Dawn is coming
Chapter 10 He Has Been Thinking About Gao Xinye
Jian Chengqi went to the studio on the third day, and Andre didn't ask him anything else, but asked him to bring his identity certificates.Jian Chengqi knew that he couldn't hide, so he confessed to Andre before he logged into the credit LAN, saying that his resume was not clean.The ideal plan of the Peacekeeping Faction government for future development is to replace currency with credit, and it has already been piloted in some first-tier areas, but the fifth East District still has a long way to go, so credit value is not affected by this area. Pay attention, this is also the reason why Jian Chengqi left the capital and came here, otherwise it would be even more difficult for a tainted person like him to go to other cities.
Andre didn't show much surprise, took Jian Chengqi's ID card, and entered the code into the website.As an employer, he could see that Jian Chengxi had been in prison for three years, but his service location and crimes were concealed, so he smiled thoughtfully and asked, "Omega special prison?"
Jian Chengqi was silent.
"The same is true of Jiang Xiaozheng's information when I operated it. He mentioned this... special place to me. Don't be nervous, I'm just curious, because in my country, the omega prison was detaining people a few years ago. There are too few to merge with the beta prison, and other countries in the European Union also have this trend..." He shrugged and joked, "Maybe it's because we have too few people, and a country is not as big as your district."
As he spoke, the printer next to him also started working.When Jian Chengxi saw that it was a contract for a regular worker, he felt sorry for himself, saying that it was okay if it was just a temporary contract.Andre smiled nonchalantly, and said that if he minded the past mentioned in the file, he would not have given Jiang Xiaozheng all the studio keys.
"I have always been interested in the United States of America, and I have read some reports. Of course, they are made by foreign media. They, like me, cannot understand why the omega crime rate here is so high, and it is still increasing year by year. There is A reporter concluded provocatively that perhaps there is a story behind every omega that has been in a special prison."
Andre put a copy of the signed contract with two people's names in the folder, and handed it to Jian Chengqi.Jian Chengqi took it and licked his lips: "I don't have any stories worth mentioning."
"Don't be nervous," Andre still smiled, "I mean, if one day you want to talk, I'd be happy to listen."
"By the way, because you are an omega, so about the estrus holiday—"
"I don't need this." Jian Chengxi touched the place covered by the collar, and his Adam's apple moved, "I have undergone gland removal surgery, so there will be no estrus period."
Andre raised his eyebrows: "So the pheromone on your body is from that alpha?"
"……Um?"
"You may have been with him for a long time, but you didn't notice it. What is that poem called... Enter Lan Zhi's room, and you won't smell its fragrance for a long time," he said, "You still have a very faint rosin on your body .”
"But from now on, it will smell like ink and paint," he stood up, and casually patted Jian Chengxi on the shoulder.Through the clothes, Jian Chengqi could still feel the thickness of the palm, and the calluses on the fingertips were also obvious.Catching Jian Chengqi's doubts, Andre spread out his hands without hesitation, and showed him his palms, where there were still some fine wounds.
"With a carving knife," he said, "even now, I can inadvertently injure a finger or a hand."
This reason is very reasonable, and Jian Chengxi couldn't think of a more appropriate explanation.He touched his finger tentatively, then retracted quickly, and whispered sorry.
"What's there to apologize for? Do I look so vicious and easy to get angry?" Andre was quite helpless, "But your hands are really soft, and the pen will look good."
Jian Chengqi started working that day.The salary of the studio is not high, but there are not many tasks to be done. Before the arrival of the two print artists, Jian Chengxi needs to keep in touch with them by email, and convey various notices and matters of the Translation Art Festival organizer.
This art festival was specially organized by the East Fifth District in order to win a new round of funding from the Order Maintenance faction government. The theme is "Celebrating the [-]th Anniversary of the Promulgation of the Wei Xu Order".In the past few decades, the East Fifth District government did not fully obey the high-pressure orders of the central government because it wanted to maintain some independence. In addition, it is located in the eastern part of the coast, and the East Fifth District government has been independently carrying out economic and ecological restoration.
The people originally supported the district government's approach. After all, the commanders of the order maintenance faction were too strong. Although the economic recovery of the places under the direct jurisdiction of the commanders was rapid, the degree of freedom was lower than that of the fifth east district.But freedom cannot be eaten, especially in the past 20 years, the development of the East Fifth District has been stagnant. According to various official statistics, the East Fifth District is not only the most backward eastern region, but even the West One District has a tendency to catch up. The well-fed people gradually turned against each other and went to the gate of the government to hold banners and hold a sit-in and hunger strike. The protest two years ago was the biggest, which directly led to the resignation of the former district chief.The newly appointed district mayor has learned the previous lessons and has been moving closer to the order-keeping government. In order to win the financial policy support for a new round of reconstruction plan, he has carried out many activities in the region to praise the order-keeping government. This art festival is one of them.
Andre doesn't like this theme, but in order to make the art festival more international, the district government has relaxed the theme of foreign artists' entries. If they can use this art festival to open studios in East Fifth District, they can enjoy more Policy bonus.
"So Andre came here. He said that the other two partners are professors at the Art Institute of Lagoon, and they only come during the art festival. He himself is not well-known in Lagoon. The reason why this studio can run It seems that because the district government is in urgent need of foreign faces to enhance the internationality and openness of the art festival, it promised tax cuts and other benefits. People hear 'if you don't come, you won't come'..."
When Jiang Xiaozheng said this, he was having lunch with Jian Chengqi. They bought the cheapest bento from the convenience store and brought it back to the studio to eat.
It's lunch break now, and Andre took a nap upstairs as usual, so there were only the two of them in the studio, Jiang Xiaozheng took another mouthful as if he was starving, and said vaguely: "But I think he is modest Yes, there are a lot of his paintings in that album, I don’t think it loses to those two professors.”
Jian Chengqi didn't eat as anxiously as he did, and ate less, put down his chopsticks after picking up the rice, and asked, "When did you meet each other?"
"A month ago, I was..." Jiang Xiaozheng was originally beaming, but when it came to meeting Andre, his eyes gradually dimmed for some reason, and then he stuffed food into his mouth sullenly.Of course Jian Chengqi didn't force him, but just touched his back, in case he choked on eating too fast.
"You also know that I went in at the age of 14 and stayed in prison for five years. Apart from learning Latin from you, I have no culture. What else can I do after I go out? Can't even afford it."
The words that Andre heard from foreign media reports are not groundless, an omega is not forced to corner, and it is impossible for an omega to commit a crime.That alpha was Jiang Xiaozheng's stepfather. As long as he could remember, his father in law had been messing with him, and it got even worse after he split into an omega.Jiang Xiaozheng and Jian Chengqi said in prison that he can't bear it either, when Alpha entered his room for the first time and teased him with pheromones, he really wanted to bear it.
But his omega mother bumped into him.
That was his blood-related mother, he thought she would save himself, but she just covered her mouth and ran away.Fat is the warm-up of the estrus period. The three of them sat down to eat that day. He asked his mother for an inhibitor. alright.His mother lowered her head, her hands holding chopsticks shook violently, but she still submissively responded to Alpha, saying that inhibitors are not necessary, and that inhibitors are the business of those businessmen who use the banner of o rights, and the effect is not as good as advertised obvious.
But Jiang Xiaozheng couldn't bear it.He had already locked the door that night, but his alpha stepfather still came in. He was too arrogant to notice that Jiang Xiaozheng was holding a knife all the time. Later, Jiang Xiaozheng fell into the pool of blood that did not belong to him and gave the police At that time, he was 14 years old, and he was still protected by the juvenile law. He was sentenced to eight years because he surrendered himself, but he had already given up on himself in prison. He was not active, and later he learned a language from Jian Chengqi and had something to do, so he regained his fighting spirit.He went out a month earlier than Jian Chengqi, and his 19th birthday was spent outside the prison. He was also full of hope.
"But I don't know anything, I..." Jiang Xiaozheng sniffed, "East Fifth District used to patronize and flatter the central government, and didn't care about anything else. The prostitutes also turned a blind eye. I The resume is not clean, no bustard wants me, so I pick it up by myself. Once on the way back, I ran into an alpha I knew, and he insisted that I spend the night with him. Want to force it... You say that I have already done this, and talking about dignity is ridiculous, but I really didn't want to live at the time, and I couldn't resist anyway, I..."
"Then Andre happened to pass by and rescued me."
"I'm also cheap. I asked him for his contact information, and said he would fuck him for free when I recovered. He took pity on me and gave me a business card. I'll see the nationality on his business card—" Jiang Xiaozheng scratched His hair and eyes are bright, "You told me before that there are only 200 million people in this country, and because of the popularity of the common language, the number of people who use this language is only 80. I was afraid that he was using the international lingua franca and no longer used the national language, but he did not hesitate and responded to me in Latin. He said that I was the first person who could speak Latin when he came to the United States of America. He also asked I would like to work with him, so I came to this studio with him in a daze, and signed the contract in a daze, my God, I was really bored learning Latin from you in those two years, I never expected I can use it one day, and I can get a job because of it, I really thank you, Brother Jian, if you weren't willing to teach me, I would have died in some broken guesthouse."
"Really, when I opened my eyes this morning, I still thought I was dreaming. How could such a good thing happen. I will be twenty in two months. I have lived for 20 years, except for you, only Andre Respect me sincerely, and don't dislike me." He looked up at the ceiling, and across the wall, Andre was resting in the small room on the second floor.
"I don't even feel that I have any regrets. I have been respected and treated as a person. Really, even if I die now, I have no regrets."
"Don't die," Jian Chengqi said almost reflexively.
"I said it casually," Jiang Xiaozheng smiled cheerfully, "I'm only twenty, and I want to go to college now! Of course I will live well!"
"What about you?" He asked, "Tell me, we haven't seen each other for almost half a year, how are you doing?"
"Very good." Jian Chengqi thought for a while, "I stayed in the capital for the first two months, living in the former editor's house. The one who gave me books and came to see me every month, and then I left Now, come to East Fifth District..." He was silent, thinking that he just told Jiang Xiaozheng not to die, so he couldn't say that he has been muddled since he came to East Fifth District.
"And then, that alpha!" Jiang Xiaozheng obviously didn't notice Jian Chengqi's strangeness, but was more concerned about other things, "The first time we met, that alpha with super aura and handsome, he... Jiang Xiaozheng smiled happily, "Is he your boyfriend?"
"How is it possible." Jian Chengxi poked his forehead, "Have you read too many romance novels, but he—"
Jian Chengxi paused, because he didn't know Gao Xinye's identity.
"I want to ask you something..." Jian Chengxi hesitated, and Jiang Xiaozheng poked his ribs with his elbow, saying that there was something they could not ask or say.
"Do you know the alpha of my piece? Is it... for that kind of business?"
"I thought you were shy, but you are asking this," Jiang Xiaozheng said carelessly, but shook his head immediately, "Let me tell you about the internal market, as long as it is the kind of small advertisements, they all use pheromone camouflage beta. In this line of work, as long as you are o or a, even if you are ugly, you are in high demand. But they are all alpha or omega, and they will not be ugly, so the price will definitely not be cheap, the one you said The price is just like me... well, anyway, I definitely won't go for such a small amount of money."
Jian Chengxi nodded slowly, hummed, and didn't ask any more questions.He didn't feel too shocked. In fact, before Gao Xinye confessed, he also guessed that the other party's confusing identity must not be mb.It wasn't the first day he found out that he didn't know anything about this alpha. From the secret police to the noble son, he had thought about countless possibilities, but Cheng Qi had never been afraid of these possibilities. What did he have to be afraid of? He died. I'm not afraid, but I'm afraid that Gao Xinye has some conspiracy.
Besides, Gao Xinye didn't have any calculations, he was sincere to himself, the respect Jiang Xiaozheng got from Andre, Jian Chengqi also got it from Gao Xinye.
"Why hasn't he come these days," Jiang Xiaozheng asked, "When will he come again?"
"He shouldn't...I don't know." Jian Chengqi gave a vague answer, because he was not sure whether Gao Xinye would appear in his life again.Once in the middle of the night he heard Gao Xinye calling someone else, he was a light sleeper, so even though Gao Xinye's own voice was kept low, Jian Chengxi, a dissatisfied female voice on the other end of the phone, could hear clearly.Especially the phrase "Don't forget who you are", Jian Chengqi still remembers it to this day.He never took the initiative to call Gao Xinye, as if the other party never contacted him.Afterwards, he went to the Psychological Prevention Department to get some medicine. The doctor in charge said that the young people should take it easy and don't be impulsive. He also said that those who were rescued from suicide did not regret it. Listening to those indifferent words, he didn't have the slightest regret waves.
He was indeed breathing, blinking, walking and eating, but his vitality still hadn't returned.When he was most energetic was before he was imprisoned, he serialized a love novel called "It's the Moonlight and Roses" on the forum, but even during that time, he was very frustrated. Although he read it, he liked it. art history, but because he didn’t choose a better major for employment, his mother would sigh and worry for him every time he talked about his future in video calls. Not only that, after he differentiated into an omega, his mother didn’t care Whether he is happy or not, he often invites alphas who are about the same age to get to know him.Once Jian Chengqi couldn't take it anymore, after the blind date left, he lay on the table and cried uncontrollably, the more he cried, the more he couldn't understand, he was just so bad in the eyes of his parents, and he couldn't live without being attached to an alpha in the future.
The more he cried, the more depressed and breathless he became, and then he took out his mobile phone. If his state at that time was compared to drowning, then every word typed on the mobile phone was his life buoy.
He used No.1 to say that the "I" in the story also cried bitterly in the coffee shop because of the blind date, but unlike Jian Chengqi's loneliness, that "I" met Jiang Chong.In order to comfort this stranger who met by chance, Jiang Chong told "me" about the seven years between him and Zhang Shixi from meeting to breaking up.
Jian Chengqi had written this story before, but it hadn't been published. Jian Chengqi had written many unpublished stories, and he was the only one who had heard of it.Later, when Jian Chengqi was about to write, Zhang Shixi left without saying goodbye before Zhang Shixi went to find Jiang Chong. Jian Chengqi lost his only reader, so he stopped writing.Therefore, the version of this story serialized in the forum also stayed in Jiang Chong's departure and Zhang Shixi did not pursue it.
In the eyes of many readers, this must be unfinished, urging Jian Chengxi to write a reunion after a broken mirror.Jian Chengqi wrote an episode with tens of thousands of words, and the "I" in it once again witnessed the reunion of Zhang Shixi and Jiang Chong.Jiang Chong is also a lover, Zhang Shixi came to him three years later, and he agreed.At the end of the episode, Jiang Chong placed tens of thousands of roses outside Zhang Shixi's art gallery. "I" knew that the reason why they broke up three years ago was because Zhang Shixi was too obsessed with art and curation, so when "I" saw Jiang Chong moving flowers with the workers to prepare for this surprise, "I" smiled like the world Jiang Chong, the happiest person in the world, said, you really love him.
This episode is also included in the published physical book.Jian Chengxi can be considered a writer, and he is young, so the clubs in school wanted to recruit him into a group. He is not good at socializing, but he still joined Liu Jiaan's discussion group, and everything that happened after that was out of control. After he was released from prison, he also tried to create. Just a few days before he was about to commit suicide, he wrote some fragments without giving up, but realized that every word he wrote could not be published, and he fell into despair again.So he cut the palm of his hand with a knife, so that even if he had the desire to write, he couldn't even hold the pen, and he couldn't write.
Now he doesn't want to write, and likewise he doesn't commit suicide.He's back to normal, and his heart is cold like a body that resists sex.
Until he passed the store.
That day Jian Chengxi went to see the house, and he was about to get his first month's salary. He wanted to rent a better room so that the treasure could see the sun more often.Moreover, local cities and towns have also begun to rectify in order to obtain financial subsidies. Those irregular and cheap rental houses are the first to be affected. The landlord also notified Jian Chengxi a few days ago that he must move out next month, otherwise he will be fined if he is found living in the basement. money.Jian Chengqi is not picky either. Although the one-bedroom apartment is in the suburbs, it takes two hours to commute to work every day, but it has a big balcony, and the landlord allows him to keep pets. People agreed that when he paid his wages, he would come to rent.His life is becoming more and more normal, and his future is predictably ordinary and dull.
But when he passed the store on the way back and stood in front of the window facing the street, he suddenly thought of Gao Xinye.
His forehead was stuck to the cold glass, and his chest was also heaving violently.At that moment, he had the urge to burst into tears, as if he had suddenly come to life. When his numb heart was beating like a landslide and tsunami because of the exquisite amber that filled the window, he could no longer help and suppressed to vent that person. name.
He couldn't pretend that nothing happened.
He couldn't lie to himself, he had been thinking about Gao Xinye all the time.
Andre didn't show much surprise, took Jian Chengqi's ID card, and entered the code into the website.As an employer, he could see that Jian Chengxi had been in prison for three years, but his service location and crimes were concealed, so he smiled thoughtfully and asked, "Omega special prison?"
Jian Chengqi was silent.
"The same is true of Jiang Xiaozheng's information when I operated it. He mentioned this... special place to me. Don't be nervous, I'm just curious, because in my country, the omega prison was detaining people a few years ago. There are too few to merge with the beta prison, and other countries in the European Union also have this trend..." He shrugged and joked, "Maybe it's because we have too few people, and a country is not as big as your district."
As he spoke, the printer next to him also started working.When Jian Chengxi saw that it was a contract for a regular worker, he felt sorry for himself, saying that it was okay if it was just a temporary contract.Andre smiled nonchalantly, and said that if he minded the past mentioned in the file, he would not have given Jiang Xiaozheng all the studio keys.
"I have always been interested in the United States of America, and I have read some reports. Of course, they are made by foreign media. They, like me, cannot understand why the omega crime rate here is so high, and it is still increasing year by year. There is A reporter concluded provocatively that perhaps there is a story behind every omega that has been in a special prison."
Andre put a copy of the signed contract with two people's names in the folder, and handed it to Jian Chengqi.Jian Chengqi took it and licked his lips: "I don't have any stories worth mentioning."
"Don't be nervous," Andre still smiled, "I mean, if one day you want to talk, I'd be happy to listen."
"By the way, because you are an omega, so about the estrus holiday—"
"I don't need this." Jian Chengxi touched the place covered by the collar, and his Adam's apple moved, "I have undergone gland removal surgery, so there will be no estrus period."
Andre raised his eyebrows: "So the pheromone on your body is from that alpha?"
"……Um?"
"You may have been with him for a long time, but you didn't notice it. What is that poem called... Enter Lan Zhi's room, and you won't smell its fragrance for a long time," he said, "You still have a very faint rosin on your body .”
"But from now on, it will smell like ink and paint," he stood up, and casually patted Jian Chengxi on the shoulder.Through the clothes, Jian Chengqi could still feel the thickness of the palm, and the calluses on the fingertips were also obvious.Catching Jian Chengqi's doubts, Andre spread out his hands without hesitation, and showed him his palms, where there were still some fine wounds.
"With a carving knife," he said, "even now, I can inadvertently injure a finger or a hand."
This reason is very reasonable, and Jian Chengxi couldn't think of a more appropriate explanation.He touched his finger tentatively, then retracted quickly, and whispered sorry.
"What's there to apologize for? Do I look so vicious and easy to get angry?" Andre was quite helpless, "But your hands are really soft, and the pen will look good."
Jian Chengqi started working that day.The salary of the studio is not high, but there are not many tasks to be done. Before the arrival of the two print artists, Jian Chengxi needs to keep in touch with them by email, and convey various notices and matters of the Translation Art Festival organizer.
This art festival was specially organized by the East Fifth District in order to win a new round of funding from the Order Maintenance faction government. The theme is "Celebrating the [-]th Anniversary of the Promulgation of the Wei Xu Order".In the past few decades, the East Fifth District government did not fully obey the high-pressure orders of the central government because it wanted to maintain some independence. In addition, it is located in the eastern part of the coast, and the East Fifth District government has been independently carrying out economic and ecological restoration.
The people originally supported the district government's approach. After all, the commanders of the order maintenance faction were too strong. Although the economic recovery of the places under the direct jurisdiction of the commanders was rapid, the degree of freedom was lower than that of the fifth east district.But freedom cannot be eaten, especially in the past 20 years, the development of the East Fifth District has been stagnant. According to various official statistics, the East Fifth District is not only the most backward eastern region, but even the West One District has a tendency to catch up. The well-fed people gradually turned against each other and went to the gate of the government to hold banners and hold a sit-in and hunger strike. The protest two years ago was the biggest, which directly led to the resignation of the former district chief.The newly appointed district mayor has learned the previous lessons and has been moving closer to the order-keeping government. In order to win the financial policy support for a new round of reconstruction plan, he has carried out many activities in the region to praise the order-keeping government. This art festival is one of them.
Andre doesn't like this theme, but in order to make the art festival more international, the district government has relaxed the theme of foreign artists' entries. If they can use this art festival to open studios in East Fifth District, they can enjoy more Policy bonus.
"So Andre came here. He said that the other two partners are professors at the Art Institute of Lagoon, and they only come during the art festival. He himself is not well-known in Lagoon. The reason why this studio can run It seems that because the district government is in urgent need of foreign faces to enhance the internationality and openness of the art festival, it promised tax cuts and other benefits. People hear 'if you don't come, you won't come'..."
When Jiang Xiaozheng said this, he was having lunch with Jian Chengqi. They bought the cheapest bento from the convenience store and brought it back to the studio to eat.
It's lunch break now, and Andre took a nap upstairs as usual, so there were only the two of them in the studio, Jiang Xiaozheng took another mouthful as if he was starving, and said vaguely: "But I think he is modest Yes, there are a lot of his paintings in that album, I don’t think it loses to those two professors.”
Jian Chengqi didn't eat as anxiously as he did, and ate less, put down his chopsticks after picking up the rice, and asked, "When did you meet each other?"
"A month ago, I was..." Jiang Xiaozheng was originally beaming, but when it came to meeting Andre, his eyes gradually dimmed for some reason, and then he stuffed food into his mouth sullenly.Of course Jian Chengqi didn't force him, but just touched his back, in case he choked on eating too fast.
"You also know that I went in at the age of 14 and stayed in prison for five years. Apart from learning Latin from you, I have no culture. What else can I do after I go out? Can't even afford it."
The words that Andre heard from foreign media reports are not groundless, an omega is not forced to corner, and it is impossible for an omega to commit a crime.That alpha was Jiang Xiaozheng's stepfather. As long as he could remember, his father in law had been messing with him, and it got even worse after he split into an omega.Jiang Xiaozheng and Jian Chengqi said in prison that he can't bear it either, when Alpha entered his room for the first time and teased him with pheromones, he really wanted to bear it.
But his omega mother bumped into him.
That was his blood-related mother, he thought she would save himself, but she just covered her mouth and ran away.Fat is the warm-up of the estrus period. The three of them sat down to eat that day. He asked his mother for an inhibitor. alright.His mother lowered her head, her hands holding chopsticks shook violently, but she still submissively responded to Alpha, saying that inhibitors are not necessary, and that inhibitors are the business of those businessmen who use the banner of o rights, and the effect is not as good as advertised obvious.
But Jiang Xiaozheng couldn't bear it.He had already locked the door that night, but his alpha stepfather still came in. He was too arrogant to notice that Jiang Xiaozheng was holding a knife all the time. Later, Jiang Xiaozheng fell into the pool of blood that did not belong to him and gave the police At that time, he was 14 years old, and he was still protected by the juvenile law. He was sentenced to eight years because he surrendered himself, but he had already given up on himself in prison. He was not active, and later he learned a language from Jian Chengqi and had something to do, so he regained his fighting spirit.He went out a month earlier than Jian Chengqi, and his 19th birthday was spent outside the prison. He was also full of hope.
"But I don't know anything, I..." Jiang Xiaozheng sniffed, "East Fifth District used to patronize and flatter the central government, and didn't care about anything else. The prostitutes also turned a blind eye. I The resume is not clean, no bustard wants me, so I pick it up by myself. Once on the way back, I ran into an alpha I knew, and he insisted that I spend the night with him. Want to force it... You say that I have already done this, and talking about dignity is ridiculous, but I really didn't want to live at the time, and I couldn't resist anyway, I..."
"Then Andre happened to pass by and rescued me."
"I'm also cheap. I asked him for his contact information, and said he would fuck him for free when I recovered. He took pity on me and gave me a business card. I'll see the nationality on his business card—" Jiang Xiaozheng scratched His hair and eyes are bright, "You told me before that there are only 200 million people in this country, and because of the popularity of the common language, the number of people who use this language is only 80. I was afraid that he was using the international lingua franca and no longer used the national language, but he did not hesitate and responded to me in Latin. He said that I was the first person who could speak Latin when he came to the United States of America. He also asked I would like to work with him, so I came to this studio with him in a daze, and signed the contract in a daze, my God, I was really bored learning Latin from you in those two years, I never expected I can use it one day, and I can get a job because of it, I really thank you, Brother Jian, if you weren't willing to teach me, I would have died in some broken guesthouse."
"Really, when I opened my eyes this morning, I still thought I was dreaming. How could such a good thing happen. I will be twenty in two months. I have lived for 20 years, except for you, only Andre Respect me sincerely, and don't dislike me." He looked up at the ceiling, and across the wall, Andre was resting in the small room on the second floor.
"I don't even feel that I have any regrets. I have been respected and treated as a person. Really, even if I die now, I have no regrets."
"Don't die," Jian Chengqi said almost reflexively.
"I said it casually," Jiang Xiaozheng smiled cheerfully, "I'm only twenty, and I want to go to college now! Of course I will live well!"
"What about you?" He asked, "Tell me, we haven't seen each other for almost half a year, how are you doing?"
"Very good." Jian Chengqi thought for a while, "I stayed in the capital for the first two months, living in the former editor's house. The one who gave me books and came to see me every month, and then I left Now, come to East Fifth District..." He was silent, thinking that he just told Jiang Xiaozheng not to die, so he couldn't say that he has been muddled since he came to East Fifth District.
"And then, that alpha!" Jiang Xiaozheng obviously didn't notice Jian Chengqi's strangeness, but was more concerned about other things, "The first time we met, that alpha with super aura and handsome, he... Jiang Xiaozheng smiled happily, "Is he your boyfriend?"
"How is it possible." Jian Chengxi poked his forehead, "Have you read too many romance novels, but he—"
Jian Chengxi paused, because he didn't know Gao Xinye's identity.
"I want to ask you something..." Jian Chengxi hesitated, and Jiang Xiaozheng poked his ribs with his elbow, saying that there was something they could not ask or say.
"Do you know the alpha of my piece? Is it... for that kind of business?"
"I thought you were shy, but you are asking this," Jiang Xiaozheng said carelessly, but shook his head immediately, "Let me tell you about the internal market, as long as it is the kind of small advertisements, they all use pheromone camouflage beta. In this line of work, as long as you are o or a, even if you are ugly, you are in high demand. But they are all alpha or omega, and they will not be ugly, so the price will definitely not be cheap, the one you said The price is just like me... well, anyway, I definitely won't go for such a small amount of money."
Jian Chengxi nodded slowly, hummed, and didn't ask any more questions.He didn't feel too shocked. In fact, before Gao Xinye confessed, he also guessed that the other party's confusing identity must not be mb.It wasn't the first day he found out that he didn't know anything about this alpha. From the secret police to the noble son, he had thought about countless possibilities, but Cheng Qi had never been afraid of these possibilities. What did he have to be afraid of? He died. I'm not afraid, but I'm afraid that Gao Xinye has some conspiracy.
Besides, Gao Xinye didn't have any calculations, he was sincere to himself, the respect Jiang Xiaozheng got from Andre, Jian Chengqi also got it from Gao Xinye.
"Why hasn't he come these days," Jiang Xiaozheng asked, "When will he come again?"
"He shouldn't...I don't know." Jian Chengqi gave a vague answer, because he was not sure whether Gao Xinye would appear in his life again.Once in the middle of the night he heard Gao Xinye calling someone else, he was a light sleeper, so even though Gao Xinye's own voice was kept low, Jian Chengxi, a dissatisfied female voice on the other end of the phone, could hear clearly.Especially the phrase "Don't forget who you are", Jian Chengqi still remembers it to this day.He never took the initiative to call Gao Xinye, as if the other party never contacted him.Afterwards, he went to the Psychological Prevention Department to get some medicine. The doctor in charge said that the young people should take it easy and don't be impulsive. He also said that those who were rescued from suicide did not regret it. Listening to those indifferent words, he didn't have the slightest regret waves.
He was indeed breathing, blinking, walking and eating, but his vitality still hadn't returned.When he was most energetic was before he was imprisoned, he serialized a love novel called "It's the Moonlight and Roses" on the forum, but even during that time, he was very frustrated. Although he read it, he liked it. art history, but because he didn’t choose a better major for employment, his mother would sigh and worry for him every time he talked about his future in video calls. Not only that, after he differentiated into an omega, his mother didn’t care Whether he is happy or not, he often invites alphas who are about the same age to get to know him.Once Jian Chengqi couldn't take it anymore, after the blind date left, he lay on the table and cried uncontrollably, the more he cried, the more he couldn't understand, he was just so bad in the eyes of his parents, and he couldn't live without being attached to an alpha in the future.
The more he cried, the more depressed and breathless he became, and then he took out his mobile phone. If his state at that time was compared to drowning, then every word typed on the mobile phone was his life buoy.
He used No.1 to say that the "I" in the story also cried bitterly in the coffee shop because of the blind date, but unlike Jian Chengqi's loneliness, that "I" met Jiang Chong.In order to comfort this stranger who met by chance, Jiang Chong told "me" about the seven years between him and Zhang Shixi from meeting to breaking up.
Jian Chengqi had written this story before, but it hadn't been published. Jian Chengqi had written many unpublished stories, and he was the only one who had heard of it.Later, when Jian Chengqi was about to write, Zhang Shixi left without saying goodbye before Zhang Shixi went to find Jiang Chong. Jian Chengqi lost his only reader, so he stopped writing.Therefore, the version of this story serialized in the forum also stayed in Jiang Chong's departure and Zhang Shixi did not pursue it.
In the eyes of many readers, this must be unfinished, urging Jian Chengxi to write a reunion after a broken mirror.Jian Chengqi wrote an episode with tens of thousands of words, and the "I" in it once again witnessed the reunion of Zhang Shixi and Jiang Chong.Jiang Chong is also a lover, Zhang Shixi came to him three years later, and he agreed.At the end of the episode, Jiang Chong placed tens of thousands of roses outside Zhang Shixi's art gallery. "I" knew that the reason why they broke up three years ago was because Zhang Shixi was too obsessed with art and curation, so when "I" saw Jiang Chong moving flowers with the workers to prepare for this surprise, "I" smiled like the world Jiang Chong, the happiest person in the world, said, you really love him.
This episode is also included in the published physical book.Jian Chengxi can be considered a writer, and he is young, so the clubs in school wanted to recruit him into a group. He is not good at socializing, but he still joined Liu Jiaan's discussion group, and everything that happened after that was out of control. After he was released from prison, he also tried to create. Just a few days before he was about to commit suicide, he wrote some fragments without giving up, but realized that every word he wrote could not be published, and he fell into despair again.So he cut the palm of his hand with a knife, so that even if he had the desire to write, he couldn't even hold the pen, and he couldn't write.
Now he doesn't want to write, and likewise he doesn't commit suicide.He's back to normal, and his heart is cold like a body that resists sex.
Until he passed the store.
That day Jian Chengxi went to see the house, and he was about to get his first month's salary. He wanted to rent a better room so that the treasure could see the sun more often.Moreover, local cities and towns have also begun to rectify in order to obtain financial subsidies. Those irregular and cheap rental houses are the first to be affected. The landlord also notified Jian Chengxi a few days ago that he must move out next month, otherwise he will be fined if he is found living in the basement. money.Jian Chengqi is not picky either. Although the one-bedroom apartment is in the suburbs, it takes two hours to commute to work every day, but it has a big balcony, and the landlord allows him to keep pets. People agreed that when he paid his wages, he would come to rent.His life is becoming more and more normal, and his future is predictably ordinary and dull.
But when he passed the store on the way back and stood in front of the window facing the street, he suddenly thought of Gao Xinye.
His forehead was stuck to the cold glass, and his chest was also heaving violently.At that moment, he had the urge to burst into tears, as if he had suddenly come to life. When his numb heart was beating like a landslide and tsunami because of the exquisite amber that filled the window, he could no longer help and suppressed to vent that person. name.
He couldn't pretend that nothing happened.
He couldn't lie to himself, he had been thinking about Gao Xinye all the time.
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