dizziness

Owen was sitting on the sofa in the living room, drowsy in front of the TV screen.

He was not actually waiting for anyone, but he was indeed a little tired.

It’s probably like this when people get old. The quality of sleep is getting worse day by day. When I really wake up and go to bed, my mind is so clear that it doesn’t make sense. Instead, I can sleep peacefully for a while in front of the TV.

The sound from the TV gradually became faintly visible in Owen's ears, like a lullaby that makes people feel comfortable. He likes the feeling of falling asleep but not falling asleep. The senses and thinking of the whole body seem to be They all stopped and ushered in that rare relaxation.

The sound in his ears became more and more blurred, and even drifted away to nowhere. Owen thought he had fallen asleep, but when the sound of the TV suddenly stopped, Owen immediately woke up. As soon as he opened his eyes, he saw a Blurred figure.

"you come back……"

Before Owen finished speaking, he suddenly felt his body sink, followed by a slight tingling pain from his lips, and an unexpected sense of suffocation hit his face.

Owen responded chaotically, trying to find a gap to breathe, but the people on top of him entangled fiercely again and again. The overlapping bodies kept rubbing against each other. Owen's wrist was firmly grasped, and the clenched palm was also forcibly Stretching apart, the demands between his lips and teeth left him with no energy to think about, but he felt as if his fingertips had touched something cold. Before Owen could react, there was a burst of pain in his ring finger. Although it was bearable, it still made him feel uncomfortable. Can't help humming out.

Ruan Miaomiao let go of his lips, raised Owen's reddish and trembling hand to her eyes, and stroked it carefully: "Did it hurt you, I'm sorry..."

Owen watched in a daze as Ruan Miaomiao lowered his head and kissed the extra ring on his ring finger. When his lips touched the scratched flesh around him, Owen frowned slightly in pain, but his eyes were still fixed on the ring. He actually liked it a little. Such a pain.

"I bought it a little smaller on purpose, just because I don't want you to take it off again," Ruan Miaomiao said here, glanced at the clock on the wall that was about to pass the early morning, and smiled at Owen, "I said that today is not only your birthday, but also A memorable day between us, do you like it?"

Owen didn't speak, but his vision was already blurred. He didn't know what was wrong with him. He clearly wanted to take off the ring. Obviously all of this was so impractical, but he was hopelessly addicted to the message from his fingertips. Stinging.

Perhaps, what he wants is not the ring or the promise, but the feeling of being cared by that person. He likes Ruan Miaomiao's tough attitude. No matter how much he hesitates, that person will hold him firmly, making Owen feel the illusion again and again. They seem to belong to each other in this life.

"I know it makes you feel uncomfortable to take you there suddenly today, but I just want you to understand that no matter how far we were apart in those three years, I never forgot you or the relationship between us. To be able to live with your name, to see what I see, to know who I know...that way, I feel like you're always by my side..."

"..."

Seeing that he didn't speak, Ruan Miaomiao sighed softly, held up Owen's face and said seriously: "I really have nothing with Mu Sen. Yes, he likes me, and I know it, but I clearly rejected him. , Mu Sen also knows about our affairs, he respects my choice, and respects you as well, I have always regarded him as a good friend, good brother, you trust me."

"..."

"Trust me, okay?" Ruan Miaomiao rubbed Owen's cheeks repeatedly, lowering her head to keep chasing Owen's dodging eyes, "Trust me, Owen, do you believe me?"

Owen couldn't restrain the soreness from the tip of his nose anymore, he took away Ruan Miaomiao's hand, threw himself on his body and hugged him tightly.

Feeling the heat from his shoulders, Ruan Miaomiao was also stunned, as if he didn't understand why Owen suddenly burst into tears. He thought that if he did this, this person would be relieved, touched, and maybe he would refuse to answer, or they would quarrel because of it. , Ruan Miaomiao thought of countless possibilities, but never thought that he would cry.

"Can you bear it..." Owen muffled his voice over his shoulder.

Yes, Mu Sen is a temptation to Ruan Miaomiao, whether it is psychological or physical, they have common friends, common topics, and even the same world, which Owen cannot give him. In this relationship, not only Owen is enduring the age difference, but Ruan Miaomiao is also suffering. He will find that the outside world is so colorful, and there may be hundreds of people who are more suitable for him than Owen. , but he has to work hard to restrain his desires, abandon all temptations from the outside world, and keep convincing himself that this is the only man he wants.

Perhaps, it is too harsh for Ruan Miaomiao, who is only in his 20s. In fact, Owen does not want him to be patient forever. He is so much older than Ruan Miaomiao. Will walk in front of him, and Ruan Miaomiao and Mu Sen are still so young, as long as they have time, they can start over. Owen just wants to be greedy, and let Ruan Miaomiao belong to him temporarily before letting go.

At most, it may not exceed ten years. At that time, I was almost 60 years old and there was nothing I could not let go of. The ten years that were insignificant to Ruan Miaomiao were enough for Owen to commemorate with his whole life.

Ruan Miaomiao seemed to have heard what he meant, hugged Owen's body even harder, kept stroking Owen's slightly trembling hair, took a deep breath after a long time and said, "I can, believe me."

Owen nodded, but his heart became more and more sad. Yes, this person said he could bear it and admitted that he was enduring it. Owen suddenly felt that he was a little cruel. He didn't want to imprison Ruan Miaomiao's life, but he didn't seem to know Unknowingly imprisoning him, Owen hopes that Ruan Miaomiao can have a beautiful life of his own, but is afraid that he will no longer have his own place in his life.

Ruan Miaomiao gently kissed the tears on Owen's face, and kept saying love words to comfort him, until Owen burst into laughter and threw him on the sofa. Suddenly, Ruan Miaomiao realized that this person was so fragile, even extremely pitiful , just like a child needs to be coaxed, accompanied, and guarded.

When Owen proactively kissed Ruan Miaomiao's lips, Ruan Miaomiao closed his eyes and responded vigorously, as if they had returned to each other in the past, and scenes of the past kept flashing in Ruan Miaomiao's mind.

Owen three years ago, himself three years ago, and... that person three years ago.

Musen.

The first friend Ruan Miaomiao met after arriving in the United States three years ago was also the first person who entered his camera.

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I was actually seriously considering whether writing such a side story would directly affect the sales of my physical products. . . (???????)