you are with the light

After Gu Jinbei returned to school, he changed to a deskmate, a young boy wearing glasses, very calm, he nodded when he saw him, and then stopped talking.

Gu Jinbei originally thought that he would never see Liu Man again, but he was called out by Liu Man after the first get out of class.

Liu Man stood outside, wearing a pink lace dress and a pink lace hairpin on her head.She looked up at Gu Jinbei, still proudly: "I'm not wrong."

Gu Jinbei didn't want to get entangled with her, so he nodded.

Liu Man snorted: "You are so perfunctory."

Gu Jinbei didn't speak.

Liu Man stretched out her hand and pushed him: "Why are you so annoying!"

Gu Jinbei's figure didn't shake, he was still standing there, but Liu Man suddenly realized that he was different.

Gu Jinbei's height was shorter than Chen Ke's, but it was still too tall for Liu Man.

Why didn't I find out before, this person is obviously so tall, but after spending so long together day and night, I didn't notice it.

Gu Jinbei looked down at her without any ups and downs in his eyes. He made Liu Man feel scared.

"If you think I'm annoying, don't come to me again." Gu Jinbei said, "I think you're annoying, so I never talk to you."

Liu Man watched him walk past her, bringing a gust of wind that wet her eyes.

"Gu Jinbei, wait for me!" Liu Man turned around and shouted at Gu Jinbei. Gu Jinbei walked into the classroom without even looking back.

Liu Man's tears rolled out, and she raised her hand to wipe them away fiercely.

This small town is not big, and the people who live here are more or less related to relatives, so if there is a small incident, it will spread quickly.

As soon as Chen Ke stepped into the classroom, the noisy classroom instantly quieted down.Dozens of pairs of eyes stared straight at him, as if they were carrying knives, trying to peel off his skin.

Although he was mentally prepared, when he actually faced it, Chen Ke's heart still trembled, and he almost walked to his seat with trembling feet.

There is a boy sitting next to him. Both of them have their own circle of friends and usually don't chat.But this time the boy smiled at him, it was a disgusting smile, which made Chen Ke feel strangely uncomfortable.

Chen Ke didn't want to cause trouble, so he sat down holding back his irritability.

But the boy obviously didn't want to forget about it, so he leaned over and called him, "Hey, Chen Ke, how much is your mother?"

Chen Ke took out the book and slapped it heavily on the table, making a crisp sound.

The desk in front of Chen Ke turned his head and said with a narrow smile: "Don't you even know this? My brother is now in his third year of high school, and he went to try it in his second year of high school. How much is it? It's very cheap! 20 yuan a time!"

Chen Ke took out the glass water bottle and smashed it on his head.

This smash was like a drop of water hitting the calm water surface, causing ripples in circles.

Chen Ke didn't know what was wrong with him, but the anger in his heart almost burned his whole body into ashes.He urgently needs to vent, like a fish landing on the shore, urgently needs a life-saving water source, even if the final result is only a short-lived life, but at least he has struggled.

When he woke up, the scene was very chaotic, the boy was lying on the ground, blood was slowly flowing from the back of his head.

The corridor was full of students, they watched with expressions of fear, surprise, and novelty, and whispered a few words to their companions from time to time.

Chen Ke stood on the ground, but felt that he was stepping on the void, he couldn't grasp the reality, he couldn't step on the ground, his whole body was floating, like a ghost, like a cloud, like a drop of water.

Chen Ke raised his hand, his knuckles were rubbed against the skin, exposing the red flesh inside, but he didn't feel any pain, not at all.He felt as if he had been shocked by electricity, and his whole body trembled as if he had been shocked by electricity.

I……

what did I do?

What did I... do?

who am I?

where am I?

I……

The surrounding pictures seemed to have faded in color, and he seemed to be in a bubble, cut off from all connections with the outside world.

What is the class teacher talking about?

What is the dean talking about?

What are the police saying again?

Ah, Chen Wanran is here.

Chen Ke stood in the office, like a statue without emotion and temperature, letting the woman drag his clothes and scold him.

Chen Wanran kept apologizing to others, one after another, apologizing constantly.The grade director put his hand on her shoulder and squeezed it frivolously: "Mother Chen, your son's temper is not very good."

Chen Wanran apologized and said with a smile: "That's his temperament, there is nothing malicious about it."

When Chen Ke saw this scene, he suddenly felt alive again, and the blood in his veins flowed again, which quickly awakened his stiff limbs.He blushed.

Chen Ke really wanted to step forward, wanted to pull Chen Wanran and say let's go, but his feet seemed to be locked by invisible chains, he couldn't take a step, and couldn't say a word.

He's a kid, why is he just a kid?

Perhaps there is nothing in the world that cannot be solved by selling. Apart from money, the body is also a good way to solve problems. Of course, the premise is that you have a good-looking skin.

He knew what Chen Wanran used to solve everything, so he was afraid of it.Sometimes he would secretly think, is this profession hereditary?Will he go this way?

He knows that some men like men, but they can't say it openly, and they can only marry a woman with the trend of society.But they still desire in their hearts, and his desire/desire has promoted the development of the profession of male/prostitute.

He dare not think about it, he is afraid to think about it, he is full of fear for the future, but he has to move forward.

He walked home alone.

Chen Wanran asked him to go first, and he agreed.When he was walking on the road, he began to regret that he shouldn't get angry so easily, he didn't get any benefit, and instead he fell in love with Chen Wanran.

He shouldn't be like this, he shouldn't be like that, and he shouldn't be Chen Wanran's son, crushing her like a boulder.

He began to loathe himself again.

He's not good at all, he's so bad, why is he human?Maybe he shouldn't even have the qualifications to be a human being!

A kitten passed by him. Its fur was messy and still dirty. Chen Ke stared at it for a long time.

Chen Ke thought, being a cat seems to be better than being a human.

He walked home, didn't go in, just sat at the door, staring at the hollowed-out part of the wall in the stairwell in a daze.The light came in from inside and shone on his face, and he narrowed his eyes.

Sitting like this for a long time, until the sun disappeared, Gu Jinbei climbed up the stairs.

With his schoolbag on his back, he was a little surprised to see Chen Ke sitting at the door.He walked over and called out, "Brother Chen."

Chen Ke turned his head to look at him, and the light passed across his face like a scar.

Gu Jinbei saw the scars on his face.

Chen Ke's face was very delicate and his skin was very fair. The scar was like a blemish, which ruined the overall beauty and was dazzling.

Gu Jinbei reached out and touched his face lightly: "Brother Chen, have you been beaten?"

His fingers were very soft, and Chen Ke was a little comfortable touching them, so he squinted his eyes: "Ah, but actually I hit someone and got a little injury."

"Who hit it?" Gu Jinbei asked.

Chen Ke didn't want to talk about it, so he said, "Go back quickly, is your mother at home?"

"She's not coming back today." Gu Jinbei said, "Can I go to your house?"

Chen Ke guessed that Chen Wanran might not be able to come back tonight, so he nodded, "Okay."

He stood up, patted the ashes on his pants, took out the key to open the door, and Gu Jinbei followed him in.

Chen Ke was in a bad mood today and didn't want to cook, so he gave Gu Jinbei a few dollars and told him to go downstairs to eat noodles.

"Aren't you going?" Gu Jinbei held the money, but didn't move, but looked up at Chen Ke.

"I'm not hungry." Chen Ke said, he raised his hand to rub Gu Jinbei's head, when he withdrew his hand, Gu Jinbei saw that his hand was also injured.

Gu Jinbei's heart itched, he wanted to know who Chen Ke had fought with, and he wanted to show Chen Ke off.

Gu Jinbei tugged at the corner of his clothes: "Come out for dinner with me."

Chen Ke said, "No."

Gu Jinbei's voice choked up: "Go."

Gotta go, go go.

While eating noodles, the two met an acquaintance. Liu Wu was sitting at the table next to them. When he saw Chen Ke, he whistled frivolously: "20 yuan, is it true?"

Chen Ke didn't look at him, but he clenched his hands tightly, his fingertips turned white.

After Liu Wu teased Chen Ke, he saw Gu Jinbei sitting opposite Chen Ke again, and exaggeratedly said: "Hey, Xiao Douding, why, you are afraid that I will hit you, so you go to Chen Ke?"

Chen Ke glanced at Gu Jinbei: "He hit you?"

Liu Wu proudly said to the side: "Xiao Se/Xiao, you want to date my sister at such a young age, let's dream."

Gu Jinbei said, "I haven't."

Chen Ke glared at Liu Wu, but held back in the end.

No more trouble.

When the noodles were served, Liu Wu was still talking there.He was far less interested in Gu Jinbei than Chen Ke, so he concentrated his energy on making fun of Chen Ke, and his words were so ugly that Gu Jinbei couldn't eat after taking a few mouthfuls of noodles.

He put down his chopsticks and picked up the bowl.Although his hands are small, they are held firmly.He got off the stool and put the bowl on Liu Wu's body.

When Chen Ke saw this scene, he thought, why is this kid so fond of using bowls to vent his anger? First he hit people with the bowl, and now he uses the bowl to catch people.

But very relieved.

Liu Wu stood up from the stool with a "crash", and the chair was pulled back, making a harsh friction sound. Just as he was about to make a move, Chen Ke stood in front of him.

"Today, I sent someone to the hospital, and you saw it too." Chen Ke said slowly, trying to make Liu Wu hear every word clearly, "Do you think I can send you to the hospital as well, and follow me?" What about him as a companion?"

Liu Wu looked at him with tigers hidden in his eyes, but in the end he just gave a "bah" and walked out.

Chen Ke also took Gu Jinbei out, and settled the bill while leaving.

When he got home, Chen Ke asked Gu Jinbei: "Have you been beaten by him?"

Gu Jinbei hesitated for a moment, then nodded.

"Fuck." Chen Ke cursed, "Fuck."

Gu Jinbei stood and looked at him: "It doesn't matter." He explained: "It's okay for him to beat someone, but my mother hurts more than him."

Chen Ke looked at him.

Gu Jinbei thought he didn't believe it, so he hurriedly said: "Really. It doesn't hurt at all, I'm used to it."

"Why didn't you resist?" Chen Ke asked, "You obviously have the courage to beat others, but why didn't you resist?"

Gu Jinbei stopped talking.

Under Chen Ke's burning gaze, he said slowly, "I don't think it's a big deal."

"If you resist, no matter what, you will be injured. It may be me or the other party. I know myself and I will not die, but the other party is different. What if the other party dies because of my resistance?" Gu Jinbei The corners of his mouth curled down, "I'm very afraid of death."

The first time Chen Ke heard such a strange answer, he was taken aback by what he said, and it took him a long time to say: "No."

"People are not as fragile as you think."

How could Chen Ke understand?He didn't know that people are really fragile.

As long as you gently cut open the chest with a knife, you can see the heart wrapped in layers of texture, so fragile, just put your hand in and take it out, and the person is dead.

Or, when a person is fast asleep, tie him up and cover his face with a pillow, and the person dies.

Again, pick up a stick and hit a person on the head, blood will flow out, and the person will die.

You can also put the medicine into a water glass, let the medicine dissolve in the water, and when the person drinks it, the person will die.

There are many, many ways, many, many kinds of accidents, and people will die because of these methods and accidents, like a piece of glass, which is easily broken.

And these are too far away from Chen Ke.

Chen Ke didn't understand these things, so his words were naive.Gu Jinbei thought about it, there was nothing wrong with Chen Ke being so naive.

So he nodded: "OK."

"I see."

Gu Jinbei sat on the sofa, and Chen Ke opened the drawer to look through the dishes. There were not many dishes in their house, and there were only a few back and forth. Gu Jinbei watched him look through them, and then said, "Let's watch cartoons."

Neither of them like cartoons, but talking is better than nothing.Gu Jinbei sat and watched for a while, then went to the bathroom.

When he came back, Chen Ke was no longer on the sofa.Gu Jinbei was stunned for a moment, not knowing what it was like.Just when he was at a loss, Chen Ke came out of the bedroom.

Gu Jinbei's mood suddenly brightened. He sat back on the sofa and couldn't help but want to laugh.

"Tonight...don't you go home?"

Gu Jinbei said: "Can I not go back?"

"My mother wasn't home, and neither was my stepfather."

Chen Ke thought for a while, then nodded: "Are you sleeping in my room?"

Gu Jinbei said yes.He had tried his best to suppress the curvature of his mouth.

It was the first time to live in a home that could be called a "friend", Gu Jinbei felt a little uneasy besides joy.He took a shower and changed his clothes apprehensively, standing at Chen Ke's door hesitating.

Chen Ke's room is a bit messy, especially the desk, which is full of miscellaneous things, almost overflowing from the table.Gu Jinbei knew that it was wrong to turn over the table without other people's permission, but he still felt itchy.

Wanted to take a look and see what was on the table.If you turn it over, will you see something like a diary?

In Gu Jinbei's mind, heaven and man have been at war for a long time, but in the end they didn't make a move.