Bird Reimu Dance · Returning Night

"You're a monster... sooner or later you'll lose everyone... who loves you, who you love..."

Dark red blood spilled from the corners of Empress Nangong's lips after taking the poison, gradually staining her phoenix robe, but she still had a smug smile on her lips, staring at Murong Yan who was approaching her step by step, " You don't know it...in fact, your concubine mother died because of you..."

Murong Yan strode forward, grabbed her throat tightly, and gritted her teeth, "What nonsense are you talking about?!"

Empress Nangong's complexion was in pain, but hoarse and sharp curses still overflowed from her throat, "You low bastard...that poison was put on you...you should have been aborted...it was Monilan That stupid woman...in order to give birth to a monster like you, she didn't hesitate to cut open her abdomen with her own hands, and exchange blood with you...even if Murong Guang tried to remedy it later...her body collapsed, and she would never live to see you grow up ...so you killed your concubine mother...hahaha...it was you...."

"Shut up! I'm going to kill you! Kill you!"

Her eyes were blood red, her whole body was icy cold, and she couldn't help imagining the sufferings that the concubine mother had endured for her own birth, crushing Empress Nangong's throat inch by inch with her hands.

She fell down on the long steps in front of the dragon chair, looking blankly at her bloody hands. At that time, she did not expect that many years later, she would be stained with more blood, and then sat on the one behind her. bright yellow position.

At that time, she just started to think seriously for the first time: Is she really a monster?

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When Master said what she asked me to help, my pupils shrank sharply, and after a long pause, I stammered back, "No...I can't do it...I believe there must be other ways to cure it. Lingmei's eyes...Master, you can't..."

I stared at her, and couldn't understand how she could say so calmly that I should help her exchange blood with Lingmei.

The master turned his eyes to look at the palace door behind him, and interrupted without paying attention, "Is she often lethargic?"

I froze for a moment, then nodded, and said softly, "During this period of contact with Lingmei, she is indeed sleepy from time to time. But she told me that it is because she prefers to sleep than to be awake, because as long as she is asleep Now, everything in the dream is still colorful..."

A deep pain surged out of the master's eyes, and she interrupted in a deep voice, "Back then, my mother and concubine were just like Ling'er... always like to sink into dreams... and then wake up again But here it comes... I always thought that the death of the mother concubine was an accident...until..." She paused, as if thinking of some memories that she couldn't bear to look back, she shook her head in pain, "This poison It's very slow, it will take time to attack, Ling'er is young, her eyes can't stand it, if she drags on, she will soon lose the strength to stand up, and then in a dream..." She He clenched his fists and gritted his teeth, "I must save her quickly! Only my blood can save her!"

"Master, since you are so familiar with this poison, can you find out who poisoned it?"

I could understand Master's eagerness to save Lingmei, but I suddenly discovered that Master never mentioned how Lingmei was poisoned and who administered it.

The master suddenly fell silent.

Wei Xinyue raised her eyes and stared at me with a very obscure and complicated look, she parted her lips, but stopped talking.

"What's wrong? Did I ask something wrong?" I didn't understand.

I saw that the master's eyes dimmed, and then slowly shook his head as if it was very difficult, and murmured, "The most urgent thing is to cure Ling'er first...Only I can save her...Only I can save her... .”

I still refused Master's request.

"It's not that I don't want to save Lingmei, but I can't risk another's life in order to save one's life... This is against my way of practicing medicine...Master, I believe there must be other ways... .”

I've thought about it, even if the master is so angry that he wants to force me with a knife, I can't agree...

"Lin Mu, you are very kind, kind and innocent." But the master was not angry, but slowly raised his hand and took off the silver mask on his face, "But in this world, there are many things... God doesn't give us too many choices."

I finally met Master.

The pale face slowly unfolded in front of me. If there was no deep and long scar, she would really be like walking out of the picture scroll in the emperor's mausoleum, like the loneliest snow in winter, pure and silent.

She quietly looked at the pear blossoms fluttering like butterflies in the courtyard, her eyes were like the deepest abyss, "Who would want to bleed... But most of the time, we really have no choice." She paused, suddenly He said in a hoarse voice, "She is my daughter..."

"Master..." Xin Yue couldn't help but said, "She..."

The master raised his hand bitterly and interrupted her, "You don't have to say, I am very clear about my identity. Yes, from the blood, she is just my niece... But, from the emotional point of view, I really will Ling Ling Treat your child as your own."

"What about Murong Ying?" I unconsciously thought of the light red figure, and couldn't help but blurt out.

"Ying'er..." I saw the corners of Master's lips tightly pursed, and after a moment of silence, I sighed, "Maybe I didn't treat her well enough."

I was taken aback, this sentence... was exactly the same as the first time Queen Mother Leng and I talked about Murong Ying.

Suddenly there was an unspeakable feeling in my heart, and I couldn't help saying, "Don't you want to see her?"

"Why don't you want to." The master didn't hesitate, but slowly lowered his eyes and said in a low voice, "But... I don't know what to do..." She sighed again, "I don't know how to treat her... "

I didn't expect Murong Ying to be so speechless to Master.

Thinking of Murong Ying's expression of deep hatred every time he mentioned Master, something slowly surged up in my heart, I couldn't tell what it was like, I thought it was probably sad.

But I can't tell who I'm sorry for.

After being silent for a long time, I still sighed and said, "Master, she is also your daughter...go and meet her...otherwise I'm afraid...she will always hate you..."

Master looked up at me, looked at me quietly, and didn't say that he would see me, nor did he say that he would not see me.

She just stared at me blankly, as if in a trance.

It was almost dawn, and Master didn't force me any more. She seemed to be in a mess and left first.

I sent Wei Xinyue back to the palace, she bit her lip all the way and didn't speak.

"Did you... just want to say something to me?" I still couldn't help asking.

She didn't answer me, and she also looked very heavy-hearted.

I knew that she admired Master, and Master's decision must have made her very worried, but I didn't know how to comfort her.

Because I am also blocked in my heart, looking up at the sky, it will be dark and gray, I am afraid it will be a dull cloudy sky.

She stopped in front of Yuehua Palace, and suddenly turned around and asked me, "Xiao Mu'er, if one day, an important friend by your side hurts another important friend of yours, what would you do?"

what?

I was stunned.

She stared into my eyes and continued, "For example, what if Ah Zhen killed Ah Gui?"

"Impossible!" I immediately refuted, "They are brothers! What's more, Ah Zhen is such an obedient child, you have never seen him..." I stopped abruptly, yes, Xinyue should not You have seen Ah Zhen Ah Gui, right?But why did she suddenly mention them?

She stared at me quietly and in a daze, much like the way Master looked at me when he was in a trance.

She suddenly raised her hand and hugged me, she gently rubbed my hair, and her voice rang softly in my ear, "Lin Mu, you really don't fit to stay here any longer."

I don't understand.

"Do you know who sent those men in black to assassinate you when you were in Prince Xiang's Mansion?"

"I don't know... are you following me?" I froze.

She avoided answering, and asked again, "Do you know who locked you in the stone room?"

"You know?" I asked back.

She continued to ask, "Then do you know why Master asked you to help her exchange blood with Princess Chang'an?"

"No... I don't know." I suddenly realized that I didn't seem to know anything.

"Do you know why Master has been refusing to see Princess Changle for so long?"

I can only shake my head silently.

"Come back to Jizhou with me."

I was stunned, "Why...why so suddenly...and how can you just say it back...you...are you afraid?"

Although it was slight, I still felt her body trembling a little.

"It's getting more and more dangerous here. Praying mantises are catching cicadas, and orioles are behind them. In the depths of the treacherous palace and dense forest, there are jackals, vultures, and poisonous snakes dormant in the dark." She said vaguely.

"Then what am I? That cicada?" I asked.

She didn't speak.

At this time, it was already dawn, and some palace people started to move around, but she still hugged me.

I had no choice but to pat her on the back and remind her, "Xin Yue, it seems that someone is here."

She ignored it and hugged me tightly instead.

"Xinyue?" I wondered, because she usually pays attention to the distance from me.

"Xiao Mu'er, you promised that I would help me, no matter what it is." She said in a low voice, gripping the robe behind me inch by inch.

"Yes..but now.." Hearing the footsteps of the palace people getting closer, I couldn't help becoming nervous. I didn't push her away for a while, and it didn't matter if I didn't push her away. Isn't it a bit inappropriate?"

"No. It's time." She turned her face, her soft lips almost touched my ears, "Promise me, no matter what happens later, you can't refuse me."

what?

Before I could react, she suddenly let go of me, then knelt down firmly behind me, and said calmly, "Xin Yue pays homage to the Empress Dowager."

My head buzzed, and I forgot to turn around for a moment.

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She quietly jumped into the Chonghua Palace, and when she walked in, she felt extremely deserted.

Walking through the long flower corridor, I stood on the left and right for a long time, but I didn't hear a single sound, presumably the child was still sleeping.

The crabapple flowers behind him rustled down, and the pink petals all over the ground were left unattended.

Something indescribable sourly blocked her heart.

This cold place is the cold palace where Xiao Ziyan was thrown into after she murdered Leng Lange.

But what she didn't expect was that Xiao Ziyan didn't stay in this place for too long, but her daughter did.

Hard and soft, she tried all kinds of methods, but the child just refused to move out from this remote place.

Contrary to the well-behaved Ling'er, that child seems to always only confront her.

So much so that later, whenever someone mentioned Princess Changle, she would unconsciously frown.

She really didn't know...how to treat her.

This child is like a thorn in her heart, always tormenting her sleepless nights...

"Your Majesty, Princess Changle set fire to the imperial dining room."

"Your Majesty, Princess Changle has pulled out Wang Yushi's beard!"

"Your Majesty, Princess Changle is going to hang herself..."

"Your Majesty, Princess Changle injured several palace servants while riding a horse in front of the palace..."

No matter how rebellious she was, she tolerated her time and time again, and even turned a blind eye when she was secretly with the boy from the Nangong family.

In fact, she knew very well in her heart that the child did this to take revenge on herself.

I don't know if it's because of the guilt of Xiao Ziyan's suicide, but she doesn't care about her at all.

There was only one thing she couldn't bear.

She shouldn't have hurt Ling'er.

She still remembered that at Ling'er's seventh birthday party, she slapped her hard, that was the first time she slapped her.

It took a whole day and night before the guards found the drunk Princess Changle from a brothel.

She went to pick her up in person, carefully and without saying a word, wiped her hot forehead with a warm veil.

"Don't worry about me... Let me die with my concubine... so that you can't see it." The girl pushed her weakly.

She was silent for a long time before she said in a deep voice, "I'm sorry, it's the father who shouldn't hit you."

"Don't be hypocritical, anyway, you only have one daughter, I bullied her first, you should hit me." The girl said coldly, her eyes glowing with indifference.

In fact, she often asked herself whether she regarded Yinger as her daughter, and she was really angry a few times, and she even wanted to tell this girl that she was not her father at all.

But she never said those words.

She still remembers the first time she saw this girl, she was only three years old, and she was just 20 years old.

Thinking about how young I was at that time, most of the pretending was my love for my sons and daughters and the hatred of my family and the country. Even if I thought about it later, I didn’t know how to be the father of this girl, let alone she didn’t love this girl at all. Mother.

On this point, Ling'er is indeed much luckier than her.

But, did he really never regard this girl as his daughter?

The girl had a bad fever that day, and she started talking nonsense in a daze, saying 'you go away' for a while, and 'don't go' for a while, and finally the girl grabbed her hand tightly and asked her, 'Why don't you go away'? Willing to treat her concubine better? '

"I'm really sorry..." She gently tucked her hair behind her ears, secretly realizing that the girl had grown up, she took a deep breath, not sure if she could hear, whispered, " You will understand in the future that no one can control emotional matters, but even if I can't love your mother and concubine, you are still my daughter. In this world, there are too many people who regard me as an enemy, I don't care, but I I really don't want...you to be among them."

She bent down and kissed her smooth forehead.

I hope you can understand that my father loves you very much, really loves you.

But she never said those words.

Because she understands very well that the word love is too extravagant for herself.

She seems to only bring misfortune to those she loves.

Therefore, she always chooses to leave in the end.

Even if they could meet briefly, she knew in her heart that she would still leave.

Perhaps Empress Nangong was right... Losing is her ultimate fate.

In the past, she refused to admit it, and always thought that everything could be changed by choice. Now that she thinks about it, she also sees through it. Maybe people don't have the opportunity to choose at all.Some endings are already predestined.

But in the end, she still hopes that those sins and misfortunes can leave this world with her.

She left before the evening bell rang throughout the Yan Palace.

When Princess Changle woke up, she touched her forehead in a daze.

I don't know what happened, but for a moment, warm moisture surged out of her eye sockets.

This feeling reminded her of the time when she hugged the fool who swallowed the 'poison' for her in the stone room not long ago.For a moment, even though it was only a fleeting moment, she actually thought of staying with that person forever.