dizziness

Ruan Miaomiao's voice sounded dull for some reason, and Owen also felt puzzled, the college entrance examination was about to come, why would Ruan Miaomiao call him at this time.

Hearing the long-lost voice, Owen's heart beat a little faster, and after a moment of silence, he said, "You...how did you get here?"

"Well, my dad used to be a teaching assistant here, so I know I should be able to find you by calling this number."

"That's it," Owen played with the phone line in his hand a little at a loss, staring at his fingers and pretending to smile, "Then you are lucky, I am usually on the mountain, and it takes a long time to go back and forth..."

"I know," Ruan Miaomiao continued before Owen finished speaking, and then said after a pause, "...I will wait for you."

"..."

Owen suddenly felt that his mind was in a daze. It seemed that Ruan Miaomiao was biting his lips and struggling when he said these words. Dongliu, if the microphone attached to the ear has some kind of magical power, then Ruan Miaomiao's voice is bound by magic.

Owen couldn't help swallowing his throat: "What do you want from me?"

"No...it's nothing."

Ruan Miaomiao sighed softly, her voice was a little strange, Owen noticed something was wrong, frowned and said, "Did something happen to you?"

"..." Suddenly there was no movement on the other end of the phone, and even the sound of breathing seemed to be deliberately weakened. After a long time, Ruan Miaomiao said in a hoarse voice, "No...really."

"Are you okay over there?" Ruan Miaomiao asked without giving Owen a chance to ask.

Owen knew in his heart that something must have happened to Ruan Miaomiao, otherwise he wouldn't have called so abnormally, but Owen didn't want to force him either. In a relationship, someone must first learn how to endure.

"I'm fine, how about you?"

"Well, I'm fine too."

Owen nodded, still feeling a bit out of control, trying to find a topic and said, "Are you going to take the college entrance examination soon?"

"There are still ten days."

"Did the review go well?"

"That's it..."

Ruan Miaomiao's tone seemed a little absent-minded, which made Owen at a loss. He scratched his head for a long time before he could say: "Then take the exam hard."

"Um."

"..."

"..."

An awkward silence.

The two just stood there, listening to each other's slightly unsteady breathing, and felt that Ruan Miaomiao didn't seem to want to hang up the phone at all, and Owen felt like hitting the wall, and felt that what he just said was like plain water Uninteresting and boring with absolutely no motivation whatsoever.

He has never been so ruthless when facing a person he likes. Owen knows that he has a lot of means and skills when it comes to feelings. But now when facing Ruan Miaomiao, he seems to have lost even the most basic ability to make sentences.

Maybe the old saying is true, the more you care about someone, the less you know what to do.

"you……"

Before Ruan Miaomiao could break the silence, Owen came back to his senses and hurriedly said, "Ah, what?"

The other end of the phone seemed a little surprised, and suddenly paused, and Owen suddenly felt that he was overreacting, and kicked the table anxiously and calmly, and then heard Ruan Miaomiao say: "How long have you been teaching? When? Back? I remember my dad went there for about half a year, but I heard that some teachers only went there for two or three months..."

For some reason, Ruan Miaomiao's voice became smaller and smaller, and in the end she couldn't hear it at all. Owen tried his best to restrain himself from thinking too much. Maybe Ruan Miaomiao didn't really want to know when he would go back, maybe he was just looking for topics casually Just a greeting.

Thinking of this, Owen settled down and said: "I don't know how long it will take. There are no hard and fast rules at the school, but I want to stay for a while. The children here are very cute and need help. I am I plan to wait for the next batch of supporting teachers to come over before going back, but I don’t know when I’m going to go, so I thought…”

"Teacher Ou."

Ruan Miaomiao interrupted Owen's words in a flustered tone. Owen was stunned for a moment, as if he could hear Ruan Miaomiao gritting his teeth and swallowing his throat slightly. Owen thought that he was too wordy. Ruan Miaomiao was impatient and was about to explain, so he He heard a voice coming from the other end of the phone.

"Maybe...you may think that I am a little strange, calling you suddenly, but...um...I don't know what to say. I didn't call to say anything, let alone harass you on purpose. I I also think it's weird to be like this, but..."

"..." Owen didn't speak, but felt his face was a little hot. He actually didn't understand what Ruan Miaomiao was talking about.

"I really don't know what's wrong with me. I called when I looked at the phone. I thought you would hang up when you heard it was me, but it doesn't really matter. No, no, I didn't mean that..."

"..."

Ruan Miaomiao became more and more chaotic, finally sighed as if giving up, took another deep breath, and said in a trembling voice the moment she exhaled, "I actually want to hear your voice, even the sound of breathing is fine."

Owen didn't remember what he said to Ruan Miaomiao later, and how he hung up the phone. On the way up the mountain, he smoked one cigarette after another, and only Ruan Miaomiao's words played back in his ears or in his mind.

After smoking a pack of cigarettes, Owen returned to the school room and fell on the bed. The laminated bed made a loud creaking sound instantly. Owen didn't seem to care whether the bed would really collapse. Looking at the white wall with peeling paint on the top, I started to be in a daze.

I can hear my deafening heartbeat. It feels like being confessed to when I was a teenager. There is a little joy, but more anxiety and nervousness. When Ruan Miaomiao speaks, it seems that it always makes me Time flows back to the purest place in a person's life.

Although Ruan Miaomiao didn't say clearly in his words, and Owen also knew that he said what he thought in his head, without those so-called flowery intestines, let alone leaving any room for you to guess and explore, but Owen is not a A simple person, who has lived for decades, is used to deciphering the meaning behind other people's ambiguous words. Ruan Miaomiao's words still come back. If it was the original, Owen would definitely think it was a hint of sex, but now Even if he didn't think so, Owen had to think that Ruan Miaomiao called because he missed him.

Tossing and turning on the bed, Owen was so tormented that he couldn't help it. The strangeness in Ruan Miaomiao's tone made him feel so uneasy. He tried hard to calm himself down, thinking that maybe Ruan Miaomiao was just approaching the exam and was under a lot of pressure. He wanted to find someone It's just talking, just like when they hugged themselves to sleep when they first met, it's just lonely, lonely, and it doesn't mean anything else.

But once he imagined Ruan Miaomiao's blushing when he said that, especially in the dead of night like now, Owen tried to restrain himself, but Ruan Miaomiao's phone call seemed to be a fire, which ignited Owen again. It seems that the dried dead wood is burning more and more fiercely, and it can't stop at all.

Owen knew that such a long period of patience was in vain. He managed to calmly deal with Ruan Miaomiao's matter. Except for the meager longing and suffering, all he had to do was wait, waiting for time to fade away.

But now, only Ruan Miaomiao's pure face at that time appeared in his blood-red eyes.

Ruan Miaomiao's clean and slender hands appeared in his mind, Owen's breathing also became rapid, as if he could feel Ruan Miaomiao kissing his lips one by one when he was excited, and then hugging him gently.

"Miaomiao..."

The picture in Owen's mind became chaotic, the first meeting, the first compromise under Ruan Miaomiao, the first fierce quarrel, the first kiss on the lips actively, the first time...

Maybe all of these may not be important, Owen only knows that no matter how restrained he is, he still misses him so much, wants him, and even becomes the only one he wants.

Owen's eyes were wet for some reason.

If the word sex brings countless related words, then how many people will immediately think of the word love.

Perhaps most crucially, Irving loves him.

Owen's mood still couldn't be calmed down. He knew that he couldn't continue like this, so he had to get up to tidy up, turn on the gas lamp, light a cigarette, take out his drawing board and start drawing without any purpose. He drew whatever came to mind, slowly. Only when you focus on it can you survive this long night softly and stubbornly.

During the day, Owen flipped through the paintings he had drawn at night, and found that one of them had a good composition, with the ideas of the oil painter Mondrian in it. Owen knew that this should be the style that Ruan Miaomiao would like, because several times In class, Owen accidentally saw the artist's album in Ruan Miaomiao's schoolbag. This artist created a school of painting, called the Purist School, and it really fits Ruan Miaomiao's impression.

Owen took out this painting and continued to create and improve it. For a period of time, besides giving lessons to the children, Owen still sat on the bare hill and drew with a drawing board.

Although Owen has undergone a lot of changes after experiencing this series of events, his pursuit of art is still the same harshness. He has always been like this. Put your heart and soul into it.

Vertical to the horizontally staggered background, with a few strands of organic curves, it will not damage the whole and can adjust the sense of picture. You can vaguely see a layout similar to the back of a human figure, split by cubism With each part of the picture, the line draft is gradually completed. Owen thinks of using blue and green tones as the main line, interspersed with light purple and purple blue as adjustments, which makes people feel lost but full of stability.

Owen planned to call this painting "Vertigo".

Just like the feeling when Ruan Miaomiao kissed her lips for the first time, she was slightly dizzy under the stimulation like electric shock.

During Owen's days of sleepless nights and foodless creations, seeing that the line draft had been completed, Owen took his last puff of cigarette, put away his paintbrush, squinted his eyes and looked towards the distance of the hill, counting the days, Ruan Miaomiao's college entrance examination had already ended, but he didn't know How he did in the exam, I think his seriousness should be different from that of himself who was cramped back then, and he is a student of arts and sports. It is not difficult to meet the cultural score, so there should be no problem, but Ruan Miaomiao is not calling, Owen But also very concerned.

Now that the line drafts are all finished, it's time to paint. However, oil paints can only be bought in the county town. This weekend, Ou rectified and started to go down the mountain.

It was already afternoon when we arrived at the county town by car for an hour or two, and there were only three buses a day to return to the village. He came by the second bus, so Owen didn't dare to delay for a moment and rushed to the market to buy what he needed. When passing a small newsstand, Owen suddenly stopped, looked at the phone on the newsstand, and calculated the time left, he gritted his teeth and walked over to give Ruan Miaomiao the phone Made a phone call.

He didn't even give Owen the chance to wait anxiously, and a word came from his ear that the user you dialed has turned off his phone.

Owen was so angry that he wanted to kick over the small newsstand, but he could only sigh and hang up the phone, but he couldn't tell whether it was disappointment or loss.

Owen was sitting by the window with a lot of paint in his arms. Before the car started, he just stared out of the window in a daze. This station is not big, and there are not too many people coming and going, so the car will soon fill up. , the car shook due to the engine, and a fat woman sat next to Owen, who was so crowded that he was almost pressed against the window, so he had no choice but to put his head against the glass and clench his fists to endure.

The car began to move slowly, and the bustling crowd in front gradually dispersed to make way. A young man hesitated a step before stepping aside. Owen's eyes lit up. Although he couldn't see clearly because he was too far away, the general outline was pretty good. It's tight, Owen thought that such a small place would have high-quality goods, so he couldn't help but take a few more glances. The boy's hair was a little longer and he was tall. As the car accelerated, Owen wanted to see what he was up to. What did he look like? When he realized that he was lustful again and his nature remained unchanged, Owen scolded himself that his scars had healed and he had forgotten the pain.

But the figure of this young man is somewhat similar to Ruan Miaomiao, but not as thin as Ruan Miaomiao. Seeing that the distance between the two is getting closer, the young man keeps lowering his head as if looking for something in his pocket, because the bangs are too long. I don't know facial features and expressions until I chat with Owen!When passing by with a bang, the boy raised his head.

fuck!

Owen cursed in his heart and dropped the things in his hands, and leaned most of his body out of the window.

"Miao Miao!!"

The boy turned his head in surprise, stared in the direction of the car in a daze, and in the next second started to run wildly in pursuit.

But four wheels and two legs are incomparable. No matter how hard Ruan Miaomiao chased, there was still a long gap. Owen was anxious to see this, and quickly turned to the driver and shouted: "Stop! Stop! I want get off!"

The driver replied slowly: "Comrade, the company has regulations, you can't stop if you don't reach the station."

"Fuck you, what kind of broken rules is this! Didn't you see someone chasing you! Stop the fucking car!"

Owen yelled furiously, and looked out of the window again. Ruan Miaomiao was still chasing after him with difficulty, his lips turned pale from running, and in the end he even threw out the drawing board he had carried.

"Hey, comrade, why are you talking like that," the fat lady next to you said dissatisfied, "The person chasing you is your son, so just tell him to come back tomorrow! It's not a date, you have to Chase back and forth!"

"Son, your mother's size! He's an old man!"

Owen yelled impatiently, and as soon as the words came out, everyone in the car stared at him dumbfounded. Owen didn't bother to bother, and shouted at the driver: "You can't stop, you can drive slowly!"

The driver didn't know whether he was shocked by Owen's words just now or what, the speed of the car slowed down a lot in an instant.

Seeing that Ruan Miaomiao was chasing closer, she still couldn't catch up, but at least they could see each other clearly.

If ten years ago, Owen would have jumped out of the car window without hesitation, but now thinking about the endurance of his old bones, even if he jumped out and survived, it would be useless. No matter how passionate he is, he can only swallow it in his stomach. Owen yelled helplessly at him: "Miaomiao!! Stop chasing him!"

Ruan Miaomiao shook her head, gritted her teeth and tried to get closer, trying to say something.

"Teacher Ou!" Ruan Miaomiao shouted helplessly, "I, I have something to tell you!"

"I got it! Stop chasing me! Just wait here for me!"

Seeing Owen nodding to her, Ruan Miaomiao slowed down and stopped, bowing her waist and panting heavily.

Owen looked at Ruan Miaomiao's gradually shrinking figure, and shouted at him again: "Wait for me here! Wait for me!"