Bright

Later they left the beach and went back to the hotel, Shen Yuanshu held An Xuan's shoulders all the way.The tourist attraction is about to have the biggest festival of the year again, and there are happy people everywhere.They had a big dinner.Finally Shen Yuanshu put down the cup and glanced at his watch: "Are you tired?"

An Xuan shook her head.

Shen Yuanshu smiled: "Then let's go and see the stars."

The sun gradually began to sink below the horizon on their way up the mountain.It's not that An Xuan has never seen a sunset at the beach, but this is probably the most unforgettable one.Shen Yuanshu hugged him from behind: "When I'm not in a good mood, I'll come to the beach to watch the sunset and sunrise, and then I feel... a lot of things are actually nothing. People are too small."

An Xuan understood what he wanted to say: "Yes. But... For a person who got into the sand, the outside world has nothing to do with him, because that world doesn't belong to him." He stared blankly at the horizon: " This is the only way to take a look from afar.”

Shen Yuanshu sighed and stopped talking.

It was completely dark when we arrived at the visitor center, and the staff pushed out the astronomical telescope.Astronomy enthusiasts in twos and threes gathered in the square, busy taking pictures or stargazing.

An Xuan looked up at the bright sea of ​​stars above her head, her heart gradually calmed down.Shen Yuanshu was right, people are too small.

The stargazing point is at a high altitude and it is winter again.Although I came up in cotton-padded clothes, the wind was still bitter and freezing.Shen Yuanshu came over at some point and put a cup of hot chocolate into An Xuan's hand.

The two quietly watched the starry sky in the corner of the square.Shen Yuanshu said in a low voice: "I thought...you would be happier when you go on vacation."

An Xuan lowered her head: "I'm actually quite happy. When I'm with you, I'm always happy."

Shen Yuanshu shook his head: "You don't have to coax me."

An Xuan felt sad again: "It's my own problem." He looked at the distant night sky, and said to himself: "I know it's impossible, but I still think... It would be nice if all that hadn't happened , if I hadn’t experienced so many losses... I would be much better than I am now, at least I would be a normal person... If we are together, you will definitely be much happier than now..."

"But would I still meet you in that?" Shen Yuanshu interrupted him: "Will you still see me in that?"

An Xuan was shocked.Shen Yuanshu looked at the sky: "If it's really what you said, you would have belonged to another person long ago. Even if we had an intersection, you wouldn't even look at me more."

An Xuan shook her head and murmured: "How come, you are so nice..."

Shen Yuanshu took a deep breath: "I said a long time ago that you don't have a correct understanding of yourself at all..." He turned his head, his tone was as sour as if he had just eaten a lemon: "Since we were filming together That's it. How many people come to you every day? How many people secretly look at you? Do you think it's just because you look good? You don't know how good your reputation is among the extras and staff...Everyone Everyone is praising you..."

An Xuan was stunned: "I... never noticed..."

"I really want to hide you." Shen Yuanshu lowered his head and took a sip of hot chocolate: "If everyone knows your goodness, I'll have nothing to do with you." He was a little frustrated: "Forget it, it's meaningless to say these things. I just hope you can be happy... If you really feel that this relationship is putting you under too much pressure, we can temporarily separate for a while."

An Xuan was silent for a moment, and said in a very soft voice: "You want to break up with me?"

Shen Yuanshu shook his head and said: "It's not a breakup. It's if you think it's not okay to go on like this, I think we can separate temporarily and calm down... I don't know how to make you happy. But you can't treat falling in love as the whole of your life, This is very dangerous. If something happens one day in the future, I don't want you to do something extreme...you need a psychiatrist..."

He said a lot, well-founded, serious and sincere.But An Xuan couldn't listen to a word.

He stared at Shen Yuanshu in silence for a long time, and interrupted him with a soft but forceful voice: "I understand. Do as you wish."

Shen Yuanshu was stunned.

An Xuan threw the hot chocolate into the trash can, then turned around and left.He walked faster and faster, just wanting to escape from this place as soon as possible.Unexpectedly, the people behind him chased after him, Shen Yuanshu grabbed his arm, suppressed his anger and said, "What do you mean by what I want? What are you talking about! Did you listen to me carefully!"

An Xuan shook off his hand: "I heard." He pursed his lips, trying to restrain his emotions: "Actually, I have been thinking about this for several days before."

Shen Yuanshu's face was full of anger and confusion: "What are you thinking about?"

An Xuan looked up at him under the steps: "I've been thinking about when this moment will come."

Shen Yuanshu stopped in his tracks, the expression on his face changed several times, and finally he smiled miserably: "I understand."

On the way back, none of them said a word.The originally booked hotel also checked out early.

They returned to the villa by the sea, and An Xuan silently began to pack her luggage.Shen Yuanshu stood behind him several times, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything.

An Xuan knew that Shen Yuanshu was in a bad mood.He beat around the house and broke a lot of things.Once when the fruit fell to the ground while cutting it, he threw both the knife and the fruit.An Xuan packed up his things silently, Shen Yuanshu looked at him sullenly for a moment, then turned around and went to the terrace to smoke.

After they got together, An Xuan never saw him smoking again, this was the first time.But he still didn't say anything to An Xuan.Shen Yuanshu is like this.He was waiting for An Xuan to subdue, for An Xuan to speak first.

There is not much luggage, and it will be packed in one day.An Xuan did not sleep with Shen Yuanshu, but went to another room.

The window at night is very beautiful, and you can see a large starry sky.An Xuan sat on the floor with her knees hugged for a long time, then changed into the white shirt and jeans he usually wears.He walked barefoot to Shen Yuanshu's room and found that the man had fallen asleep.

He didn't sleep well and frowned in his dream.

An Xuan stood by the bed and watched him for a while, then pulled out the rope and tied his hands to the head of the bed.

When the other hand was tied, Shen Yuanshu woke up.He was a little confused at first, as if they had never been silent relative to each other: "Xiaoxuan?"

Immediately afterwards, his eyes became clear.He struggled to shake the head of the bed, and said angrily, "What are you doing!"

An Xuan tied the knot and took a step back: "The metal edge on the bedrail is very sharp, and the rope is not thick. It will break after a while, I tried it."

Shen Yuanshu stopped, frowned and said, "What are you going to do?"

An Xuan looked at him quietly: "You may think I'm crazy. I think so too. I won't break up."

Shen Yuanshu was shocked and said, "You're not breaking up again? Are you really not breaking up?"

An Xuan nodded.

Shen Yuanshu said angrily, "Then why are you tying me up?"

"But you want to break up." An Xuan said softly.

Shen Yuanshu was laughed angrily by him: "When did I say we broke up? I just asked you if you want to separate and calm down..."

An Xuan looked at him: "For me, that's breaking up."

Shen Yuanshu rubbed his face on the pillow in distress: "That's not called breaking up. I fucking thought you were going to dump me, but it turned out that you thought I was going to dump you... What kind of crap is this... Please explain it to me quickly. Open..." He looked at An Xuan's abnormally calm expression, and gradually lowered his voice: "What are you going to do?"

An Xuan said softly: "Actually you were awake that day, right?" He didn't say which day it was, but he knew that Shen Yuanshu understood.

Sure enough, Shen Yuanshu sighed: "What's wrong?"

An Xuan looked at him: "I've been thinking about it for a long time... I can't bear it. You must regret it, because I'm not what you imagined at first. A long time ago, I was thinking, is there any way in this world to completely put Regret to solve it. In fact, there are.”

He looked at Shen Yuanshu, and smiled slightly: "I tried before, but it was unsuccessful. This time, I shouldn't fail again. Originally, I wanted to leave alone, but after much deliberation, I still felt that there should be a farewell." .You see, I'm not nice at all. I'm a very bad person."

He bowed his head and kissed Shen Yuanshu, tears fell down: "But I... really... really love you."

Shen Yuanshu's eyes widened in horror, and he began to struggle frantically on the bed: "Calm down! What are you doing!"

An Xuan slowly backed away: "Say to Xiaoxia and Yaoyao for me, thank them all these years." As he spoke, he took a last look at Shen Yuanshu, turned his head and left.

Shen Yuanshu roared frantically behind him: "An Xuan! An Xuan! Wake up! Calm down! I beg you... An Xuan!"

An Xuan left those voices behind.

The outside of the villa looks like the sea, but there is still a long way to go to the sea.The night wind was a bit cold, An Xuan thought, she should wear an extra coat.But it doesn't really matter if you wear it or not.

The water is pitch black.He stood by the sea for a long time, and then walked down the sand.He missed a warm bed, and the sea wasn't as comfortable as he'd hoped.

The stars overhead are beautiful.An Xuan thought, Shen Yuanshu was right, he was too young.So life and death don't really matter that much.

When the water reached his waist, he thought, in fact, he should have carried a stone down.But it's troublesome to go back, so forget it.

There was a crash behind me, and I don't know which wave hit the reef.At this moment, he felt that his waist was suddenly supported under the water.

Shen Yuanshu stood up from the sea water dripping wet, and carried An Xuan like a sack.

They rolled like two starfish in the water near the beach.An Xuan struggled hard, but Shen Yuanshu, who was burning with anger, was much stronger than him.

In the end, he was completely exhausted, but Shen Yuanshu still held him tightly, so strong that he almost strangled him to death in his arms.After a while, An Xuan heard his suppressed weeping.

Shen Yuanshu cried so sadly, the wail of a wounded beast came out of his throat.The last time An Xuan heard this kind of crying was when his mother died that year.His father drank all the wine in the house crying and never woke up again.

This realization made him panic almost instantly.Reason seemed to have finally broken the hood and knocked him awake.He reached out and hugged Shen Yuanshu: "I'm fine... I'm fine..."

Unexpectedly, Shen Yuanshu cried even more heartbreakingly.

In the end, I don't know how long it took, and the crying finally subsided.Shen Yuanshu's voice was unbelievably hoarse: "I was wrong. I was wrong, okay...it's all my fault. I apologize. I shouldn't ignore you, I shouldn't say anything nonsense, I shouldn't lose my temper at you... Please don't leave me...we're not parting...we're not going to be apart...I haven't regretted it, and I won't regret it...you're the best person I've ever met..."

An Xuan burst into tears: "I'm not. I'm just a lunatic."

Shen Yuanshu said hoarsely: "Everyone goes crazy sometimes. Can you forgive me...don't leave me..."

An Xuan cried and hugged him: "I won't, I won't...I'm sorry...I don't know what's wrong with me..."

Finally, Shen Yuanshu carried him back home.They showered and changed their clothes.Everything before was like an unhappy dream.Shen Yuanshu's eyes were red and swollen, he made several phone calls, and finally handed the phone to An Xuan.

There was a very gentle female voice.An Xuan soon realized what the person opposite was doing, it was a psychiatrist.

They chatted softly, and Shen Yuanshu went out.

After an unknown amount of time, An Xuan put down the phone.The light in the room was bright, and the bed was soft and warm. He sat on the bed in a daze, and for the first time in many days, he clearly realized that he was alive.Then he thought of Shen Yuanshu, and almost subconsciously rushed out of the room.

Shen Yuanshu stood outside the door for an unknown how long.

An Xuan stretched out her arms and hugged him tightly.

Shen Yuanshu sniffed, lowered his head and kissed him.

They chatted a lot that night, including An Xuan's past these years, including the two love affairs that Shen Yuanshu talked about before.In the end, Shen Yuanshu hugged him, and said in a hoarse voice: "Ask me if I haven't thought about the long-term. I have thought about it... I just can't believe that I will have such good luck... Promise me, don't leave me... "

No matter what Shen Yuanshu wanted, An Xuan would give it to him.He nodded: "I promise you. Go back... I'll go to the doctor when I go back..."

Shen Yuanshu hugged him tightly: "I'll be with you."