Dawn is coming

Gao Xinye started to feel hot all over on the second night after returning to South District [-].

He fell into a coma in the middle of the night and couldn't wake him up no matter what, but they didn't have a car at home, so Jian Li knocked on the doors of several houses, managed to borrow a delivery truck, rushed him to the hospital, and broke through all the way. Several red lights.At the beginning, the doctors in the emergency room only thought that Gao Xinye had a fever, and only prescribed some very common medicines. If it wasn’t for the radiology examiners who passed the infusion room and suggested that they get a blood test report, none of them would have thought of it. The number of white blood cells in Gao Xinye was so high that it was suspected of suffering from cancer.

So Gao Xinye was quarantined, and the doctors in the small hospital were at a loss, but when he tested again the next day, the number of white blood cells in Gao Xinye's body dropped significantly again.Before the staff recovered from the shock, several military helicopters parked on the top floor of the hospital. The people who got down not only took Gao Xinye away, but also cleared all his laboratory reports, not even the backup.Jian Chengxi had been waiting outside the ward, seeing so many people who wanted to take Alpha away, of course they had to follow, the leader made a phone call and brought Jian Chengqi back to the capital after getting permission.

Everything after that was beyond Jian Chengxi's cognition.They were taken to a research institute in the capital, and the comatose Gao Xinye was still isolated, but the medical staff here seemed to be very familiar with Gao Xinye's situation, and quickly arranged various radiation and chemotherapy.No one cared about Jian Chengqi. Jian Chengqi went to the doctor in a white coat with the laboratory report with data such as "Roentgen", "Equivalent", and "Grey", but he couldn't understand those hasty explanations.

"You can just treat him as having cancer." The doctor thought for a while, and then added an attributive, "The kind that can't be cured in other people."

Jian Chengqi lost his soul.

He asked the doctor if he could go to see Gao Xinye, but the doctor not only refused, but also isolated him for a long time for a full-body examination.He was also asked a lot of questions, including when was the last time they had sex and whether they had been penetrated or penetrated.He stuttered and told the whole truth, and after the examination, he asked persistently, "Can I go into the isolation room to accompany him?"

The doctor sighed.

"I'm very obedient and sensible... I won't get too close after I go in, I won't disturb him, and I will wear the isolation suit obediently, and I won't bring in those germs outside, I—"

"No." The doctor vetoed.

Jian Chengqi frowned, unable to understand.The doctor was also an Alpha, so he sympathized with Jian Chengqi and explained to him why he couldn't go in.

"Some of the drugs he is using now are radioactive, and because his autoimmune function is very strong, we also use a large amount of drugs, otherwise he would not be able to survive now. In other words, he also has radiation in his body now. Others are likely to be affected if they get close."

"Then I'll stay for a while," Jian Chengqi obviously wanted to fight, "I—"

"Then what if you're not alone?" The doctor patted Jian Chengqi's lower abdomen with the folder in his hand, pursed his lips, and left sideways without bumping into Jian Chengqi's shoulder, leaving him standing there sluggishly. in place.

After a long time, Jian Chengqi slowly touched his stomach.He looked down at the flat place, and smiled with the corners of his mouth trembling, but his nose was sore that he wanted to cry.

Although the medical staff of the scientific research institute did not pay attention to him, they also arranged a room for him to rest, but Jian Chengqi basically never slept there. He waited outside the isolation room every day, waiting for the high-tech room separated by a glass wall. When will you wake up.Gao Xinye did wake up, but it was because the wound was too painful. Jian Chengqi saw with his own eyes how the skin on his arm festered quickly, but it miraculously healed the next day.He also heard doctors discussing that this cancer is very dangerous, conventional medicine can't cure it, and Gao Xinye can only see Gao Xinye's own good fortune, but Gao Xinye is very negative, as if he knows that he can't be cured, and he is gone. The willpower to do the struggle.Jian Chengxi suffered from insomnia for several days when he found out, and watched Gao Xinye through the glass every day.This is the only thing he can do in the torment of the passage of time. When Gao Xinye finally had the strength to open his eyes, get out of bed with support, and walked to the transparent glass wall to wipe his tears, Jian Chengqi also clenched his fist, Tapped twice on the glass in response.

"They said you don't want to be treated anymore, how can you... how can you die." Jian Chengqi said incoherently.

Gao Xinye was calmer than him, he was aware of the changes in his body, he said: "It can't be cured."

"We should really let everything stay in that morning." Gao Xinye was as calm as a flashback before the end of the day.

"Then, what about me? What do you want me to do?" Jian Chengqi tore at his hair, really going crazy.Gao Xinye saw it and knocked on the glass again.At that moment, they seemed to have returned to the beginning of everything. What separated them was not the glass but the tree hole. Gao Xinye moved his mouth and told Omega that he wanted to hear a story.

Without further ado, Jian Chengqi went to look for a pen and paper, but when he stood in front of Gao Xinye again, he was at a loss as to what to write, so Gao Xinye took a few breaths on the glass and wrote a name on it—Song canal.

"You haven't given an ending to his mother and Lin Yuan yet." Gao Xinye said, his voice was so weak that it didn't belong to him through the small hole in the glass.Jian Chengqi's heart ached, and he wanted to find a place to sit and write, but Gao Xinye shook his head, insisting that he go back to his room.

"You look tired." He said to Jian Chengqi, "I know you are worried about me, but if you don't rest, I feel bad too."

Jian Chengqi couldn't bear to make him feel bad, and said "yes" repeatedly, but didn't sleep at all after returning to the room.He couldn't sleep, all he could think about was Gao Xinye's phrase "I want to hear a story", but when he picked up the pen, he couldn't write a single word.

He forced himself to calm down, recalling where he had written before.Yes, he also wrote some points when he was in Laguo, ending Lin Yuan and Song Qu’s mother’s itinerary in Paris. They took a group photo under the Eiffel Tower, which was shining brightly on the hour. They are all people who love Song Qu, So they were also happy for Song Qu's relief, and agreed to go to Italy happily.Jian Chengqi finally had the inspiration to write about what happened in Italy.

He originally wanted to switch to the third person.He had this concern before, because he had never experienced it before, so he didn’t know how to use No.1 title to write about a 62-year-old mother who lost her child. I'm worried that if he has a reader with the same identity, he may feel that his writing is fake.Knowing his entanglement, Gao Xinye asked him, saying that the charm of creation is not to create everything freely in the imaginary world, including what he has never experienced before?

"Don't be afraid." Gao Xinye said to Jian Chengqi at that time.The voice repeated in his ears over and over again, gradually mixing with his mother's timbre, reminding him of the sentence his mother wrote in his notepad - if you want to write, just write.

He changed the person name back to the original appearance again, and "I" and Lin Yuan in the story went to Rome and Florence.They are indeed as promised in Paris, they are all alive, they still love Song Qu, and are happy for him, so their week in Italy is also very happy, and through comparison, it is concluded that 2023 will be better than 2019 after all conclusion.Song Qu's mother will not regret over and over again why her child can't persevere and live through 2019. She and Lin Yuan are watching those Renaissance works in the art gallery. She is also willing to believe that the future must be a literary In the golden age of rejuvenation, she wants to help Song Qu witness with Lin Yuan that a truly beautiful life will definitely come.

It was late at night after he finished writing this part.After he stopped writing, he felt a strong sense of something wrong, and his mind was full of Gao Xinye in the isolation room and the blurred figures of the two in the story.He knew that he would write "I" and Lin Yuan to face Song Qu's departure calmly and start a new life, which seemed to be what Gao Xinye wanted to imply and convey. If it was him who left, Jian Chengqi would Can live well.

But can time really dilute the pain of parting?Jian Chengqi was hit by this question, and his back was shivering in shock, and he continued to write the final ending - the old and the young in the story must go to Latvia in the final chapter, the reason why they didn't put Latvia in At the first stop, it was also because I wanted to go too much, and my emotions were too depressing and strong.Now they all want to understand and look away, and happily go to say goodbye to Song Qu for the last time.

But can they really think it through, can they see it?

If the original intention of their trip was ignored, it would indeed be a happy ending, but when Jian Chengqi wrote that Lin Yuan took off his clothes and walked to the beach, he suddenly lost control.

It's not that Jian Chengqi, who wrote the story, lost control, but Lin Yuan himself.He seems to have come alive, jumped out of the paper, and become a flesh and blood man, with an independent consciousness that is not controlled by the creator.It's not that Jian Chengqi suddenly wanted to write that he has a large tattoo on his back, but when he turned around, he had tattoos.Jian Chengqi himself didn't know what the tattoo was, and he had to stare at it like Song Qu's mother, so that the tattoo became more and more clear in front of his eyes.

It was a black and white ink painting. From the middle down was a large square pond. The water surface was calm and clear. Not only did the trees and gazebos on both sides fall down clearly, but the light and shadows above the pond were also completely blurred. It shines brightly in the water, just like what is written in that poem—a half-acre square pond is opened, and the sky, clouds and shadows linger together.

[There seem to be two people in that gazebo.Following Lin Yuan's movements, the two teenagers also moved in front of my eyes, one of them jumped out of the painting and came alive, splashing sea water on Lin Yuan.Lin Yuan failed to dodge, wiped his face, and poured water on him as well. 】

It was the illusion of "I" after thinking about it to the extreme. It was so realistic that Jian Chenxi even saw Song Qu and Lin Yuan's limbs touching together, and it was unknown who lost his footing and fell in the waves. One went to help, but the one who fell tried harder, which caught him off guard and choked on his saliva.

[And when they surfaced together and continued to play, I watched them laugh wantonly, and couldn't keep my mouth shut]

That should be a farewell, Jian Chengqi thought, a warm and peaceful farewell.

But he can always see dark clouds, appearing inappropriately in the sunny days of the fictional world.His vague unease became more and more intense, and when he looked at the sea again, he couldn't find Lin Yuan.

At that moment Jian Chengqi was really frightened.He completely confuses the two worlds of fiction and reality, and the whole person is immersed in that story, incarnated as that "I", looking for Lin Yuan in a panic, just like he stepped into the vast ocean of La country without hesitation that day, He desperately looked for the falling sun.He can't swim, so neither can Song Qu's mother. She just stepped into the cold sea in a hurry, calling Lin Yuan's name over and over again. She also lost control and was no longer controlled by the author. Cruel, heart-piercing and hysterical shouting-son!

【Son, mom is here to find you! 】

Jian Chengqi's heart rate was irregular, tears dried up before they started to fall, and his whole body was shaking uncontrollably except for the hand holding the pen.The last thing he can do to control that world is to write about the surrounding tourists and Lin Yuan who rushed back to rescue Song Qu’s mother back to the shore. .

But his words are so feeble, he heard Lin Yuan say "yes", and he also wrote in black and white that Lin Yuan would keep his word, but he knew it well, he couldn't guarantee that Lin Yuan would not be in his pen. Regret where it is out of reach.

Because none of them has forgotten the original intention of this trip.No matter how happy and happy they are in this ending, the fact that Song Qu is dead will not change, and they are still alive, which means that every minute and every second of the rest of their lives reminds them that the people they love dead, they are alive.What "reconciliation", what "spirit lasts forever", what "happy for his liberation", what "love has always been consistent", are all bullshit and deceitful consolation, the fact is simple four words - "Song He's dead."

Dead, never to live again, no afterlife, gone, it's over.Under this premise, all the warmth is crumbling on the edge of the cliff, like a sticky paper that can be broken with a poke. The real ending is that when people are gone, there is nothing. way of relief.

"So you have to live, Xiaoye, you can't have an accident." Jian Chengqi didn't read to Gao Xinye all the continuation of the tragedy at its core, but he pressed his forehead against the wall and stared at Gao Xinye in a daze, "We still haven't gone to many places, and we haven't done many things together. I don't want to die now. I swear I won't seek death in the future, as long as you are alive. But if you are gone, I...I don't care It's all gone."

"No one is allowed to die, everyone deserves to live." He tried his best to stabilize his emotions, and told Gao Xinye the good news: "They said that the doctors from the NATO alliance will come tomorrow, and they have, have very powerful technology , they can save you, they—”

"What did you say?" Gao Xinye didn't know it until his pale face was full of astonishment.He should be happy, but the flash in his eyes in the next second is actually fear.

"You can't stay here." He wanted Jian Chengqi to leave quickly, "It's impossible for him to exchange blood serum for technology, he won't trade at a loss, he might..."

"Who is he?" Jian Chengxi asked him, a little dazed, but before Gao Xinye could continue to explain, Jian Chengxi's pupils shrank suddenly.

He smelled pheromones that did not belong to anyone in this scientific research institute. It came from the alpha female behind him. It was a smell that he would never forget in his life. Four years ago when he was lying on the hospital bed in horror, it was this alpha who spoke, Tell him he's pregnant with the officer's seed.

Now, that alpha said in the same cold tone: "Long time no see."

Jian Chengxi didn't look back in a daze, just looked at Gao Xinye, Gao Xinye's reaction was much more intense than his, and he looked at the person behind him warily, but when his eyes fell on Jian Chengqi again, he also thought of something. There was panic in an instant.

"I..." Gao Xinye was speechless.

"You are the one..." Jian Chengxi spoke with difficulty, speaking very slowly. He Hongshan behind him was not very patient to watch such a scene, and said without doubt: "It was him back then."

"...Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Jian Chengqi was still relatively calm, and he didn't show how difficult it was to accept, but he was holding his belly, and the finger bones holding his clothes turned white with force. He had some good news. I have to tell Gao Xinye that they are likely to have a child, although it is only a week or two old.He thought it was their first child, he didn't expect—

"Because his chest is empty." After He Hongshan finished speaking, she took two steps forward and hooked Jian Chengqi's shoulder to take him away.Gao Xinye slammed the glass wall fiercely, all the blood in his body rushed to Tianling Gai, and asked He Hongshan where he was going to take her.

It's not that he doesn't know that his current body needs to avoid wounds, but he exerted so much force that his finger bones began to bleed. Seeing how violent his reaction was, Ho Hongshan said angrily, "What? Are you refreshed now? Figured it out?!"

There were red threads in her eternally calm eyes, and she asked again: "Do you want to live now?"

"...Where are you taking him?" Gao Xinye lowered his voice.

"Want to know?" He Hongshan regained her indifference, but her eyes were still red, "If you want to see him again, you have to finish the operation alive!"