[Lei An] Extremes must be reversed

Getting used to life without An Mixiu is a little more difficult than imagined.They spent a short vacation in Japan where they were so affectionate and sticky. After that, An Mixiu passed all the exams without any accidents, and even won a full scholarship. Although he knew that this kid has always worked hard in his studies, Lei Shi was also happy for him , but he always felt uncomfortable in his heart. He felt that An Mixiu didn't need him more and more. Even when he sent An Mixiu to the airport, the white-eyed wolf's face was more about the new environment than reluctance. The anticipation of a new life.

Lei Shi even suspected that he was the one being marked, otherwise how could he worry about gains and losses because of his Omega all day long.In order to resolve this anxiety, he devoted all his energy to work, and then took it for granted that all the subordinates of the company suffered, until Camille came forward to appease everyone who thought their boss had taken the wrong medicine.

An Mixiu's house was completely left unused, Lei Shi seldom went in, and only the housekeeper would open the door for cleaning every week.Generally speaking, Lei Shi's life has not changed much, but at the beginning, he was not able to adapt.

For example, when he wakes up on the weekend morning, he is drowsy, stretching his waist and going out, he will suddenly shout "An Mixiu, make me breakfast, I'm starving to death", and the only response to him is an empty room, or Said that after a certain social gathering, Lei Shi was lying on the sofa after being drunk, and for a while he was expecting that some bad boy who liked to steal kisses would attack him on tiptoe, but there was no familiar person in the cold room. The body temperature is close.

Lei Shi does not admit that he is a lunatic who is sensitive in love, he just, just feels... a little boring.

The frequency of communication between two people is mainly through video calls. When An Mixiu first went abroad, Leishi made video calls almost once every two days, and text messages and voices kept harassing each other every day. An Mixiu was still fresh at that time, and he would be on time all day long. Reporting new experiences abroad by point, but less than half a year has passed, and the video call between them has become half a month, or even once a month.

When An Mixiu was no longer so proactive, Lei Shi didn't want to be the first one to compromise, making it seem like he was clingy.

Even if An Mixiu is not around, he is happy to be at leisure.

Thinking this way, Lei Shi called An Mixiu on a certain weekend night after they lost contact for a month.

"Hello? Leishi, what's the matter?"

"Can't I come to you if I have nothing to do? You are the boss, An Mixiu."

Lei Shi lay on the bed in An Mixiu's room, talking lazily.

"Stop making trouble, are you a child?" Although he was complaining, An Mixiu's tone was brisk and joyful: "I'm preparing for the end-of-course exam recently, I think... I want to come back early to see you during the Chinese New Year you."

It's over, because of this sentence, Lei Shi found that some irrelevant face and dignity that he had been insisting on in his chest were all disintegrated, and he muttered: "It's more or less the same."

After they had another unconstructive conversation, Lei Shi suddenly became interested, and he led the topic to an adult level: "An Mixiu, are you alone in the dormitory now?"

"Uh, yeah, there's a party tonight, and my roommates are all out, so I'm the only one in the room, and they'll be back in the wee hours, maybe not."

"Why don't you participate?"

"Hmm... That party is, to put it bluntly, um, to expand social networking and further communicate... Hey, you know, I'm not single anymore so I don't want to join in the fun."

He always has a way to coax Lei Shi to feel very comfortable.

"Is that my fault?" Lei Shi said this deliberately, he touched the edge of his pajama pants, licked his dry lips, and said in a low voice: "Then to make up for the beautiful night you lost because of me, I am Shouldn't you fulfill the duties of a boyfriend and help you relieve your loneliness?"

An Mixiu on the other end of the phone was stunned for a moment before realizing the meaning of the words. He blushed and took a few deep breaths to prepare himself mentally, and then said, "Okay, um, what are you wearing now?"

Then they had a decent phone sex and said good night, Leo wiped off the excess sticky cum on his hands and fell into the double emptiness of body and heart again.

He was still lying on the bed, and the Omega breath that belonged to him in the room had long since drifted away with the passage of time. His eyes swept across the ceiling, desk, and bookcase... It seemed that the 12-year-old An Mixiu appeared in front of him. The shadow of 18-year-old An Mixiu walking in the room.

Then he suddenly thought of that book, An Mixiu's black history masterpiece - "The Odd Records of a Knight with Two Swords". With a smirk on his lips, he climbed out of the bed and turned it out from the familiar corner of the bookcase.

That idiot An Mixiu still put it in its original place.

Lei Shi smugly opened the notebook. An Mixiu's handwriting has been very neat since he was a child, but the handwriting on the first few pages is still immature.While looking at the extremely shameful lines in the second grade, he recalled the angry face of that guy when he read aloud in front of An Mixiu when he was executed publicly. When he turned to the last page in his memory, he continued to read Turning down a page, I was surprised to find that there was a new article behind it.

The handwriting is still very new, and there is a little gap compared with the previous ones. Lei Shi calculated it and guessed that it should be written by An Mixiu before he went abroad.He settled down and read.

"This is a letter to the knight six years ago.

All patience is temporary, as long as you survive the current predicament with strength, you will be able to get what you really want.

You don't know what happened, the world turned upside down overnight, your challenge copy changed from simple to purgatory, you fell into the depths of the earth, and then found an angel standing there, maybe a demon, because his wings are black, The eyes are purple, completely different from the angel in your impression, he stretched out his hand towards you, don't be afraid, because you have nothing to lose, right?

The first days were not so easy. The cold room and the unfamiliar guardian reminded you of the fact that you are alone under the fence.

Later, you find that the one you met might really be an angel. He was your most longed-for goal for a while, gentle, strong, and reliable.But it didn't take long for you to recognize the guy's true colors.You can't live in peace with him anyway.You seem to be born wrong, you can't understand why he can always come up with so many ways to torture you, bully you and enjoy it in his head.Perhaps this is the test before becoming a real knight?You think like this, and then continue to endure, continue to swallow those lonely tears into your stomach, all this is only temporary, you think, after you leave him completely, you will have your own life.

However, it may be that things go against each other, and from a certain day, your gray and white world begins to have color.Maybe it's because you finally understand that "home" is not something one person can give, maybe you finally stop feeling sorry for yourself, maybe you realize that the other person in the room is just a big big baby, and he is not as big as he thought. Omnipotent, he is also fragile, restless, stubborn, and even at a loss, he is not a gentle and strong person who can give you a safe haven, he is just like you, lonely and scarred, he is clumsy but persistent Learning how to be an adult, how to be a guardian, even though he always screwed up a lot.

Being together is more like licking each other's wounds, snuggling up for warmth, and your personalities are completely different, which leads to many detours before you can really communicate with each other without gaps.

The only thing you know is that he was never timid, that he was different, fearless, willing to give anything to be who he wanted to be - and that's the most important thing he taught you.

Later, this strange emotion becomes a real torture in your heart.The colorful world is twisted into a psychedelic maze, you can't get out, you adore him, thank him, but these are not enough to explain your true feelings for him.This knowledge makes you suffer with every look he looks at you.

Fear not, because one day you will find that the blood in your chest and the unspoken emotions will make you a real, better man.

When you look at the sun, that warmth and glory also makes you shine.

Of course, this does not mean that you agree with everything about him. You still feel that his volatile temper is too tormenting, and you cannot tolerate some of his excessive pranks. It’s no different from the “Party”, who is good at asserting and arrogant, childish and outrageous, and has no self-knowledge, as if he just stands there, it is a wake-up call for you, a righteous and humble knight cannot become like that.

Some people say that love is a process of self-destruction and constant compromise.In order to tolerate each other, lovers need to constantly change themselves.But you always believe that you are different.You can always be real with him, you can be honest, you don't have to pretend, you can vent your emotions, you can be yourself.He makes you sentimental, but also open-minded, he makes you vulnerable, and makes you invincible.

The patience I'm talking about has nothing to do with others, it's the tolerance of immature self-defects, because when you come to the present where I am and recall the past, you will realize the true meaning of everything he brought to you. Meaning - He empowers you to be who you really are.

Now, close the letter.Go be someone he can rely on, protect him, and be trusted by him.

Because this is the knight's supreme commitment to love. "

When Leishi called, An Mixiu had just finished the last exam, and when he walked out of the exam room, he tucked his neck into his scarf, and the phone rang suddenly.

"Thunder lion?"

He said pleasantly, his breath drifting in the cold air.

"Well, how was the test?"

"Of course it's no problem. I've already booked the ticket, and I'll see you right away! Hey, I seem to have forgotten to send you the flight information. Wait a minute."

"..."

Lei Shi on the other end of the phone was silent, An Mixiu didn't know his character, he must be missing himself very much but didn't want to show it too obviously, pretending to be indifferent, but he was very anxious.

Of course he is happy to be the one to make his lover happy.

"I miss you so much, I think about it every minute, if only I could see you in the next minute."

An Mixiu's skin was aroused by his nasty love words, he rubbed his frozen cheeks, and couldn't hold back the smile on his face.

"Then your wish has come true, fool An Mixiu, turn around."

The current tone on the phone overlapped with the voice from behind. He was so excited just now that he didn't notice the footsteps that were approaching all the time.

In the merciless cold wind, An Mixiu's body was already frozen to the bone, but immediately, he could draw warmth from their tight hugs.

An Mixiu thought to himself, it seems that the proposal ring placed under the pillow in the dormitory is not so expensive, but the meaningful proposal ring can come in handy in advance.

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