dizziness

Maybe it will be much easier to live if you just spy on life through a window.

Owen obviously didn't want his life to be too complicated. After being with Ruan Miaomiao for a long time, he seemed to have gotten used to the simplicity of that person.

Even though he knows that everything has changed, that person will become more and more mature, and the two of them will be farther and farther away from the moment they fell in love with each other, but the helpless habit is so stubborn, as if it has been rooted in the body, and the unrecognizable Fight each other willfully.

Owen didn't delve into the stories behind those fragments, maybe it's the same as Ruan Miaomiao never asked about the things between him and Shen Lixin, no matter which one is the past they never participated in.

Perhaps the important thing is not the story itself, but the choice of ending. Owen chose Ruan Miaomiao in the ending. From the afterimage of the photo, it seems that the person is straightforward, because Ruan Miaomiao also chose him.

For Owen, this is enough, maybe Ruan Miaomiao let him see these fragments on purpose, the promise of a ring is so ethereal, but because of Ruan Miaomiao's actions, it has become a bit more solid.

A wry smile flashed across Owen's heart, and he even thought, it's a mistake for two people who don't love to be together, is it also a mistake for two people who love too much to be together?

If it is wrong to love or not to love, then the most fascinating thing is probably the time when you passed by without defense, and I was deeply invested.

After the one-week vacation ended, Owen also started to attend classes normally at school. Whenever he returned home, sitting in the room filled with the smell of that person, he could no longer see the figure of the person quietly waiting for the door as in previous years.

Ruan Miaomiao is very busy with work. In order to catch up with the pictures in magazines, she works until midnight almost every day before coming back, and leaves for work very early the next day. Only Owen can say a few words when he opens his eyes.

Unlike his job at school, where he waited to die, Owen also understood Ruan Miaomiao very well. He never had a single complaint or dissatisfaction because of the reduced time spent together. Perhaps he understood that Ruan Miaomiao was on the rise in his career, and young people took it for granted. You should fight for your ideals.

But Ruan Miaomiao would stay at home with him whenever she had free time, and rarely go out to have fun with Mu Sen's friends.

Sometimes the two make love several times in a row. Whenever this happens, Owen seems to never need clothes. He walks around the house naked, and Ruan Miaomiao will still hold up the camera to take pictures of all his postures anytime, anywhere. , Naturally, it also includes the expressions during sex, which seems to have become a strange way of getting along between them.

Ruan Miaomiao is not the only one who is addicted to it, Owen is also addicted to it, it is like building a world that only belongs to the two of them, in this world there is no strangeness or familiarity, let alone light and color, there are only each other The stimulation given, accompanied by Ruan Miaomiao's insulting words under the intense intercourse, Owen would tremble with inexplicable excitement, reaching climax again and again in the fright of the flashing lights, and then being held in the arms of that man tenderly kiss.

If two people who are in love need to deliberately mobilize and cater to their sexual desires, does it also mean that the original world has collapsed?

Owen closed his eyes and panted heavily. He didn't want to think about it. The trace of rationality that rushed to his face after the man was released has always been a superfluous thought, and it will soon disappear.

Ruan Miaomiao touched his sweaty forehead, still pressing on Owen's body, staring at the slightly tired face in front of him, raised a smile and said, "Tired?"

Owen glanced at him and remained silent, maybe seeing the unsatisfactory expression on the man's expression, Owen hesitated for a moment and didn't know how to answer.

Ruan Miaomiao kissed Owen on the cheek, didn't say much, got up and got out of bed, brought a basin of hot water, wrung out a towel and wiped off the sweat and bodily fluids on his body. If it was originally, Owen might still feel awkward, but now But he couldn't help admiring the warmth in Ruan Miaomiao's eyes.

"Are you more comfortable?" Ruan Miaomiao went to bed and hugged him in his arms. Owen greedily sucked the smell of his chest and nodded stupidly. Ruan Miaomiao seemed to chuckle and said, "I have something to discuss with you. quit."

Hearing this, Owen couldn't help but look up at him: "Resign? Why?"

"Don't worry, there's actually no reason. It was because the magazine invested by Mu Sen's father was short of manpower. I was also asked by him to work there for a while because I was friends with Mu Sen. To lay the foundation for the company, most of my seniors are like this, I didn’t expect Mu Sen to come back, his professional ability has always been better than mine, and it’s his own business, so there’s no need for me to stay there.”

"But... haven't you always been fine there..." Owen said so, probably only he knew in his heart that the moment Ruan Miaomiao said to resign, thinking of Mu Sen's lonely expression because of this, Owen had a feeling in his heart A trace of happiness.

"It's pretty good," Ruan Miaomiao nodded, touched the ring on Owen's finger, looked at him and smiled, "But I'm really too busy, actually... um... I'm not complaining, the company gave me The salary is very good, and I don't care about money, I just want to find a job that is a little easier, so we can spend more time together?"

"But if you resign suddenly like this, will it be difficult for your friends to explain, after all..."

"You don't have to worry about this. I have been friends with Mu Sen for so many years. I think he will not force me to stay. And I only promised him to go to the company for a try, and I didn't say that I would stay there forever."

"..."

Owen didn't speak, but hugged Ruan Miaomiao tightly. He knew that he worked there, had a circle and friends he was familiar with, and it was a career he loved. Ruan Miaomiao should be very happy to come to Ruan Miaomiao. Hearing what he said now, Owen could only Thinking that Ruan Miaomiao resigned because of himself, the initial joy did not bring the expected peace of mind, but a kind of invisible oppression, but Owen didn't know what he could do for this person.

Ruan Miaomiao also seemed to see that he was thoughtful, held up Owen's cheek and looked at it carefully and said, "Don't think too much, okay, yes, I resigned because of you, but not all because of you, Mu Sen treats me You are also aware of my feelings, I think such a decision is good for the three of us, do you understand what I mean?"

"Miaomiao..." Owen murmured in a daze.

He understands that he really understands everything this person has done. Ruan Miaomiao doesn't want to give Mu Sen hope, and he also doesn't want to let himself down. Just because of such a grueling love that goes against common sense, Ruan Miaomiao has endured far more than her peers. More and more difficult, in order to fulfill the hard-won relationship between the two, Ruan Miaomiao seems to have to make choices that deviate from her own life trajectory again and again.

The reason why Owen was silent was that he was afraid that one day their relationship would become fragmented and bloody due to the invisible restraint of each other.

"Besides, I haven't been with you well since I came back. When I quit my job, let's go on a trip, okay?" Ruan Miaomiao didn't want him to change the subject, thinking for a while and then said, "Next month just happens to be the National Day , the school is also on holiday, how about we go to Japan to see Mount Fuji again, this time I will definitely carry you up.”

Owen came back to his senses, and was about to nod his head in agreement, but suddenly frowned slightly, hesitant to speak.

"Why, you don't want to go? Then we can change to another place."

"No, Miaomiao, that..." Owen interrupted him a little eagerly, looked at him several times, and then sighed, "Maybe I can't go this time, you know, Xiaojia is here with me In class, he will take the senior high school entrance examination next year. He has not studied with me for a long time, and the cultural class will enter a sprint next semester. Our departure will definitely delay his class for a week or two. My comprehension is not very high, so..."

Seeing that Ruan Miaomiao's face turned cold suddenly, Owen couldn't help shutting his mouth. The man's expressionless face couldn't tell what he was thinking. He stared at Owen for a long time before Ruan Miaomiao said slowly: "Oh , so..."

"But, but I can also tell his father, he should know that you are back, at worst, after our trip, I will hold Xiaojia tighter and give him a few more lessons..."

"No need," Ruan Miaomiao interrupted Owen with a strong tone, and raised a soft smile at him, "If this is the case, forget it, your school schedule is also tight on weekdays, and you will have to make up for Xiaojia later, most likely I'm tired, it's fine, I can travel anytime, anyway, as long as we're together, it doesn't matter where we are."

Hearing what Ruan Miaomiao said, Owen felt very uncomfortable. Although this person didn't misunderstand anything because of this, Owen felt as if he had done a huge sin. He held back for a long time before hanging his head and said: "I'm sorry..."

Ruan Miaomiao laughed, hugged him and kissed him again and again: "I'm so sorry, I've never heard you say these three words before, it's a big deal for Xiaojia to go to school, of course I also Hope that kid goes to a good school."

Owen sank into the man's arms and nodded, but couldn't say a word.

Ruan Miaomiao quickly handed in his resignation letter to the company. Owen didn't know much about the details. He just heard Ruan Miaomiao mention that although Musen didn't want him to leave, he didn't force him to stay. My only request is to ask him to finish all the projects before leaving.

As if afraid of long nights and more dreams, Ruan Miaomiao didn't work day and night, and was determined to complete the project as soon as possible and leave. After two weeks, although they lived under the same roof, Owen didn't have much face-to-face with Ruan Miaomiao. He just woke up every morning. When I came, I saw an empty milk glass on the table, and knew that the person would come back in the middle of the night.

Sometimes Owen couldn't help but make a few phone calls to tell Ruan Miaomiao not to push herself too hard, but Ruan Miaomiao always said that the project would end soon, but she still didn't see her back every day.

Owen can only convince himself to live a normal life. Three years have passed, and this person is so close at hand. It makes no sense that he can’t even overcome this period of time. Therefore, the idea of ​​visiting Ruan Miaomiao’s company several times is still deeply rooted. Restrained, Owen was afraid that his appearance would disturb that person.

He looked at the clock several times, and he seems to be particularly sensitive to time recently. I don't know if it's because of Ruan Miaomiao that waiting has become a bad habit he can't let go of.

It's past the time when Shen Zhijia should come to his class. The child is always on time, and even if he doesn't come or is late, he will notify in advance. Owen has no choice but to take out his mobile phone and call Shen Lixin.

"Hey, Li Xin, it's me. Is Xiao Jia not coming to class today?" The voice on the other end of the phone was a bit noisy. Hearing Shen Lixin's flustered voice, Owen couldn't help but widen his eyes, "What did you say?! Xiao Jia was caught by the car Hit?!"