capture your heart

Zhong Qingxiao was sitting on the bench in the hospital, the smell of blood in his nasal cavity mixed with the usual smell of disinfectant in the hospital, making Zhong Qingxiao's stomach churn inexplicably.

Hospitals, wards, medicines, doctors...everything related to it began with the car accident at the age of 13, and gradually became a place where Zhong Qingxiao felt fear and despair.

In that car accident, Zhong Qingxiao lost everything except her life.

Leaving the orphanage, he inherited the house left by his parents and a small savings and began to live independently.

When she was in high school, she was hospitalized once after fainting due to excessive blood loss in a fight. After hearing the doctor's advice and advice, Zhong Qingxiao suddenly realized that she did not survive.

Disasters, accidents, diseases... Fragile and struggling lives tremble in the arms of death all the time.

Zhong Qingxiao slightly moved her cold right hand which was numb due to the infusion, got up and walked out of the hospital.

The cool air of the autumn night blows in, and the thin dusty breath carries a trace of fresh human sweetness. Zhong Qingxiao never felt the beauty of the heavily polluted air before, but now he is nostalgic for this smell, because suddenly Start loving the world.But those who have obeyed the guidance of death and are about to step into the boundless darkness now want to seize the opportunity of life, will it be too late...

The phone rang, and Zhong Qingxiao saw the words 'Manager Zhang' on the caller ID, and immediately connected the call.

On the phone, Manager Zhang still smiled and apologized: "I'm sorry, Xiao Zhong, I'm bothering you so late. The thing is, there are several urgent documents in the company that need Mr. Lan's signature, but Mr. Lan hasn't come to work for five days. , There are a few documents that I really can’t wait any longer. So I called Mr. Lan. Mr. Lan asked you to send the documents to his home. After he has read them, he will trouble you to bring them back to the company tomorrow I'm really sorry, Xiao Zhong. I should have gone to this matter, but Mr. Lan asked you to go by name. Look..."

Zhong Qingxiao was a little helpless when she heard the words, not because she had to be dispatched to work after get off work hours, but because according to Ji Yunlan's bastard urine, there must be no surprises brewing.

As expected, when Zhong Qingxiao stood at the door of Ji Yunlan's house with a stack of more than a dozen documents and rang the doorbell, 10 minutes passed, and Ji Yunlan didn't even bother to open the door.

Zhong Qingxiao put the document at the door, took out her phone and sent a message.

Watching Zhong Qingxiao under the surveillance camera finally take out her mobile phone, Ji Yunlan, who was leaning on the chair, smiled triumphantly.He picked up his phone and waited for Zhong Qingxiao's news, but when he saw the content, he became furious.

[The document is at the door, you should not be at home, I will leave first. 】

After Zhong Qingxiao sent the message, she turned around and left. After walking a few steps, she heard a loud sound of the glass window being pushed open behind her. Ji Yunlan stood on the second floor in her pajamas and shouted angrily, "Stop!"

Zhong Qingxiao stood in front of Ji Yunlan holding the document, but Ji Yunlan had no intention of reading it.

"What are you doing!"

Ji Yunlan's reprimand-like tone made Zhong Qingxiao puzzled.

"If you didn't open the door, you were not at home? Wouldn't you call and ask? You asked for my number but didn't contact me once. Are you kidding me!"

"But you are the one who disappeared suddenly, right?"

"I obviously left you a message, but you were the one who didn't reply. The lover I was dating suddenly disappeared, but you didn't even have a word of worry. Are you right? I feel guilty because I can't accompany you, and I ended up with a high fever all night." Do you know how angry I am when I wake up, but I don't see any calls or messages from you!"

"Sorry, I didn't know you were sick."

"I don't know why I didn't ask!"

"How do I ask if I don't know?"

"I usually ask why I disappeared, where I went, whether I was sick, whether I had an accident... These are all things that lovers should do!"

"Oh, I'm sorry, I was too careless. But usually people who don't meet with the excuse of 'something' or 'busy', and then disappear for several days without taking the initiative to contact people, the actual meaning is to break up. And , if you are sick, just tell me directly."

"Why should I take the initiative to tell you. Isn't this something you should take the initiative to care about!"

kindness?

Zhong Qingxiao was suddenly curious why she didn't realize that he was such an unreasonable person before.

"So... You didn't contact me after you recovered from your illness because you were angry, didn't you? You disappeared for several days and didn't even go to the company, just waiting for me to contact you proactively?"

Ji Yunlan stared at Zhong Qingxiao firmly with her righteous eyes, the sharp meaning in her eyes was self-evident: What do you think!

The matter became clear, but Zhong Qingxiao didn't want to solve the misunderstanding, instead she wanted to make the mistake.If you like it, you have to hold it in your hands. That is very capricious, and I no longer have the qualifications to be self-willed, "Forget it, I think we have broken up, so let's just leave it like this, and there is no point in pursuing it."

Ji Yunlan suddenly became serious when he heard this sentence, "What did you say?"

Zhong Qingxiao looked directly at Ji Yunlan, without a trace of expression on her face, and said lightly: "Didn't you say that you have never considered being with a man? If this is the case, it should be out of curiosity to sleep with me! If you are tired of It doesn't matter, anyway, we are just playing casually, men and men, how is it possible. To be honest, I can't stand your temper a little bit, you should know how bad your own temper is. "

"Get out!"

Although Ji Yunlan said so, when Zhong Qingxiao really put down the document and turned to leave, Ji Yunlan picked up a document and slammed it towards his back.

The document staggered Zhong Qingxiao a step, and then flew all over the ground like scattered feather petals.

Zhong Qingxiao didn't get angry because of this, she turned around to look at Ji Yunlan, then at the documents scattered all over the floor, and finally squatted on the ground to pick up the documents one by one, rearranged them and put them back to the original place.

Ji Yunlan looked at Zhong Qingxiao, who was swallowing his anger, and became inexplicably angry.

Rather than being silent and submissive, Ji Yunlan hopes that Zhong Qingxiao can yell at herself, what is she dissatisfied with in her heart, what is wrong with her, and she complains when she hates her temper.On the contrary, it's the worst situation like now, because I don't know what to do to resolve the unreasonable contradiction between the two.

Ji Yunlan grabbed Zhong Qingxiao's collar and dragged him to the bedroom where he was still on the bed, took off his pajamas and began to untie Zhong Qingxiao's belt.

The moment she was roughly touched, Zhong Qingxiao's whole body was filled with uncontrollable excitement.He got up and pushed Ji Yunlan down on the bed, and asked, "What are you doing?"

Ji Yunlan stared straight at Zhong Qingxiao, and said seriously: "I can get rid of you at any time when I get tired of you, right? But I'm not tired of you yet, just keep playing with me until I want to abandon you. Since it's just for fun to you, it doesn't matter if you play for a few more days?"

For a moment, Zhong Qingxiao wanted to confess to him: This is not a game!I like you, have always liked you.I really like you.Not the slightest bit of hypocrisy, no dark plots, much less despicable teasing.

But when she spoke, Zhong Qingxiao still hesitated.

The end of my few remaining lives is just around the corner. When I heard you say you love me, although I was going crazy with joy, at the same time I fell into deep worry and self-blame.It is because I like you that I don't want to drag you into the pain of losing my lover.

The indifferent state of mind that has seen through life and death and is as silent as stagnant water has become no longer calm because of what it wants to get.The so-called seeing through is nothing but a confused heart that has lost its home and gave up the ugly dying struggle.But now, it is because you have rekindled your desire for time and life, and your dissatisfaction with the injustice of fate.

Zhong Qingxiao, who was conflicted in self-struggle, let go of Ji Yunlan, sat powerlessly by the bed, and suddenly lowered her head and began to cry.

Ji Yunlan thought that what she just said was too harsh and hurt him, regretted and distressed, hugged Zhong Qingxiao in her arms, and whispered: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't say that to you. I just don't want to talk to you separate."

Zhong Qingxiao was fascinated by Ji Yunlan's warm embrace and gentle voice. If she continued to be embraced by him like this, Zhong Qingxiao knew that she would uncontrollably want to get close to him again.

Zhong Qingxiao tried her best to suppress the fluctuations in her heart, trying not to let herself cry too much, "I'm sorry, I have something else to do, I should go."

Ji Yunlan stopped Zhong Qingxiao who got up to leave, "Where are you going? You don't have any relatives, so there is no one to rely on, isn't it?"

"I still have myself. I'm used to living alone, and I won't change in the future. Leave me alone. I don't want to be with you."

Zhong Qingxiao's emotions were a little agitated, although she was restraining herself, but for some reason, at this moment, there seemed to be endless tears in her eyes, and the more she wanted them to stop, the more they gushed incessantly.

Ji Yunlan stroked Zhong Qingxiao's head with one hand and held him in his arms, and comforted him: "Sure enough, he is still a person with a conscience, but he just said something against his will, and he became guilty like this. If you really want to leave me, Don't cry anymore, it will only make me want to keep you more, because I will never let you go back and hide in the room alone and cry because of grievances."

Zhong Qingxiao couldn't bear it any longer, and cried while leaning against Ji Yunlan's arms.

Ji Yunlan hugged him with her left hand, stroked his back with her right hand, and patted him gently and slowly, until his tears were exhausted, and she pushed him down on the bed and kissed him tenderly until he was exhausted from crying.

"I'm not trying to sneak in when you're powerless, it's just that you cried too much just now and I don't want to do this when you're crying, it's too despicable. I started from the moment you stepped into the door Just wanted to do that.”

Ji Yunlan lowered her head and kissed his reddened eyes, tenderly, delicately and cautiously, as if the person under her was made of water mist, and would shatter and disappear in an instant without such gentle and careful treatment.

Zhong Qingxiao was soon immersed in Ji Yunlan's affectionate tenderness and couldn't extricate herself.Being loved, kissed and hugged by him, it was like being in a calm and comfortable harbor, the warmth that swept up me melted away all fear, even if tomorrow was the end of the world, it didn't matter.

The brief misunderstanding and the reunion after separation made Zhong Qingxiao clearly realize that she was the one who was more unwilling to separate.The almost crazy obsession makes him the greedy person, whether it is his kiss or his body, his voice or his heart, everything about him wants to be firmly grasped in his hands and engraved in his body .