watery eyes, touched Mama Makoto's round belly with her hands, and raised the corners of her mouth.

It must be a happy thing to feel the existence of Makoto for the first time.

Maybe I came into this world just to meet you.

"Haruka is actually laughing! Why haven't I seen this picture before!"

As if she had found a treasure, Zhenqin took out her mobile phone and took a quick picture, "Is it because Haruka is happy because he touched me?"

Look away.

Haruka lay in front of the newborn Makoto's crib and looked at him curiously, reaching out to touch his face, and the moment Haruka's mother held her down was recorded by the camera.

"When my parents told me before, I still didn't believe it. Haruka held me and didn't let go. She really cared about me so much at that time."

"It is said that it made you cry. Makoto loved to cry when she was a child."

"It's not when I was a child."

"Ok?"

"Now I cry occasionally when I'm alone." Makoto smiled embarrassedly, "This is the first time I tell Haruka this, because it's too embarrassing."

Is it stress relief?

"It's not just to relieve stress, but there are also some things that I can't think clearly."

"Have you figured it out now?"

"More or less..."

It is good to be able to figure it out.

"Mingmingyao has always been by my side, but she still shed strange tears. Haha, it's unreasonable."

"Well, nothing has changed. I have never been as strong as Haruka."

"I still care about you now." Yao paused, "Maybe it's fate."

In 18 years, nothing has changed.

Winter is coming to an end, and the trees in the yard seem to have begun to sprout.The fragrance of green grass somewhere made Haruka involuntarily think of the flower garden when he was a child.Before leaving, I must go there again. It doesn't have to be with Zhenqin, just treat it as a search for memories.

"Haruka, sometimes, I really miss you and it's unbearable." The tone was calm.

It was too calm.

He didn't look at Makoto and didn't speak again.The two were silent, each thinking about their own things.

The little white cat meowed and rubbed against Yao's feet.Holding the cat in her arms, Makoto felt Makoto turn her head, thinking he was looking at the cat.The cat jumped out of her arms and ran away, but Makoto was still looking at herself.

"Let's... go ahead and look at the photos."

"it is good."

When Yao was one year old, he held a lottery with wine, holding a mackerel doll in one hand, and clutching a crying Makoto with the other.

"I heard that I even stuffed your hand into my mouth."

"Yeah." Makoto looked at Haruka's mouth, "It's not so easy to do it now." Haruka's mouth was small, "It's better to say that just looking at his face, he would think that Haruka is a very delicate and quiet boy."

It's Makoto's birthday, and Haruka clumsily puts on a birthday hat for Makoto.When the two went to kindergarten for the first time, Haruka held Makoto with red eye circles expressionlessly.In the photos of her childhood, 80.00% of Makoto had teary eyes.She is so cute when she smiles, but she always makes her cry.Haruka felt a deep sense of guilt.

"I seem to make you cry a lot." Really embarrassed.

"When I was young, I was very envious of Haruka who rarely cried. I felt so masculine and admired Haruka. However," Makoto looked at the night sky, "If it was Haruka, I would be willing to be made to cry for the rest of my life."

This album cannot be read anymore.Some words had to be said, some things had to be done.

"By the way, I always called Yao my brother when I was a child."

Stop discussing this topic, idiot.

"Do you like me calling you brother?"

"It was older than you."

"That's good. Brother Xiaoyao."

"..."

"I remember when I was a child, I often called you that. Big brother Xiaoyao called you brother Xiaoyao."

Recalling that when I was a child, I really wanted to be a mermaid.He is free and has no worries, lives with the water every day, and can go ashore to play with Wang Zizhenqin from time to time.Now for the first time Yao is glad that he is not a mermaid.If so, he must be wagging his tail in excitement at this moment.

Brother... from what he said now, it was a crime.

"Yao, sit down a little bit." Makoto patted beside her as a gesture.

Haruka closed the album and put it aside.Leaning over, tentatively putting his left arm on Makoto's right leg, he leaned into Makoto's arms naturally.

"A while ago, was Haruka lonely?"

Why are the eyes so cautious.

Where's your Nanase Haruka, don't tease me like this.

"maybe."

"That... that's great."

"I'm lonely and you're happy?"

"No. It's just that Haruka cares about me."

More than care.

"Although it's embarrassing, I really care about Haruka and rely on Haruka."

"Haruka will also feel that without me..."

"We will always be together in the future, right?" interrupted.I have heard Makoto say this countless times.

"Makoto takes up most of my life."

Likes water, and Makoto exists in the water.I like mackerel, and Makoto will eat the mackerel I make.I like freedom, and I can get unlimited freedom with Makoto.

"I can't live without you, I care about you more than you think."

If it wasn't for Makoto, I wouldn't have made up my mind to go to Tokyo.If it's just for swimming, there are many better places than Tokyo.Zhenqin is so stupid that she can't take care of herself. Although she loves to take care of others, she also needs others to take care of herself.

Moreover, the possessive desire deep inside is at work.

It is impossible to imagine Makoto falling in love with someone else.Although I have always firmly believed that distance will enhance feelings, but objectively speaking, it is inevitable to create a sense of alienation.

What's more, the relationship between the two is not determined at all.

"Makoto, we don't need to hide from each other anymore."

"Some things are better said."

After all, as an older brother, he must be ahead of Makoto in communicating with each other.It feels bad to be led by Makoto all the time.Maybe, as everyone said, I was too stubborn in some aspects.

Makoto kept her mouth open and didn't make a sound.He said these ambiguous words like beans poured out of a bamboo tube, which would scare him.

"Haruka means...?"

"May I speak first?"

"why?"

"I'm brother."

Makoto's eyelashes drooped, and she raised her face again after a long time.

"Well, let Yao talk first."

"I can't leave someone more and more... When I was young, I just didn't want to leave that silly guy, but gradually..."

Some retreated, still timid.I glanced at it from the corner of my eye, only to meet his gentle eyes like water.

"Go on." Makoto rested her head on Yao's head and supported it with her hands, "I want to hear it."

"I want to hear it, so tell me all about it."

Ok.

"Probably since the first grade of junior high school, I have had feelings like being in love with him. It's not the liking for my childhood sweetheart, but the things that people who want to be lovers with him do... such as kissing.

"It may have started earlier, when I found out I was scared and wanted to escape.

"It's natural to like him. I like the way he smells, I like his smile, I like his drooping eyes, I like his whole person.

"He's a man and so am I, knowing that he still can't let it go, it's ridiculous.

"He has always regarded me as a relative and friend, but I think about these things... I will be hated, and I will not even be a relative and friend.

"I don't want to leave him for a second, I want to be with him forever. Rather than saying that I like him, it's better to say that I love him very much. This kind of unrequited love makes me feel very uncomfortable to be honest.

"I couldn't open my mouth all the time, I originally planned to let my feelings die in my heart.

"But I found that it really couldn't be done, it was impossible to do it at all. My feelings for him... grew day by day. I wanted to be with him more and more, always together.

"I don't want to escape now. There are some things that must be decided today."

If you don't decide, you will really miss it.

There is no need to rehearse the manuscript, and no help from others is required.Although there was a pause, many words came out naturally.

Feelings come naturally.Enough, overflowing is also natural.

Bravely faced Kamikoto's hot gaze that melted everything.

"It's so beautiful, Haruka."

Habitual gender begins.

"I said, the moonlight is so beautiful tonight, Yao"

The heart was about to jump out.It turned out that he wasn't talking about himself, and was led away by the nose again.

The moon is so beautiful.

The bicycle bell rang for a while, from near to far.

The little white cat didn't know where to go.

A breeze blew by, and Makoto's hair fluttered with the wind.

The moonlight with Makoto is so beautiful.Makoto under the moonlight is also really beautiful.

Makoto was still smiling and waiting for her reply.

Leaning into Makoto's arms again.Makoto caressed his back understandingly, looking forward to the next words with her eyes.

Without saying anything more, he stepped forward and put his head against Makoto's head, just like he used to do when he was a child, closed his eyes, and felt his facial features by touch.Here are the eyes, here is the nose, here is the mouth... I can't get tired of seeing the familiar face, why?

No matter when the whole body exudes a pleasant mint aroma, it is really irresistible to love.

Both of them opened their eyes at the same time.Makoto pushed Yao towards her closer, and Yao leaned against Makoto's chest.

"Haru, I'm so happy."

"I have the same feelings for Haruka."

"No more gossip. Haruka, we..."

Can no longer be led by the nose!

Haruka kissed Makoto's lips fiercely.

It's just to let Makoto stop talking, and I selfishly hope that I should say that sentence first.When he reacted, he found that he was already kissing.

The person I kissed was my baby girl, my crush who I didn't know how long ago but is no longer, and my eternal lover.

Makoto's eyes widened suddenly, then gradually closed again.Such an expression was rarely seen before.

Haruka kept his eyes open.Watching Doraemon when I was a child, if the eyes are a camera, you can take a photo by blinking the eyes.Haruka suddenly wished that he had this kind of magic, that he could take pictures of Makoto in front of him frame by frame.The next second I started to feel lost, because I didn't have it.

But this person finally belongs to him.The future is long, and this expression can be seen for a lifetime.

Makoto pried open Haruka's teeth with her tongue, and Haruka responded to Makoto's attack.Lips and teeth intertwined, in Makoto's arms, Haruka even felt profusely sweating.

The lung capacity exercised by swimming is not as powerful as Makoto.Can't help but sigh Makoto's stupid strength again.

It wasn't until Yao could no longer breathe that the two reluctantly parted.

"It's true, kisses can't open their eyes."

"Makoto really, you can't stick out your tongue in your first kiss."

Makoto smiled, very relieved.

Things are a bit blurry.I don't know if the tears are his or his own.

Chasing the shout of his brother Xiaoyao, he turned around and held his hand with a honey-like smile.

Build a castle with yourself on the beach, and smile when you finally win.

Standing by the pool, he stretched out his hand to himself, "Sure enough, Xiaoyao is the strongest in the water." He smiled so proudly.

In the unmanned swimming pool late at night, "I like swimming and Xiaoyao the most." The gentle drooping eyes shone in the reflection of the water waves.

In the haze, the tearful smile in front of my eyes coincided with the previous scenes.

Makoto as always, smile as always, love as always.

He hates change, so he hasn't changed for 18 years.

The breeze blows, and there is no winter chill.Spring is finally here.

"Hey." With a cute nasal voice.

"kindness?"

"Brother Xiaoyao, brother, lord, Xiaoyao, Yao. I love you. Always, always, love you."

End.