dizziness

Behind every old man there is an unknown past, and so is Owen.

It's just that the bastard who once made a promise to eachother has now gone to the end of the world, and even the appearance of that person has become blurred and unfamiliar in his memory since some time.

It is not a good thing to know that your sexuality is different too early. It is destined that you, who were young and ignorant at that time, would always fall in love with one or two scumbag straight men. However, the ending of the story is always tragic. The only one who was moved to tears was himself who was deeply involved.

He has been hurt, and he has hurt others.

After decades of bumps and bumps, Owen no longer believes that there will be true love between men. This is not because he is extreme, but because life has taught him too many cruel realities.

It's not bad to deliberately indulge yourself, meeting only for needs, not talking about feelings.

Until Owen met Jian Cheng, the innocence of that kid gave him the illusion that he wanted to settle down, and thought that Jian Cheng would leave him once he grew up, just like the children before, but Owen still chose to gamble again.

And this bet, he still lost in the end. The so-called maturity means knowing how to protect himself, so he only has regrets and no harm.

After being entangled by the boy like an octopus all night, Owen left in a hurry that morning before the boy woke up, because he didn't know what to say after the two faced each other, let alone explain what happened to him last night. Where exactly does the compromise come from.

Although he is not a bad person, he is by no means a good person, and he owed a lot of romantic debts in the past. They hugged each other and slept that night, as if he had done a good deed every day and comforted a lonely boy.

As the end of the term was approaching, the school became more and more busy. Owen was also very busy with the year-end summary report. He wrote until midnight for several days in a row. He no longer had the energy to go hunting. We have a little skin-to-skin relationship, which can somewhat satisfy our inner thirst.

Jian Cheng also sent a few text messages from time to time recently. Owen didn't expect him to change his mind, so he deleted it without reading it. He knew that the child had always been delicate, and he probably wanted to do something out of guilt when he broke up with him. make up.

Owen didn't read it or reply to the letter, he just wanted to tell Jian Cheng that he didn't owe him anything.

"Mr. Ou, this report can be regarded as handed in. The whole department is short of yours."

Seeing the deputy dean's expression of resentment, Owen felt aggrieved, but on the surface he still smiled and complimented him.

"Hey, Director Chen, it's not that you don't know that I can only draw. I'm really not good at these literary things. It's my fault for causing trouble in the department. I'll buy everyone a drink to apologize tomorrow!"

"Why don't you drink alcohol? Look at you, you've been fooling around all day. You don't look like a teacher. If you're not good at it, you have to learn it. Who is born with it? I don't know how your title of associate professor was judged. "

Owen knew that this person was alluding to his position because of his relationship, so he didn't take it seriously. He had encountered many times when someone poked his back. If he was going to be angry, he would have been pissed off hundreds of times.

"Yes, yes, Director Chen is right. I will definitely follow your example in the future and study hard. Then... if there is nothing else, I will go out first."

"Wait a minute," Owen just wanted to get out of the way, but was stopped by Director Chen, "Mr. Ou, Professor Lin came to me a few days ago and said that there is something I want to ask you to do when you are free. he."

"Please? What's the matter?"

Owen looked dazed. Everyone knew that Lin Zifeng was the golden sign of their art department. He was professional and well-known in the industry. Many students came here because of his reputation. The most important thing was that he was single now. His wife died early, and Owen didn't know him very well, but he knew that many female teachers had unreasonable thoughts about him.

"He didn't say anything, he just said to let you have time to find him, don't forget."

"okay."

After leaving the department office, Owen thought about it all the way. He and Lin Zifeng had never had much contact with each other. He didn't understand what he had to ask himself. Anyway, he said that he would go again when he had time. However, Owen obviously didn't have time and was not in the mood today. .

After finally getting out of the sea of ​​misery, Owen tidied up hastily, and came to the bar after dinner.

Today is Friday, and there are more people in the bar than usual. After looking around, he didn't find Xiao Ruohan's figure. Owen was a little puzzled. After asking the bartender, he found out that it was Xiao Ruohan's old lover who came to him again. The two broke up after a big fight in the bar.

Owen has met that person before, he is a straight man, but he has been entangled with Xiao Ruohan for more than ten years, even after Xiao Ruohan got married, he has not completely broken up, Owen knows that Xiao Ruohan loves that person, and has persuaded him several times, but the man is He's not gay, but he doesn't like Xiao Ruohan indulging himself. He always likes to meddle in other people's business, which makes Xiao Ruohan want to let go, can't let go, and can't forget even if he wants to. The two just hang around like this.

So straight men don't have a good thing, even if they have slept with you countless times, they will never admit that they like men.

Owen quickly discovered the target of tonight, a well-behaved boy. Owen walked over to strike up a few casual conversations, and the boy started to play on him. Owen knew that this guy was an old hand. The mundane atmosphere made him feel a little sick.

There is no way, and there is no better choice at the moment, so I have to make do with what can solve the urgent needs.

"Will you go to your house later, or to my house?"

The boy said with a charming face, Owen just smiled: "I never bring anyone home."

"Then you want to go to my house? My house is very expensive."

"Oh? How expensive?" Owen grabbed the boy's waist and bit his ear with a smirk.

"A total of 2500, thank you."

"I'm afraid there is an extra zero?"

"I hate it," the boy slapped Owen on the chest funny, "I pay before the goods, and I will leave with you after I give the money."

When Owen saw the boy stretch out his hand and looked at him with a sophisticated expression, Owen was suddenly stunned.

"Are you serious? I thought we were voluntary."

The boy nodded and said, "I really like you, so I gave you a discount. Why don't I go to your house and I'll give you a cheaper price. How about 2000?"

Owen couldn't laugh or cry. He never thought that one day he would be reduced to relying on whoring. Owen smiled stiffly. He felt that his smile at the moment must be extremely ugly.

"Owen!"

When he was in embarrassment, he saw a familiar figure calling his name and rushing straight in front of him.

"Jian Cheng?! Why are you here?"

"I knew you were here, why didn't you reply to my text message?" Jian Cheng asked with red eyes, and then glanced at the boy again, "Owen, I didn't expect you to be such a person!"

Owen knew that Jian Cheng had misunderstood the scene where the boy asked him for money just now, and he didn't want to waste his time explaining anything, but just shrugged at Jian Cheng.

"We've already broken up, what I do has nothing to do with you, does it?"

"Did you go to whore after breaking up?! Owen, how did you become like this!"

"Hey! Be careful what you say, okay?" The boy stood up and gave Jian Cheng a blank look, and then said to Owen, "Uncle, will you pay me or not? If you don't, don't delay my business."

Owen looked at Jian Cheng, took out a stack of banknotes from his wallet and put them in the boy's hands. He really didn't understand why Jian Cheng was so angry at the moment, he just felt inexplicable, even unreasonable, so what if I went whoring, you think I will still Never forgetting about you, keeping life like jade?

"let's go."

Holding the boy's waist, Owen just took a step when Jian Cheng grabbed his arm.

"No! Owen, I know you are trying to anger me on purpose, you go out with me first, let's have a good talk."

"Sorry, I have nothing to talk to you, please let go."

The two were in a stalemate, Jian Cheng didn't let go, just stared at him, Owen knew that Jian Cheng might want to reconcile with him, but he understood the reason why good horses don't turn back, not to mention Owen thinks that he is absolutely Stronger than an animal, so he wasn't going to turn back.

Everyone is an adult and should be responsible for their own actions. He hoped that Jian Cheng would understand this.

Owen has already passed the age of a child playing house and drinking. He can't afford to play the game of separation and reunion, let alone lose.

"I told you to let go, did you hear that! If you don't let go, don't blame me for turning my face and denying others!"

Owen tried to pull back his hand violently, but was still caught by Jian Cheng, which made Owen almost want to use violence to solve it.

"I'm sorry, this man has already made an appointment with me."

A voice and a hand broke in between Owen and Jian Cheng, separating their stalemate limbs.

Owen looked at the person in front of him in a little surprise. It was the young man named Ruan Miaomiao. He thought to himself what happened today, whether those who should come or not, all those who should not have come.

"Owen, who is he?"

"I slept with him all night."

Before Owen could answer, the young man said to himself, and Owen nodded to Jian Cheng as if tacitly. Although cheating is shameful, Owen really doesn't want to waste it like this anymore, everyone is not good-looking.

"Okay, I'm pretending to be passionate and came to you," Jian Cheng looked at the two with a pale face, "Owen, don't regret it!"

"Whatever you want. Just leave."

Seeing Jian Cheng rushing out of the bar with red eyes, Owen felt uncomfortable. After all, after two years of getting along, it's not like just letting go and pretending that everything happened.

When he came back to his senses, the boy stood in front of him and put a stack of money into his hands, but the boy just now had long since disappeared.

"Who the hell are you! Don't make up your own mind!"

Owen glared at the young man, and put the banknotes back into his wallet. Even whoring was not going well, Owen wondered if he should look through the almanac when he went out in the future.

"I'm sorry, um... I just think, you're actually pretty good..." The boy lowered his head and whispered, "There's really no need to go whoring..."

"Thank you! Get out of the way!"

Owen didn't bother to explain. He pushed the boy away, walked to the bar, sat down, and lit a cigarette.

Thinking of Jian Cheng's disappointed eyes, and thinking of his own hypocrisy, he felt very irritable, took a few puffs of cigarettes, and used the pervasive smoke to numb him.

The young man followed up cautiously and sat next to him. Owen glanced at him, feeling baffled, and didn't want to talk to him at all.

"Why did you leave without saying hello that day?"

The boy asked nervously, but Owen was obviously a bit surprised, and he paused for a moment before saying, "Aren't you still sleeping?"

"Then you can wake me up."

"..."

"I've been waiting for you here for the past few days, but you haven't come..."

"..."

"Why do you have to whore? Can't you find me?"

Owen almost wanted to laugh out loud by the kid's innocent tone, took a puff of smoke, and gave the kid a blank look.

"I don't want to be stuck all night with your koala again."

"No..." the boy blushed and muttered, "I'm really ready this time, if you want to find someone, I can."

"Really, I didn't realize that you were ready, good boy, you'd better go home and do your homework."

Owen got up and patted the young man on the shoulder, and walked towards the door. The young man bit his lip on the spot, rushed up and grabbed Owen, moved his head and bowed his head to kiss him.

The boy stretched out his tongue and brushed Owen's lips and teeth, with a clumsy kissing technique and confused panting.

The same electric shock-like feeling made Owen's eyes widen, as if every cell in his body was trembling violently.

Brings unprecedented vertigo.

"Can you trust me now?"

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There is a history of blood and tears behind every uncle, which is really an indisputable fact. . . .