you are with the light

When Chen Ke went out, he saw a child squatting in front of the opposite door. The child was familiar to him, and he had only seen it this morning.When he heard the sound of the door opening, the child looked up at him. There were clear five finger prints on his white face, and the cheek that had been slapped was obviously swollen compared to the other side.

When Chen Ke went out, he was squatting there, and when he came back, he was still squatting there, as if he had settled down, and his legs were not too numb. Chen Ke originally didn't want to care about him, but he looked pitiful with his head down He still couldn't help but stop.

"Gu...Gu, Gu..."

"Gu Jinbei."

The child raised his head, his eyes were a little timid, the eyes were full of water, and his appearance was weak, pitiful and helpless, which reminded Chen Ke of a little wild cat named Guaiguai for no reason.

Guaiguai is a little wild cat in the courtyard a few years ago. Chen Ke would feed something when he met it. The little thing has milk and is a mother. He calls around Chen Ke all day long. Climb on his bed.He fed this little guy for a whole winter, and next spring, when the kitten was in heat, it quarreled with the old lady on the first floor, and poisoned Guaiguai to death.

Although Chen Ke didn't say anything, he was still a little sad.This time when he saw Gu Jinbei's small appearance, his heart softened a little, and he asked him, "Are you going to our house?"

Gu Jinbei stared at him blankly, but his eyes were not deceiving, and they lit up expectantly.He opened his mouth, probably as if agreeing, but he was afraid of something, and finally he could only shake his head slightly: "No, I can't."

"Okay." Chen Ke said, and then he took out the key to open the door, "Squat in another position, don't your legs feel numb after squatting for a long time?"

Gu Jinbei was a little embarrassed, he said: "Number."

It was so numb that he seemed unconscious, but when he moved it was like being bitten by thousands of ants. He didn't dare to move, he was afraid that he would cry if he moved.

Chen Ke entered the room, and with the sound of closing the door, the corridor became quiet again.

Gu Jinbei hesitated for a while, and slowly put his hands on the ground. His legs were numb and uncomfortable. He sat on the ground with his teeth bared, his eyes looking for ants on the ground, and he pressed one when he saw one.

He was beaten by Xia Yin, so he could only vent his anger on the ants. The ants are so innocent. When they died, they would probably have no idea why. After going to hell, they would have to sue the King of Hell: "In a certain month in a certain year, I was called Gu Jinbei." My child is crushed to death, I have died unjustly, my lord, you have to make the decision for me!"

Gu Jinbei's imagination is rich. While crushing the ants to death, he imagined how he would accuse Xia Yin in the underworld.His feelings for Xia Yin are a bit complicated. After all, it's his mother, the only family member he has ever remembered. He loves her from the bottom of his heart, but when she beats him, he hates her so much. He has some contradictions. Love cannot be enough Thoroughly, he can't hate to the end, he is too indecisive.

The door next door was opened again, and Chen Ke came out with a bowl. He glanced at it and continued pressing the ants on the ground.Pressing and pressing, he found a large shadow, he looked up, and saw Chen Ke standing in front of him, opening his mouth in confusion: "Gu...Gu, Gu..."

"Gu Jinbei." Gu Jinbei explained, "The gold of gold, the north of Peking University."

Chen Ke nodded, he remembered this time, Gu Jinbei, the gold of gold, the bei of Peking University.

"Don't poke on the ground, don't you think it's dirty?" Chen Ke squatted and handed the bowl over, "Are you hungry?"

Gu Jinbei is very hungry. He can live and dance all day with just half a piece of bread. He drank chicken soup and ate a bowl of rice this morning. He felt that he could last till tomorrow.

But he had no reason to refuse the food. Just because he was hungry didn't mean he wouldn't be hungry. He took the bowl and said "thank you".

There is mixed tofu in the bowl. The tofu is very white, and the white sugar is also very white. There are white pieces lying in the bowl, like a bowl of white snow.This is very common tofu mixed with sugar, but Gu Jinbei still swallowed.

Chen Ke handed him the chopsticks, and Gu Jinbei took a piece and put it in his mouth.The tofu is soft, the sugar is crispy, and it melts like snow in the mouth, with a hint of coolness.

A bowl of tofu mixed with sugar almost made Gu Jinbei cry.

He is usually not so emotional, he is even a little indifferent, with numbness in his indifference.It wasn't the first time he was beaten by Xia Yin, he didn't even bother to remember big or small things, and he didn't even obsess over whether he made a mistake.When Xia Yin was in a good mood, she gave him a beating to celebrate, and when she was in a bad mood, she gave him a beating to relieve her anger. Being kicked out to squat was commonplace. It's summer now, and it's not cold to stay outside, so he felt a little grateful in his heart .

Chen Ke's bowl of mixed tofu was like a pickaxe, which dug through the barriers of his life, and a little light came out from the gaps in the barriers. It was the first time he saw it, and it was dazzling and a little teary-eyed.

But he didn't cry after all, he finished the bowl of mixed tofu, it was very sweet, he usually doesn't like sweet things, but this time he actually liked it a little bit.

Chen Ke took the empty bowl and couldn't help meddling in his own business: "What's wrong with you?"

Gu Jinbei started pressing ants on the ground again. This is a residential building, and there are not many ants. He just pressed for a long time, and he almost wiped out the ants in this area. something to pass the time, by the way

Concealing his helplessness: "A grandma refused to let me dry the quilt, and even threw the quilt on the ground. My mother had a fight with her..."

Chen Ke couldn't figure out the logic inside: "Then why hit you?" He really couldn't watch the kid poking around on the ground, his white and tender hands were covered with dust, "Don't poke, it's dirty."

Gu Jinbei stopped, wiped his hands on his trousers, and wiped out the gray stripes on the black trousers in a daze: "Because... because I got into trouble..."

Chen Ke was surprised: "What?"

He knew that there was an old lady living on the first floor. She looked 80 or 56 years old, but she insisted that she was [-] when she met everyone. Trembling, when beating people, she raises her crutches to slap people. She is not small at all. When arguing with people, she is more splashy than anyone else. Even the toughest sister-in-law Wang in this building dare not confront her head-on.

"Because I dried the quilt at grandma's door, she got angry."

Chen Ke knew that grandma had designated the land under the first floor as her own place, and she would make a fuss if anyone took over to post something. This happened to Chen Ke when he was posting things for the first time. Later, he was smart From time to time, I gave the old grandma some leftovers, chatted about homework, and finally won the right to dry the quilt for a long time.

Chen Ke said: "Next time I will take you to visit her house, let her see that you look familiar, and you can dry the quilt for a long time later."

Gu Jinbei nodded: "Thank you."

Chen Ke went back.

When he went back, it was about the same time, and he went to make dinner again. When it came to housework, Chen Wanran was like a lady of every family, her fingers never touched the spring water. She was watching TV dramas on the sofa, fascinated.

Chen Ke dug out the pork, made some stir-fried pork with chili, and stir-fried water spinach. There was still roasted chili in the side dish. Chen Wanran didn't like this thing.

Chen Ke liked it very much, he could eat two bowls of rice with it.After eating, he went to wash the dishes, but Chen Wanran answered the phone and said he was going out.

"It's getting late." Chen Ke was a little unhappy, but he knew that he had no position to be unhappy, "Come back soon."

"Understood, I will come back to spend the night." Chen Wanran pushed open the door, and was stunned when she saw Gu Jinbei at the opposite door: "Whose child? What are you doing sitting at the door?"

Gu Jinbei raised his head, saw that it was Chen Wanran, and lowered his head again.

Chen Wanran walked over: "Why don't you go in?" After speaking, she went to knock on the door.

Gu Jinbei stood up slowly, but it was too late, Xia Yin opened the door, and smiled unnaturally when she saw Chen Wanran.

Gu Jinbei suddenly wanted, really wanted to escape, jumped down from the stairs, and ran away like a little rabbit. If he couldn't run, he could dig a hole like a gopher. Great.

But he could only stand there, watching his mother say a few words to Chen Wanran kindly, and called him softly: "Xiao Bei, come in quickly."

Gu Jinbei went in.

He went into the room and waited in the living room.He looked at the open door, wishing that the door would remain open forever, but the more he thought about it, the door closed quickly, and when Xia Yin turned around, he could see her darkened face.

The force of the slap is familiar to him, and the force of the kick on the stomach is also familiar and ruthless. Xia Yin picked up a small bench and hit him while still cursing: "It's a disgraceful thing, shame on the next door, you You are really capable, do you want to say that I abused you? Ah, have I abused you? Is it easy for me to raise you so big? You white-eyed wolf..."

At this time, Gu Jinbei was quiet and numb. He felt a bit like a puppet, and he tried hard to imagine himself as a puppet, as if he would not feel pain this way.This kind of imagination is great, and it won't hurt even if the needle sticks in the body.

Xia Yin beat him enough, and gave him medicine.When they come from the city, they don't need to bring anything, but they must bring medicine.Xia Yin wiped his tears while rubbing the medicine on him, and asked him gently if it hurts, so Gu Jinbei's heart softened, and he said, "Mom, I don't hurt."

It's a lie that it doesn't hurt. At night, his body hurts so much that he can't sleep.Gu Jinbei got up and looked outside through the open window. The night was very dark, and the entire sky was covered with thick black colors, and even a little bit of starlight could not be seen.

His thoughts drifted away, and he imagined himself turning into a cloud, floating in the air.

He became sleepy just looking at it, he could ignore the pain in his body, fell asleep on the bed, closed his eyes and fell asleep.

Chen Ke was woken up by a phone call early in the morning. He didn't want to answer it at first, but there was Chen Wanran anyway.But no one answered the phone until I hung up.

Chen Ke originally thought it was over, but who knew that the caller was persistent and continued to make calls, causing Chen Ke's anger to build up in his chest, and if anyone fucking touched him, he would immediately erupt into a volcano.

Chen Wanran's door was open, and she probably left early in the morning.Chen Ke answered the phone with suppressed anger, and heard Lu Weijian's voice swearing a few swear words.

Lu Weijian didn't care about his bad attitude, and said he wanted to play with him, but he didn't think much of it, so he made an excuse: "I have to do my homework."

"Come on." Lu Weijian said, "You have to do your homework and the sun is out in the west. I won't fight with you. There is a new Internet cafe in town, let's go play games."

"I don't like playing games." Chen Ke said, "You go to Dou Sprout, doesn't he like it? You two hit it off right away and you become a couple."

"Go, go." Lu Weijian said, "I just want to be a couple with you. I'll go to your place to have fun. By the way, maybe I can meet that kid who cares nothing."

"Gu Jinbei, the gold of gold, the bei of Peking University." Chen Ke said, "Let's have some snacks."

"Then I'm here. I just brought my homework and copied it for you. I won't eat. My mother is still sleeping. I'll go to your house." Lu Weijian said with a playful smile, "Is it going to work?"

"... let's do it."

After hanging up the phone, Chen Ke went back to his room and planned to go back to sleep, but he was already awake and couldn't fall asleep at all.

He pulled the quilt and cursed sullenly: "Lu Weijian, you crazy!"

Lu Weijian's insanity came quite early. When Chen Ke opened the door for him, his face was drawn. Lu Weijian saw that he was unhappy, so he said: "The one from Peking University next door went to buy breakfast early in the morning. I saw him at the stall. Yes. He looks at how old he is, you are almost in the second year of junior high school, and you are still lying in bed, can you?"

Chen Ke let him in: "Lots of nonsense, homework."

Lu Weijian was heartbroken: "Is this the only value I have for you?"

"No." Chen Ke said, leading him in, pointing to the messy desk and saying, "You still have value in helping me find out my summer homework."

Lu Weijian was silent.

Gu Jinbei got up very early to buy breakfast, and when he got home, his stepfather got up too, and he was a little surprised to see him: "Why do you get up so early? You still buy breakfast?"

Gu Jinbei stood on tiptoe to put the breakfast on the table, and Xia Yin smoothly pulled out the chair and sat down: "Isn't it good for my son to buy breakfast? Eat it, the child's heart."

The stepfather just laughed, his eyes narrowed and the flesh on his cheeks trembled when he smiled, he pulled away the chair: "Xiao Bei is so good."

Gu Jinbei lowered his head and gnawed on the fritters.

Xia Yin kicked him under the table, she didn't seem to have a concept of the word "strength", she didn't know that kicking with such force on the calf hurts a lot.Gu Jinbei was kicked so reflexively that he burst into tears, and then he heard Xia Yin talking to him: "Your dad is talking to you."

"Well, thank you dad." Gu Jinbei raised his head and smiled at his stepfather.

The stepfather was flattered: "Hey, you don't have to be so polite."

After the three of them had breakfast, their stepfather suddenly mentioned the matter of going to school: "Xiaobei is eight years old this year, and he should be in the third grade. Tomorrow, stepfather will take you to report at school."

Gu Jinbei froze for a moment, his eyes lit up instantly, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but want to curl up.

He likes going to school, he likes going to school the most.

I remember the last time he went to school, it was a year ago, the ex-stepfather raised them for a long time, and also provided him with education, allowing him to experience the beauty of school and the joy of learning, but the ex-stepfather passed away, so he had to drop out of school , and his former stepfather never mentioned the idea of ​​letting him go to school.

He didn't like his ex-stepfather, not because his ex-stepfather didn't let him study, but because his ex-stepfather liked to drink and always beat him after drinking.

The feeling of being hit on the head by a beer bottle is different from being hit by a stool. It's the same, but the only similarity is that it hurts.

In fact, there is no difference between the ex-stepfather and Xia Yin, but Gu Jinbei is more partial to Xia Yin in his heart, because he is his mother, so he must be extra generous.

"Thank you, Dad." Gu Jinbei said, this time he smiled sincerely, showing his pointed canine teeth.