make you angry, a little happy

The next day, Su Yun went to school without breakfast for the first time. Chen Qin saw that his youngest son's bowls and chopsticks hadn't moved, and the door slammed shut again, without asking any questions.

Su Xiaoyuan knew that the two brothers would not be able to fool the family when they lost their temper, and stood up crookedly: "Mom, Xiaoyun, he..."

"It's okay, he's not young anymore, so don't eat if he doesn't eat." Chen Qin's job is an accountant. , Mom made it for you and kept it."

"Okay, mom, don't worry, I will persuade him well." Su Xiaoyuan said.After all, they are brothers, no matter how angry Xiao Yun is, he is still a family member.

After school at noon, Su Xiaoyuan arrived home on time following her mother's advice, but found that Chen Qin hadn't left. "Hey, Mom, you didn't leave? I thought you were at work."

Chen Qin put down the spoon in her hand and asked her son to come over and sit down. Four dishes and one soup were already set on the table. "Yuanyuan, tell mom the truth, did your brother bully you?"

Yuan Yuan, it has been so many years since my mother called me that. Su Xiaoyuan immediately sat down obediently, holding a round bowl like she was waiting for her mother to fill her with rice when she was a child.

"No bullying." He didn't want to cause trouble for Chen Qin, "Xiao Yun is now in a rebellious period, and it will be fine in a few years."

"That child is also precocious and has a heavy heart. Why doesn't Mom know what he thinks?" Chen Qin first served a bowl of soup for the eldest son, "It's cold outside, so drink the hot one first to warm your stomach. It would be nice if you two could reach a compromise." , if you are tougher, mom won't worry about someone bullying you."

Su Xiaoyuan held the soup bowl and boasted that it was his mother's best tomato oxtail soup. "Mom, I have grown up. I will be 19 years old this year. No one can bully me."

As soon as Chen Qin's spoon stopped, she turned to look at her son, and suddenly smiled: "Yeah, I'm 19 years old if I don't pay attention, we are really big kids. Good luck to him... Mom will talk about him, Don't worry about it so much, just focus on the college entrance examination. There is a mother outside the house."

"Mom, sit down, I want to talk to you too." Su Xiaoyuan never talked about legs with his mother, he knew that this was a big pain in his mother's heart, a heartache. "

"Come on, let's have a chat, mother and son." Chen Qin's nose was slightly sore when she said this, "You were still young when you went to Nanjing, so Mom always thought you didn't grow up. I was worried about buying long johns for you that day, my family Which size is suitable for Xiao Yuanyuan to wear, I really don't fulfill my responsibility as a mother."

Su Xiaoyuan took his mother's hand and brought up the most taboo topic in this family like a man. "Mom, you have done your duty. Xiao Yun and I can grow up entirely thanks to you. Although I was raised by my aunt's family, I know that you give me money every year. My uncle often tells me that we should honor you when we grow up. We... ...I know it's not easy for you. Also, it's been so long since I have this leg, so don't torture yourself with it, okay?"

Chen Qin listened, hating herself very much.

Yuan Yuan loves to study since he was a child, he is very smart, and the kindergarten teacher likes him the most. When he was 3 years old and just entered the primary class, the teacher said that the child could recognize and memorize characters very quickly. Before the middle class, he could read children's books by himself and do the arithmetic book for the senior class.He also said that Xiao Yuanyuan had to be raised well, maybe he was a little child prodigy, but Chen Qin was just pregnant with her second child at that time, so she was quite tight on money, she didn't spend the money that should be spent on the child, and always wanted to save money.

If you can regret it, you can turn back time. Chen Qin would rather have that needle stuck in her leg.

After the injection, Yuan Yuan, who never cried during injections, burst into tears.But the child was too young at the time, so she couldn't tell what caused the pain. Chen Qin only remembered that Yuan Yuan was in so much pain that she refused to walk by herself, crying all the time, asking her mother to hold her.But if you ask him where it hurts, he will only say that his feet hurt, and he only dares to walk crookedly when he goes to the ground.

The next day, she took the child to the clinic to ask. The doctor said that it was the effect of the medicine or the injection was not fast enough and the needle was deep.Children are delicate, and the pain disappeared within a few days.

But from that day on, Yuan Yuan never walked well, and was ruined by a needle in the future.She could no longer see Yuan Yuanxue's little plane running.Her original, lame.

The child is always crying and screaming for pain, no matter how much rubbing it is useless, Chen Qin later heard from the doctor that the sciatic nerve extends from the end of the spine to the ankle. It is a kind of radiating pain along the buttocks, legs and feet, which adults cannot resist , let alone children.The child's injection was broken, and Chen Qin wanted to sue the nurses in the clinic, but the court said that not only would it take a long time to file the case, but it would also be expensive, so it would be better to settle out of court.

For a woman who wants to go to work to make money, avoid her husband who is abusing her, and is ready to move with her two children, Chen Qin can only accept reconciliation.But Yuanyuan's leg is not going to heal, no amount of compensation will help.

Therefore, the person she hates the most is not her ex-husband, but herself.

"Mom, don't cry." Su Xiaoyuan didn't think he would make his mother cry, so he wiped her with the back of his hand in a panic, "Hey...Mom, why are you crying? I've grown up so much, don't I only have one leg? .Besides, no one in our class has noticed so far, how is it, is your eldest son amazing?"

Chen Qin also didn't want to shed tears in front of the child, so she quickly wiped them away. "No, it's all mother's fault. Mom is guilty of not fulfilling her responsibilities."

"What, mother, you are talking nonsense." Su Xiaoyuan was glad that he had opened his mouth today, because his mother's guilt was buried so deep, "Your son will be 19 years old on his next birthday this year, let's not keep worrying about his legs, okay? ?”

"But your leg is mother..."

"Yes, you took me to get the injection, but why don't you think about it, why wasn't the person who took me to the doctor at that time not my father or grandma? Why did they go there?" Su Xiaoyuan seldom mentioned these two people, These years they also seem to have disappeared from their lives, "I was born by you alone, what about them? They know that you are lucky and don't help, let me tell you, my leg is lame and they are more responsible big."

Chen Qin shook her head, she still hated herself the most.Yuan Yuan didn't go to kindergarten, her feet hurt the most every day, and it's all because of herself.She stood up and wanted to add another bowl of hot rice to her son, but she couldn't hold the bowl steadily.

"Mom, I've said so much, but I just want to persuade you... to put it down." Su Xiaoyuan took the bowl from his mother's hand, and stood up with a crooked body, just like standing up after falling down again and again when he was a child, thin and firm, "I should have said this a long time ago, let's stop torturing ourselves, let's let it go. Auntie and the others love me, and you love me too. I don't lack anything just because I'm limping. Besides... limping It's not my fault, nor should it be your fault, isn't it just that it's inconvenient to walk."

"But mom's dream is that you cried pain when you were a child, mom can't let go of this." Chen Qin turned away, and secretly wiped tears again.Not to mention her, even a mother can't forget this kind of pain.The child can't stand up if he wants to, and the mother wants to exchange her legs for him.

Su Xiaoyuan added a bowl of rice to Chen Qin, and stood in front of her neatly. "But I don't feel any pain now. Look, how well I stand. Auntie thinks the same as you. She never mentions this matter at home, but I don't think it's okay. I'm going to go to college soon. I can't help it anymore. What will happen to these things in the future?" Make money to support you. In the future, our family can chat as we like. If Xiaoyun likes to talk about sports, let him say, don’t revolve around me. Actually... I don’t blame Xiaoyun for many things. Mom, you are really too partial .”

Chen Qin hummed a few times, then bent over to help her son tighten his shoelaces. "Does the foot still hurt?" It's even more uncomfortable to look at it. The muscles of the right leg have shrunk a lot, which can be seen from the ankle.

"It doesn't hurt anymore." Su Xiaoyuan changed back to Xiao Yuanyuan, laughing with dimples, never growing up in front of her mother, "Mom, I really don't hurt anymore, and I checked the Internet last night, maybe I can still ride Where's the car?"

"No!" Chen Qin immediately refused, half distressed and half stern, "That's not something you can learn, listen to my mother, you just need to study hard."

Su Xiaoyuan wanted to learn, but he also understood his mother, this knot in his heart could not be solved for a while, it was her heart disease for ten years. "Then... I won't study anymore. But you have to promise me, don't blame yourself for this in the future, I don't blame anyone... I don't blame anyone for this, I really don't blame anyone, even the little girl who gave me the injection The nurse is not to blame. Do you think she did it on purpose? Of course not, she also wants to be a good nurse. I can only say that this is the hardship in my life. sweet."

Sweet, Su Xiaoyuan suddenly thought of the person who loves snacks the most, Zhang Zhao.In the future, buy him sweets for his living expenses. If he likes someone, Su Xiaoyuan wants to spend money on this person, a lot of money.

"You are talking nonsense." Chen Qin's last tear made the child laugh, "I don't know who you are with, since I was young, I was the best at talking."

"It must be up to you." Su Xiaoyuan always thought this way, "Mom, do you know, I am afraid when I think of my father beating someone now... Now, I am still afraid when I see others fighting. But how brave you were back then Ah, dare to fight him desperately, otherwise he will definitely fight with Xiaoyun."

"Oh, I won't mention these." Chen Qin shook her hand, "Come on, have dinner. After dinner, there will be classes in the afternoon."

"But I just follow you. So many people advised you not to divorce, why did you leave bravely. Otherwise, the three of us may live a life of fear. Mom, look at me, although my legs are different, but I I also bravely stood up, so I will follow you." Su Xiaoyuan finally finished speaking what he had accumulated for many years.

"Silly boy, eat quickly." Chen Qin served soup for herself, and the two sat down together, "Eat more."

"Mom, you can eat too... This soup is delicious, I have to drink a few more bowls, and there is an English test in the afternoon, and I got 141 in English in the monthly test last month." Su Xiaoyuan showed a greedy face, "These days, luck may If you are in a bad mood, Mom, you should spend more time with him. He is my younger brother and I know him best, and he is not bad-hearted. I am an older brother, so I should be more sensible than him. "

"Well, Mom listens to you." Chen Qin was greatly shaken in his heart, Xiao Yuan had really grown up, and no amount of suffering could stop him from growing into a big kid who could take care of himself.

In the dormitory of the winter training camp, Zhang Zhao was paralyzed on the bed like a dog, counting a few days before returning to Beijing.It's not that he's tired of the training and retreats, it's that there is someone in his heart who always irritates him, with round eyes, small dimples, watery eyes and shyness.

Just about to make a call, the phone rang first.Su Xiaoyuan never took the initiative to call, and Zhang Zhao was so frightened that something must have happened!

"Hey, what's the matter?" Zhang Zhao got up violently, his abdominal muscles were sore as if torn.No wonder everyone says that long-distance relationships are impossible to talk about, Chin Heart.

Su Xiaoyuan came again after school, and was in Zhang Zhao's house, with old clothes all over the floor. "It's okay...just asking you, many sports clothes are old, and I have nothing to do after finishing my homework, do you want to... throw it in the washing machine?"

Dry!Do your own laundry!Zhang Zhao's inner twitching went straight to his lower abdomen, wishing he could become an adult tomorrow. "Don't, don't, don't work. I haven't washed many of my sports clothes. They are dirty or smelly. It's important for you to review."

"I've finished the three sets of comprehensive essay papers, and I just need to rest my eyes." Su Xiaoyuan studied very hard. He sat down for several hours, and the pen could write directly from full to full of water.Now he picked up one, um, it was dirty, unwashed, and smelled quite sweaty.

"No wonder Caesar picked your cabinet, it stinks." He pretended to smell it.

"I..." Zhang Zhao was so stunned that he had nothing to say. Who is Little Crane? His body is fresh and soapy, and he is covered in stinky sweat. "I... I am not, no one cares. It's so dirty, and I'm not the only one...don't move, can I go home and wash it myself?"

Su Xiaoyuan took two big bags, like sorting garbage, and pursed his lips while tidying up with a smile: "Anyway, just throw it in the washing machine, put some laundry or something."

As soon as he bent over, his flat white chest was exposed from the slightly loose sweater collar.Zhang Zhao looked through the camera and immediately changed from sitting to lying down.

"Are you really washing it for me?" Zhang Zhao felt as if he had been washed by someone, and it was so refreshing, with soap bubbles all over his body. "My sports clothes are very dirty, and the water turns black immediately when you put it in the water. You Don't think I'm dirty. No, you brother Zhao has to lie down for a while..."

"I don't like it, you can wash it yourself later, I don't care about you if you wear dirty sports clothes." Su Xiaoyuan packed a big bag, "Hey, why are you lying on your stomach? Your stomach hurts."

"No, it's because the little monk you laughed at was a little excited and wanted to come out to meet guests." Zhang Zhao admitted without shame.

"Brother Zhao, I beg you to be a person... who is like you." Su Xiaoyuan looked at Zhang Zhao's socks, and it was almost impossible to make a pair, "I'll buy you some socks when you come back, there is no athlete like you , the socks are not paired, it is a joke to go out to train."

"No, no, I'll buy it myself..." Zhang Zhao is very concerned about this matter, "Don't think I'm dirty, and don't think that the little monk is too excited. There is a saying that is the hardest thing in the world Except for diamonds, it’s the crotch meat of high school boys.”

"You're going to be a big hooligan again, I'm going to get angry!" Su Xiaoyuan couldn't hold back his dirty jokes, so he turned his gaze to Xiaolu, "By the way, where did you put Xiaolu's car keys?"

Zhang Zhao was bathing himself desperately in his brain, wishing he could wash off a layer of skin now. "Ah? Don't you know how to ride?"

"I don't know...but I can learn, I'll try." Su Xiaoyuan touched Xiaolu's car seat and rekindled the urge to run, "Do you think I can do it?"

"Okay, it's not difficult to ride a bicycle, it's definitely possible." Zhang Zhao said.

Sure it will work?Auntie said she couldn't ride, and Mom and Xiaoyun also said they couldn't ride, but Zhang Zhao always said he could do it by himself. At this moment, Su Xiaoyuan felt that he might really be able to do it!

I'm sure I'm fine.

The author has something to say: In fact, Su Bao was beaten by his father, so he reacted so strongly to Zhang Zhao's attack.His father will come out to be a demon later.

Little monk: Brother Zhao, just be yourself, don’t you think that I can be excited?

Zhang Gou: I didn't think about it! (nosebleeds)