make you angry, a little happy

Su Xiaoyuan had seen Zhang Zhao's brother beat him, it was real, not just for fun, it was the ruthless discipline of his eldest brother and half father.He hadn't put on his trousers yet, and his legs were all hanging out, but nothing was more important than what was in front of him.

"I'll fucking beat you to death!" Zhang Yang carried him to the living room, and beat him violently, punching to the flesh, staring like a lion with red eyes, "How many times have I told you, how many times! Bullying the classmate's elders is a skill, right? You... what are you doing in the house!"

"What's wrong with me!" Zhang Zhao didn't fight back, and his brother admitted that he was hitting him, but he was stubborn.His back trembled and went numb.

"Third brother, calm down, calm down." Yang Guang has never dared to meddle in the family affairs of the third child, but this time he can't stop it, there is no place to hide in the living room, but Zhang Zhao is screwing again, "Don't do anything ...Third brother!"

"Get out!" Zhang Yang went crazy, attacking indiscriminately, whoever stopped him was scolded, he yanked Yang Guang away and kicked his cousin's thigh, "You fucking know what you are doing! He's a man !"

"What's wrong with men! Men can't do it?" Zhang Zhao was kicked until his knees bent, and the wound opened instantly. He knelt on the ground fiercely, and he didn't expect to beat his cousin so hard, his face was distorted in pain, "I The fuck didn't do anything! I just like boys, what's wrong! You beat me to death!"

"You fucking swallowed this for me!" Zhang Yang was afraid that he would say this, and kicked again, unable to hide his anger, but it was more painful, "You will play hooligans, right? Awesome, right? Come back home! Why didn’t I beat you to death before?”

"Brother, brother, don't hit him." Su Xiaoyuan hurriedly put on his school trousers and ran out, using a small piece of his body to block him, "He didn't do anything, he didn't do anything... I took off my pants, don't beat him!"

"Get out of the way!" Zhang Yang was furious, his fists turned white, "I think you are going to float, Zhang Zhao! I really thought no one at home could clean you up!"

Zhang Zhao sat on the ground as if he would let you beat him, homosexual, he recognized these three characters, and he would never return half of the blow. "What's wrong with me? I didn't play a hooligan, I like him, I committed a crime!"

Zhang Yang wanted to raise his leg again, he was really afraid that his cousin would admit it.Even if there was a girl in the room today, he wouldn't be mad.Saying this sentence is irreversible, and I will end up in the same fate as myself. I can't get back to this thing, it's doomed.The table in the living room was pushed to the center, and a few chairs fell down. He beat him mercilessly, but the pain seemed to be rebounded and poured all on himself.

"Shut up! You know what you're talking about!"

"I don't know the fuck!" Zhang Zhao was even more unambiguous, and pushed out one sentence after another, "I just like him! I like men! I am different from you, so I deserve to be beaten to death, right! I didn't Play hooligans!"

It's different, if it's really different from myself, Zhang Yang thought painfully, with his own pain and grievances that no one has known about these years.

"You!" Zhang Yang only used hands in the past, but this time he wanted to copy someone, "I'm fucking..."

"Third brother, don't!" Yang Guang stood between the two of them and took a lot of punches for Zhang Zhao. The third brother went crazy, making his scalp numb, "Zhang Zhao, please don't say a few words, you should admit your mistake first!" !"

"I'm not wrong!" Zhang Zhao raised his face with disbelief, his eyes were bloodshot.

"Brother, brother, don't hit him, it's not his fault." Su Xiaoyuan squatted on the ground to protect Zhang Zhao. He was crippled and couldn't lift his trousers, so he rubbed against Zhang Zhao's side step by step. "My fault, my fault, I took the initiative, I recruited him, he will take the physical examination soon, don't beat him! I want to be nice to him, don't let him break it!"

"Get up quickly, I'm not responsible for hitting you later! If Zhang Zhao wants to force you, just say, I'll fucking kill him today!" Zhang Yang didn't believe a word.My younger brother knew that a child like Su Xiaoyuan who couldn't even quarrel could provoke Zhang Zhao?Ghost letter!

Su Xiaoyuan stretched out his slender arms and remained motionless, looking like a small muffin beside Zhang Zhao. "It's me, it's me! He didn't force me, I like him, I took off my pants, and I took the initiative to go into the room with him, it's all his fault! Don't hit him..."

Zhang Zhao's heart ached, Su Xiaoyuan was still willing to protect himself at this time, protecting him without hesitation.

"Fucking... get lost!" Zhang Yang pushed Yang Guang, but he didn't push him away, so angry that he took Caesar's dog chain and pulled it straight, "You like men, right? I……"

Zhang Zhao didn't even raise his eyelids, he had the character of a dead pig not afraid of boiling water.The cousin was so mad that even Caesar was too scared to come over. "Brother, why are you like my mother, except for nagging, you just do it. If I said I didn't move him, I didn't move him..."

"I'll beat you to death for your mother today!" Zhang Yang was terrified by his cousin's words, so he immediately picked them up.

"Third Brother!" Yang Guang suffered a blow on his body, excruciating pain, "You..."

"Let him beat you!" Zhang Zhao squatted with his back to him, as if he would rather die than surrender, "Kill me and see how you explain to my mother!"

"I'm now...I can't explain to your mother now!" Zhang Yang's voice cracked, very shrill.He raised his hand stiffly, and threw the chain on the full-length mirror. It shattered into a large piece in an instant, and the ground was covered with glass shards. "Sister-in-law is dead! You fucking wake me up!"

The room changed from noisy and strife to silence in an instant, not only Zhang Yang and Zhang Zhao, but also Yang Guang and Su Xiaoyuan didn't even say a word.

Zhang Zhao still didn't look at him, just squatted down and looked at the floor, and made a dull cut. "Get out, don't always be like my mother, everything is easy to be anxious, and you are the only ones who quarrel in the whole world."

Zhang Yang turned around slowly, lost his strength for an instant, and sat down on the floor, unable to even lift himself up.

In the evening, Su Xiaoyuan was sent home by Yang Guang, and he couldn't say how uncomfortable he felt.It was as if he had chewed a lot of bitter melon in his mouth, and even swallowing his saliva was bitter.

"Here, my home is here." Su Xiaoyuan was still dazed when he got downstairs, "Thank you Brother Xiaoguang. You should go back quickly at this late hour."

Only in front of Su Xiaoyuan did Yang Guang feel like he was a big brother, and he was also in a daze. "It's okay, you go up first, I'll wait for you to get home before leaving. Are you almost the same?"

Su Xiaoyuan nodded: "Well, next Monday."

Yang Guang is only a sophomore, and his senior year life is not too far away from him. "Then come on, so many things happened today...doesn't affect you?"

"It doesn't matter." Su Xiaoyuan said categorically, with the corners of his mouth barely raised, "Students like us have long practiced to be invulnerable... As long as the exam preparation bell rings and you pick up the answer sheet, all you have in mind is the paper. I worked so hard. For many years, I have been preparing for the college entrance examination since the first day of junior high school, and my grades will not be affected by emotional problems, you can rest assured."

This made Yang Guang look at him with admiration.Su Xiaoyuan looks fragile, but he sees more maturity than boys of the same age.There is a huge difference in experience in the same day. Taking off your pants makes people see everything, and you want to protect the boy you like while limping. It must be a catastrophe if you put it on others.But he doesn't, he can't be influenced by the outside world, and when it comes to the exam, he feels like sitting on Mount Tai's town, and he doesn't need outsiders to worry for him at all.

Picking up a pen, he is the leader in the examination room of No. [-] Middle School.

This is probably self-confidence, the accumulation of hard work in one exam after another, and the gift of persistent hard work.Just because he knew he could, Rose had a tiger-like heart on the outside, so he said these words crisply.

Yang Guang admired him: "Then you are better than me, my grades are very average, you should study hard. Also, the third brother said some unpleasant things today, but he just said what he said, so don't take it to heart. "

"I don't take it to heart. I'm worried about Zhang Zhao." Su Xiaoyuan had been hearing Zhang Zhao say that his mother was bad, but today he suddenly realized, trembling with distress, "I'm worried about him. Brother Xiaoguang, I I really don't blame him, you must explain a few words for me, I took the initiative, and he is really fine."

"Well, I'll go back...to persuade the third brother, don't worry." Yang Guang could only say so.When rushing back to third brother's house, Zhang Yang was the only one in the room.

"Where's your brother?" Yang Guang could see that he was in a bad mood, "Have you opened the wine yet?"

"Well, come here and have a drink with me." The lower half of Zhang Yang's face was already red from drinking, but his eyes were not red.

Yang Guang didn't want to let him pour himself, so he snatched his glass.No wonder the third brother always has to take care of his cousin, lest he go astray or take a wrong step.This painstaking effort is enough.

"Tell me, tell me, my brother..." Zhang Yang lost the cup in his hand, and went directly to get the wine bottle, "Why is my brother the same as me? What's wrong with my house?"

"Third brother..." Yang Guang pressed his hand hard, "Don't drink, my heart aches."

"I'm fucking..." Zhang Yang touched his face, he was allergic to alcohol and couldn't drink much at all, "How the hell should I explain to my sister-in-law, light, how should I tell her, what should I say?"

"Third brother, stop drinking!" Yang Guang hugged him, this was the first time he took the initiative to hug him, and he didn't use other reasons, just to hug him, "You... forget it, cry if you want. "

Zhang Yang wanted to hold it back at first, but he didn't succeed a few times. It was very ugly whether to cry or not, to smile or not. In the end, his beautiful facial features twisted, and he plunged into the arms of Yang Guang, the younger brother.

"It's me! My brother didn't do well, and he brought him to fight and bully people since he was a child. Now...how the hell am I going to explain to my sister-in-law, Guang, how can I explain...My brother is like me! Same as me! He is gay like me, he is gay! I didn’t teach him! He will be like me in the future... People will look down on and scold me, but I am, why did I hit him just now! What is wrong with my family? Is it? You said, why did he go this way, I didn’t teach him badly!”

"Cry first and then think about it, cry...cry." The third elder brother was a little taller, and it was very ugly to be stuck in his arms, but Yang Guang just hugged him and let him cry first. He weeps.

It turned out that the third brother was not as tough as he looked, and he cried like a little girl.Tears soon flowed all over his face, all of his unbearable and heartbroken for many years.

Zhang Zhao rode fast all the way, ran through many red lights and went the wrong way, and stopped at the main entrance of a residential area 40 minutes later.He got out of the car and took out the access card from the messy sports bag.

This is his own home.

Park the car, go upstairs, and take out the keys.Zhang Zhao hasn't come back for a while. After opening the door, there was no sound of you knowing you came back. It was quiet, only his father was alone.

"Yangyang?" Zhang Pingchuan had just returned to Beijing a few days ago, and put down the iPad in his hand, "Why are you back today?"

Zhang Zhao looked at his father, wondering what his mother was planning.In terms of appearance, it is not bad, but Bai has grown tall, and he is a soft persimmon everywhere, and he can't lift it up.

"Dad, I'm hungry." Zhang Zhao hadn't had dinner yet, so he was kicked again and went straight to the kitchen.He opened the refrigerator. It was no longer when his mother was alive, it was full of fruits and vegetables or his favorite meals, and it was as empty as a new refrigerator.

"Oh... oh, Dad will make it for you." Zhang Pingchuan was about the same height as his son, but he passed by without any dignity.He also doesn't know how to cook, and it took him a long time to find a pot after he was in a hurry. At least he could boil a pot of water.

"What will you do?" Zhang Zhao squatted down and looked through the freezer.His father is a wimp, his mother is a tigress, and Zhang Zhao has never shown weakness in front of his father since he was very young, no matter how wronged he is.Because he thinks he is better than his father, capable and good in everything.

Now he took out two bags of quick-frozen dumplings and instructed his father: "You can also boil water and cook dumplings. The two of us each have a bag."

"Oh, okay." Zhang Pingchuan came over to get the dumplings again, and then stood by the stove as if he had never cooked before, waiting for the water to boil, staring at the pot all the time, standing there stupidly.

Zhang Zhao couldn't see his father being stupid, so he came out to wander around in the living room.The house is still the same, nothing has changed, nothing more than a lot of green plants are missing.The camellias, succulents, and green radishes are all gone, and no one drinks the Kung Fu tea on the coffee table.

Then there is an extra black and white photo, placed on the dining table.

"I'm back, so you don't have to worry about it." Zhang Zhao sat down with a bang, leaned on the back of the chair like an old man, and said to the photo.

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