【Zhenyao】I really want to tell you

Yao's parents went back to Yanyuan, and Makoto also went to Yao's house for dinner a few times.

"It really feels like Xiaoyao is leading his girlfriend back to dinner." Dad stared at Makoto with a deep smile on his face. Makoto and Haruka blushed and turned their heads at the same time. As a result, their eyes met, and they turned to the other side.

"He's joking, don't take it to heart, Zhenqin." Mom gave Zhenqin another bowl of rice, "We haven't seen each other for a while, why do you feel that Zhenqin is getting taller again?"

"Oh, no. I haven't changed my height since freshman year of high school." Makoto took the bowl at a loss.In Zhenqin's family, it has always been contracted by Zhenqin to serve everyone.

"I feel that Zhenqin is getting more and more handsome." Mother stared at Zhenqin with a girl's Huaichun gaze. "I'll be really jealous if you talk about it." "Okay, okay, I can't be more handsome than you, okay." "Well, this is Xiaoyao's mother! But Makoto is getting more and more handsome. Xiaoyao, what do you think?"

After pondering for a long time, "Dad is more handsome."

"This is my good son!" His father ruffled his hair for a while.

Makoto laughed, and Haruka rolled his eyes at him.

Eating at Yao's house at noon, playing games at Yao's house in the afternoon, staying at Zhenqin's house one day at Yao's house in the evening, a few days passed quickly.

"Thank you Haru, I'm not nervous anymore with Haruka's company." Makoto blew on Haruka's hair, "Is it because of this that Haruka stays with me all the time? If it's too troublesome..."

"No." Of course, there are factors that don't want Makoto to worry about her grades all the time.

"Ok?"

"I want to see you, that's all."

The hair dryer vibrated.

"Haruka's hair...is really nice, black and smooth, I really like it."

Is it just hair?

"Yao has a faint milky fragrance, and I like it too."

"It smells like shampoo." Makoto's toiletries have always been the same since she was a child.

"No, I also use shampoo. The smell on Haruka really makes people... like it very much."

"Real piano."

"Ok?"

"Do you just like these?"

"..."

"I also like Makoto's hair and the smell of Makoto's body."

Makoto turned off the hair dryer and gently massaged Haruka's scalp with her fingers. "Recently, Haruka has become more and more fond of hitting straight balls. I don't know how to answer."

Then don't answer it.Lying in Makoto's arms and letting him take care of her hair feels good too.

"Xiaoyao! I'll take that book on your table and read it for a few days first!" Dad took the book and left as if he had found a treasure, while Yao was still cooking in the kitchen.Everyone in the Nanase family knows how to cook. Every day who cooks is determined by guessing, and the cook appoints the person who washes the dishes.When it was Haruka's turn to cook, he wouldn't let his parents do the dishes.Parents are very tired at work, and doing housework itself is one of Haruka's pleasures.

"It's time to eat." Haruka brought the steaming food to the table.Haruka wouldn't just cook mackerel if he didn't eat it by himself.Haruka wouldn't cook mackerel if there were fish-hating people at the dinner table.

"Xiaoyao's food is still as delicious as ever! Although it is still a little worse than Yuko's." Nanase's house does not have all the rules of Tachibana's house, such as the host sits at the table, and when the host returns home, the children have to go to the door to greet them and eat. You have to wait for everyone to come and say "I'm starting" before starting or something.Anyone who is hungry eats and sits wherever he wants. "Isn't home a place to relax?" Dad said.He is a lively, free and unassuming person in essence, but he must or must have a serious attitude in front of work.He said that the most relaxing time of day is the moment when you get home and take off your suit and tie.

"Xiaoyao, I don't make too much sushi. My mother likes to eat it the most. I might finish eating it when she comes back." My mother hasn't come back yet after she went out to run errands.Yao quickly finished his meal, "I'm going to bed, let my mother tell me to wash the dishes after eating." "Yeah." Dad echoed a few times, without taking his eyes off the dishes.

Woke up and looked at the watch, it was three o'clock in the afternoon.Haven't come back yet?Put on your clothes and go out in twos and threes.Dad dozed off in front of the TV that was on, snoring loudly.The sound of the TV is accompanied by a sonorous and powerful snoring, which is very rhythmic.Was my mother kicked me out to sleep because of too much snoring?I didn't want to wake him up, but I couldn't go directly into the house to find my mother.

"Where's mom?"

"Come back to eat and take a nap."

Looking away at the kitchen. "Who washed the dishes?"

"I washed it."

After you finish eating, wake yourself up.

"You don't see me shutting it down."

"Don't, just watch."

Yao put down the remote control, "Have you finished the book?"

"Makoto's book?"

"Ah."

"Are you in such a hurry? Because it was given by Makoto?"

"...Suddenly want to see it."

"It's in my room, go find it yourself."

Yao walked into the room lightly, and her mother had already woken up and was about to go out again after getting dressed.

"Xiaoyao, are you here to get the book?"

"Well, it suddenly works."

"Maybe it's in Dad's briefcase. I often see him carrying it around recently."

"Then I flipped over."

There are many things in the bag and miscellaneous, but they are well-regulated and neat.He took out seven or eight thick notebooks, "He carries these with him every day? Are they not sinking?"

"He said that Makoto's muscles are very developed, and then he became jealous and practiced muscles every day."

"Lifting heavy things will only strain the muscles." It will not build muscles.

"Well, he's so envious of Makoto, he always said he has a better figure than Makoto." Mom quickly put on her makeup, "Then she walked to work every day, saying she wanted to keep her figure, and was scolded by her boss for being late after walking for two hours. I don’t drive for life and death, and it turns out that I drive him every day.” Looking up at Yao, “In this regard, Xiaoyao and Dad are really similar, and they are particularly stubborn in some places.”

"I can't eat fat." The truth.Maybe it's because of swimming, even though I have muscles, I'm still very thin.Haruka's overall appearance looks like her mother's, with delicate facial features, fair skin, and a physique that doesn't easily gain weight.

"What is there to envy Makoto?" After finding the book, she hurriedly opened it, and the note was indeed inside, and it moved a bit.

must have been seen...

"It's Makoto's handwriting. I asked Makoto's mother."

"..."

months ago.

The autumn sky is clean and clear.He rested his chin and looked out the window.Birds pass by from time to time, and their eyes follow them.The sky is so beautiful.

I felt that there was a force behind me pulling me.Turning around, Makoto also looked at herself with the same posture, her eyes were also empty.Feeling guilty for no reason, she handed Makoto a pen.Relying on years of tacit understanding, Zhenqin unscrewed the pen cap and took out a note: "Don't look at me in class."

Not long after, the pen was handed back. "Haruka is so beautiful."

"Sure enough, we didn't guess wrong." Mom smiled and stepped forward, touching Yao's back. "Xiaoyao, sit down and talk."

"Don't you want to go out?" His eyes dodged.But after all, she was a mother, so she had to look up at her.

"It's not too late to go out after talking."

"Oh……"

Standing stiffly in front of the full-length mirror, I don't know where to put my hands and feet.The self in the mirror is really embarrassing.

"Sit down." The tone couldn't be refuted, but he still smiled.I have to say that Makoto really resembles her mother in some respects.

"Although so many years have passed, Xiaoyao hasn't changed at all. Whenever Zhenqin is mentioned, she blushes."

"……No."

"Xiaoyao, you really like Makoto, don't you?"

"...just the favorite of ordinary friends."

Probing cautiously.Although my parents always joked about myself and Makoto, this matter is really serious.After all, they are a family, and Yao knows very well that behind her mother's usual smile, there may be turbulent emotions hidden.

"It's not a good boy to lie."

"No lie."

"Then Xiaoyao hates Makoto, right?"

"No!" Yao stood up suddenly, then sat down slowly, "I...don't hate him."

"Xiaoyao." Mom's tone became serious, and Yao secretly regretted why she reacted so violently just now.

Although unconsciously...

"Although Xiaoyao may not use it, I want to tell you a truth, never underestimate a woman's intuition."

This... is really unclear.

I hardly know how to get along with girls, and even being confessed is directly rejected.The closest person to him should be Jiang, but he never treated Jiang as a person of the opposite sex.Jiang, too, regarded himself as a walking muscle model.

"Sorry, I don't know."

"Ah, I should have thought of that." Mom sighed. "You've never been with a girl, have you? It's not fulfilling."

"Very fulfilling."

I am thinking of a person in my heart, and every move affects all my thoughts.Every day with Makoto, life is very fulfilling.

Yao knows more or less about the people around him.How does the boy go to great lengths to make his girlfriend happy, and the girl is very troubled thinking about what gift to give her boyfriend, and because of how insignificant a sentence is, the two have been fighting for a long time.Why love when love is so troublesome.In contrast, I can be guessed by Makoto without much thought.Having been with Makoto for a long time, getting along is natural and comfortable.Both will be jealous, but mostly not vexatious.The two of them take care of each other and support each other, and they feel at ease by his side.

I thought about it a long time ago, if I have to fall in love, then I must be with Makoto.Later, gradually, she wanted to fall in love with Makoto.

In short, it doesn’t work if it’s not a real piano.

"Because Makoto is always by your side. So there's no need to associate with anyone or anything."

"Ah."

"That's great... I'm also a little envious of Makoto." Mom turned her eyes away from Yao, "Is Xiaoyao's love for Makoto?"

"Maybe." It's useless to hide.

"how long have you been together?"

"Fifty-eight years."

"No. Dating, dating."

"……No."

"So, where are we now?"

"do not know."

"You have..."

"I haven't done anything." I realized that I seemed to have said something wrong, so I shut up immediately.

There was an awkward silence.

"Don't worry we can't accept it."

"……Really."

"Makoto and I noticed it a long time ago. If we can't accept it, why don't we just take Xiaoyao away?"

"Because you won't make me do what I don't want to," almost blurted out.

"Yao's grandma said a long time ago that Makoto and Xiaoyao have a heart-to-heart connection... If the heart is connected to the heart, wouldn't it be too cruel to force them to separate?"

"Mom, I..."

"Go on, Haru."

"I don't want to be separated from Makoto."

Mom smiled, a little lonely and a little relieved.

"It's not a question of whether you want it or not. It's that you and Makoto are inseparable."

"It's good to have a lot to say."

"When I first realized it a few years ago, my dad and I almost sold the house and brought you back to Tokyo... away from Makoto."

Although I had already made psychological preparations, I was still surprised when I heard "stay away from Zhenqin".

How could it be possible to stay away from Zhenqin.

Can't do it.

"Especially Dad, the three generations of the Nanase family are single, no one can accept it..."

"Our two families have considered for a long time, and decided to wait and see what happens. If the so-called face from the worldly point of view makes you suffer, we will never feel better for the rest of our lives."

"Thank you..." He lowered his head.

"It's good that Xiaoyao can be happy." Looking out of the window, "It's just that the only child was taken away early, so he will always be a little lonely." The smile on his face slowly froze.

"We have been friends with Makoto's parents for many years. Although it is a joke, sometimes I feel a little... jealous of them. They have three children in total, and Xiaoyao is our only one."

Mom's voice is so low that it can't even cover the humidifier in the house.The floor heating is on, and it is warm.The winter sun shines through the curtains, and the two family portraits on the wall are shrouded in light yellow, with a softer tone.

One is not long after I was born, in a photo studio, a family of four are sitting in kimonos.I look at the camera expressionlessly on my grandma's lap.Everyone seemed to be holding back their laughter except for themselves.Especially my father, who doesn't seem to be as mature as he is now, like a child who can't grow up.The other is a photo taken by grandma.The grass in the park is covered with bright yellow floral blankets.Dad sat on his hands and turned his head to look at himself.His eyes didn't look like kindness, but more like his own eyes when he saw a mackerel.Although he has always been short-cut, he was tall and thin back then, unlike the slight beer belly now.The mother was lying on her side, her soft long hair hanging down, which was even darker against the fair skin.That black hair is what my mother is most proud of, and I have spent a lot of effort to maintain it.Some strands of hair hung down on her body, she touched herself gently, maybe she just put herself to sleep.At that time, my parents were still very young, they could be said to be a pair of lovers, and my little self lay between them and slept soundly.The sun is as bright as it is now, and everyone's faces are filled with happiness.

What an eye-catching family of three.

Very warm, very happy, but it made Haruka want to cry.

why.

"Are you... willing?"

"Not unwilling."

"It will be lonely."

I will never be a grandparent in my life.

"Just treat Makoto as having an extra son, it's as simple as that."

"But... Makoto and I can't be with you every day." I can't live with Makoto and my parents, and I don't have a next generation to accompany my parents.

"It's been 15 years, and we're used to it. It's been... so many years that you've been left behind because of work."

Eyes were red, trying to hold back tears.

She is not young anymore.

Because of work, the long hair is coiled up, even so a few silver strands are still clearly discernible.The fair skin faded, and the thick foundation couldn't cover the marks of time.

"Hey, I made Xiaoyao laugh. I haven't cried in nearly ten years." In the prosperous workplace, the strong woman outside the family only cried once in front of Yao when her grandma passed away.

"Without children, you will be lonely."

"It will be a lot more leisurely. If you give us a grandson, we must be busy with the grandson's affairs all day long, and it will be very tiring. Help you take care of the children, send the grandson to and from school, cook for the grandson, family reunion and so on... ...Papa will definitely say, it's super troublesome."

"Xiaoyao, what reason do you think we have to reject Zhenqin?" Mom's tears still flowed out, "I was busy with work all day long and left you in my hometown. After grandma passed away, only Zhenqin was with you. Without him, you might grow up." What's it like?"

Yao has indeed grown up, instead of taking drugs, gambling and idleness, he has grown up healthily and smoothly, and has grown into a so-called winner in life.

"How can we bear to refuse Zhenqin's kindness to you, let alone your request to him...Xiaoyao, we have never been able to refuse."

At the age of eight, Makoto proposed to stay in Iwatobi alone, never thinking that her parents would agree.Maybe because I have been relatively independent since I was a child and rarely made demands, my parents have always responded to my requests and never wronged myself.

"Our incompetent parents, what reason do you have to let you leave..."

"It's not incompetent parents!" Haruka who had been silent all this time roared out, with tears in her eyes, "You guys obviously worked so hard...it's my fault, I didn't go to accompany you because of Makoto..."

"It's nothing. We are parents, and it's only natural to give you a better life. Makoto... Sure enough, you really can't do without each other."

"I'm sorry for making my parents so lonely in Tokyo for so many years."

"Stupid boy." Mom wiped away tears for Yao with a tissue.

I am not a child for a long time. From outsiders' point of view, I am always calm when things happen, and I can still cry like a child in front of my mother.Sure enough, it's my mother.

Home is what it is.

I hit a wall outside and was beaten to shame by reality.When I got home, I squatted down to change my shoes, and the smell of food wafted into my nostrils.Running around separately, but at a fixed time, for everyone to get together.Kind greetings, "I'm back", all the unhappiness will disappear.

It doesn't matter if we can only see each other two or three times a year, the distance will only increase the longing and constant feelings.No matter how long the distance is, there will be no division at all, and there is no need for red tape. Sit together, talk, laugh, eat, drink, and drink. I understand your thoughts and you understand my difficulties. "I'm back." It's not just a greeting but an oath.

No matter how far you go, the ends of the earth will definitely return home.

"I don't know Makoto's clear attitude."

"Zhenqin is a shy person like his parents." Mom got up and turned off the humidifier. "Xiaoyao, take the initiative and tell him what you think."

"Ah."

"When Xiaoyao is happy, we will be happy. So don't cry, but laugh."

"Okay." Haruka smiled at her mother.

"It's okay for you to take a look at those notebooks." Mom walked out the door with her handbag in her hand, and looked back at Yao again.

"Be careful on the road."

"Ah."

It looks like a diary, since my mother agrees, it's okay to look through it.My own handwriting is very similar to that of my father, and my father taught me brush calligraphy when I was a child.It feels so good to be familiar.

On the first page was a photo of myself as a newborn.Lying in swaddling clothes, his eyes were full of murderous intent.Haruka was shocked by his youth, it turned out that the eye knife was not made in a day.

"I am a father from today! I also wrote a diary when I was a child, but I stopped writing it after a few days. I decided to keep writing it from today. Because Yuko said that I have been living at the age of 18, but from today I must I'm about to become an adult. I took my son from the nurse and almost blurted out 'don't cry, don't cry, let my brother hug me', but luckily I didn't, otherwise it would be too embarrassing!"

"Yuko still named her son Haruka, which came from the Tianwang Haruka she liked when she was in school. She was worried that it would be too feminine, but I thought it was good. The name Haruka sounds nice. I said to Xiaoyao, 'from From today onwards, your name will be Haruka Nanase!' He glared at me and turned his head away, maybe he was shy. It would be great if the child of Wen Yan's family was a girl, childhood sweetheart, she can get married when she grows up, really Two families with fate."

"The nurses said that they haven't seen such a good-looking child for a long time. Although he doesn't smile, he is a cold beauty. Xiaoyao looks like a Yuko, and he will definitely be a heartthrob like his father when he grows up."

Can't the eye knife deter people other than yourself?Haruka sighed.Mom is a heartthrob, Dad isn't.

"Xiaoyao's expression is very serious, like his grandfather, it may be inherited from another generation. If Dad is still alive, what expression will he show when he sees Xiaoyao. I was not around when Dad passed away, and now I am also a father. Xiaoyao fell asleep in his arms. When I was in my father's arms, what would he think? My mother said that I was very noisy when I was a child, not as quiet and obedient as Xiaoyao. I still hope that Xiaoyao can smile more and never cry If you don’t make trouble, I will worry instead.”

"We took Xiaoyao to Ju's house, and Xiaoyao touched Qianxia's belly and laughed for the first time! It was so sunny, and my heart was crisp when I saw it. To be honest, we were all shocked. Qianxia, ​​Wenyan and the others They are all very happy, they are all saying that Xiaoyao likes little sister so much, I don’t know what expression Xiaoyao will have when he finds out about this in the future? Will he laugh? Will he smile so brightly?”

I don’t know if it’s sunny or not, but I’m still smiling.

"The child of the Ju family was born, a boy. He took Xiaoyao to the hospital, and Xiaoyao took the newborn baby and refused to let go, dragging the baby until he cried. He can become a good brother even if he can't be a lover. , It would be great if the relationship between the two families continues in the next generation. Also, Fumihiko Qianxia and the others really want to name the baby Makoto. Although it is a bit feminine, it is still a good name. Makoto has a chubby round face and smiles. It's very cute. When Xiaoyao saw Xiao Zhenqin, her eyes were straightened. When she was about to leave, she refused to let her go."

Well, I scared you since you were born, I'm sorry Makoto.

"Xiaoyao is one year old today! Many people came when the wine was set. During the lottery, Xiaoyao caught a mackerel doll. The people in the Fisheries Association were very happy, saying that Xiaoyao might inherit the family business and work in the Fisheries Association. Mom I looked at me meaningfully. I understood that I was a traitor to the Nanase family. After graduating from high school, I did not stay in Iwatobi but passed the Keio School of Architecture. Naturally, I would not inherit the family business. At that time, my father was very unwilling. I still prefer me to stay in Yanyuan. He is old-fashioned and family-loving. I still think Tokyo is better. He happened to be in a rebellious period, and I had a lot of quarrels with him. Mom was not very willing at the time, but she still convinced Dad, saying I have the ability, young people still go out to do big business. I also understand that my mother has been quite critical of this matter until now, because I couldn’t come back before my father died. Xiaoyao also took a paintbrush , holding Xiao Zhenqin again and not letting go. Xiao Zhenqin is chubby, he grabbed Xiao Zhenqin's hand and stuffed it into his mouth, everyone couldn't stop laughing."

"The company decided to transfer me to the Tokyo headquarters, and Yuko's stock exchange happened to have a vacancy in Tokyo. I persuaded her to fight for it. Money is something outside of the body, but there are many things that cannot be done without money. Now that I have become a father, then We must take responsibility. We want to give Xiaoyao a better growth environment. In reality, money is inseparable. We are going to take Xiaoyao and set off. Before leaving, Qianxia came to us and said that Xiaozhenqin was crying and wanted Seeing Xiaoyao, no one can coax her well. After Xiaoyao left, Xiao Zhenqin stopped crying immediately, and would not let go of holding Xiaoyao. Xiaoyao didn’t want to leave after going back and forth, and the schedule was delayed again and again. Today in Tokyo We kept urging, and we were devastated. Xiaoyao is relatively introverted, and the only person who plays well with him is Makoto. What if Xiaoyao can’t get used to it after going to Tokyo. This will keep his grandma from being lonely, and secondly, Xiaoyao will be much happier with Zhenqin to accompany her."

"I said I want to stick to it every day, but I haven't kept a diary for a long time. It's not that I don't want to, it's because I'm too busy. Life in Tokyo is far from satisfactory in Iwatobi. The company is full of elites who have been screened out layer by layer. The plan may not be approved. During the day, I endured anger and looked at the boss’s face and lived cautiously. At night, I stayed up on the table and drew pictures. Yuko’s competition pressure was also very high. She was not in good health, worked overtime and fell ill. Keep the humidifier on. Today, my mother called us, and we pretended to be relaxed. For a while, Yuko was hospitalized with a high fever, and my mother seemed to have noticed something. She wanted to bring Xiaoyao to Tokyo to see us. Anyway, she didn’t let her She will come. She will be worried when she sees us like this. But Yuko and I miss her, and I miss Xiaoyao too."

"Sometimes I also recall the days when a family of four lived in Yanyuan in the past. Although the work is busy, at least the whole family can be reunited every day. When I see my mother, I hug Xiaoyao and kiss his little face. Xiaoyao is in my arms, and my mother By my side. Yanyuan watermelon is cool and refreshing, with juicy sweetness and crispy meat. The night sky of Yanyuan is beautiful, especially when there are stars, and you can’t count them one by one. On a summer night, Yuko cuts the watermelon, and everyone eats the watermelon to watch Stars, chatting with the evening wind. Yuko and I recalled the time when we were not in love, sitting by the sea and eating popsicles that could be separated and watching the stars. The stars were still in the sky. In a blink of an eye, Yuko and I were married. I have a baby. Xiaoyao loves to sleep very much, and will fall asleep every time. The sky in Tokyo is gray, and I heard from my colleagues that it is rare to see stars tonight, but now I work overtime in the office at two o'clock, so sleepy that I don't have the strength to cry. "

"Almost all the money left every month is sent back to Yanyuan. Xiaoyao is four years old, just the age to spend money. I called my mother today, and Xiaoyao asked me when my father would come back in a childish voice. I couldn't help it." Weeping. Xiaoyao spoke late, and he didn’t know how to call Dad before we left. Now he can tell such a long list. It is said that Makoto can talk and he can say it. Mom sent us a lot of money back, They were all returned by Yuko, saying that we originally wanted to give mother and Xiaoyao a better life. Yuko has always been such a self-improving person. I have envied her since she was 16. She hardly faces us Crying will affect our emotions. I still think it is better to cry when we should cry and laugh when we should laugh."

"Today, a colleague suggested that we should have another child. Tokyo is so expensive, how can we afford it, and it is too unfair to Xiaoyao. Walking on the street with Yuko in the afternoon, I saw a child running around with a balloon , my parents were chasing after me, thinking of Xiaoyao in my hometown, alone. I hope Xiaozhenqin...don't dislike him. Please, Zhenqin, don't let Xiaoyao be too lonely. This is a useless father's request, Makoto won't know either."

Lonely, there will be.But not too lonely.There is grandma and there is Makoto.

The loneliest ones are the parents.

"Mom had an operation, and she persisted for six days and nights before leaving. I didn't close my eyes all night. Xiaoyao, do you know that my father lost his father a long time ago, and now he has no mother. Xiaoyao, I'm sorry, we don't have any Bring grandma back. I broke my promise, sorry."

"Xiaoyao is much taller and thinner than last year. He didn't cry, and he didn't even have an expression. I know Xiaoyao was afraid that we would feel more uncomfortable seeing him cry, because he is my son. His grandfather just likes to bury all emotions in his heart. People. I still hope that Xiaoyao can cry and cry. If he can’t vent his emotions, it’s not good for his health. He’s still at the age when he wants to cry. Make up your mind to receive visitors, and you won’t even have a chance to cry if you want to.”

Crying and laughing are in the heart.I don't want to affect others, such as parents, such as Makoto.

"People from the Fisheries Association suggested that I sell the house and take Xiaoyao away. The old house that the Nanase family has lived in for generations can be left unused but cannot be sold."

"Today, Xiaoyao told me that he wanted to stay in Yanyuan, so he would keep a vigil for grandma. This is the first time he asked us. My first reaction was that he was crazy. I know he can cook, but the eight-year-old How does the child live alone? He promised that it was ok, Wen Yan and Qian Xia also said to help take care of it. We are busy with work, so we take Xiaoyao there, and Xiaoyao can only be alone every day. She said that Yuko cried out at these times, and she couldn't bear it. Seeing Xiaoyao every day but leaving him alone is cruel."

"It's better to let Xiaoyao have a good time, and we are as lonely as before. I have to say, I really envy Makoto. Xiaoyao, don't blame us too much. We... are too busy."

There are obvious tear stains, and the folds have turned yellow.Haruka stroked the folds lightly.

"Xiaoyao is going to junior high school. Wenyan called today and said that he and Makoto's swimming team won the championship in the regional competition. Wenyan comforted me and said that there will always be a chance for the two families to watch them swim together. His results are still not good. I'm worried. But I'm still very concerned that although he is better at science, his best subject is Mandarin. It may be Yuko's inheritance."

"Today Xiaoyao suddenly called to say that he no longer swims competitively. I don't know what happened, and I didn't blame him. I just told him to calm down for a few days and think about it. After all, he just won the relay No. 1. The level is also very high. If I really quit swimming, I will not say much. He must have difficulties, I believe him, after all, he is my son."

"In Tokyo's No. 11 years, Yuko and I bought a house with our savings and decorated it according to Xiaoyao's liking. In the future, when Xiaoyao comes to Tokyo to visit us, we don't have to stay in the rented house. If Xiaoyao is in Tokyo This house will be his wedding room when he goes to work in university. Xiaoyao is 14 years old and has always been very competitive. When he arrives in Tokyo, we can be reunited again. There are still four years left, and we will always come of."

"A few days ago, Wen Yan called us and said that we needed an interview. Today we went to Yanyuan, thinking it was about the admission of Xiaoyao and Zhenqin to high school, but they showed us Zhenqin's textbook. I didn't intend to be taken by Lan and Lian. Just for fun, I found a lot of small notes. My intuition told me that the handwriting on it was Haruka, and his handwriting was very similar to mine. The content only shocked Yuko and I to the point of being speechless. Xiaoyao and Makoto may be gay , the first reaction was anger. We left Xiaoyao with Zhenqin, not for them to fall in love. At noon today, the four of us had an embarrassing meal. Old friends who haven’t seen each other for many years actually got together because of this kind of thing We are together. I really wanted to ask Xiaoyao to clarify, but they stopped me, saying that it would be counterproductive. Calm down, it’s not us but Makoto who is always by Xiaoyao’s side. It’s only natural that he and Makoto have such feelings Right. We really care too little about Xiaoyao, and my irresponsible father is not qualified to ask for so much. Although that word is harsh, if Xiaoyao is forced to leave Zhenqin for our sake... is it really okay? ?Makoto has always been a responsible and good boy. He knows Xiaoyao the most, and the Tachibana family can rest assured... Yuko thinks so too. We thought about it for a long time, and decided to let nature take its course. Xiaoyao came back at night and was very happy to see us Surprise. Seeing him holding back his smile and helping us up and down, I was thinking, Xiaoyao should really smile more, even if we are not the ones who can make him laugh."

"Xiaoyao is a sophomore in high school, and joined their high school's swimming club. I don't know the reason, but he is happy and fulfilled. We meet too little, so in my opinion, his physique has grown rapidly. He is an adult man, and his face has long since lost the childishness of a child. Standing with Zhenqin, he is regarded as two young talents. Today I deliberately observed that Zhenqin took good care of him, and he is a person who can be trusted with confidence. Their tacit understanding The speed even completely exceeds that of Yuko and me. The mood is very complicated."

"It's time for Xiaoyao to decide on a path. Although I really want to reunite my family in Tokyo, I still wait for him to think about it. Finally, he told me that he wants to take swimming as his path and he will come to Tokyo to go to school. I was relieved. His own decision, as long as he is sincerely willing, Yuko and I will fully support it."

"Xiaoyao came to Tokyo for the exam, and he will stay for a few more days. We always make fun of Makoto and make him blush. We video chat with Makoto every night. He really can't do without Makoto for a day. We... It seems that I have slowly accepted it. After all, it is our child, so there is nothing unacceptable."

"Today, Xiaoyao went back to Yanyuan..."

Five thick diaries.

Yao calmed down and picked up another book.

"Chat records with Xiaoyao."

"Today, Xiaoyao finally followed Zhenqin to buy a mobile phone. We asked him to buy the same model as Zhenqin, and asked Zhenqin if he could use it. Xiaoyao just entered junior high school this year, and his studies are not so heavy. He will occasionally talk to us. Text."

"This one: 'The mackerel was on sale recently, and I bought a lot. I was worried that I couldn't finish it, so I gave some to Zhenqin's family.' I replied: 'Yes, next time it's best to buy the amount that I can finish. '"

"This one: 'Dad, the school has to buy a lot of materials recently...' Without further ado, send money! Xiaoyao, Xiaoyao, I also came from your age. Don't take your father as a fool."

"This one: 'Makoto is sick today, I'm going to take care of him at Makoto's house, don't use the landline or cell phone if you have something to do.' I didn't know how to reply, so I asked Yuko, and I replied, 'Got it, Xiaoyao should also take care of his body' Yuko also had a fever today, and I have been taking care of her at home for a whole day."

"This one: 'Today I told Zhenqin that I will be by his side forever, and Zhenqin is very happy.' Xiaoyao, you are also very happy. Well, I have figured it out for so many years. Just remember to come every year when the time comes. Just watch me and mom once or twice. It doesn't matter if you don't remember, as long as you live well. You won't always be my son, but I will always be your father."

The font is neat and dense, and it is full of text messages and replies that Yao sent to him in the past seven or eight years.

Haruka tidied up her notebook and put it in her briefcase.Walked into the living room, the TV was still on, and the comedian was telling some mild jokes.

Dad was still lying on the sofa in a very awkward position.The cervical spondylosis caused by long-term desk work did not allow him to lie comfortably.

Gray hair.As a senior construction engineer who has worked hard for many years, I often need to go in and out