Dawn is coming

Gao Xinye had a dream.

There was Jian Chengqi's voice in the dream.

He whispered his name, Ono, Ono, when will you open your eyes.

So he struggled, surfaced on the verge of drowning, and suddenly woke up from the white ward, causing all the medical instruments beside the bed to rattle one after another.He is irrational, his five senses have not yet returned to normal, he can't see who is around him, and he can't hear any sound. His hands just listen to the instinct to pull out the catheter and needle. If the nurse and doctor came later, he must have already fallen. bed.He finally looked like an alpha at this moment, two or three people together could hold him down, but his muscles were tense and did not cooperate, and he resisted to let the needle go into the back of his hand again.The nurse was also in a hurry. When everyone was overwhelmed, someone held Gao Xinye's hand, and his soft fingertips touched his tiger's mouth and the thin calluses on his fingertips.The temperature made Gao Xinye finally calm down. He re-perceived the air, saw colors, smelled pheromones, saw figures, and heard someone calling him—Xiaoye.

That call was like a rift in heaven and earth, and brought him back to the world.

He relaxed his body, but still turned his head desperately, trying to get closer to Jian Chengqi who was pressing the back of his hand with cotton.The nurses and doctors were still in the ward, so he sat on the bed and hugged Jian Chengqi who was standing in front of everyone, his heartbeat was so fast that the detector started to alarm again.Jian Chengxi shook his head at those tasks, moved his lips where Gao Xinye couldn't see, and said, I am with him.

It was just the two of them left in the room.Gao Xinye couldn't hug him enough, and he hugged him tighter and tighter. His fingertips went through Jian Chengqi's hair, and he scratched violently a few times.He's like a child, acting on instinct for no reason, just refusing to let go.

After an unknown period of time, Gao Xinye's heart rate also slowed down, and he no longer held Jian Chengqi, but he held the face in his hands, and he couldn't help pinching Jian Chengqi's cheeks pink.Jian Chengqi smiled, looked at Gao Xinye's docile eyes, and said to him, "It's me."

"They, they didn't do anything to you, did they?" Gao Xinye lowered his hands and placed them on Jian Chengqi's shoulders and arms, as if to confirm whether he was injured.And when he touched Jian Chengqi's lower abdomen, Jian Chengqi's palm covered the back of his hand, allowing him to touch that place thoroughly.

They looked at each other again, one smiled with joy, and the other was surprised at the unknown situation, but then realized what was conceived there, and he couldn't help holding him in his arms again.

But he has witnessed too many open and secret struggles, and all kinds of visions for the future are poured over like cold water basin after basin. How much he cherishes everything he has at the moment, he fears losing it.

But he heard Jian Chengqi say, "Don't be afraid, Xiaoye."

"You told me, don't be afraid." Jian Chengqi asked him: "Do you know what happened today in 2019?"

Gao Xinye looked up and looked at the electronic clock hanging on the wall. The date written there was May 5, and the time was four o'clock in the morning. The window of the ward was dark, and they had light here.

"I think of another ending, Song Qu and Lin Yuan's." He played mischievously in his lover's ear and asked, "Do you want to hear it?"

Gao Xinye slowly let go of his hand.

"This ending happened on May 5." Sitting on the stool next to the hospital bed, Jian Chengxi picked up a few manuscripts on the bedside, and introduced the background to Gao Xinye.He said that since they broke up in April, Lin Yuan found an intern at the western nuclear test base. The signal there was not good, and Song Qu couldn't contact him for a while, and the traffic there was not developed, so Song Qu got off the plane. Finally, you have to take the green leather train first.

【He got on the green leather train back to the west.

Why use it back, Song Qu thought, he had obviously never been to that place.

After he got out of the airport, he got caught in the rain and didn't have a change of clothes. He didn't have time to get jet lag and had no time to withdraw money. The cash on his body was only enough to buy a hard-seat ticket.Shortly after getting on the train, the train staff began to sell e-cigarettes. This is the last item sold on the train. They will first issue a protective cover for each passenger’s ID card to attract attention, and then read the red-headed document in their hand, introducing this e-cigarette. The smoke is so powerful, it is suitable for yourself, for the elders and for the elderly.

"Only 99, only 99, limited to ten sets."

Someone in the car really took out one hundred cash. As long as someone takes the lead, there will definitely be followers. It’s just a matter of how much. Soon, more than ten sets of electronic cigarettes were sold.

Song Qu crossed his arms and stared at the red bill in the hands of the train attendant. The sum of the money in his pocket was not enough for 99.

He felt cold, his clothes were only wet on the shoulders, he didn't want to take them off, he thought it was warmer this way.

He tried his best to recall the information he got from Lin Yuan's friend, a barren desert, a huge test base, and one big pit after another on the surface.When he passes through patches of yellow sand, there is a forest source there.

He thought he was crazy, he didn't even know where Lop Nur was, how could he find Lin Yuan.But he came anyway, across most of the continent, desperate.

He fell asleep and woke up drowsily. He knew that he must have a fever. His forehead was hot, but his body was cold.He got off the train at four o'clock in the morning. When he walked out of the station, he asked the proprietress of a nearby breakfast shop how to get to Lop Nur.

The proprietress looked Song Qu up and down with extremely puzzled eyes, and asked after a long time: "You are going to the Malan base, right?"

"I have a classmate who came here for an internship." Song Qu said, "I'm here to find him."

"Then you should go to the living area." The proprietress pointed him in the direction, "You wait a few more hours to take that bus, and you can see that the greenery on the roadside has started to grow, and you can get off."

Song Qu thanked the proprietress.After waiting in the waiting hall in a daze for a few minutes, I suddenly stood up and went outside to hail a taxi.He gave all his money to the driver. Although it was not enough, the elderly driver looked at his pleading eyes and started the car without saying a word.He asked Song Qu who he was looking for and why he was in such a hurry.Song Qu answered irrelevantly and said that he came to chase someone.

He seemed to have fallen asleep again, and when he woke up, he was under a towering mushroom cloud sculpture, with an empty road in front, and greenery slowly growing on both sides.The driver said that this is the living area. Seeing that Song Qu had a bad face, he handed him a small bread before he got out of the car.

Then Song Qu walked on that road alone, step by step.His head weighs a thousand pounds, and he has no strength to lift it up when it hangs down, but he still lifts his head up with difficulty, like a desolate homeless man, looking for it in the family buildings. After all, he is lucky and emerges in the sky When there was a faint orange light, he saw the name of their school on the mailbox of a dormitory building.

Song Qu smiled stupidly. He no longer had the strength to sit slumped on the gravel road opposite the building. After falling down, he couldn't stand up again.

He felt that he was really burned out, but his heart was at peace that he had never felt at this moment, as if he had found some kind of destination, as if he had returned home.At this time, his mobile phone had only the last bit of power, and he tried to call Lin Yuan again, but he couldn't get through, so he put down the phone and clicked on the chat box between him and his mother with the last bit of strength, there was a screenshot of a news, above The headline read "Taiwan Passes Asia's First Same-Sex Marriage Bill."

It was sent to her by his mother yesterday.She has been silently paying attention, and she said to Song Qu with hope and joy, then you can get married in China in the future.

"Although mom can't keep up with your young people's ideas, she is not a rigid person. Mom just hopes that you can protect yourself. Mom is afraid that you will be hurt emotionally. But if you have the guarantee of marriage... you can give mom It's been a while, mom is slowly accepting it, mom wants you to be happy."

Song Qu grinned. He knew how many times his mother had broken her ingrained notions in order to say this to him. She was so brave, and he couldn't back down.He promised Lin Yuan that he would come after him when he recovered, and he couldn't miss the appointment.

He could feel the pain of opening his eyes, but he was reluctant to close them. He watched the orange light slowly emerge from the opposite residential buildings, green trees and the Gobi hills in the distance, and then slowly turned red, Brighten.

It is impossible to see the sunrise in such a place with uneven buildings, but Song Qu hopes that there will be a huge red sun that can emit strong light to pierce the viaduct, the residential buildings, and himself.

He waited and waited until the street lights went out on time at six o'clock, until there were two or three pedestrians passing by on the street, and until the sky was dark and bright.

There were more and more black spots in front of his eyes, and his vision became more and more blurred.He could feel the temperature passing by, but the red sun hadn't come yet.

The grievance at that moment is so real, there is no other emotion, only grievance.

He wanted to cry, to shed tears, to cry out, but he had no strength left.

After an unknown amount of time, he heard footsteps coming down the stairs from that building.There are so many people living in that building, and that mailbox may not belong to Lin Yuan, and he can't see the person who went downstairs, but his intuition has never been stronger and more accurate than before.

He couldn't see it, but he seemed to be able to see it, Lin Yuan walked towards him.

He leaned on the wall to prop himself up, and he wanted to move forward, approaching that person, but his legs and feet were so tired that he couldn't feel it.

The black spots in front of his eyes became more and more dense, and he could only maintain his sanity by closing and opening them forcefully.

But there was longing in his heart, dancing and jumping for joy, encouraging him to stand up slowly and move forward.

At the same time, he opened his mouth, he wanted to call out Lin Yuan's name, but he could only make mouth shapes with difficulty, and the breath he exhaled turned into a fleeting cloud, without sound.

Lin Yuan.Song Qu said silently to that person.

Lin Yuan.Song Qu tried again, and he could hear some voices, trembling like survivors whistling in the icy sea.

Lin Yuan.Song Qu bit his tongue, he felt the pain, and gained a brief sobriety.

Lin Yuan!Song Qu opened his eyes again, and finally shouted out.There are no black spots in front of his eyes anymore, only light, the light at the junction of the residential buildings and the Gobi hills, illuminates him, illuminates the man who is running.

Lin Yuan is here. 】

Jian Chengqi also finished reading, folded the manuscript in half, put it on his lap, and told Gao Xinye with relief that this was the ending he wanted more.

He said: "Everyone, Xiaojia, can accommodate Song Qu."

He also said: "Everyone with good intentions deserves a better ending in the story."

"It's really not going to change this time." He climbed onto the bed, got into Gao Xinye's bed, and said softly, "Everyone survived."

Gao Xinye didn't speak, but held him stubbornly, still very tightly.He is like a dragon in Western mythology, Jian Chengqi in his arms is a treasure of gold and silver, he cherishes it very much, and will guard it for the rest of his life.Jian Chengxi was a little out of breath, but he didn't resist. He just held Gao Xinye's hand and let him touch his belly.

His eyes were a little red: "We are all looking forward to him this time."

They hugged each other and unconsciously began to play and step on the back of their feet again.In the end, Jian Chengqi bent his knees and smiled happily.He can finally sleep well, in Gao Xinye's arms, not to fear the future, but to believe and look forward to it.But Gao Xinye still opened his eyes and was reluctant to blink, Jian Chengqi coaxed him, patted him on the back like he used to comfort himself, and said, "I'm here."

"I'm here." He lowered his eyes slightly, but suddenly thought of something, looked up at Gao Xinye, and said with a smile, "Cheng Qi is here."

He turned off the lights in the room, making the surroundings darker and more suitable for sleeping, but behind what he couldn't see, what Gao Xinye could see was the dawn outside the window—the wisps of warmth bit by bit Climb slowly but never late.They bathe in the hope that illuminates everything, and they start their good life at this moment.

He kissed his lover's hair, looked out of the window, and told him softly: "The dawn is coming."