Ponytail girl, can we not break up

Li Jie: I didn't say that you can't take care of your son, but I just think that he is growing up day by day, and I'm afraid that you will work too hard by yourself.

Zipei: Hard work or not is my business. If you really love Chen Chen, don't let him bear these burdens prematurely!

Li Jie: Pepe, is it really impossible for us?

Zipei watched Li turn the teacup in his hand again and again, and after a pause, he looked at Zipei with a sad expression.

Zipei: Li Jie, we really can't go back...

Li Jie got up a little excitedly and went forward to hold Zipei's shoulders, staring at the woman in front of him with hot eyes, sitting quietly as calm as tea.

Li Jie: Pepe, do you know?I have never let you go for so many years.From the moment I fell in love with you, I swore to give you the best.Speaking of it, even I can't believe it myself, like the bloody scene in an idol drama, I really fell in love with you at first sight!The back view of you copying the questions on the blackboard, and your confidence in the speech contest, all deeply attracted me... You are not the most beautiful girl in the class, but I started to pay attention to you on the first day you entered the class everything of.Always sitting in the front row, always dressed casually, with melancholy and focused eyes.You have a different temperament from others. A girl in the class commented on you, saying that many girls at this age are like summer, but you are like a Wang Qiushui.I don't even know what I am, I just want to be close to you.My handwriting is not good, so I tried my best to practice calligraphy. You don’t like boys with hair. I cut my hair for the first time since I can remember, and I haven’t changed my hairstyle for so many years.I know you like to watch basketball, I often shuttle on the playground... Do you know Pepe?I did all this to shorten the distance between us, and I hope I can be worthy of you!

When Zipei heard Li Jie say this for the first time, he was also stunned.I don't know how to respond to him, I just let him hold his shoulders, let his words ring in my ears, peeling away some memories of the past little by little.

Li Jie: Pepe, I know I can't show off, I won't make people feel very romantic, other people's boyfriends always send flowers and clothes, I save money but only buy you books.Remember the pen holder of the horse stepping on the flying swallow?I bought it for you when I went to work in the breakfast shop during the holidays, even though it was accidentally broken... I bought that guitar with nearly a month's wages from my part-time job at the construction site!I just want to try my best to give you everything I can, but I'm sorry for letting you talk about a love like plain water.The life after marriage is still ordinary, but I am very satisfied, but then we talk less and less, I can't guess your mind at first, or I never guessed.You said divorce, I really want to say no!But I feel that I can't make you happy anymore, not even a superficial smile, so I agreed.I feel that I am not good enough, so I work very hard, I hope that one day you will be tired outside and come back...

Li Jie's voice was trembling as he spoke, his eyes were covered with mist.

Zipei still had some fluctuations in her heart. In that love season when holding hands would make her blush, Li Jie was shy and calm, and they never went to lively markets or movie theaters when they dated.Most of the presents she received were books, and she never said anything directly, but it was indeed to her liking, which was why Zipei chose to marry him later.But in her married life, Zipei gradually discovered that Li Jie and herself were very depressed, and she only realized how unconfident he was in facing herself today...

Zipei: Li Jie, thank you for loving me so hard!But let the past be in memory!

Zipei's words were flat, but revealed an unquestionable determination.Li Jie lowered his hands suddenly, sat back heavily on the chair, covered his face with his hands, the circle on his left middle finger was bright, under the light of the tea room, so dazzling...

Li Jie: Pepe, I understand you, I know you will not come back.Even if someone hurts you, you won't cry in front of me... you know?The biggest failure of being a man is not being needed by the woman you love deeply.Everything I give you will always seem so insignificant, so indifferent.Even now that I have everything I thought could make you feel at ease, but... I still can't find a sense of existence in front of you.

Looking at the sobbing man in front of him, Zipei couldn't think of a way to comfort him, because even if it was a hug, the warmth had already been imprinted by Lin Yu.

Zipei: Li Jie, find someone who treats you sincerely and live a good life. I don't deserve you.

After a conversation, both of them fell into memories, and Zipei left the tea room first.The snow on the street has been cleared in sevens and eighties. The noise of vehicles and pedestrians filled the small town with a strong sense of life as the new year is approaching. It is almost forgotten that Snow Flower wrote a fairy tale in the small town last night.Only the leisurely Nanshan Mountain is still white and quiet.

Zipei raised his hand to stroke the hair on his forehead, and looked sideways at the door he just walked out of. The figure looked so cold in the warmth.Later, she often thought that maybe if she stepped into that door again, all the endings would be different.

The back of a girl flashed before her eyes, and Zipei's gaze inadvertently landed on the high ponytail.She couldn't help but walked a few steps quickly, but suddenly stopped, watching the figure hidden in the crowd.She suddenly wanted to talk to someone, talk about Lin Yu, talk about her mood at the moment.Taking out the phone, I checked and flicked through my WeChat contacts, my sister, Mosquito... they were all busy.She finally clicked on the girl with the ponytail. The message sent by the other party before she went out was still flashing on the screen.

Zipei: Are you there?

After a while, the other party came back.

The girl with the ponytail: For you, I will always be there!

Zipei: I just saw a figure that looks like her.

The girl with the ponytail: Sick again?Who stimulated you early in the morning?

Zipei: I just miss her all of a sudden...

The other party was silent for a while, then sent a hug emoji, and then sent another paragraph.

The girl with the ponytail:

snow falls silently

Plain color provokes the half-curtain moon

Leaning lightly on the end of the bed tired and supporting the head

I still remember that I drank all my sorrows last night

The desk is lightly stained with dust

Can't bear to look back

Gathering and dispersal is finally a dream, causing memories and longing

In the end, it was Yu who dragged Du Kang into his throat

blue light should laugh at me

You can't break this relationship, you can destroy people and stay

Ruan Ruan only folds his heart

This passage was about Zipei and Lin Yu's quarrel when it snowed last year, and she wrote it on the forum.It turned out that she had never been so calm in the eyes of others, but she didn't meet anyone who made her crazy, Lin Yu did it.All the memories with Lin Yu, laughing so presumptuously, crying so sad, crazy and desperate, hurt so thoroughly...